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If it Hadn't been for love
'Love hurts you,
deserts you,
But we still come back for more
Why do we fall?'
Stopping the Noise
Liv sat in the bath tub, her pruned toe turning the hot tap on and off, a glass of red in her hand.
When she came back to Kozik's she realised the house was all locked up but thankfully he still kept the spare on the ledge of the door frame. She was pleased that he wasn't home because right now she needed the head space. She tried to think at the cemetery but every time she tried to rationalise things she'd look up and see her name Mia Gabriella Loman andall the hate and blame that had caused her to run in the first place came rushing back to the surface.
Letting her bag slide off her shoulder she walked around the couch and lay down. She was enjoying the quiet until Kozik walked through the door an hour and a half later. To say he was a little shocked to see her was an understatement. But she simply told him that a girl was aloud to change her mind.
She tried her best to ignore him, even busied herself with the dishes but he was consistent and finally she relented and told him what was bothering her.
"I talked to Happy today." She said as she wiped her hand on the towel. Turning to look at him.
"Well that would explain Happy's mood when he came back to the clubhouse to speak to Tally."
"Why did he want to talk with Tally?" Kozik shrugged.
"Don't know. So how did it go between you two?"
"I don't know." She answered sighing deeply. "Good I guess."
"You guess. Either it went well sweetheart or it didn't." Liv turned back around and stared out of the window above the sink.
"He say something to you." He placed his hand on her shoulder. "He threaten you?" Liv turned around abruptly making his hand fall from her shoulder.
"No. Why do you keep saying things like that?"
"He's not the same guy from 9 years ago."
"I know...I know all this Koz I don't need reminding."
"Sorry, I just worry."
"I know."
"So?"
"He asked me if I was going to be around for a bit."
"Well that's good right?" Liv shrugged.
After that she quickly changed the subject and was glad when he didn't try and push her. But she quickly realised that he wasn't just doing that for her it seemed he had somewhere he had to be. When she asked him his answer only gave her more to think about.
Placing her glass on the side of the bath she closed her eyes and let her body slide beneath the water.
As she lay there the noises in her head dissapeared. No longer was she going over and picking holes in her conversation with Happy, or relieveing the moment when he had kissed her or how he smiled at her. She was no longer dwelling on the fact maybe to much time had passed, that they has missed out on so much of eachothers lives, or the implications all this would have on Tyler and Darby. No for the first time in a long time her head was silent and she liked it.
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By the time Happy arrived at the clubhouse the party was in full swing. Parking his bike in the line up, he made his way through the people to the even busier clubhouse.
Muscling his was through the crowd, sparing a few slaps on the back and handshakes for his brothers, he headed to the bar where he saw Donut sitting with Clay, Jax and Lorca. Donut wasn't exactly har to miss, he was about 6'5 and built like house, and juding but the way his black shirt was almost bursting at the seams his time inside had been spent working out. Coming up behind him Happy clamped both his hands on Donut's shoulders. He spun around in shock before embracing his brother into a hug.
"Good to see you brotha." Happy said slapping him on the back before pulling away. He nodded to the others.
"Sweetheart another round and one for the killah." Donut bellowed to the sweetbutt who was working the bar. "Although I'm not sure you deserve one. Considering you bailed on me." He remarked turning back to face Happy.
"Had some business to attend to."
"Business or pleasure, maybe a little lady?" Jax asked cocking an eyebrow, suddenly feeling a little confident after several shots. Happy just looked at him, his face hard.
Donut watched the tension build between the two brothers. Donut knew full well that when it came to Happy and women you had to tred very carefully, But then he remembered that this was Jax Teller of Samcro he had no idea about Liv, who she was. The whole of the Taomca charter who had been around at the time had made sure of that.
"Well if it was a woman then I can forgive ya as long as the pussy was good." Donut joked, but his laughs were also met with a glare from Happy. Happy reached passed him and grabbed his shot downing it in one.
"It was business." He told them aggressively. As he turned away from the group he spotted Kozik, Chibs and Lip standing at the other end of the bar. He also noticed the blonde sweetbutt under Kozik's arm. This was it Happy was done. "Enjoy it brother." He shouted over his shoulder to Donut.
"Where you going Killah?"
"Ring."
Again Happy moved through the crowd until he reached Kozik. "Hey."
When Kozik turned around Happy got a better look at the girl and he realised that it was the same sweetbutt that he'd bedded last night. He could see the finger marks, his finger marks on her wrists and throat. Happy swallowed hard when he locked eyes with the scared girl.
"Hey, man." Happy pulled himself out of his thoughts and placed his attention back onto his brother.
"You, me, ring now." Kozik didn't even try and argue, he knew from the moment Happy had confronted him about Liv when he'd arrived at Tacoma that it was going to end up like this.
