So sorry for the delay readers! Had lots of questions coming in asking if I was still writing, and yes I am. Here's the newest update! Pretty lengthy full chapter! Let me know what you think and if you would like a preview of the next chapter. It's going to be BIG! :)


The next day Hanna steps out of the shower and into the steamy bathroom. Wrapping a towel around herself she wipes the mirror down and stares at her reflection. After a long restless night of tossing and turning, the bags under her eyes were giving her away. She huffs and rolls her eyes as she begins her getting ready routine.

You kissed him and then spent all night stewing over it...it's basically your fault. Plus, you said the f word first...you should've just told him and gotten it over with..

She flips her head over and starts to brush through her hair as knock on the door stops her. She stands upright and sits the brush down on the counter as another knock on the door echoes through the room. "I'm coming!" she calls as she hurries through the bedroom heading for the door.

When she reaches the door she swings it open and Caleb stands on the other side with his hand up fixing to knock again. "C-Caleb?" she notices his wide eyes at her appearance and she follows his eyes and looks down at herself. Her short towel covered just enough to a PG-13 rating.

Geez, if I can embarrass myself one more time…that would be just lovely.

She thinks as she pulls the towel tighter around herself "What….are you doing here?" she asks.

He reaches forward, grabbing her by the back of her head and slowly pulls her to him. She gasps as their lips meet and he sweeps his tongue inside her mouth. He pulls back and he runs his nose up hers, leaving her standing breathless with her eyes closed "There." he whispers. She opens her eyes to find him looking down at her "Now, we are even. You kissed me and now I kissed you so you don't have to avoid me anymore."

"Caleb, it's so much more complicated than that." she whispers as she focuses her eyes on the threading of his shirt "You have no idea how –"

He huffs and runs his fingers through his hair "Hanna, just tell me what I have to do to make this not awkward. Like you said last night I have spent the last eight years not being able to see you and talk to you. What happened, last night…it happened and I don't want you to be embarrassed about it and completely shut yourself off. I want to spend what little time we have left in this place being okay around each other. What can I do?"

Damn. He's right.

She forces a smile "Nothing. You're right…you're absolutely right. Last night happened, and it's done...no reason to act all wigged out by it now...I mean, it's not like we haven't kissed before."

"Yeah. So, we're cool?"

"Always. Just if I start to make out with you again...don't let me. Tell me 'Go home Hanna, you're drunk'

"she laughs awkwardly as she pulls on the top of the towel.

STOP. RAMBLING. NOW.

"Good." he mumbles as pulls the sleeves of his shirt down over his hands, a habit she knew he really only did when he was nervous or frustrated "Well, I gotta go. I told Toby I would come help him move some stuff before the reunion...but uh, I will see you later?"

"Yeah..I uh, I am coming to help Spence finish setting up so I will see you then." she says as she watches him flash his signature grin as he turns back to his hotel room door. He opens it and walks inside closing it behind him, never looking back.

What...just...happened?

She thinks as she closes the door and leans back against it. She runs her fingers across her bottom lip that tingles. Sighing she pushes away from the door heading back for the bathroom to finish getting ready.


"You kissed her? OH! MY! GOD!" Kamie screams from the bathroom where she brushes her teeth.

"Will you hush! She's in the room next door."

"Yeah, and she already knows that you kissed her...so what's the problem...?"

Good point.

"That was not exactly what I meant when I said you needed to go talk to her about last night...but I like where your head is at. Kissing her will definitely work too. So you didn't say anything to her?"

"Nope." he sighs as he lays his head against the wall opposite of the bathroom

"You just waltzed right across the hall and laid one on her and walked away? Was that your plan the whole time or did you just forget to speak...?"

He runs his hands through his hair "Yeah I had planned to talk but then she opened the door and there was a towel involved and I just forgot what to say and panicked...so I did exactly what I would've done any other time and tried to play it off when I realized what happened.."

