Tnx for all the comments hug I know it´s been a while since I updated, but I was busy with re-decorating my room, so I didn't have time for writing.
p.s. The song is All I want is you by Take That. ;)
Is life a fairytale?
She turned her head off of them as she felt the familiar tickling in her eyes. ˝No, Kate, you´re not going to cry. Not anymore. ˝she thought to herself, staring at the lumpy waves that were crashing periodically against the shore, taking the sand with them into some deep, unknown depths. If only it was that easy. If only this pain could disappear as easily as those tiny washed-away marbles.
But she knew it couldn't. For waves… for waves it took only few seconds to sweep away the sand, like it never existed. For her…to sweep away the pain…it would take weeks, months, years maybe. But she had to make her peace with it. Life wasn't a fairytale. She made her own bed and now she had to deal with its consequences. No matter how hard they were. How cruel, how destructive, how final – she would gonna face them alone. There wouldn't be a prince on the white horse coming out to rescue her, to fix it back. No. This time, it was just her. Her…and memories.
She felt the tickling again. She wouldn't gonna let it. Closing her eyes, she threw her head backwards, inhaling the fresh, salt ocean´s air. She felt herself calming almost instantly. She couldn't explain it, but there was something about the ocean that had the soothing effect on her. Something like…home. Yeah…home. Probably it was because of the memories of driving to the beach with her mum. She was little, but she would always remember those days. The days when everything wasn't so messed up. The days when she was the one occupying the place of the most important person in her mother´s life. The days before Wayne.
She remembered it like it was yesterday. Running across the beach, her mother´s giggles as she tried to catch up with the 5 year old; the sounds of white dress swaying in the wind…Those were the only occasions when Kate would accept to wear the dress. Even as little, she wasn't exactly a dress type, but she loved the feeling of long white robes swaying around her in the fresh ocean breeze. She would close her eyes and spread her arms…and then sway and sway and sway…until she felt so light that the smallest wind could lift her up and carry her away. Her Mum would just stay there, watching her and smiling; then stopping her before she reached the point of being dizzy. Then she would pick her up, tell her how much she loved her and planted small kiss at the top of her head. Kate would bury her face in her neck and let her mother carry her to the place where ocean met the shore. She would then put her down, and the two of them would sink, together, watching the waves washing the sand away…
Kate looked around herself. Without even being aware of it, she realized she had got up and was now standing inches away from the ocean. She smiled. Closing her eyes, she made a step forward; her lips spreading into a warm smile at the feeling of liquid cold coming in contact with her bare feet. Everything would be alright. Ocean came to rescue again.
She didn't know how long she was standing like that, listening to the sounds of the waves mixed with the music coming from the backwards, when she heard silent footsteps behind.
˝There´s no need to sink away from the island anymore – the ship is already coming for us. ˝she heard his voice, low and playful.
She looked back at him, tossing a small smile before turning to the ocean again. Jack smiled too. He looked at her again: at the way her back curled softly and the way her curls played softly in the wind. She was beautiful. Slowly, he made a few steps forward.
˝Hey. ˝he said simply, reaching her level.
˝Hey. ˝Kate replied back, glancing at him.
Smile escaped both of their lips.
Kate blushed a bit, feeling his eyes on her. She smiled again. It was strange how, despite everything being messed up between them, that simple word would return it like it used to be, at least for that fragment of moment. Jack smiled too. He remembered the day when he first saw her sinking. The time when everything was simple. It seemed like centuries ago. He bent down and silently took of his shoes. Kate watched him as he entered the ocean too.
None of them spoke for a few minutes; both feeling like immersed into some parallel universe, where things weren´t complicated…where everything was good and easy, and where ´they´ still existed.
Somewhere from the background, distant sound of melody appeared:
If
you believe that you really need someone
That always will be true
So what's the problem of finding this someone
I need somebody
too
I need a chance to prove to you
All the things I say and
do
I only do to make you happy
And in my mind I've made the
plans
As soon as we both get the chance
I will make all these
things happen
˝Why aren't you at the party? ˝Jack asked, turning slightly towards her.
˝Not exactly a party type. ˝Kate replied quietly, twirling her foot deeper in the sand.
˝Really? Then…˝he started, stepping a bit closer to her. ˝…I guess I´d be wasting my time if I…let´s say…asked you for a dance? ˝he finished, now standing right in front of her.
˝Really? ˝asked Kate, turning to face him. ˝I thought you already had a dance partner. ˝she said, little more bitter than she planned to.
Jack looked at her. Their eyes met for a second and he caught a glimpse of something like jealousy before she quickly looked away, fixing her eyes at the ocean again. He swallowed a small smile. She was jealous. Happy with the revelation, he decided to play along a bit more.
˝Who? Juliet? ˝he asked nonchalantly, noticing the small frown of her eyes at the mention of Juliet´s name.
Kate said nothing, but gave him the look. Jack smiled.
˝Juliet is just my friend, Kate, nothing more. ˝he explained, deciding to clear that up once and for all. He saw her letting a sigh of relief and he smiled again. He didn't enjoy hurting her and he was glad that it was behind them now. Wanting to ease up the tension a bit, he added: ˝Consider her sort of…warming up. ˝he said, leaning forward even more; his hands now coming to rest on her hips.
