Chapter 7-Girl Meets Doctors Appointment

The first doctors appointment is a big deal and I'm nervous to find out if I'm pregnant or not, I mean I took three home pregnancy tests that were all positive but it's a matter of fact that they can be wrong sometimes and I am still praying I'm not pregnant so finding out in this doctors appointment is the last chance I have to find out whether this is really happening because I'm trying to deny it. Josh and I both agreed to keep the baby and don't get me wrong I want a baby just not at this age, my mom will be right that when I have the baby I will never regret it, it's just a scary time right now considering everything could still fall apart, I'm pretty lucky that my parents are supporting me and so are my friends, Josh and the people I care about but there are so many problems Josh and I could face. Josh and I have both come to the reality that we're having a baby and even though we're going to have the baby and our lives are going to change we both do want to go back in time and change things so our lives can be normal, but we can't and we know we can't. There is a part of me that is happy though and it's the same with Josh, I mean I love Josh so I'm glad it's him that I'm having a baby with and plus babies are super cute so I think it will be really amazing to have a baby. Right now Josh and I are in the doctors room waiting for my doctor Becky, Becky has been my doctor since I was 11 she is 28 and we've gotten really close that we know a lot about each other, she is married and she has a kid so I know she can give me advice on having a baby since she's done it and she won't judge me. I am wearing a pair of dark blue ripped skinny jeans, a white knit sleeveless crop top, a grey knit cardigan hanging loosely around my shoulders and one side has fallen down revealing my shoulder and a pair of lace up high heels. My hair is straight and I have on black mascara, black eyeliner, my eyebrows, nude matte lipstick, concealer, bronzer and highlighter. Finishing off with a pair of big golden hoop earrings, my gold necklace with my name on, bracelets and my pandora princess ring. Josh I here with me because I asked him to come with me and he said he was coming with me anyway even if I didn't ask.

"Nervous?" Josh asks me stroking my hand snapping me out of my thoughts, right now we're stood up waiting for Becky to arrive.

"Yeah" I nod and he wraps his arms around my waist lightly as I wrap mine around his neck "I mean I know I'm pregnant because of the tests but I don't know I'm just kind of still hoping the tests were wrong" I say.

"I thought you wanted to keep the baby?" Josh asks me a little nervous as I move my hands to his chest.

"I do" I immediately say "I do want to keep the baby Josh of course, I just mean that we're both young and still in school and things could still fall apart, I know my mom will be right about once we have the baby we won't regret it and I love you and I'm glad it's with you I just wish things were different and we had a baby when we were older" I explain.

"Yeah I know what you mean, I want to keep the baby but I do wish the tests were wrong but we both know they won't be Maya and like you said I'm never going to regret you or this baby" Josh says I smile and lean up to kiss him "I love you" Josh says.

"I love you too" I say kissing him once more and he kisses my head.

"Hi Maya sorry to keep you both waiting...I'm Becky Maya's doctor" Becky says holding her hand out to Josh "I'm taking you're the boyfriend" She says.

"Yeah I'm Josh" He says shaking her hand.

"Take a seat on the bed Maya" Becky says, I sit on the bed and Josh stays stood up next to me holding my hand "When your mom called I thought I was hearing things when she told me" Becky says and I chuckle "First of all I know you took the tests and they came out positive but just to be sure I have to take some blood and we'll also check your blood for some viruses, the vaccines you've had and to check your blood sugar levels and things like that it's just standard so if we find something we can prevent both you and the baby" Becky says and I nod taking off my cardigan as she gets it ready to take blood "What symptoms have you had?" Becky asks.

"A lot of morning sickness, backache, being tired a lot and always hungry" I tell her.

"That's normal and the morning sickness is a bitch" Becky says making me laugh as she takes some blood.

"I thought you take ultrasounds rather than blood?" I ask Becky.

"Your mom said you're around two and a half weeks now and if we took an ultrasound there would be no sign of a baby because it's early stages so the first sign of a baby is around two months and even then they look like really small" Becky says and I nod "Are you two keeping the baby?" Becky asks and I nod "That's good trust me babies are a good thing even if you are only young and plus abortion at this age is very dangerous" Becky says.

"How long will it take for all the tests to do be done?" Josh asks.

"3 to 48 hours, it depends how busy they are but I'll make sure they get it done quick for you and I'll ring you but I'm sure they won't find any viruses or anything" Becky says after taking my blood she patches me up and then someone comes in to take the blood "So there are some things you need to know, I mean it's pretty obvious you're pregnant from the symptoms and all three tests it's unlikely they're wrong, but there are certain things you need to know such as eating and drinking, exercise, travelling and miscarriages" Becky says "So basically you're going to have to decide on whether you want the baby at home with a midwife or at a hospital, some people prefer having the baby at home because it's less stressful probably because it's home so it's familiar but I'd recommend the hospital because things can go wrong in pregnancy" Becky says.

"Probably be better to have the baby at the hospital babe" Josh says and I agree with him.