Kamie props herself up in the doorway to the bathroom and looks at him "She believe it?"

He runs his hands through his hair "I hope so."

"Well, I am just going to say that telling her you love her probably would've worked better, but hey…if it works, it works. So, is tonight going to be awkward?"

He shoots her a look and then reaches into his pocket for his phone. Glancing at the time looks back up "Shit. I have to go help Toby….I'm late." He reaches for his keys on the desk and then turns back to her "I will be back in a couple hours to pick you up." She shakes her head yes as he opens the door and makes his way back into the hallway and to the elevators.


Hanna stands in front of the mirror and rubs the wrinkles out of the front of her romper. She had packed a bright red pantsuit jumper for the reunion, but was quickly rethinking it. The front had a deep V neckline and fit tight like a corset and paired it with a blazer and chunky nude heels.

"Hanna!" she sighs as she recognizes Emily's voice coming from the hallway "Hanna, let me in!"

She walks to the door and opens it up, stepping aside and lets Emily in. She looks her up and down, noticing her outfit "Wow. Now I knew those trouser dress pants would look good on you, but damn. You look pretty hot Emily Fields!" she calls out with a laugh.

Emily strikes a pose and they share a laugh "Thanks. I know this fabulous designer, she totally rocks it. But me? What about you? You sure will make everybody, Caleb included drool in that. You always look pretty in red."

Caleb…

"Yeah, about that…him..." she says as she walks past Emily back into the bedroom to finish getting ready "Thanks for announcing yourself, I have been hiding out in here for the last few hours from Caleb."

Emily plops down on the edge of the bed "Hiding out? Why? What happened? Did you finally tell him?" she asks quickly and excitedly.

Hanna picks up the curling iron from the counter and starts to curl her hair "Not exactly…I decided on a whim that it would be much better to just make out with him instead…"

"What?!"

"Yeah…right? And then I spent all night tossing and turning thinking about it. Wake up this morning and the bags under my eyes have bags. I get out of the shower and guess who is knocking at my door…Caleb! And guess who answered it in a very small towel…me!" she says as she sits the curling iron back down on the counter and turns to look at Emily who sits on the bed with wide eyes.

"What did he say?"

Hanna walks into the room and sits down on the bed beside Emily "Well first, he shoved his tongue down my throat and then he told me that we were even and not to let tonight be awkward, like that is even an option at this point." She looks over Emily who stares straight ahead in what looks like shock.

"You two sure know what to-"

"Make things really awkward? Yeah. We do." She looks down at her hands knotted up in her lap then back at Emily "What am I going to do for tonight Em? People are going to see us together, they are going to ask questions….and if I wasn't already on edge about answering those questions, two make out sessions and one heart to heart in the car is just the cherry on top of this three ring circus."

"Well, now for the most important question…how did it feel?" Emily asks with a nudge on Hanna's shoulder.

Hanna can't help the smile that creeps over her face as she stands and walks across the room to stand in front of the mirror "Well, after the initial shock, it felt…god, Em it felt so...right. Almost like we were an us again…for a few seconds, then the sinking reality that we aren't hit and it got really weird.."

"Well, then you should tell him.." she says as she looks down at her phone in her hand "And I hate to bring this to a screeching hault but we have to get going. We have to help greet people."

"Yeah, I know." she sighs and looks down at her outfit again "You think this looks okay? For once in my life, I would rather blend in with the crowd instead of stand out."

"Hanna, you were never meant to blend in." she says with a laugh "But yes, the outfit is cute. You look hot." she says as she stands from her spot on the bed and walks over to Hanna, wrapping her arm around Hanna's shoulder "Look, I promise you that everything will go okay tonight. I will be there and I will not let anything happen to ruin it for you."

"Thanks Em." Hanna says as she wraps her up in a hug. She pulls back and looks at Emily "Hackett said that alcohol was allowed right? I don't have to sneak a flask in my cleavage like it's junior year again, right?" Emily shakes her head yes "Okay, well first thing is first…don't let me drink too much and try to jump Caleb's bones. Deal?"