Kate shivered. The air was fresh, but she knew it had nothing to do with the air, but with the feeling of his fingertips making contact with the exposed skin just above the waistline of her jeans. She closed her eyes, inhaling deeply, trying to regain the composure. She didn't know how or why it was happening, but he always had that kind of effect on her. The one when she would lose awareness of everything else around her except the light tickling of his breath on her neck and the soothing warmness of his body.
If
all you want is me then all I want is you
If all you want is me
then all I want is you
If all you want is me then all I want is
you
I want you girl
If all you want is me then all I want is
you
I want you lady
She opened her eyes and looked up, finding him grinning at her. She cursed slightly under her breath, hating herself for being so frail around him.
˝What?! ˝she asked, frustrated.
˝Nothing. ˝Jack replied, not able to suppress the grin.
Kate rolled her eyes and pinched him slightly. ˝So you think you can have fun with her till the party is almost over and then just come here and expect me to throw myself into your arms just like that? ˝she asked playfully, pushing him aside a bit.
Jack looked at her, amused. Fine. She wanted play, she´ll get the play.
˝I´m afraid I do. ˝said Jack hoarsely; in one swiftly move pulling her towards him, causing her body to crash with his, exciting a surprised moan from her throat. He smiled, his fingers nesting in the openings of her front pockets. Steadying her, he leaned forwards until his lips were only inches away from her earlobe and whispered seductively: ˝You know how they say: saving the best for the last. ˝
He smiled as he felt her breath stopping in her throat and he knew instinctively that she had closed her eyes. He softly blew in her earlobe, feeling her stomach going tense; then smiled and moved away a bit, giving her space, knowing that she didn't like to be so out of control.
˝Listen…it´s probably our last night here and…I just want to have this last dance with you. ˝he said. ˝Please? ˝he added, offering a hand.
Kate looked at him. He was wearing dark blue jeans and the first few buttons of his shirt were loosened, giving him the look of a latin lover. His face was smiling and the moonlight was reflecting in his eyes. She knew they didn't have much time. It´s been a question of hours till the rescue ship would come and she would have to face a reality much tougher than being stranded on a deserted island. She deserved this last moment of peace. They deserved it.
Smiling, she took his hand and her right hand went up to rest on his shoulder; while her left one intertwined with his fingers. She felt his left hand settling itself on the soft curl of her back, and she smiled serenely, leaning her head on his shoulder.
Don't
make excuses don't tell me sad stories
Let's get things sorted
out
Don't change your mind
Don't let a big chance get smaller
In this dream there's no doubt
We need a day to be alone
Say
the things that are unknown
I only want to make you happy
And
in my mind I've made the plans
As soon as we both get the chance
I will make all these things happen
Jack threw a glance at her. She looked so peaceful: her cheeks a bit flushed, her curls spread charmingly on his shoulder, small smile playing on her lips…She looked like angel. And in that moment, he knew. He knew that, no matter what happened next, no matter what tomorrow would bring to them…he knew that he would never leave her alone again. ´Cause she was what was giving his life a sense. And he needed her to know that. Before it was too late.
˝You know…I meant what I said earlier. ˝he finally spoke; his voice low and quiet.
Kate looked up at him. She didn't need explanations – she knew what he was referring to. Even if she didn't, the look on his face was saying it all.
˝When I told you I lov…˝
˝Sssssh. ˝she whispered, placing a finger on his lips. ˝Don't talk. Let´s…let´s just…dance. ˝she added, replacing her finger with her lips and giving him one small, soothing kiss. Jack nodded. He understood. She needed this dance. He lifted his hand and gently stroked her cheek, feeling tiny wet trace underneath his fingertips. He felt his heart melting. She was crying. She was crying because this was their last night here and there were so many things still left to be unsaid, unhandled, undone. Tomorrow, they would leave this island; leave the place where she felt accepted, safe and free. And sail towards some new, unknown future.
He placed one gentle kiss on the top of her head, keeping his lips still there for a few moments, letting her know he was there for her.
If
all you want is me then all I want is you
If all you want is me
then all I want is you
If all you want is me then all I want is
you
If all you want is me then all I want is you
Yeah
Pulling her closer, he let go of her hand; his arms now wrapping themselves around her back; his hands coming to rest little below her waistline. She responded by shifting deeper in his hug; her hands positioning themselves on his chest; her face burying in his neck, inhaling his scent.
Clinging to each other, they swayed in the rhythm of the music, their feet moving elegantly as the waves caressed them tenderly, almost delicately, like even them aware of the fragileness of the moment.
˝Jack? ˝she asked quietly, absently playing with the buttons of his shirt.
˝Yeah? ˝Jack replied, looking down at her.
˝I love you too. ˝she whispered.
˝I know. ˝he whispered back, kissing her hair gently.
Kate smiled slightly, leaning her head against his shoulder once again. Maybe life really was a fairytale.
If
all you want is me then all I want is you
I want you girl
If
all you want is me then all I want is you
I want you lady
If
all you want is me then all I want is you
I want you girl
If
all you want is me then all I want is you
Yeah
The song was playing; the waves were crushing against the shore and the wind was making its way across the starlit night. But none of it mattered. ´Cause, for that moment in time, the only things that existed were the two of them – Jack and Kate – and the ocean beneath them…
If all you want is me then all I want is you