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As they prepared themselves for the fight, removing all jewellery, shirts, cuts and wallets etc... they stepped inside as they glared at one another. They were both ready for this.
Word had spread and the ringside was now over crowded with Sons, hangarounds and sweetbutts who were looking to take care of either fighter.
Ronnie, who had been outside at the time over checking the steaks her Old Man was grilling on the BBQ when she saw Happy storm out of the clubhouse looking straight ahead, his face looking hard like he meant business, then she noticed Kozik trailing behind him the same look on his face.
"Uh..Tal think we might have a problem." She said nudging him as the two men stepped into the ring. Tally turned around to see what she was on about.
"Bout time."
"Bout time?" Her head snapped back at him.
"They need this V." He said simply as he returned his attention back to the steaks.
"You know I will never understand why you boys think knocking shit out of one another solves all your problems."
"Your right. Maybe I should sit them down instead so they can have a little heart to heart over a glass of wine and chocolates."
"No need to be sarcastic." She told him as she slapped his arm. Tally laughed as he flipped the steaks. "Tal will you just do something already you know this won't end good. If this about Liv then you know what Happy is like.."
That Damn girl, knew she would cause me nothing but trouble. He thought to himself. "Fine. Just keep an eye on these." He handed her the tongs. She smiled at him, success clear on her face.
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"So you still think that this is nothing to worry about?" Jax asked Clay. Earlier Clay had told Jax and the others to drop it, that he had spoken to Tally and that he had assured him that it was nothing to worry about. But as Jax watched his two brothers who went way back, even before the club, landing blow after blow on one another he found it a little hard to believe that it was nothing.
Clay looked up at his stepson, who was sitting on top of the picnic bench, he didn't miss the cocky grin on his face and maybe he had a right to be because Clay had just been played. Looking away from Jax he looked over to the side of the ring where Tally was now standing with Lorca. He blew out the smoke from his cigar and raised his eyebrows before nodding towards the fight.
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"Great." Tally huffed as he turned away from facing Clay.
"What?" Lorca asked keeping his eyes on the fight.
"Nothing." But that was far from the truth. He was annoyed because he knew that this little display was now going to raise questions and the last thing he wanted or needed was Samcro digging around Samtac's personal business.
"Do I need to know something?" He turned his attention back to his VP. "This fight looks more than just a friendly brawl." Tally ran his hand over his face. He might as well tell him maybe he could help out on how to deal with all this.
"Liv." With that one word Lorca felt like he'd been winded. Did he really just hear that right.
"Liv..Is she..wait is she here?"
"Yeah."
"Shit. Well that explains this." He said motioning to the fight.
"Yeah, just keep it to yourself for now no point getting the others wound up about it not until we know for sure what is going on."
"Shit. You seen her?" That was a question Tally didn't want to answer.
"Stop this fight before they kill one another." Tally ordered. Getting the hint that he longer wanted to carry on this discussion Lorca nodded and stepped inside the ring.
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Happy landed a left hook to Kozik jaw, he was about to follow through with a right jab when Lorca stepped inbetween them.
"Playtimes over girls." Lorca said looking between the two bloodied fighters who were both breathing heavily. Neither one of them looking like they were ready to give up. Which was proved when both pushed against his hand that we're resting on either one's chest. "It's over boys back to your corners...NOW." Finally they retreated and left they left the ring.
When Happy stepped out he walked straight into a group of hangarounds that wanted to congratulate him, he was sure, on his performance in the ring but he didn't want any of that so he ignored them all and walked over to the redhead that was holding a towel.
"You did good out there Hap." She tried to purr seductively. Normally he would grab her and take her inside and show how good he really was but for once the distraction of a sweetbutt was the last thing he wanted. Ignoring her advances he grabbed the towel.
After patting himself down he redressed and started dabbing the towel on his face where he could feel the blood. When he'd stepped into the ring he was so angry that he knew that the beating he dished out was not going to be pretty but what he didn't expect was for Kozik to step inside the ring with the same feeling.
As he felt his ribs ache, his pain eased when he saw a bloodied mess walking towards him. Even though Happy felt like shit and ached all over judging by Kozik injuries he was feeling worse, at least that's something, Happy thought.
"You get everything out of your system?" Kozik asked as he came to stand infront of him. Happy nodded. "Good." Kozik pulled his keys out of his cut. Happy watched as he removed one key from the key chain. "Here." Happy just looked at him. "It's the key to my place. Go see her man."
Happy looked down at the key. It felt like he was staring at it forever but in reality it only took him a split second to grab the key out of his hand.
"I'll stay here tonight." Kozik called as Happy walked away from him towards his bike.
