Jo was for sure that she wouldn't even have enough energy to even try and make it out of the hospital anymore. Her body ached so badly. Her mind ached so badly. But nothing compared to how hard her heart was breaking.

There were just so many doubts in life and as hard as she pushed herself from being that way in any shape or form today. She seemed to, be really doubting, her life again right now.

How was she ever going to have a normal life here in Seattle?

How was she ever going to have a normal career here at Grey-Sloan?

How was she ever going to have a normal thought here with Alex?

Of everything that she had been through today, she was the one feeling the worse for sure, and she couldn't help stop the look of his heart breaking face playing over and over again in her head.

When Alex had confronted her, the first time, before her freak out! He didn't have to say a word, which he didn't. And really, which she didn't either.

And it was because, in her heart, she truly knew that she loved him no matter what.

She loved him and as much pain as he had really brought on her that day, she knew she couldn't do the same to him.

That's why she stood there saying nothing just looking so deeply into his eyes.

She knew that as much as she wished, there was no way in hell that she would be able to take back this whole day. So now she just wished she could just take back that moment and let him finish what he had to say.

She had just been so scared the entire day. She had just been being pulled this way and that way and well, like she had been trying to do all day, she just needed some time to be alone. So when Alex started apologizing, oh so quickly, she did what her mind rationalized, and she ran like Hell.

She just didn't and couldn't comprehend everything that had actually gone wrong and well, it scared her.

She didn't really think that Alex would have chased after her, he hadn't been all day. So, why then? Why at that moment did he have to be there again?

She totally understood the expression in his eyes after she attacked, he was just so hurt, and she thought for sure it had to do with the fact that he thought she was crazy. And that he, most definitely, would not want to be around her anymore.

Just more confusion, in all this time, and all she just simply wanted was a little time.

She knew that there was no way she could possibly be mad at Alex forever because her heart just wouldn't simply allow it to.

But now, everything was all twisted again and she couldn't help but blame herself.

Obviously, she knew Alex wanted to talk to her and her to him. But she just didn't want anything else clouding her brain yet. She hadn't even officially handled everything with Peckwell.

Jo was just trying to figure it all out on her own so that she could become the strong, fully independent, woman she wanted to be.

So she sat there contemplating what to do, her head was still spinning, and she was doing everything she could to keep her stomach down, her nerves were just completely and utterly shot.

She was sure that as hard as she had just been trying to leave the hospital all day, she knew it wasn't a possibility, she was sure that she wouldn't actually be able to conger up the energy to move let alone deal with anything else. So she had to find a good place to hide, somewhere that no one would ever think to look for her.

And it was then that she knew exactly where she was going to go but she still had to get there without being seen.

So, she made her way up from her crouched form that was of all places just sitting there hiding in a linen closet. If she would of only knew that she would have been better off there then.

And so, Jo barely let her head peak out the door and saw that the coast was clear and so she tried making her way to where she knew she wanted to go.

All the while, she was trying to keep herself together the best that she could so that any passing byers would not possibly call her out.

There was no telling what she looked like.

And especially right now because, of course, the day was not over yet and so with Jo's luck, and it's oh so un-timely fashion, she now knew that her day was in fact about to get way worse.

And now she knew for sure that she had to look like death ran over.

That was in fact how she felt when she had cautiously rounded the corner to see Peckwell anxiously rounding another corner.

She had tried to turn and run away but he quickly caught up to her stopping her right in front of a nurses' station.

Good thing, she thought, because hopefully there wouldn't be too much confrontation with witnesses around.

Bringing her back to thinking about how she had just freaked out on Alex.

But at least, Peckwell hadn't just completely snuck up on her just then she told herself.

She was a bit more prepared and she thought maybe, she could just tell him what she had to say and that he would, maybe, just maybe, take it. And decide that he would, in fact, leave her alone.

But before she could get the chance to say anything Peckwell cut her off first.

"There you are Jo, you know I have been looking for you all day."

