I heard a knock on my door but I just ignored it and cried into my pillow. This was what I always wanted but why did it hurt so much. I always wanted Jake but now that I had him I couldn't be happy about it because of all of the lies that led us to where we are.
I heard the door click softly and my bed sagged slightly with someone's weight. I looked behind me and saw mom sitting there. She looked completely heartbroken but I couldn't feel sorry for her, she knew about this.
"Why did you think it would be a good idea to keep this a secret from me?" I asked, sitting up and pulling my knees to my chest.
She sighed and took my hand in hers. "Honey, we're new at this parenting stuff, your father and I. We didn't want you to feel locked into one thing; all of us wanted you to know that you could do anything, be anything that you wanted. Jake thought that if you knew about the Imprint you wouldn't grow as a person."
I nodded, I understood why they kept a secret from me but it didn't make it hurt any less. She kissed my forehead and walked back outside of my room. I felt my bed sag down again and let out a loud sigh.
"I get it mom, you want me to forgive Jake, but-" I stopped talking when I saw that it was Jake sitting on the corner of my bed. "Why are you in here? Didn't I leave you like twelve miles from here?"
"There's this magical new invention called walking. You should try it sometime, it gets you places," he said, giving me a crooked grin.
I didn't smile at him. "What do you want, Jake? I'm not really in the mood to talk right now, thanks to you. I need some time to heal."
His smile vanished and he took my hands in his. "Nessie, I'm so sorry that I kept a secret from you, but I thought that it was the best thing. I promise that I won't keep anymore secrets from you ever again. Please forgive me."
I took my hands out of his and let out a breath. I wanted to forgive him so much that it hurt but I couldn't just yet. He'd hurt me so bad I needed some time to sort out my feelings for him. But I couldn't fight this little voice in the back of my head telling me that he was mine. I liked that voice.
"Jake, I need some time. Can you give me that?" I asked, taking his face in my hands. "I need to think about everything."
He nodded and stood up. He kissed the top of my head and jumped out my window. I watched him run into the woods and I slid down my wall. I thought about the way his hands felt in mine and the way his face felt on my palms. I wanted to forgive him and I wanted to forgive him fast.
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It was the day of Winter Formal and Alice was flitting around like a little bee trying to get me ready for it. She painted my face and curled my hair before throwing me into a dress and shoving my feet into heels.
I hadn't talked to Jake for two weeks. I hadn't even saw him, I was about to go completely crazy and it was all my fault. I was too stubborn and I let my pride stand in the way of Jake and I being together. But I wasn't going to let it ruin my night; I was going to have a great night tonight.
I heard a car door slam outside and knew that Lex was here. Alice did the final touches on my makeup and ran out of the room. I heard my family doing the normal human thing. When I heard my father shout my name up the steps I started my descent down.
I caught the glances if everyone and a certain brown eyed look made me trip on the last step. Jasper caught me and put me on my feet.
"It's not very ladylike to focus on man when you're going out with another," Jasper whispered. "Just like your mother."
I heard my mother thump him in the back of the head and I started to laugh. I looked over and saw Lex, he looked crazy uncomfortable. I figured I would to if I walked into a house of vampires and my date's mate. Yeah, I have a complicated life.
"You look so beautiful, Ren," Lex said, placing the corsage on my wrist. "I'm crazy lucky to have you as my date tonight."
I heard Jacob let out a growl and I just rolled my eyes. "Thank you. Are you ready to go?"
He nodded and smiled at my family before walking outside with our arms linked. He opened my door for me and waited for me to get inside to shut the door. Once he got inside we were off to the Winter Formal.
When we got there I saw a lot of guys checking me out and I got really uncomfortable. Lex didn't seem to notice; he just wrapped his arm around my shoulders and walked into the gym. There were snowflakes strewn all across the gym and it looked kind of pretty, for a school gym anyways.
"I'm going to go find Carson and Alyssa," I said, pulling my arm out of his. "Will you go get us some punch?"
He nodded and kissed the top of my head. I squirmed slightly, it felt weird for anyone to do that other than Jake but I didn't say anything. I walked around until my eyes landed on Carson's red head next to Alyssa's blonde one. They were standing in the corner talking to Lucas.
"Hey you guys, are you having fun yet?" I asked throwing my arm around Lucas' arms. "You look like you're having a ball."
I heard Lucas suck in a breath but not say anything. I looked over at the girls and saw them gawking at me. I cocked my head to the side and waited said, "What are you looking at? Is there something on my face?" Carson quickly backpedaled "No! You just like really pretty. Did Alice do your make up and hair? Because she did an amazing job on it." I smiled and nodded. Then Alyssa spoke up, "It looks like Lex is looking for you, so you better go find him. He looks kind of anxious."
I nodded and walked over to him. As soon as he spotted me he placed his hand on the small of my back and whispered tersely, "Where have you been? I've looked every where for you. You're my date and you should be with me."
There were little alarms going off in my head about his possessiveness. I wasn't into being told what to do; I was insanely pigheaded about a lot of things. Thinking this I pulled him into the hallway and into a secluded corner.
"What's wrong with you? I'm not your property," I said, anger seething out of me. "I told you where I was going, it's not like I was hiding from you or anything."
His nostrils flared and I saw his eyes harden in anger. Before I knew it he drew back and backhanded me across the face. I felt my eyes start to water and my nose start bleeding. I usually didn't register pain so I was confused.
"That's a little message from the Volturi; don't forget about the promise your parents made," he spat at me before returning to the dance.
I whimpered and pulled out my phone. It rang twice before I heard a hello from the other side. I whimpered again before I said, "Jake, I need you to come pick me up."
I know Reneesme is supposed to be bulletproof and stuff but I wanted to make her more vulnerable. So I'm sorry for any out of character-ness.
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