Just Making It

By CM

Disclaimer: I do not own these characters expect for the ones you have never hear of in your life. Or the songs either.

Chapter 7: Am I falling Again?

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Olivia needed to get out of the apartment for a while so she went to the lake. Olivia would come got to the lake whenever she just wanted or could get away. She picked up some crackers to feed to the ducks. She broke the crackers into smaller pieces for the baby ducks and gave a whole one to the bigger ones.

When she ran out of crackers, she walk over to the lake and tossed rocks in it. She found it fascinating that the flatter rocks would always bounce a couple of times before going into the water. She was mind her business tossing rocks when a guy walked up next to her and started trying to compete with her in tossing their rocks. When Olivia won and she was all out of rocks she smiled at the guy and walked away.

The guy quickly followed and began walking beside her. Olivia after all she had been through didn't trust anyone anymore and turned to guy. Being annoyed, she rolled her eyes asked, "Why are you following?"

The guy looked her in the eyes and instantly fell into them, "I…I'm sorry but you looks so familiar. Have we met before?"

'You have got to be kidding me' Olivia thought to herself with a smirk on her face and started to walk away.

"Whoa whoa wait!" The guy continued to follow her. He stepped in front of her so she wouldn't leave.

"Ughhh! What?" she asked angrily.

"I'm sorry it's just that I've seen you face before."

Olivia frowned at the guy before her and said, "Well, you must have me mistaken for someone else." With that Olivia walked away not turning back. She headed home. On her way there though, she say a car driving by slow and a flash of a camera through the window. She walked faster until she got home. She quickly ran up the steps, opened up the door and went in.

Before she could close the door she saw the saw guy from the lake in front of her. She gasped and yelled, "What are you stalking me now!? I told you I didn't know you!"

The guy looked at her and remembered, "OH! This is where I know you from." He turned and unlooked his apartment door and turned back to her. "Hello, neighbor." He said with a cheesy grin.

Olivia looks shock and stepped out of her apartment. "So you live here."

"Yeah, I do." He looked down at the ground then looked back up and said, "Well I guess I better get in now. Nice meeting you…" he trailed out hoping she'd fill in the blank at which she did.

"Olivia Benson."

"Wait, did you say Benson?"

Olivia cocked an eyebrow and confirmed, "Yeah, why?"

"Any relation to Professor Serena Benson?" he asked curiously

"As a matter of fact yeah."

"Wow this so cool. I'm living right across the hall from my teacher!" He looked at her and asked "Dude do you think you can get her to cut me some slack for our test Monday?"

Olivia smirked and answered "No" He was about to ask something else but Olivia just went on and answered it before he asked, "No, I'm not cheating for you either."

"Damn, well how about you over for pizza and a movie?"

Olivia smiled a little and answered, "Now that I'll think about considering."

He smiles and chuckle, "Sweet. So I'll see you around?"

"Sure why not…" she said wanting his name.

"Oh Patrick, Patrick O'Neil."

"Nice to meet you. Well I have to go now so I'll talk to you later."

"Goodnight Olivia." He said charmingly

"Goodnight Patrick." She said equally sexy and walked into the apartment shutting her door behind her.

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The next morning, Olivia decided to stay at home and clean up. She gathered all of the trash and went outside to put in the dumpster. On her way there she ran into to Patrick. He was the first to speak. "What's up?"

"Nothing much, just taking the trash out. What about you?" She asked, noticing he was dressed up casually.

"Oh, same here. I was thinking about going to a party tonight. You wanna come?"

Olivia got stiff a little when he asked her. She quick tried to think of a good excuse to tell him rather than her bad experiences with parties. "Ah um, nah, I can't. You know… my mom and everything. She'd kill me."

"Oh come on I've seen you sneaking out of the apartment at like 2 and 3 o'clock in the morning." He smiled and teased her. "Come on, one more time won't hurt will it?" He reached his hand out to caress her arm and she flinched back

"Look, I'm sorry. I just can't." She answered and rushed back up to her room, leaving him dumbfounded at the bottom of the stairs.

Once she was in she shut the door and sighed in relief. She felt kind of bad for leaving him down there confused, but she didn't think he would understand.

The day went by and eventually Olivia finished cleaning up. Jaysen called Olivia and asked if he could come over with his bother since his parents were out of town for their anniversary and she told him he could. Twenty minutes later Jaysen and his brother arrived. "Hey Liv."

"Hey Jay." Olivia smiled and bent down to the little boy and kissed his forehead. "Hey Charlie, how are you?"

The little boy grinned and blushed at her answered, "Good."