He was actually trying to be charming though instead of mad like she thought he would be for everything that had happened today. Especially with the rumors and all, who knew what to think anymore?

It all disgusted her.

And yet, he still went on trying to play prince charming, of course, thinking she wouldn't care about the evil disguise.

Jo could read through it all. Did Peckwell really think that she was really just going to forget about everything that he had done to her too. She only needed one guess though.

She thought about looking down to make sure that her name tag didn't say "welcome mat" but before she could Peckwell started talking again about how he had something for her.

She, for oh so many reasons, only obviously to her though, could have cared less and spoke up for herself by saying,

"Look Jason, I have had a long day and I really just want to be left alone and alone for good at that. I don't think you and I.."

And that's when he cut her off "Jo, I know you're playing around so whatever, come over here so I can give you your surprise."

Jo knew it had been a fat chance that Peckwell would take it well, considering how possessive he had become in just one day. But at least, she had said what she needed to say. He had been speaking in his fake way, pretending calmly, so she had talked back to him in her serious way, pretending calmly.

The last thing she wanted was confrontation but at least if there were, she had witnesses, so Jo was actually glad to be closing this part of her day,

Or so she thought.

Peckwell went to grab her by the arm and Jo pulled back instantly.

Peckwell, although an idiot, could actually tell by the fierceness in her eyes that she was, in fact, not playing around.

And only a second had went by before he had her pushed up against the nurses' station about to demand the that he knew the reason she had changed her mind and that he was not about to let her to.

As Jo looked around, she could not believe what she was seeing/telling herself. After doing nothing but being alone all day, the one time she thought/needed someone to be there, there was no one there at all.

"Damn her luck" she cursed.

All the nurses' were making rounds but she was sure someone would walk up at any minute.

But she hadn't got lucky yet, so Peckwell continued "Look at you, Jo, you're a mess! Obviously you're not thinking clearly. I know you have been talking to Alex haven't you? No, I know you have. I should have kicked his ass right then and there earlier when he was trying to talk to me. And haven't you heard all the rumors that Alex spread around about you, so you would never go back to him, I know. And well, I know because, you are mine and I will not have it any other way."

And then, it hit Jo like a ton of bricks and not that she even pretended now that she couldn't possibly feel any worse today, she did.

If there was one thing she had left at the moment it was enough common sense to know that Peckwell was an absolute idiot and that he had just told off on himself.

She replayed what he had just said over again in her head.

Alex "tried" talking to him earlier. Why would he be trying?

But she all of a sudden knew why! Everything she was reading in Alex's eyes' earlier before her freak out was really that he was sincerely sorry for his part but he just didn't know how to explain that it wasn't all him.

Especially, she thought, when Alex still didn't know the whole truth about Peckwell. Alex had to have thought she still liked him.

Peckwell had been playing mind games with both of them all day.

And that added in with what she and Alex and both been thinking or thinking they thought. She couldn't believe it.

"Oh yea she could" she damned it again.

But still, she kept putting the pieces together.

Alex was trying to make things right with Peckwell so that things would be right for her.

Then it hit her again! And that's exactly what he was doing on the elevator this morning too. He didn't want her to get hurt because he did, in fact, not know how she had truly felt.

And then, with little Ben earlier, Alex was probably just wanting to get her alone so that they could talk.

They were best friends for sake!

And then when he confronted her in the hallway, even though, he truly was sorry, he just didn't know how to explain it all because he looked to be the complete ass, all the while, everyone was probably thinking her and Peckwell were still happy together and they probably were still thinking that they were still happy together too..

And that's when she knew, Alex may have just let her secret slip up in an attempt to just say how he felt about her to Peckwell, so that they could all just go back to normal and continue to be friends.

She herself had been contemplating ways to do it all day.

Jo never told Alex that no one else knew about her past, so how would he have ever known. She was blaming herself now more than ever for not figuring it all out sooner.

