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"Be happy for this moment. This moment is your life." - Omar Khayyam
Bella POV
Pain is inevitable in life everything worth having is worth being in pain for. The birth of a child is no different except for the fact that the pain made me feel like I was dying. Why would anyone do this more than one time?
17 hours of labor, copious amounts of pain medication, and lots of curse words later I have a 8 pound 4 ounce baby boy at 2:15 am on June 5. We named him Jackson (Jax) Charles Whitlock. Jasper and I had decided on his name very quickly. I cried like there was no tomorrow and told Jasper to not take his eyes off of the bright red screaming bundle in the nurses hands. Every book and blog I have read says there is pure joy when a child is born, euphoria filled love and honestly all I felt was relief. The pain and emotion of birth are over and now my son is here and I would love to go to sleep. Because my job is done for right now. Esme held my hand and dabbed my face with a cold rag which helped calm me down during of the worst sets of pain. When we are in our private hospital room and all of the medical attendants have left I get to sit in the quiet and look at this little human who I grew in my body and is perfect replica of his father. I am so in love, I didn't think that one little human so small could make me love him so much so fast.
"Isabella Whitlock I could not possibly love you more than I love you right now." Jasper says from a dark recess of my hospital room. I have been dozing between feedings and checks for the better park of a day. I smile at him as he comes closer to hand me Jax kissing me sweetly on the lips.
"I love you too Jasper you gave me this little guy and I couldn't be happier." I tell my handsome man.
As if Jax knew mama was contently basking in his father he started to cry Jasper laughed lightly backing away.
"Yes, son she is yours now papa has work that he needs to go do Uncle Alec is right outside the door." Jasper says and leans down to kiss Jax's head as he suckles on my breast he leans up and kisses me as well.
Three days after his birth we are released from the hospital which is a welcome but scary change as a first time mom I feel overwhelmed with the change. At home we quickly fall into an exhausting but satisfying routine. Jasper is still working a lot and that is expected Esme comes by almost daily but most of my life revolves around a little boy who changes daily.
"I love you." Jasper whispers against my hair as he cuddles in behind me and I let out a sigh of relief like I always do every night when he come home safe to me. He wraps his arm tightly around me and I feel him hard against me and after 4 weeks I cant wait to be with my husband again I miss him. I reach behind me and put my hand in his pajama pants that he is wearing sans underwear as always.
"Oh darlin your hand feels so good." He groans as I wrap my hand around his hard cock as his breath hitches. He slides his hand in my shorts and undies as my breath picks up.
"Can I touch you darlin I want to feel you too?" He asks while his hand is laying above my pelvic bone. I turn my head toward him and kiss him hard tightening my grip on him and pulling my hand from root till tip.
"God please I need to cum so bad, but just outside for now." He nods and slides his fingers between the lips hitting my clit making my whole body jerk. I want this so bad.
"Fuck Bella you are so wet for me. I wish I could fuck you right now make me cum darlin." I groan because what I would give for some penetration right now. We spend the next 20 or so minutes playing he has made me cum a few times and I cant take any more.
"Please fuck me Jasper please I need you so bad." I moan out grabbing at his underwear and pulling them down.
"Are you sure darlin I don't want to hurt you." He says with concern but his finger is now moving in and out of me and I am about to combust. He pulls away and rolls over on his back and I yank my panties and shorts off and climb on him.
"We don't have any protection. I don't care darlin I just want you to be sure. In leiu of an answer I slide down him and oh my stars he is huge inside of me. It feels like the first time all over again.
"Don't move or it will be all over." Jasper is holding onto my hips so hard I may have bruises tomorrow. I nod in answer because I am afraid to move I don't want it to hurt we sit there just like that for just a few minutes until Jasper lets go of my hips and instinct takes over for me and I rock forward. I moan out loudly because my body explodes into a million tiny sparks. I continue to rock back and forth loving the feel of Jasper deep inside me it is a delicious hurt.
"You feel amazing." Jasper growls in my ear and I can't do anything but sigh because he is correct it feels amazing.