"Miscarriages is obviously losing the baby and this can happen in the first 23 weeks so after that it's smooth sailing really, but you can prevents that from happening eating healthy, don't smoke which you can't do in pregnancy and tay away from smoke if people are smoking because that can still affect it, keep stress levels down so that's your job" Becky says to Josh making me chuckle "And you need to know the signs of miscarriage but we give you loads of leaflets anyway" Becky says handing loads to me.

"By the time you read all them the nine months would have flown by" Josh says taking a look at some of them.

"If you go travelling so on a plane or in a car do it after 23 weeks so you're out of the miscarriage zone and when it gets closer to the due date if you go away stay close because babies can come early" Becky says and we nod "There are some environmental hazards to avoid for example lead and Maya I know you're an artist so you'll have to stay away from oil paints" She says and I nod.

"What about what she eats and drinks?" Josh asks...aw he's so caring.

"Obviously no smoking and I know you don't and also no drinking alcohol, small doses are fine but to be on the safe side just cut it out and that's the same with anything that has caffeine in it and fizzy drinks as well" Becky says "And stay away from unpasteurised milk and juice" Becky says "As for food don't eat any soft cheeses and they're all listed in there just stick to normal cheese, make sure meat and eggs are cooked properly because raw is not good for you anyway but dangerous when pregnant, stay away from all pate and with fish especially raw like sushi be careful but most fish you can eat, be careful with cold cure meats but pre packed meat is fine, you can eat peanuts and yes Maya you can eat peanut butter" Becky smirks well that's that question answered.

"Good because she's been eating a lot of that" Josh says and I nod.

"Yoghurts are fine and so is ice cream" Becky says.

"Good I ate a lot of ice cream, that was a hard week" I say and she nods understanding.

"Exercise but don't over exert yourself you are pregnant so maybe swimming, yoga and just walking, stay away from sports where you could fall" She says and I nod "Obviously you're going to grow around three months and I'll check your growth, from now to 28 weeks you'll visit me once a month to check everything, 28 to 36 weeks you'll visit every two weeks and if you give birth late then every week but you're due date will be in June" Becky says and I nod "You'll still have morning sickness and other symptoms such as backache and cravings, when you start growing I'd suggest wearing baggier clothes just because it's more comfy but you can wear tighter dresses if you go to dinner or something, you may have trouble sleeping especially when you grow because you'll have a bump, but stay away from jeans when you grow and heels you can still wear but your feet may hurt and wearing heels you could fall over and hurt the baby which is bad especially if 23 weeks haven't passed" Becky says "Try to be careful about falling in the first 23 weeks just in case" Becky says "Like I said keep her stress down it's bad for the baby and Maya it's normal to be moody and emotional when pregnant which means you'll have to deal with her being mad at you for no reason and her crying for no reason" Becky says.

"This should be fun" Josh says and I slap his chest lightly rolling my eyes.

"Oh and it's perfectly fine for you two to have sex whilst you're pregnant Maya it won't cause problems with the baby and because you're hormones will be much higher it's normal to crave sex" Becky says.

"I know you're smirking" I say to Josh without even looking at him.

"But sometimes you might just not be feeling it because you're pregnant" Becky says and I stick my tongue out at Josh making him roll his eyes "You've got all the leaflets and I call you when I get the results, and Maya you know to just call if you need any advice" Becky says.

"Thanks Becky" I say standing up and hugging her.

"No problem Maya and make sure you take care of her" Becky says to Josh who wraps his arm around me, I thank her again before Josh and I head out. Josh and I make our way to my apartment after the appointment, walking inside I see my parents are sat in the living room.

"Hey baby girl how'd it go?" Mom asks as Josh and I walk to the couch and sit down.

"It was fine Becky told me she'd ring in a few hours because she had to take blood and she gave me all of these" I say putting the leaflets down before cuddling into Josh and he kisses my head making me smile.

"You two realise you're going to have to make a lot of decisions right?" Mom asks.

"She's right" Josh says to me and I nod sighing and Josh kisses my head.

"Just not right now" I say.

"I should start making dinner, Josh do you want to stay for dinner?" Mom asks Josh.

"Thanks but I should get back to my apartment, Cory said my mom wants me to ring her so there will be a lot of shouting coming from her end" Josh chuckles.

"Better over the phone than in person" Shawn says and Josh nods.

"Do you have to go?" I ask Josh looking up at him and he leans down to kiss me softly making me smile.

"Yeah I should talk to my mom" Josh says I nod and I walk with him to the door opening and he walks out before turning to me and pulling me to him and he kisses me "I'll come by tomorrow and we can watch movies all day" Josh says.

"Perfect" I lean up to kiss him before hugging him tight.

"I love you" Josh says.

"Love you too" I say before we pull back and he kisses my head before leaving, I close the door and walk to my parents.

"Awe" Mom coos making me roll my eyes.

"That's not cute! That's evil!" Shawn says and I roll my eyes "Don't roll your eyes at me" He says and I cross my arms glaring at him "Or do whatever you want" He says and I nod.

"They're cute together and Josh take care of her it's sweet" Mom says.

"I'm going to go and take a shower" I tell them before walking into my bedroom and taking a shower. She's right there is a lot to think about school, money, where I'm going to live, the baby, what am I going to do?