Emily laughs "Deal." She says as they turn to make their way out of the hotel room.


They all sit at a table right inside the double doors of their schools auditorium. Hanna sits in between Emily and Spencer, writing out name tags for the visitors and giving people their seating arrangements.

She is looking down when she hears a voice that makes her cringe "Well well well Hanna Marin, we meet again." Noel says as he walks up to the table

She looks up "Hi Noel. Sorry about the other night, I was out of line." She says as she looks down the chart and finds his name, marking him off "Just you tonight?"

"Yep. Just me. Where's your friend? Maybe she can be my date.." he says as he offers up his signature cocky smile.

"She's here…with Caleb, so she's not available. Sorry." she says as she clears her throat grabbing Emily's attention beside her.

"Oh, well if she is here with Caleb that must mean that you are available how about we-"

"Noel, you're sitting at table 18. Each table has a number right in the center and there will be a place card with your name at your seat. Have fun." Emily chimes in offering up her most genuine smile as she hands him his packet.

Noel laughs as he picks up his welcome packet and turns back to Hanna "I will see you in there. Save me a dance?" he says with a wink.

Hanna huffs as he walks off "Ugh. Whoever put the idea in his head that he is god's gift to women should really be ashamed of themselves." She says as she shivers as if disgusted.

"Noel really isn't that bad…a little cocky, but he's a nice guy." Aria chimes in from down the table, making everybody laugh and look at her "What?"

"Yeah, I don't think so. His ego will smother us all in that room." Hanna says with a roll of her eyes.

Hanna examines the list in front of her until she can feel the hair on the back of her neck stand up. She glances up just as he opens the door to the school, holding it open for Kamie to walk in ahead of him. She tries, but she cannot take her eyes off of them as they walk in, carrying on what looks like a deep conversation. He glances up and their eyes lock and she sucks in a deep breath as she glances back down on at the paper in front of her.

"Hey uh Caleb." Emily says as she looks up and then over at Hanna before turning back to them "Hi again Kamie!" she says as Kamie throws up her hand in an awkward wave.

"Hey Em, Han." He says to them making Hanna look up at them and offer a forced smile before she looks back down at the list pretending to look for something.

Emily glances over at her and then back to Caleb "You two will be with us, table 11. Number is in the center of the table, place card at your seat. I will get you a name tag, Kamie" she says as she shuffles through the papers in front of her looks for the name tags.

Hanna notices the stack of name tags that sit in front of her before she finally sighs and picks up her marker "I got you, right down here." She says "K-A-M-I, right?" she asks as she picks up her marker to start writing on the tag.

"K-A-M-I-E." she corrects as she watches Hanna write her name down.

Pulling the name tag sticker off the paper she holds it up for her "Here you go, Kamie. You're drink voucher will be in with Caleb's welcome packet." She says as she offers up a smile.

Kamie takes the sticker from her and places it on her chest "Thanks. Hey, about yesterday.."

"You ready?" Caleb asks as he walks up to them, pulling her attention away from Hanna. He looks down at Hanna "Hey Han."

"Hi." She whispers as her eyes linger on him a little too long that she starts to recognize the familiar feeling of butterflies deep in her belly. She looks back down and straightens the stack of papers in front of her "So you guys are sitting with us, I will see you both in there?"

"Sure thing." he says as Kamie opens her mouth to say something else as he drags her into the auditorium.

"Hey, I was trying to talk to her…I wanted to apologize for the last night. I don't want her thinking that I am a big whore." she squeals as she follows behind him as they make their way to the table.

"She doesn't. I told her that we weren't together, together." he says as they weave their way through the tables scattered throughout the room. The finally stop when they reach the right one and he pulls out their chairs and he sits down "I just…did you see her? See that look? Could you feel the tension? I really think that I made things worse this morning."