She smiled and rose back up. "You guys hungry? I got pizza"

"OOH pizza!" Charlie yelled then looked up at him older brother and asked, "Jay can I have some pizza?"

"Go for it squirt."

Charlie ran into the kitchen, sat down and ate his pizza. Olivia poured him some apple juice with it. She went into the living room and sat with Jaysen and talked for a while. At around 3 hours later Charlie had fallen asleep in Olivia's lap and Jaysen was getting tired too. He stood up and gathered Charlie in his arms. Olivia tried to encourage them to stay but he insisted on getting back home before his parents did. They said their goodbyes and Jaysen left with a sleeping child in his arms.

Olivia yawn and stretch looking at the clock noticing how much time had flown by and her mother still hadn't shown up home yet. She was tired of waiting and just as she was heading toward her room Olivia heard the door burst open and laughter from more persons than she expected. It was more than two or three. Olivia estimated about five or six voices she could hear. The loudest was the one of her mother. Olivia closed her eyes and shook her head but continued to walk into her room closing the door behind her. She knew not to come out of the room for the rest of the night.

Olivia got dressed and thought about sneaking out. She just stood there on the iron balcony and looked down at the people walking by on the sidewalk. She saw Patrick walking by and yelled, "Hey"

Patrick looked around trying to figure out where the voice was coming from. He frowned slightly and scratched his head still trying to figure it out. Olivia laughed at his stupidity and hinted out him. "Up here babe." When he finally looked up he smiled seeing Olivia standing there dressed up.

"Hello stranger," he yelled back. "You had me nervous for a minute there. I thought I was hearing voices in my head."

Olivia just laughed at him and asked, "Is the party over?"

"Ah, no actually I just came back to get some more music for the DJ." He smirked and asked, "You changed your mind?"

Olivia blushed slightly and said, "Yeah…you in a hurry?"

"Nah I'll wait for you." Olivia smiled and eased herself out of window and down the ladder.

She jumped down and walked over to him. She noticed his mouth was dropped open and he was staring at her. She smirked and raised her hand to his chin closing his mouth up. "Catching flies there hun."

He shook his head trying to clear his thoughts, "Oh sorry it's just that…wow"

"Wow what?" She could see and tell he was getting nervous. This was the first time.

"You're…so…Beautiful." He said looking deeply into her chocolate orbits.

Olivia blushed and casted her head down, fidgeting a little whispering, "Thanks."

Patrick tilt his head to the side, raised his hand up to lift her chin. "What's wrong? Hasn't anyone ever told you that before?"

"I don't remember." Olivia whispered. They were interrupted by an obviously angry drunken voice from above their heads.

"Olivia! Where the fuckin' hell do...hsk you think you're going?! Get your slut ass back up her before I-…I…" Olivia's mother didn't get a chance to finish that statement due to the fact that she passed out.

Olivia shook her he and rolled her eyes. She turned back to Patrick who was just standing there in awe from what just happened. When he finally tore his eyes away from the spot where his English professor had just been, he looked down at Olivia and asked with an arched brow, "Is she always like this on her day off?"

Olivia blushed deeply and said, "Let's just go to the party…unless you don't want me to go with you now-"

He cut Olivia off quickly, "Oh no no no, I want you to come. In fact…how about you stay with me for the rest of the night…I'm just not quite comfortable with you staying there. On my way up there I saw your mom go in with a group of guys…I thought it was a meeting or something-"

"Okay can we just go, now, please?" Olivia asked without sounding like she was begging.

Patrick took her hand in his and answered, "Sure."

As they walked, Patrick kept taking side glances at Olivia to make sure she was ok. He finally got the nerve to ask her his dying question, "Hey, Olivia?"

Olivia looked up at him and said, "Yes?"

Patrick stopped and turned to her and asked, "Is your mom an alcoholic or something?"

She looked at him and hissed in frustration, "Yes, okay?" She backed away from him and said, "If this is your way in trying to get rid of me find I'll go!" She started walking away until he gasped her hand and pulled her back to him.

"Olivia I said it once and I'll say it again I want you to come with me. So please stop I'm just trying to get to know you. And yes I'm still a bit freaked out about your mom, but not about me but for you. How do you think a person is suppose to react when they see their teacher who has a beautiful daughter in their house and her mother is bring men…not just one but five into the apartment? I don't know if you've had anyone to care about you but I do!" Patrick was just as shocked as Olivia was when he heard this slip from his mouth. "I-I'm sor-" he started but Olivia who seemed to be much more relaxed cut him off.

"No, I'm sorry. You're right. It's not fair for me to be taking this out on you. I'm sorry and thank you for caring so much." Olivia said with a soft sad smile.

