I'm so sorry it took me so long to post! Normally I just sit down and write a chapter straight through but I didn't this time because I've been so busy. Please don't hold this against me. I'll keep writing this story no matter what.

Chapter 7

"Sam I'm fine!" This was the third or fourth time Dean had snapped at Sam. Dean didn't want people hovering over him anytime he got off the couch, he was perfectly able to walk to the kitchen without passing out, or so he thought.

"It was just a causal question, calm down." Sam was still worried about his brother, not because he was cranky but because he was acting like everything was fine. He wouldn't even acknowledge the events that happened in the past week. Sam had been waiting for Cas to come back so he could talk to him about Dean, but Cas had not shown up since Dean first woke up.

"I'm going to work on the car." Stated Dean, he was through with this bed rest crap, if he didn't do something he might actually go crazy.

"Ok. I'll keep looking into who is trying to kill you then." They had been compiling a list of everyone they thought might want Dean dead and it was a very long list. Sam was better at the computer stuff then Dean, so Sam had been in charge of looking into everyone, and if Cas ever showed back up he was suppose to help look into the people/Demons/monsters too.

Dean walked out the back door to his car. Sam and Bobby went back to North Carolina a day or two ago to get the car. Dean was not allowed to come, but felt at ease when he heard the engine pulling into the driveway. The car didn't need any real work done to it, just a clean up and polish so bring out the deep black shine Dean loved so much.

Dean climbed into the driver's seat and just sat there. Being alone in his car was so peaceful and it was a safe place for him. He knew everything about the car from how to wiggle the door handle to get it open, to when to shift gears to get the most out of the engine. Dean was relaxed for the first time since he got to Bobby's, he closed his eyes and just sat there.

"Dean" Dean jumped so high the felt the steering wheel dig into his thigh.

"Ahh" Dean let out part out of surprise part in pain from the steering wheel which dug into one of his cuts.

"What the hell Cas, you can't just do that. Where have you been, Sam's pretty pissed you haven't been back to help yet. "

" I have other task then to watch over the Winchesters."

"OK, Mr. Grumpy pants. Who peed in your cheerios."

"I don't eat Dean. I did not come here to discuss my eating habits with you."

" That's.. What… Nevermind, what do you want Cas"

" When I looked over you after Sam dragged you into Bobby's house I noticed some things off."

"I'm fine Cas, people need to just back off." Dean tried to be vague and stern but it wasn't working on the angel, Castiel just stared at him.

" Dean I was inside your head, I could feel your thoughts, your blood moving, your demons that haunt you. Dean you're not alright and you need to tell Sam the thoughts you have."

Dean looked back at the angel horrified, how much did he really know? Did he know how much Dean really hated himself? How he didn't sleep at night in the fear of waking Sammy up because of one of his nightmare?

" Like I said Cas, I'm fine"

"Dean I raised you from Hell I saw what you were going through, no one in their right mind would be fine."

"Well there's your answer, I'm not in my right mind." Dean said looking down at the steering wheel.

"Dean…" Castiel looked over at Dean with sadness all across his face, he didn't even try to hide it. Castiel had seen a lot of pain and misery in mankind, but nothing hurt like watching someone you cared about hate on themselves that it drove them into to not wanting to be anymore.

"No Cas. Sam doesn't need to carry my burden, it's mine and mine alone."

" This isn't over Dean when I get back we will continue this conversation. "

"What? Where are you going?" Dean asked but the angle was already gone. Finally some quite. Dean was worried what Cas might tell Sam, but he was so exhausted he dozed off before he could get too overworked.

-hope you enjoyed! hopefully I'll post sooner this time.