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Happy parked his bike in the driveway. After he dismounted his bike he let his eyes roam over the street, he found it weird that he couldn't see her truck. He walked up the steps and let himself into the house. Stepping inside he realised the house was in complete darkness and he thought he was too late, that she'd left again. But as he turned around to head for the door he heard something. It was very faint but he was pretty sure it was music and from what he could make out it sounded like it was coming from upstairs.
Carefully and quietly making his way up the stairs, he followed the soft music, which lead him to the bathroom.
Standing outside the bathroom he could she the stream of light seeping underneath the door. 9 years ago he would have walked inside no problem but now he found himself loitering outside wondering what was the best course of action. After a quick debate with himself he decided that knocking on the door myt be the safest bet. So after kocking on the door he waited for an answer but got nothing. He tried again this time harder but again was met with nothing.
"Liv." He called through the door but when he got no response for the third time that was enough for him.
Acting on pure instinct and the adrenaline that was still pumping through his veins from the fight he kicked the door open. As he stepped into the steam filled bathroom he saw Liv jump from beneath the water, coughing and spluttering as she tried to catch her breath.
He crossed the small bathroom in one giant step. He took hold of her arm that was closet and pulled her further up the bath, further away from the water. He tried to grab hold her face, but she quickly slapped his hand away.
"Get out." Her voice was quiet and horse from coughing but he had heard what she said.
"Liv..."
"GET OUT." She screamed finally finding her full voice. Happy was taken aback from her outburst and just kept looking at her. "GET OUT." She screamed again but this time she pushed him away. As she moved to push him away she caught the wine glass on the side causing it to fall and smash all over the floor. The both stared at the spilled crimson liquid. "Get out." She said breathlessly, like she finally given up.
Honestly he had no idea what to do in this situation he hadn't seen her like this in a very long and he was starting to feel a little freaked, which did not sit well with him. But before he could think anymore about it his feet had already made their way out of the bathroom and downstairs.
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After getting dressed into a pair of cut offs and a red flannel shirt she sat on the bed mindlessly drying her hair with the towel for about 10 minutes before she finally headed downstairs.
Four more was all she had to take but when she noticed the light was on in the kitchen, which she knew for sure she had turned off, she froze. She'd thought he'd left, not that she would have blamed him, but for some reason he was still here, waiting for her. Taking a deep breath she took the four remaining steps.
Happy was leant against the counter his one leg crossed over the other as both his hands gripped the counter top behind him. He was staring straight ahead, thinking about what she had been trying to do to herself and wondering how much of this was his fault. It was only when he heard the creek on the final step of the stairs that his head snapped towards the entrance of the kitchen and thats when he saw her standing there, her hands in the front pocket of her shorts and her eyes glued to the floor.
He cleared his throat but she still didn't look at him, so he tried again.
"Liv what th.." At the sound of her name she looked up but when she did he watched her mouth open in shock, making him stop mid sentence wondering what was a matter with her, then he remembered his face.
Liv eyes frantically moved over his face. She was taken aback by the state he was in and before she knew it she was standing in front of him, her hands on either side of his face as she took a closer look at him. His left cheek was bruised and swollen, he had a cut above his right eye and a cut on his lip which was also a little swollen.
"Jesus Christ."
"It's nothing."
"Right so w.." She started but quickly closed her mouth stopping herself from going any further. Even though legally she was still his wife, she hadn't been his Old Lady for a long time which meant that she had no right to ask for explanation, but Happy decided to give her one anyway.
"Me and Koz had a few things to sort out." Happy almost winced when she dropped her hands from his face.
"Me?" Happy said nothing which answered her question loud and clearly. "You know I hate it when you fight." She sighed as she turned away from him. He watched her walk over to the freezer and pull out a pack of peas which she then processed to wrap in a towel.
"Liv, upstairs in the bath you..you weren't trying..."
"No." She said cutting him off abruptly. She wasn't sure what she was doing but she wasn't trying to kill herself, well at least that wasn't her intention. She walked back over to him and gently pressed the self made icepack against his swelling cheek. "I guess I was just trying to stop the noise." She answered truthfully. She was too tired to keep lying.
"What noise?" He asked moving a damp curl from her face. She shrugged. "Liv I need you to tell what happened, how you ended up..."
"Stripping?"
"Yeah."
"Tyler got himself into trouble, big trouble. It started off with gambling, at first he was on a winning streak and trust me he had a couple of big wins, but his winning streak didn't last long and he ended up owing a lot of money to the wrong sort of people."
"Darby?" She nodded as she moved the ice pack away from his cheek to his eye.
"He was one of them. Infact he offered to help Ty out told him that he could clear his debt if he worked for him. Of course Tyler jumped at the chance, but turned out that it was selling drugs. I don't know how or why but he started taking them. Thanks to our mothers addictive gene it didn't take him long to get hooked. Everything started to get out of control and thats when he turned up on my doorstep bloody and bruised I knew I had to help. So I went to see Darby try and sort out some payment plan, but he was having none of it, but he did make me an offer."
