A/N: This chapter is all about our ladies reconnecting. Enjoy!
The next few days were a mixture of wonder and torture. Wonder because Maura got to spend time with her favorite person and her new favorite person, as the more she learned about Colin, the more she liked the young man who she was related to. Torture was of course because Jane was right in front of her throughout this time, looking so very sexy and edible, and Maura was not allowed to touch her in the way she wished. Jane had made it clear, in no uncertain terms, that they would not be having sex while Colin was around.
So, it was with both sadness and joy that Maura wished her brother goodbye three days later. They promised to keep in touch and Colin even said he would come visit them once they moved to DC. The reminder of their impending move had caused a storm cloud to settle over the couple, bringing up something that triggered both women back to their current reality. They had still not discussed the intricacies of the move and what it meant for Jane. All thoughts of sex suddenly went out the window.
That's why after they closed the door on Colin's loud motorcycle heading down their street, the two women moved slowly back to their living room, both deep in thought. Jane knew she needed to come clean about all her thoughts on her next steps. Maura knew she should probably tell Jane her newly developed desire to grow their family, biologically.
"So…" Jane started as she settled onto the couch, stretching her legs out. Maura was standing by the kitchen island, idly playing with various pieces of paper there, moving them around aimlessly.
"Yes, Jane," Maura replied guardedly, turning slightly to see her wife. Jane was looking at her with a blank look, something that was a rare occurrence since Jane transmitted her feelings across her face most of the time.
"You accepted the billet in DC, right?" At Maura's nod, Jane continued. "Okay, so when do you have to report?" Jane watched as Maura went back to idly playing with the paper.
"Two weeks," was the brisk reply. Maura didn't know why she was being so distant. Jane had already agreed to this. Maybe it was because, now that she realized she wanted to birth a child, the captain was rethinking her plan to try for admiral.
"Oh, cool, that's better than I thought," Jane said as she let out a breath. Maura's head swung to her, looking amazed at the sound of relief in her wife's voice.
"That's better?" The normally eloquent and verbose captain was really struggling with words at the moment. Jane smiled at her in a charming yet condescending way.
"Yeah, Maur, two weeks is better than one. I thought with me being gone this past week, we had used up some of our quality time." Jane crooked a finger at the captain, beckoning her over to where she was sprawled on the couch.
"Maur, come here. I don't like you being so far away," Jane pouted exaggeratedly. Maura shook her head at her wife's antics but pushed away from the island and made her way around the couch. She looked down expectantly at Jane when her spouse made no move to allow her room.
"Where am I supposed to sit?" Maura asked impatiently, hands on her hips. Jane just grinned up at her like the Cheshire Cat before holding her arms out wide. She then patted her chest, "here" before returning her arms out to her sides. Maura rolled her eyes but began to maneuver herself on top of her languid wife.
Maura let out a yelp when Jane pulled her down, their bodies colliding, before her strong aviator moved them both easily so that they were comfortably laying together on their couch. Maura laughed as she sunk into the feeling. Goddess, how she had missed this!
"Ok, Ice, this is what we're gonna to do. We're both going to say what our concerns are with this move, taking turns as we tell each other one at a time. We will talk each one out and discuss before moving on to the next. Then, when we've worked everything out, I'm going to take you back to our bedroom and spend the rest of the day making you cum so hard that you will forget all about the stress we just went through. Understood?" Jane was so casual yet forceful about her plan that Maura was already getting wet at the prospect of the last part.
"Can we reverse the order?" the captain practically begged. Jane snickered, kissing Maura's full lips before answering.
"Nope, you're the one that taught me to talk first, fuck later." Jane felt Maura tense up at her vulgarity and wasn't sure if it was in offense or due to arousal. She soon found out.
"Don't say fuck unless you are about to do it," came the pained response.
"Understood. Ready to process the shit out of this?" Jane asked cheekily. Maura tensed again against her.
"No cursing at all Mav, or we won't process anything but how long it takes me to make you cum." Jane was now the one who was on edge and realized once again that her wife would always give as good as she got.
