Chapter 7

Ally P.O.V

I woke up feeling surprisingly pleasant, considering I was worried that if I fell asleep I was going to be plagued by brutal nightmares and also because its a Monday. Well it wasn't all bad I guess, cause I wasn't really dreading school anymore like I used to because now I'm going to my dream school. Yesterday wasn't too bad either, to recap what happened, Austin took me to a cafe called Melody Diner, and it was nice and I had a good time too. He is an amazing guy, he just seems so different to anyone I have ever known before. The thought that was echoing in my head was…should I tell Austin about my past, I have told Trish so I guess he has as much right to know as well because he is a friend as well. Saying friend felt weird, why does it feel weird? Any way off topic, I think I should but at the same time, I'm worried he will freak out and leave me alone, all alone in regret and pain.

I will tell him just about my parents and the bullying but not about the self harming and suicide attempts because I think Austin hearing that would hurt him and if Austin's hurt that means it's hurting me. We are going to be writing more of the song at his apartment, and apparently his mum is going to be visiting and he has told me that he would love it if his mum meets me. That sounded to me like we were dating, but I guess not, maybe he just really wanted his mum to meet me because he thinks I'm special which im really not.

Anyway I have to get ready for school. I pull back the covers and get out of bed. I suddenly realized something all of a sudden, it did take me a long time to realize to be honest but I guess that's because when you have been in a dark hole for so long and you finally pull yourself up out of it you hardly notice you have because you're so used to the dark. My depression has been less present, I wonder why, I just feel less sad and alone, no idea why. I went and had some breakfast, shower and did my hair and makeup…and then medication.

I shoved my books into my bag and walked out of the door to see Trish standing beside the wall near my apartment door. I laughed. "It's like you're a ninja". She giggled at my comment. "That's so true". She walked over to me, flipping her bag on her shoulder. "Sooooo". OMG what was she doing to ask me, if it's about Austin I am going to flip, and just as I had predicted, she says. "What happened between you and Austin when I left"? Here we go. "Look Trish nothing happened, so please drop it". She did not look convinced. "Ally I don't want to annoy you but I can tell there is something beneath the surface between you two, and I know you don't want to feel it because you are afraid but I know he cares for you and he would never hurt you". How can she be saying this, she doesn't know how I feel, she has never been through this. "Trish you don't understand what I am going through ok, now please listen to me when I say, please drop it". She looked stunned. "I... I'm sorry Ally; I didn't mean to upset you". I didn't mean to get upset it's just I don't really like talking about my emotions. "I'm sorry Trish I didn't mean to get angry at you; it's just sometimes I have trouble talking about my emotions". She looked sympathetic. "It's okay Ally, now let's go to school". I laughed, but still felt slightly troubled inside, I feel so damn confused.

Trish P.O.V

I felt so bad that I kept on bringing up the whole Austin drama but at the same time, I really want her to be happy and open up her heart to him. She seemed pretty upset when I mentioned it, but I think Ally's right, I don't understand what she went through, but I still want to help her, but the problem is, will she let me help her. Sometimes you just need someone to throw you the ladder to climb to new heights.

Ally P.O.V

After school I was waiting outside my locker waiting for Austin. I didn't have to wait long when I saw Austin walking towards me with a smile on his face, I felt nervous. "Hey Ally, you ready". I smiled and nodded. "Yeap I am, I can't wait". He smiled a warm smile at me. "Cool let's go".

We walked outside to the student carpark to Austin's car, wow is this really happening. "Nice car". I said admiring his car. "Thanks, it was a present for my 19th".

"Wow you're parents must really love you". I wasn't meant to say that out loud. "Yeah they do but it was my mum who got it not my dad…he kind of left when I was three". I felt bad for him, but I kind of felt like saying well at least you have your mum and both of them are I don't know…alive. "I'm sorry Austin".

"It's alright, I don't really remember him, anyway hop in". He opened the door for me, Awwwww. "Thanks". I said sheepishly trying so hard not to blush but I failed. He smiled. "You're welcome Alls".

We arrived at Austin's apartment; it looked so grand and magnificent. "My mum will be inside so brace yourself ". He warned, I laughed. "Ok". I stepped into the apartment and we went up the elevator to his apartment room, all the while my heart beating a million miles an hour all the way up. "You okay Ally". He looked over at me in concern. "I'm fine thanks for asking". He smiled. "We're here". I had arrived at his level, walking towards his room, why is my heart beating so fast. He grabbed my shoulders, giving me the shock of my life; suddenly I had a flashback of when I was bullied." Is everything Ally, you seem agitated". Yeah I wonder why. "I'm fine, don't worry about me".

"Ok but if you're not just tell me ok".

"Ok

We walked into his apartment, and I was greeted by a tall woman with blond hair, well that's where he gets his blond hair from. "Ally I was wondering when I was going to meet you, I have heard so much about you". Oh really. "Muuummm". Austin whined. "Anyways why don't you two go next door and work on the song and I will call you when afternoon tea is ready".