She knew that Peckwell had been the one to start the actual "rumors" about her and she knew for certain when he put it out there the way he just did.

Jo knew, that Peckwell knew, that Alex knew, he was going to do whatever he had to do to still be her friend. It was that simple.

Peckwell then started the rumors so that he could blame it all on Alex, assuming that she would look for comfort in him and finally hate Alex.

"How had she been so blind?" Jo asked herself.

She knew what she saw in Alex's eyes' in the elevator this morning and then even a little while ago.

He loved her! He truly loved her! But all along was just confused and scared, of all the not knowing, just as was she.

They had both been misunderstood all day long, with everything that was going on around everywhere, and really this whole time, they just needed to sit down and talk with each other.

But then she thought to the previous situation moments before, she saw the look in Alex's eyes'. They were full of such hurt, he had to of thought for sure that she was indeed attacking him. How was she ever going to explain?

But then the thought made her start to feel sick again, very sick. He didn't chase after her again after that. He probably had finally figured out that she really was just crazy. And it had to make Alex assume that not only would she never forgive him for what he had done that now she had to assume he would never forgive her for what she had done.

He was surely embarrassed around all those people. They probably thought she was attacking him for all the bullshit that she had thought he'd still actually done.

She felt terrible but at least she had finally started to wrap herself around some of her own mind.

But she wasn't able to for long because Peckwell started pushing her harder into the edge of the nurses' station.

"No matter what you're thinking, just don't forget who is in control here and let me tell you, there is nothing I will not do to have control of you." he then barked

And then he started to drag her around to the other side of the nurses' station for who only knew what reason.

"Where were all the damn nurses' she asked herself?" And she still wanted to cause as little confrontation as possible. And she knew for sure now that Peckwell had some mental issues, not just jealously issues, or whatever she thought it was at first.

So she assumed that maybe if she played along for a few minutes that she would have a chance to just simply walk away and then she could tell someone about him, without her getting hurt, and especially so that no one else got hurt.

She believed now that anybody who sat their mind to something could most definitely do it. She had been through a lot, and thought of herself as half-crazy, or whatever. And she was working on her way to becoming a successful Doctor.

But Peckwell, he was actually mental, and yet still here he was too.

"What a World?" Jo thought and, of course, it was followed behind and "What a damn day?"

But all she knew is that she could not keep her secret quiet any longer. She did not want Peckwell operating on anyone ever.

So as Peckwell then lead her to the other side of the nurses' station she couldn't believe that he had the nerve of all things to try and give her a vase filled with flowers.

"Seriously," Jo thought but she reminded herself that she had to play along. She knew it would only be for a minute.

Or so she thought.

It was then, with a totally fake smile that she opened the card and the saw the words she read that her smile became seemingly not so fake at all to Peckwell because she simply just wasn't smiling at all anymore.

And that's when he could tell that she was, in fact, serious about not wanting to be with him anymore.

But yet he still took her reaction the wrong way, "It's because you've already slept with Alex." I knew it he said, taking her totally by surprise.

And also much to her surprise, it was at that moment, in the exactly wrong time, that a few nurses' and intern friends' of hers started to appear.

Yet Peckwell still continued screaming at her. She had just continued to hold the flowers so he wasn't physically touching her and was only just screaming,

"You're no virgin, Jo! You are nothing but a pathetic little liar. You know that you and Alex have been sleeping together, and even after he said all that crap about you that's why you want to go back to him, isn't it Jo?, because you're nothing but a little whore! A dumpster diving, trash eating, garbage disposing, little Bitch and after everything I've tried to do for you, this is how you repay me?"

Jo could not believe, well she could believe actually, how he had just turned things around on her like that and had ended up making her look like the fool in front of everyone that was currently staring.

This is not how this was supposed to go. She thought everyone would catch her and Peckwell and they would be on her side. But, of all moments, the one moment everyone chose to appear was the one moment that was nothing for Jo but her, so now expected and un-timely, bad luck.