"Yes, Ice. Now, shall we speak at length about our concerns regarding our impending relocation?" she asked formally, making sure to avoid any triggers for either of them. Maura giggled as she kissed Jane fully before replying, "ready."
R&I
The couple stayed in each others arms as they began one of the most important discussions of their lives, needing to feel as close to the other as they opened up and talked about their fears and vulnerabilities.
"Ok, since it was my suggestion, I'll go first. I am concerned that we will be separated for a few weeks before I can give my notice," Jane started. Maura twisted her head to look at her, clearly stunned by Jane's words.
"Your notice? What do you mean Jane?" Maura asked, face full of concern. Jane knew she was breaking her own rules by discussing two things at once instead of one at a time but she hadn't known how else to start.
"I've decided to retire as soon as I'm eligible. That's still a couple of months away. I may be able to use some of my accrued sick leave to shorten the time, but that still means that I won't be able to join you in DC for a few weeks and that worries me. You know how much I hate being away from you." Jane watched as Maura slowly processed everything she had just said, admittedly quite a lot of information. Maura's eyes darted back and forth as she thought over what Jane had laid out and then focused back to Jane's calming brown eyes.
"You are really ready to leave active duty, Jane? Are you sure? You love it!" Maura could not picture Jane without her flight suit on and her cocky grin as she performed her illegal flybys, wreaking havoc in the tower. Maverick is who Maura had fallen in love with. Would she still love Jane as much without that aspect of her life? Her doubts must have been written across her face because Jane reached up to run a finger over the frown lines that had formed across her beautiful brow.
"Stop thinking so hard, Ice. Yes, I'm sure. Yes, I'm ready. And I'll tell you why, but it's another thing so we need to address the two I just said so we can focus on one of yours," Jane said, trying to get them back on track. This really was role reversal day, Jane being the organized one and Maura being the passionate rule breaker.
"Fine," Maura acquiesced with the promise of getting more information shortly. "Well, you have kind of addressed one of my major concerns, which was what you would choose to do about your career. I did not want to feel like I was asking you to give up yours for the sake of mine. I know you are supportive, Jane, but I would never ask you to give up a dream for me." Maura felt moisture coming to her eyes, her emotions getting the better of her. Jane reached up and wiped at the corners lovingly.
"I know Maur, just like I would never ask you to do that for me either. I am so proud of you for having this opportunity. And I have a plan for what's next for me, I promise. I'm super excited about it too." Jane gave her captain a reassuring smile then and it served to settle a bit of Maura's uneasiness. Maura was dying to know what Jane was thinking about and Jane smiled at the obvious impatience that her captain was trying to hold back.
"Just ask me, Maur," Jane said through a chuckle, Maura practically wiggling with her desire to know what Jane wanted to do next with her life.
"Jane, what is this next chapter that you are so excited about?!" the captain practically shouted. Jane's chuckle turned into a snort and Maura silenced her with a very heated kiss, using her tongue to elicit a moan instead from her aviator.
"I could get use to this kind of torture for information," Jane rasped before trying to claim Maura's lips again. The captain resisted, wanting Jane to use her tongue for speech, not kisses, well not yet.
"Uh uh, Mav, no more kisses until you tell me." Maura fixed Jane with a hard look, leaving no room for negotiation. Jane felt her inner walls clench at the order. Now she was the one that wanted to skip all the talking and get to the sex part already! Only the thought of what she was about to reveal to her wife was enough to keep her from doing just that.
"I wanna have a baby," Jane whispered with her lips pressed against Maura's cheek. Jane felt Maura tense again and this time she knew it was in no way due to arousal.
R&I
Maura was reeling. Did Jane say what she thought she just said? No way were the two on the same page just like that! Jane couldn't possibly know Maura's inner desires that well, could she? Maverick had surprised her so many times over the years by seeming to read her mind. Maybe Jane could sense Maura's long hidden desire. The captain realized that she had been in her head for too long when Jane began to fidget, the smaller woman realizing that her poor aviator had been stewing in silence.