"Stripping?"
"Yeap. I said no and that i'd get him his money but when he told me how much he owed I knew I was never going to be able to pay, I was already working two jobs and was struggling, so I had no choice I had to say yes."
"How much."
"$9,765.78." She pulled away from him and placed the icepack onto the counter. She heard him let out a deep sigh. "He's my family, he's all I've got."
He moved her hair over her shoulder, as his hand found it's way to the nape of her neck causing her to turn and look up at him. Her eyes glazed with sadness.
"He's not all you've got."
Keeping his one hand on her neck he wrapped his other arm around her small waist pulling her flush against him as his lips landed on hers. He felt her try and pull back but he didn't allow her, instead he pressed his lips harder against her until he finally felt her lean into him and open her mouth allowing him access with his tongue.
Liv's mind was racing, this was the last thing she thought would end up happening between them, but as she felt his tongue against hers she wasn't going to try and stop him, she'd longed for this, his touch for 9 long years.
She felt his fingers move underneath her shirt as his tounge and lips moved from hers to her jaw line and neck where he placed wet kisses. She let out a small gasp.
Happy stepped infront of her and pushed her agaisnt the counter. He moved his hands down her body and to her rounded ass, which he fondeled before moving further down to her smooth thighs. He squeezed her thighs and hoisted her onto the worktop. Her hands were on the back of his head and he felt her legs part as she pulled him closer.
Happy needed to touch her, grab her, search every inch of her skin, reclaim her, mark her as his but he was not going to do that he here. He wasn't not going to fuck her on a worktop like some sweetbutt or random bitch, she was none of those things.
He wrapped one hand around her waist and the other under her legs. He kept his mouth on hers as he carried her up the stairs bridal style.
When he lay her down on the bed all hell broke as the two of them fought for control. They both felt the burn of not having touched eachother for so long.
They pulled and pushed at each other's clothes, which were clearly in the way until they were skin upon skin.
Her eagerness matched his as she alternated between biting and sucking at his lips. Her back arching as Happy's rough manly, knowing hands explored every inch of her body. It was like no time had passed between, he remembered everything. And so did she.
Flipping him over so that she was now on top, she shifted down his body before straddling him. She lightly ran her fingers down his muscled stomach. She felt him flinch beneath her as she ran a hand up and down his length which was fully erect. She watched as his head jerked backwards, his eyes closed as he let out an unintelligible throaty curse.
As she tightened her grip Happy knew he hand to take back control or he was gonna blow and he was not about to let that happen.
He grabbed her one hand the wasnt wrapped around him and flipped her onto her back. When he felt her let go he grabbed her other arm and pinned her wrists beside her head.
My turn was all he said before he kissed his way down her neck, until he reached her breast, sucking on her nipple. He glided his hand up her inner thigh before sliding a finger inside her quickly followed by another. He smiled against her skin when he heard her moan. Feeling her buck underneath him as she tightened around his fingers he could tell she was close.
"You on the pill?" Liv shook her head and blinked a couple of times, trying to get the crazed swarm of emotions running through her mind uncontrol.
"Ye.." She spoke but it came out strained and breathless, Happy barely understood her.
"Are you.."
"YES." She screamed.
"Good." Happy didn't want anything between them he wanted to feel her, all of her.
Happy thrust himself inside her making her breath hitch in satisfaction. Her nails dug into his shoulders as she used her legs wrapped around him to pull him closer.
They settled into a rhythm, meeting each other thrust for thrust. The pace was hard, fast they wanted, no they needed one another.
Looking down at her he saw her cheeks were flushed and she was biting on her lower lip and she fought back her screams. He was loosing control he couldn't hold out any longer. Thrusting harder he felt her jolt underneath him and he knew she was close. He nibbled on her neck up towards behind her ear, her sensitive place. He felt her shudder she was coming. Breathing out his name as her hands fell from shoulders and trailed down his arms he felt her shudder as she came. He thrust into her one last time and before grunting out his release.
Liv expected him to roll off her but he just continued to lay there, still inside her staring at her. He was looking at her like he seen her for the first time. She bit her lip nervously his stare making her uncomfortable but before she could look away his hand came up to her face as he ran his fingers through her hair. The next thing she knew his lips were on hers but he wasn't trying to push access into her mouth with his tongue, this kiss was gentle, soft, loving. Before she could respond he pulled away and rolled onto his back. When she felt him pull her to him she didn't fight, didn't want to instead she snuggled herself into his side as him arm snaked around her.
For the first time in 9 years they both felt like they were finally home.