"Ok thanks mum". I smiled at her. "It was nice meeting you". She smiled. "You too dear".

I walked into his room, and I was blown away by what I was looking at. Musical instruments littered his room, but unlike any teenager's room, his was neat and tidy, omg how. I ran up to his piano and started to play one of my mum's compositions, the only one I know off by heart. As I played, the memories start, flashbacks flooding in, as I play the last chord, a single tear slides down my cheek and lands on the keys. Austin sits beside me and looks at me. "Hey are you alright". He seemed concerned for me. I sniffed. "I'm fine, but I got tears on your piano". He chuckled. "You're the reason for the teardrops on my piano". He said trying to cheer me up, by trying to make a version of Taylor swifts' song. "Thanks for trying to cheer me up Austin". He moved closer to me, our shoulders brushing, it was just one touch but it was enough to send off a chain of butterflies. "I always will be here if you need cheering up Ally, and please be honest, is everything alright". I wiped my face with my sleeve. "Everything's fine, it's just that piece of music always gets to me". He looked at me in the eyes. "Is it personal".

"You could say that".

"Well if you ever want to talk about it, I'm here". He smiled.

"Thanks Austin". It was heartwarming to know that someone as well as Trish actually cared for my well being.

"Anyway Austin I have a few ideas for the song". I pulled out a few notes with my song ideas and place it on the piano. "Cool can I read them".

"I would be offended if you didn't". He laughed. "Wow these are really good Ally".

He starts to sing.

When you're on your own, drowning alone and you need a rope that can pull you in, someone will throw it.

And when you're afraid that you're gonna break, and you wanna feel strong again, someone will know it

"Wow this is really good". I smiled.

"I thought I would write it as a duet so we could both sing it at the end of year concert".

"That sounds amazing". He moved closer to me, I don't think it was intentional; he was looking at me with those deep hazel eyes, and they were looking right into my soul. "Ally…I".

Before he could finish his sentence, his mum yelled."Austin, Ally"! We awkwardly looked away from each other. "I guess my mother has afternoon tea ready". I laughed awkwardly. "Yeah".

"After you". I walked out the door, Austin following after me. His mother was sitting at the kitchen table, with cups of what looked like…hot chocolate. "Hey Ally come sit". I smiled and sat at the table, Austin sitting opposite me. "So Ally I heard you playing piano just then, it sounded really good". I smiled and blushed; I always blush when someone gives me compliments. "Thanks, it's one of my favourite pieces". She smiled and then looked at Austin. "She sounded good right Austin". He looked at me and smiled. "Yeah she's amazing". I tried to hide my blush as I smiled. Apparently his mother was playing match-maker with me and Austin; she kept looking at him and then me.

"So Ally where did you learn to play piano like that, you sound so talented". She said as she took a sip of her hot chocolate. "Well my aunt taught me, she had a passion of music just like me". She nodded. "That sounds so sweet Ally, and do you want to be a singer". I nodded. "That would be a dream come true". Then Austin chimed in to the conversation. "Ally also writes her own songs and music".

"Wow Ally you sound very talented, I can't wait to hear some, you're parents must be so proud". My heart stopped, that one word…that one word had a huge impact on me, I didn't know what to say, I felt like crying and throwing up, I felt a sharp pain in my chest, is this what missing someone feels like. "Ally are you alright dear". I heard Mimi say but all I could hear were the sounds of heart thumping in my chest, all I could hear was my mum and dad's voices in my ears. I got up from the table, I didn't want to talk about this now, not now "Sorry Mimi and Austin I do apologize but I have to leave, thanks for afternoon tea, Austin see you at school". Austin looked at me with worry and concern. "Ally whats wrong, is everything fine, you look like you're in shock".

I said im fine even though I was far from that. I walked to the door and opened it and left. I ran out of the apartment and headed straight for my apartment, I hope I don't run into Trish I really don't want to talk about this, not now. Tears threatened to burst from my eyes, I blinked them away, but how can you when the only way to make you feel better is to cry.

It took me 30 minutes to get to my apartment; I took the elevator up to my level, ignoring all the weird looks from people as I made my way up to my room. I crashed onto my bed and the tears I had tried so hard to hold in started to flow; I miss them so much it hurts. Why did they have to leave me, I had to write a song, it was the only way to get rid of the tugging pain in my heart.

You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms
I love the way you felt so strong

I never want you to leave
I want you to stay here holdin' me

I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here some how

My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm livin' out my dream
Oh, how I wish you could see
everything that's happening for me

I'm thinkin' back on the past
It's true the time is flyin' by too fast

I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here some how

My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you

I know you're in a better place yeah
But I wish that I could see your face, oh
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me

I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow

My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la

I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow

My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you...

Authors note –I don't own the songs

1 You can come to me by Ross Lynch and Laura Marano

2 I miss you by Miley Cyrus