WARNING! NC-17!!!
So this is the sex scene I said that I would try and write…
I'm not too sure about it… so please… review and tell me honestly what you think… and if I get no feedback on it… then I wont ever write anything anywhere near Spashley sex, ever again.
So the song is Famous Last Words- My Chemical Romance
I think it fit Ashley's anger at her situation but also her love for Spencer… also how it doesn't matter what happens with the, she will do anything.
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These bright lights are always black,
To me,
Cos I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake, and unafraid
Asleep, or dead.
She strummed her guitar slowly, her eyes closed.
She isn't aware that I'm in the room. She doesn't like singing in front of people and I doubt I would be an exception. But as soon as I walked in the front door, I heard her raspy voice singing and I crept up to our room to listen.
There was so much pain in her voice, yet she looked so peaceful.
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, you'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home.
Her guitar and stopped with her voice. She cleared her throat and wrote something onto a note pad.
I was sat in the shadows of our room, in the furthest corner of my bed, so I'm not surprised that she didn't see me.
She placed her guitar beside her and sighed before she cradled her head in her hands. I watched her for a moment, wondering if I should let her know that I'm here.
I didn't have to do anything. She looked up, brushing her hair out of her face. Her eyes were red and puffy and I wondered how I missed that she had been crying.
Screw her being mad with me, I crawled forwards and jumped off the end of my bed.
"Ash, baby, what's wrong?"
She sniffled a little and wiped her eyes with the sleeves of her jacket.
"My dad got in touch with my social worker." She sniffled some more, "He wants me to go and move in with him and his new girl."
"Oh," I tried hard to swallow the lump that had formed in my throat. "Where uh, where does your dad live?" I sat next to her and put my hand on her knee.
"Ohio." Her body wracked with sobs.
"Can't you tell him that you are happy here and doing really well in school? I could get my mom to do something."
"Well I told my social worker this, and she's going to tell my dad and get back to me. I don't really know what's going to happen anymore."
"We will figure it out ok. But, mom and dad are out of town and Glenn is wasting Aiden's time somewhere."
"I'm not really in the mood Spence." She sniffed. "You know how much I want to though right?"
"Of course I do Ash. Ok then, lets go make out on the couch and then you can sing to me."
"Do I have to sing?"
"I heard you singing earlier. You have an amazing voice Ashley." I rubbed her knee and kissed her cheek.
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"As if you beat me again!" I threw the controller down and pouted, my arms crossed across my chest.
"Aww, is ickle Spency a bad looser?" she teased and poked me a few times.
"No. I just don't like being beaten like, 9 times in a row, on my own game." I said grumpily.
I sat back in the sofa, refusing to look at her.
She walked over to me and sat on my knees, her hands tracing the line of my tank top, dipping under it every now and again.
"I didn't think you were in the mood." I pouted again as her fingers sent shivers down my spine.
"Yeah, well seeing you all mad and worked up, got me all worked up. Yeah I'm still upset about maybe having to leave you, but I need you Spence. I want to make you mine." She leaned into me and kissed my ear, "Tonight." She whispered.
I couldn't help the groan that escaped my throat.
"Ash," I breathed as she started working on my neck. I have wanted her from the first time I laid eyes on her, even though I didn't know it then. She does things to every single inch of my body that none of the people that I have been with before, have made me feel. Not even my first time.
That night was anything but fun.
But let's not think about that now. I have a totally gorgeous brunette sat on top of me, trying to pull my shirt off.
I grabbed her hands and she pulled back, slightly shocked.
"Not here Ash." I managed to croak through the passion that was running through my body.
She stood up and lifted me up with her. I wrapped my legs around her and kissed her as she carried me up to our room and put me on my bed.
We were soon rid of all our clothes, except for our panties. She looked at me for a moment and I squirmed and blushed under her gaze.
"You are so beautiful Spence, you know that right?" she brushed some hair out of my eyes and kissed me slowly.
"I do now. You aren't too bad yourself." I reached up to her and ran a finger from each of her collarbones, over her breasts, pinched her nipples, and finally to her hips, playing with her panties.
She slowly ran her hands over the same path on my body. She brought her mouth to my breast, flicking my hardened nipple with her tongue every now and again. My breathing hitched when she bit softly on the nub and she switched to the other one.
Her hands slowly grabbed onto the material of my pants and pulled them off slowly, while her mouth still worked on my nipples.
With one final nip, she left my nipples, to lick between my breasts and down my stomach, all the time her hands were running up and down my thighs, softly and slowly.
She circled my belly button with her tongue a few times as her hands finally headed towards the inside of my thighs, towards my heated centre. Her tongue left my stomach as she slid back up my body to kiss me softly.
Her tongue entered my mouth as her fingers ran through my wet slit. I didn't realise just how wet I was. She groaned into the kiss and so did I.
"My god Spence." She breathed when she pulled away, resting her head in the crook of my neck.
She teased my entrance with two fingers. I moaned at the intimacy of her touches, knowing what's to come, wondering if I could handle her touching me like that if these touches were killing me.
Her tongue licked my pulse point and she sucked gently.
"Stop fucking about and do it already!" I growled as she teased me even more.
Ashley bit my neck softly as she entered me slowly.
A primal moan tore through my throat as she started thrusting her hand in and out of me.
I was dying.
This, her touching me, fucking me, it was too much. I slammed my eyes shut, my breathing growing impossibly hard.
It felt like my first time all over again, but better. More special. Every touch made me leap that much closer to the edge and she knew it. She knew that it wouldn't take much to push me over.
She pulled back slightly, her hand still thrusting inside of me her thumb rubbing slowly on my clit.
"Spence," she breathed. Her breathing was affected by what we were doing and her rasp sent me that much closer. I felt the muscles in my stomach start to tense, "open your eyes."
I fought to open them, but when I did I was met by the most intense brown eyes I think I will ever see.
"Fuck!" I cried.
She grinned as she curled her fingers upwards, thrusting a few more times before my whole body started to spasm. I threw my head back and involuntarily arched off of the bed as my orgasm ripped through me and I screamed her name.
She slowly eased her fingers out of me and kissed me hard as I came down from my high.
I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her in close to me as my body still shook.
"Holy shit." I breathed shakily. She laughed and kissed my cheek before she rested her head on my chest. "I love you Ashley."
"You are just saying that because I gave you one of the best orgasms you have ever had." She said quietly, almost sadly.
"You gave me THE best orgasm I have ever had, and I have had more than my fair share. But no. Ashley, I am in love with you. I knew even before we had sex."
She smiled up at me and kissed my chin. "I love you too."
We laid there for a while, kissing each other when we felt like it, hands resting where they felt like resting.
I soon pushed her onto her back and showed her how much I love her.