"Anytime, also, Olivia?"

"Liv, you can call me Liv."

"Ok, Liv?" He asked continuing to walk with her until the finally got to the door of the party. "If you ever need anything at anytime, or place, don't hesitate to call me"

Olivia nodded with a slight blush and a smile. They both walked into the party and people immediately came up to Patrick and greeted him, mostly girls. Olivia didn't know why she felt a small twinge of jealousy when she saw them flirting with him. Looking at all of these college girls and their mature bodies had Olivia a little self-conscious about hers. That was until she felt Patrick pull his arms around her waist gentle and looked down at her, "And this here is Olivia."

Olivia expected them to be mean to her but to her surprise the other girls didn't, "Hey Olivia, I'm Megan" the first girl greeted sticking out her hand for Olivia to shake. "I'm Karen and this is Julie." She shook their hands also. "And I'm Melissa."

Olivia shook all of their hand and replied with a happy, "Pleased to meet you."

"You too, well you guys we're going to go party so we'll see you around." The girls walked away and began dancing.

Olivia began to get comfortable and wrapped her arm around Patrick's also. He felt this and looked down at the girl and smiled when he saw her dancing to the music a little. He pulled Olivia with him to the dance floor and they both began dancing with the other people around. After a while of dance Olivia was completely relaxed and having a good time. She even began showing off some of her moves and dancing with the other girls she had just met. The girls came to like Olivia very much and danced with her none stop.

The karaoke DJ opened up the stage for volunteers and request. And Patrick ran up to the stage and hope on it. The crowd roared with excitement. Olivia figured he was popular but she didn't know he was this popular.

Patrick raised his hand to settle the crowd and said through the mike, "Ok ok people thank you! Tell me guys, have you ever had this girl that you haven't known very long, but it seems like you've been friends for an eternity? Have you felt that you lived a life before this and you two were in together and you swear that you to were married? Well I'm about to sing this song to…a very special girl in here tonight." The music started.

Baby it's the way you make me
Kinda get me go crazy
Never wanna stop
It's gotta be you (uh huh, uh huh)

The crowd went crazy and Olivia and the girls were jumping up and down dancing. Olivia turned to the stage and made eye contact with Patrick giving him her best smile. It took Patrick will power not to just off the stage and grab her.

I can't control it anymore
I've never felt like this before
Mmm, you really make me lose my head
My hungry heart must be
fed (uh huh, uh huh)

Baby it's the way you make me
Kinda get me go crazy
Never wanna stop

It's gotta be you (uh huh, uh huh)
All the way
It's gotta be you (uh huh, uh huh)
Everyday
I promise you I will be true, yeah
It's only you

Now I know why I was born
You feel my feelings one by one
Can't see the world I'm
walking through
Cuz baby I see only you, oh yeah

Baby it's the way you make me
Kinda get me go crazy
Never wanna stop

Baby it's the way you make me
Kinda get me go crazy
Never wanna stop

And you know
I can't see the world
I'm walking through
Cuz of you, yeah...
It's gotta be you, all the way
All that I ever wanted
It's gotta be you, I
will be true, yeah
It's only you

Olivia was practically dying with laughter even after he finished the song. The crowd was still hype and going on cheering for him. Once again he calmed the crowd down but got a little serious this time. "I have one more song that I'm going to do tonight and again it's for a very beautiful girl who I'm going to ask would come up the to the front of the stage. Olivia's eyes widened and she froze up the other the four girls around her laughed and pushed her up to the front of the stage.

Patrick closed his eyes as the music begins to play and reopens then to look at Olivia. He sits down on stage, pulls her to him and starts to sing to her.

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

Olivia lets a small tear run down her cheek which he quickly wipes away with his thumb. He takes her hands in his and looks into her eyes again. He continues to sing to her while the crowd slow danced with their partners.

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I

At the end of the song Patrick took Olivia into his arms and kissed her forehead. After about a couple of minutes of hugging the walk out of the party and headed back home. Olivia turned to Patrick with a smile and a red nose looking so adorable that Patrick just wanted to hold her all night and tell her it was alright. "I had a really good time tonight. Thank you for taking me."

Patrick smiled back at her and said, "No problem, anytime you wanna get out just tell me and I'll be there." He wrapped his arm around her and they walk home. Olivia ended up staying with him for the night. Olivia and Patrick started making out a little but didn't want to rush things. She really liked him and didn't want to ruin something that could actually work out. Beside she did have school tomorrow so she needed her sleep and he had a test that he needed to study for. While she slept in his bed, Patrick stayed up studying until the sun rose.

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