"Do you hurt this morning darlin?" Jasper asks as he comes in Jax's room where I am sitting in the rocker feeding our son.
"A little but I wont bitch about it." I tell him rubbing Jax's head.
"Esme would like us to come over for dinner tonight?" Jasper says rubbing Jax's head as well looking at me and he has a smile on his handsome face. I smile up at him because I know what my husband is capable of I have seen the cold mask of mob boss but the love in his eyes when he looks at me makes me want to cry.
" I love you darlin more that I could ever tell you I cant believe this crazy life that we have. I could not do this without you beside me. And this gift that you have given me he is perfect."
" I love you too and normal is boring I like our crazy."
Epilogue
5 years later
"Jackson come on or you will be late for school." I yell out he is suppose to be getting his shoes on while I get the baby ready to take him to school.
" I am momma my shoe is hiding." He says and I hear Jasper laugh.
"I got him darlin." He says walking by the nursery.
We have 3 children Jax and Anna are Irish twins they are 11 months apart and they are a handful. Brandon is 6 months old now and our life is full. Jasper is still running the family and I am running the marketing department for the legit side. Jax is in a private catholic school and the other two go to daycare at the same school.
Life is busy between kids, school, work and the family but it is beautiful I had heard that after children everything changes for a married couple but it changed for the better for Jasper and I. Jasper has been busy as of late with something going on with the buys and Alec has been hovering his wife and daughter are staying at the house right now as well which is worrying but I know it will be taken care of.
"How is mommas handsome boy this morning? I pick Brandon up kissing his cherub cheeks and sit down in the rocker to top his belly off before we leave.
"You would think that after three kids and all this time you wouldn't still make me hard as a rock every time I look at you ." Jaspers deep voice says from the doorway where he is leaning against the facing arms crossed. I shake my head at him because some things never change.
"I tell you what, lets make a deal you take these guys to school and we can be late to work." Tell him with a wink. I want him as much as he wants me he has been working a lot.
"That sounds like a damn good bargain wife. I will be back in 20 or so." I pull Brandon off of my nipple and burp him. Jasper takes him and pats his back bouncing him lightly I pull my bra up and stand. Kissing the baby and going to find the other little people.
"Anna, Jax poppa is taking you to school today. Lets go I tell them." I say and they come running toward the door.
"Momma loves you both have a good day." I tell them and kiss their heads and they hug my legs.
"I will be back darlin be ready. I am not going to be a patient man." Jasper tells me and he kisses me and gets the kids going.
20 years later
" I am so glad that you will be my daughter today." I tell Eliza who is Alec's daughter they were set to be married since she was born really. I have known her since the day she was born and she is an amazing young lady. Jax and her have known since he was about 13 and she was 10.
Jasper will be turning over reigns in the next few years and we will get to relax and enjoy our grandkids when they arrive. Jasper and I have had a life time of sweet and suck we have 6 children but our youngest passed away hours after birth and I almost lost my life as well. We have had so many births and deaths in the family that it is hard to wrap my head around.
"You look beautiful young lady." Jasper says from the door.
"Thank you Poppa Jasper." Eliza says.
"Come on darlin it is time for us to take our place." I kiss Eliza's cheek and take my husbands elbow. I am crying big ugly tears because I can't believe our son is getting married today.
"Dance with me darlin'." Jasper says and holds his hand out for me.
Wrapping me in his arms we sway to the music and I lay my head against his chest.
"Isabella Whitlock, you have made my life worth living you gave me 6 beautiful children and 26 years of memories. This is what has made me get up everyday and fight so hard for our family. You are my world darlin and I will love you forever and then some." Jasper says lowering this head to kiss my hair. I wish I could answer him but I am to busy crying. He is right though this life our life is perfect for us anyway. No one has it all but damn have we come close and for me as long as I have him then everything will always be right.
AN: It took me moths to decide where to take this story. I was stuck and I mean stuck I didn't get the characters anymore etc. But I chose to end it here so this is it no more of these two. I have written another story that is complete and I will be posting. If you have been here from the beginning thank you so very much writing has been a great outlet for me. xoxo - B