"Jane, that's fantastic!" Maura moved to kiss Jane hard. They both wanted to have a baby! Hopefully, Jane would be willing to wait until Maura had reached Admiral. It would only be a year or two before she would know. Surely Jane could find something to occupy her time in the meantime.
"Really Maur? You're really excited about me having a baby?" Jane asked incredulously, not believing her luck. That's when it hit Maura, the exact phrasing of Jane's statement. Her love had said that she wanted to have a baby. Now that was something Maura had never expected, Jane never having expressed to her that desire before.
"Oh, you, you, mean, you want to carry the child…" Maura sputtered out, trying not to sound disappointed. But was she really? It was possible for the couple to have more than one child. In fact, that had always been part of her plan when she had considered adopting, not wanting her child to have to grow up like she had, so isolated from their peers. Maura was starting to warm to the idea of Jane having a baby soon, and then she could carry their next child in a few years.
"Did you not want me to?" Jane's unsure tone and slight quiver brought Maura out of her own thoughts and returned her to the present where her big, strong, badass pilot was looking like a lost child. Oh dear, what had she done? Maura hated when Jane looked like this, especially when she was the cause. Time to do damage control.
"Oh, baby, of course I want you to, if that is what you want. You are going to make a fantastic mother, Jane." Maura kissed her wife reassuringly. "You just never mentioned it so I was thrown off, that's all. I will support you no matter what, my love." Jane looked appeased for a moment before her face fell slightly.
"Support me? Just a second ago you said it was fantastic. What changed?" Now it was Maura's turn to fidget, since the answer to that question would be very revealing for her.
She had not thought she would have to express her own desire to carry a child for much longer and here was Jane prying it out of her now. Maura took a steadying breath before letting go of her secret because if she couldn't tell Jane, then she would never be able to tell anyone.
"I want to have a baby too," Maura said softly. She looked up through her lashes to see Jane's shocked face. "I mean, I would like to carry a child too." Jane gaped at her a bit longer before slowly nodding her head.
"Okkkkkaaayy, I mean it's not like I have a monopoly on the baby making." Leave it to her aviator to be so flippant about something that Maura considered to be a closely held secret.
"Of course not Jane, but it has only recently become clear to me that having a biological child of my own is something that I would very much like to do." Jane was now smiling at her in that way she did that turned Maura's insides into mush.
"Aww, you're going to be soooo hot pregnant. I can't wait to-" Maura stopped her from uttering whatever perverted yet arousing thing she was about to say with a kiss. Jane tried to mutter out the rest of her sentence against Maura's lips, so Maura kissed her more thoroughly, effectively silencing all attempts to speak. Eventually, they both needed air and broke apart.
"Wow, what happened to no kissing until doing?" Jane asked breathlessly, clearly affected by Maura's talented mouth. The captain swelled with pride at that.
"If you have taught me anything, Mav, is that sometimes you have to break the rules," Maura cheekily responded. Jane barked out a laugh and hugged her closer.
"I'm glad I could rub off on you after all these years." Maura moaned loudly.
"No talk of rubbing either, we aren't done with our discussion," Maura groaned out, especially when Jane's hands started rubbing insistently at her back, moving lower and lower on their path to her backside.
"Sorry, Ice, but I'm done talking. I want rubbing and kissing and fucking now." Maura gasped as Jane took bother her cheeks into her strong hands and squeezed while moving her hips up against her. Yeah, Maura could get on board with that plan.
"Please, Mav, let's do that instead," Maura panted out before finding Jane's lips and capturing them in a sloppy kiss, her desire too great now to be precise.
"As you wish," were the last words Jane uttered before the couple descended down the rabbit hole of making up for the over ten days without making love.
A/N: Yay! They finally communicated and got to enjoy some quality time together. The next few chapters will cover their impending move and the start of their new lives in DC. And of course more sexy times and playful banter. Stay tuned!