"Yeah, I saw her, she's gorgeous.. And the look…but the look isn't anything new. You look at her like she's the only one in the room every time you look at her. Big deal." she says as she picks up his welcome packet in search of her drink voucher.

"No, did you see the way she looked at me? It's almost like-"

"Almost like you were the only one in the room? Yeah, saw that one too…I thought they said there was a drink voucher in here?" she says as she dumps the whole envelope onto the table and starts to go through the contents "Ah, here it is!" she says as she picks it up and flashes him a smile "Want anything?"

"Ah, no I'm good." he mumbles, distractedly.

Kamie gets up from the table and makes her way over to the makeshift bar on the other side of the room. Caleb sits by himself and looks around the room until he spots her walking into the doorway from the hallway. He sits up straight in his chair and tries to compose himself. He watches her as she walks in and looks around too, until her eyes land on him. She stops and looks at him, after a minute she smiles and continues walking in his direction.

God, she's beautiful...

When she reaches the table she walks to her seat, conveniently beside him and pulls out her chair. They sit in silence for a second before she finally turns to him "Spence did good on this place, didn't she?" she asks as she looks around the room.

"Yeah…she uh…she did." He says as he clears his throat and looks back at her "Hanna, I'm sorry about this morning…I shouldn't have-"

"Well well, look who it is!" they hear from behind them. They both turn to look at Lucas who stands a few feet away "Hanna and Caleb…Been a long time since I saw you two together."

"Lucas! Hi!" Hanna says as she stands to hug him, thankful for his distraction. Pulling back she looks him up and down "How have you been? I hear you're big in the computer biz these days."

"I'm great actually, just moved back from Seattle. Sold my company there, now just looking for my next venture - game apps. How have you been? Fashion from what I hear?"

"Yep. I uh…I launched my line a few years ago…it's doing pretty well. I am still in New York, so if you ever come up you should get with me. We can do dinner or something."

"Definitely. Definitely." He turns attention to Caleb who stands beside Hanna. Sticking his hand out he says

"Caleb. How have you been man?"

Caleb shakes his hand "Been doing good Lucas. It's been a long time. I guess the last time I saw you was when you came to visit us in New York." he says as he glances over at Hanna who shakes her head and then back to Lucas.

"I know…it's been just a couple. You still doing the computer thing?"

"Yeah, firewalls now mostly."

"Great. Hey, you two married yet? Kids? I saw where you had gotten engaged, but I never saw a marriage announcement, you a big enough celebrity now that has to avoid the paps?" he asks, then chuckles

They both turn and look at each other and then back at Lucas "Caleb and I actually broke up a quite few years ago…and my fiancé was Jordan - we ended our engagement a while ago." She says as she clasps her hands in front of her. She can see out of the corner of her eye as Caleb crosses his arms over his chest and does a shift of his feet.

"Oh….I um…I'm sorry. I didn't realize…" he stumbles as he points between them "I saw that your listed your name as Marin in the program so I didn't know if you went by that for the business or…I uh…I better go." He says as he quickly walks off leaving both of them standing there in silence.

After he is finally gone, she sighs and turns back to Caleb "Well...we knew it would happen…"

"Yeah I know. But hey, at least it was just Lucas….he is too nice to ask any serious questions." he replies before sitting back down at the table as Hanna follows suit and sits down beside him "Hanna, look about this morning…I actually came over to talk to you about something important and I got distracted...but I um, I really need to tell you-" he starts

Hanna can see Kamie out of the corner of her eye walking towards the bathrooms "Hey, it's no problem. I have got the pee, will you excuse me?" she says as she hops up and quickly makes her way to the bathrooms

"I love you…" he mumbles as he watches her walk off. He sits back in his seat and runs his hands over his face and through his hair in frustration. He watches until she rounds the corner out of sight before he picks up his drink voucher and heads to get a drink.

