Disclamier: I dont own anything, i wish i did, SM owns it all.

Warning: This chapters contains things that may be disturbing to some.

Song for this chapter : Nothing else matters by Metallica

So close no matter how far

Couldent be much more from the heart

Forever trusting who we are

And nothing else matters.


I awoke the next morning with a smile on my face…Did last night actually happen? Looking to my left I saw the picture of Jake and I on the beach and realized, Nope not a dream. Jake definitely told me he loved me and I definitely realized I loved him too.

Now I had to tell Edward.

I sat up in bed and put my hand thru my hair. How was I going to do this, I loved Edward, I did and I didn't want to hurt him. But I had to be honest with him…I had to tell him I loved Jake and wanted to be with Jake.

So I climbed out of bed and grabbed some Jean's, a t-shirt, and went to take a shower. After my shower I got dressed, threw on the converse sneakers Jake bought me for my birthday, and Jake's old Quileute Tribal High School hoodie with the howling wolf in the center that I stole from him last winter and bounced down the stairs to the kitchen.

"Well someone's in a good mood this morning, what, or who is the cause of all this?" Charlie asked, smiling and holding back a laugh.

"Well I'd tell you but that would ruin the surprise so how 'bout this, I go do what I have to do, and when im done doing that, I'll tell you okay dad?"

"Fair enough, well I'm headed out, I'll be home in time for dinner, call me at the station and let me know if you'll be here or not ok kid?"

"Sure, sure dad, be careful."

"Always am." And with that he left for work and I swallowed down a half cup of coffee and a pop-tart, grabbed my eyes off the hook by the door and ran out to my truck.

I had to get this over with, and the sooner the better so with that thought I started up my truck and took off in the direction of the Cullen's house. The whole drive I was contemplating ways of telling Edward. It killed me to have to hurt him but there was no easy way to tell him without hurting him. I just couldn't be with him knowing I was in love with Jake. It wasn't fair to him and it sure as hell wasn't fair to Jake. I finally came to the conclusion that there was no easy way to tell him and I was going to let it all come out however it will.

Shortly after my mental argument with myself I pulled into the Cullen driveway. The house was huge, something out of a book. One side of the house was like a huge bay window. Nothing but glass, Edwards room being one of the rooms on that side, and when I looked up I could see him pacing around his room. What was he doing I thought. Something was off about him today. I've never seen him that involved in thought before, but it didn't stop me from what I was here to do.

I noticed first that there were no other cars in the drive except my truck and Edward's Volvo. This too I thought wasn't normal, someone was always home. But I didn't put much thought into and walked up the stairs and rang the bell. A few short minutes later I was greeted by a dazzling smile that could only belong to Edward. He reached out for my hand taking it and pulling me into the house, shutting the door behind me.

"Bella, what a nice surprise, what brings you hear today?" He asked, still holding my hand in his.

"Edward, umm, we need to talk" I told him, slowly pulling my hand away from his.

Two things should have tipped me off that something wasn't right about him at that moment. One being how stiff he got and two being him not taking his eyes off his hand. The same hand that held mine a few seconds ago. He was staring at it like someone just set it on fire. But I ignored it and went and sat on the couch, hoping he'd follow me. He did. But he wouldn't sit down. He just stood at the end of the couch and looked at me.

"Edward, I need to tell you something but before I do, I want you to understand one thing. I love you. And I always will love you." I told him.

"As I love you, but what does that have to do with what you want to tell me Bella?"

"I love you Edward, but my heart doesn't belong to you anymore, at least not all of it. A big part of it belongs to someone else." As soon as the words were out of my mouth I wished I could suck them back in. You could visibly see the difference in him. He looked pissed. He kept looking at the hoodie I had one. If he knew who I was talking about, he didn't make it known.

"Who?" was all he said.

"Jacob." I told him without hesitation. "I'm in love with Jake and I want nothing more then to be with him…I didn't realize it sooner, I just figured it out last night, but I do Edward I really do, I love Jake, and if you love me like you say you do you'll let me go." I pleaded with him.

"Edward?" He didn't say anything, Just kept staring at my shirt. I had a knot of fear building in my stomach. I just wanted to get this over with and go find Jake.

"What did you say?" He asked me.

"I said…I'm in love with Jacob and…"Before I could get anything else out, Edward cut me off with a hit to my face. It was like everything was in slow motion. One minute he's standing 6 feet from me the next he's swinging his arm back and punching me in my face.

I put my hand up to my face where he hit me. I could feel it throbbing. I slowly turned to look at him with tears running down my face.

"What the fuck is your problem?" I screamed at him. Next thing I knew I was against the wall with his hands around my throat. I tried to smack him off, I tried prying his hands off of me, nothing was working. I couldn't breathe. I could feel the blood pounding in my skull.