She could tell what everyone was thinking by the look on their faces. After everything that had happened with Alex today, they probably thought Peckwell was still trying to be there for her. And had even got her flowers!

But Jo hoped they would soon assume she didn't want the damn things because when Peckwell reached forward to touch her, she had thought he was going to actually end up showing his true colors.

And although that's kind of what she needed at the moment, it still brought her back to the on-call room earlier and it scared her.

And what actually happened probably made the situation worse.

Peckwell had only been going to try and apologize and caress her to put on a better show for everyone but, of course, that's not what she had thought so when he moved forward at her, she panicked and dropped the vase of flowers' sending glass everywhere.

Now everyone was really staring at her. She didn't know what to say or do. "How could she explain all this", she asked herself.

Especially to all the people in front of her that had just watched it unfold.

None of them really mattered anyway she told herself but she figured for sure now, no one, was going to believe her after everything that had already been going on about her today.

She only really cared about one person believing her in particular anyway but if he heard this, then there would be no telling what Alex would think, she told herself.

"Yep, way worse" she reminded herself yet again.

But by crazy coincidence, the only advantage, to it all was that she could now get away from Peckwell without him stopping her because she knew he wasn't going to show his ass in front of everyone.

She had to get out of there and find Alex.

She had to do what she could to make him understand. She hoped he would help her get Peckwell out of not only this hospital but every hospital in the World.

Alex was her answer to everything and she knew it.

Jo's mind was rattling though and the days' events started to take to an even way more worse turn than she ever really could have expected out of the day because "this cannot be happening" is the last thing Jo told herself before falling unconscious and landing in the glass on the floor around her.

Everyone was making their way towards Jo when Peckwell decided that he would take control, "Just back up everybody, she needs a little breathing room." And that's when he did what everyone else thought was just the right thing to do. Peckwell scooped her up in his arms and announced he was taking her to the E.R.

Or so they all thought,

As they watched as Peckwell disappear around a corner with Jo.

Either they all had to be making circles around her or Jo really was just gone, Alex thought to himself. And so he was going to still do, just what he had to do, go and find her.

He went and grabbed a few things out of his locker and was making his way to leave when he heard Meredith shout his name from down the hallway.

"Hey, I told Brooks, Leah, or Shain to let me know if they saw Jo, and I well I was in the bathroom, like I usually am. But anyway, I just got a page from Leah and it said that Jo was at the nurses' station by Cardio right now.

"Right now?" he asked hurriedly.

"Well, it was 5 minutes ago but I'm pregnant Alex, I had to pee. You know she's still close. Come on, let's go now. Then she re-thought about it and so Meredith turned to him and said, well you run and you run your Alex fast now, don't worry I will be waddling behind you as fast as I can."

Alex thought that he might actually laugh as he was suddenly already coming up on the nurses' station in Cardio.

"And damn he really was fast" he thought quickly. He was just excited that he was actually, maybe, just maybe going to be able to not only find her, but finally see her!

But what Alex did not expect, even though, he knew he should have expected it because within the walls of Grey-Sloan, only the unexpected, ever happened.

And not only that, it was always when you were least expecting it because when he made it to the nurses' station, it was definitely not at all what he had expected.

Leah had been clueless about the entire situation of pretty much the entire day besides knowing the rumors that she heard.

So she walked up to Alex and simply stated,

"You will never believe what just happened here."

Note to Everyone: Okay, so I hope you all don't think I'm crazy. But I'm a single mom, who just moved into a new town, and I have no friends. Besides my kids, of course! But this is what I do when they go to bed. I know it's long and drawn out but I really do have a point that I'm trying/needing to make. I hope it's coming all out right. Let me know if y'all think it isn't. And, Thank You to everyone that is following and for the favorites. And especially to those of you who have commented. Y'all make me smile. And well, who doesn't like to smile? I've replied to everyone except the visitors and that's because it won't let me. Thank Y'all though! P.S. I'm already working on the next Chapter.