"My problem…MY PROBLEM…My problem, BELLA, is that you seem to think that you can just leave me and do whatever you want. It doesn't WORK that way Bella. What I say goes. And what I say is that you don't love Jake. You love me. And that you will be with me, you belong to me and no one will change that. Now…I want you to listen to what im going to say, understand?" He said. I tried to tell him yes, anything so he'd let me down but I couldn't get the words out. I felt like I was going to pass out from not being able to breathe. So I shook my head yes, tears still streaming down my face. When I did this he let up a little bit and I could breathe again, barely, but he didn't let me down.

"Good, now im going to give you a ride back to your place. Your going to pack some things. We're leaving. You will see it's me you want to be with not him. And if you refuse to do as I say, I will kill you, and I will kill Jacob. And if you try running, if you tell him anything, I'll kill him anyway just so he's out of the way. Do you understand me?" He was so close I could feel his breathe on my face. The look in his eyes was terrifying. I didn't know if he would actually do any of that, but he damn near killed me just now so I wasn't taking any chances of him going after Jake. I couldn't live with myself if anything happened to him so I did the only thing I thought I could do. I agreed. When he felt that I wouldn't fight he let me down. My hands instantly went to my neck. I was coughing and sputtering and couldn't catch my breath. I was on my hands and knees on the floor trying to breathe. When I finally was able to get some air in, I looked up at him and asked him once question.

"Why are you doing this?" I cried.

"Because, you belong to me. And im not letting you go. Now lets go and get this over with the sooner we leave this place behind the better. GET UP!" He screamed at me, pulling me up off the floor by my hair. He dragged me out of the house and into his car. The whole drive to my house I was trying to think of ways to get a hold of Jake and tell him what was going on but there was no way I could do that without Edward finding out and I didn't want to risk Jacob's safety for anything.

When he pulled up to my house he cut the engine, walked around to the passengers side, opened the door and pulled me out of the car by my arm.

"You have 10 minutes to gather as much as you can, then were leaving, ready or not." He told me and I walked into the house, rushed to my room and grabbed my gym bag and started throwing anything I could into it. When I reached my dresser I saw my cell sitting on top. I had a missed call. I looked over my shoulder to see if Edward was there and he wasn't so I looked out the window and he was still leaning against the side of the car waiting for me.

When I checked to see who called me, my phone started to ring, The caller ID said Jake. At that moment I didn't care what Edward said, I had to talk to him, I had to hear his voice.

"Hello?" I rasped out.

"Bells, is that you, you sound horrible, what's wrong with your voice?" He asked.

I cleared my throat the best I could.

"Just a cold or something I don't know, listen I need to tell you something and I don't know how to say it but I hope in the end you'll forgive me for what I have to do."

"What are you talking about Bella, you don't sound like yourself." I forgot how much he knew me.

"Edwards leaving town, and im…I'm sorry Jake, but I have to go with him" and with that I hung up. I didn't wait for a response, I couldn't bear to hurt him. It tore me up. I clutched my phone to my chest and started sobbing, my knees hitting the floor, I didn't want to leave him but I didn't want to see him dead because of me either.

A few minutes later I felt my phone vibrate. Jacob Calling. I silenced it and turned it off. Putting it in the bottom of my bag with the picture of Jake and I from my nightstand, I threw whatever clothing I could fit into my bag and made my way back outside.

"What took you so long." He asked, looking extremely pissed. I ignored him and got into the car, slamming the door. If he was going to force me to leave here against my will, I wasn't going to be pleasant about it.

He opened the drivers side and got in. He grabbed my face and made me look at him.

"Are you going to fight me Bella, are you going to be difficult about this?" He asked me, squeezing my face harder.

"NO Edward im not, now start driving and leave me alone or we'll never get out of here." I snapped at him, and he let go and focused his attention on leaving Forks, and Jacob behind us.

The love I had for him, for Edward, completely died that day. I hated him. He didn't love me. You don't do this to someone you love. He just wanted to own me. But I wasn't going to give in. I would find a way away from him, no matter how long it took, and back to Jake.

Oh Jake. I just wanted to run to him, right into his arms, and never look back. I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes but I fought them back. I didn't want Edward to see me cry over Jake. It would just end in more pain. So I kept them in. We drove fro what felt like hours until finally he pulled into a motel parking lot.

"were staying here tonight, we'll head back out in the morning, are you hungry" He asked, and it almost sounded like he cared. But I just shook my head no and followed him into the lobby. We rented a room with a king sized bed and settled in for the night. I changed into my pajamas and crawled into bed as far from him as I could, and when I knew he was asleep, I finally cried. The whole time thinking "I love you Jake" over and over in my head in hopes that somehow, someway, he would know I was thinking about him. And after what felt like house of crying, I finally succumbed to sleep.


A/N: There, now you have a little insight to what happened that day. Next chapter will be back to present time and from Jake's POV.

Do me a favor? Click that little review button and tell me what you would like to see from Edward in the next chapter, I have a few ideas, that don't include him showing himself just yet, but I wanna know what you would like.

Again, special thanks to Pooks79 for being such a loyal reviewer. :P

3 Tabberss