Hanna pushes open the bathroom door and walks into the shockingly empty bathroom; she waits near the sinks for Kamie to come out. When she hears a toilet flush she straightens herself and when the stall door swings open, she offers her a smile "Hey Kamie."

She looks at Hanna like she has lost her mind "Hi..?" she says as she crosses the bathroom and heads for the sink near Hanna.

"Look, I just wanted to talk to you about yesterday. I am sorry for acting like a total bitch towards you about Noel. I didn't know that you and Caleb weren't a couple until afterward, and I just wanted to say I am sorry for stepping in. I know that you know our history and he really…he still means a lot to me so I thought I was looking out for his best interest when I was actually putting my foot in my mouth." She says as she watches Kamie in the mirror as she washes her hands "That is all I really had to say so I am sorry." she says again as she turns to walk out the door, stopping just short to turn back to her "Oh and by the way, Noel asked about you tonight…if you're still interested." she says with a smile and makes her way back to the door.

"Hanna?" Kamie calls out and makes her stop and turn back to look at her "I've known Caleb for a while and I know that I don't know him as well as you do, because I don't think that there is anyone that could know him better than you...but I know him pretty well. I just wanted you to know that he didn't bring me here to spite you, he just didn't want people to ask him a bunch of questions about what happened, because he's still not ready to talk about it." she says as she walks closer to Hanna, throwing her paper towel in the trash near the door. "You really care about him, and I can respect that, so there are no hard feelings here. Woman to woman, I would probably do the same thing you did if I saw the girlfriend of the man I loved, macking on someone else." Hanna opens her mouth to reply but she is cut off "You should tell him…"

Kamie smiles at Hanna and shakes her head up and down answering her unasked question, making Hanna smile in return. She pushes the door open and makes her way back into the auditorium. She stops and looks across the room at their table, all her friends have now gathered around the table chatting with Caleb. He laughs at something that is said, then looks up and their eyes lock for a few brief moments. Kamie walks up beside her and grabs her attention. She gives Hanna a look and a nod before Hanna finally gets her feet to move again, making her way back to the table.


As the reunion ceremony starts, Spencer walks up onto the stage to welcome everybody, giving a small speech before handing the spotlight over to Lucas who walks up onto the stage to the podium and the lights shine on him "Hey guys, all of you should know me, but if you don't I am Lucas Gottesman." He starts awkwardly "Ten years ago before we all graduated high school the yearbook staff and I sat down with everybody and asked a couple questions. First was your name and any clubs or accolades accomplished in high school. Second, was what your plans were after graduation, and lastly was where you saw yourself when we all came back for this reunion. Now, we recorded everybody's answers and put together a small slideshow with some pictures from high school as well as some other pictures we could find after high school to play here tonight so I hope you all enjoy!" he says as she walks off the stage to a round of applause.

Hanna shoots Spencer a questioning look and she shrugs her shoulders and leans forward to whisper in her ear "I have no idea. This was yearbook, the one club I wasn't in."

"Any idea what we could have said?" Hanna whispers back and Spencer shrugs her shoulders again "This could end up being really embarrassing, given our history and all..."

Spencer mouths 'No kidding' back to her as the lights dim as the slideshow starts to play starting with Spencer. Pictures from various school functions and sporting events play across the screen as her voice booms through the speakers and she begins to ramble off all of her high school accomplishments, stating that she was going to Georgetown after graduation and she hoped to pursue a career in politics. The slideshow ends on a picture of her family after her mom was elected state senator and everybody claps and Spencer stands from her seat for recognition.

Hanna sits watching the slideshow for a few minutes, lost in thoughts of what she could've possibly said just as Caleb leans back in his chair "Hey, after this is over you think that we can grab a drink at the Radley bar? I really need to talk to you about something." he whispers.

"What about Kamie?" she whispers back, looking past him at the back of her head as she sits on the other side of him.

"She's actually meeting up with Noel afterwards…"

"Oh okay, yeah we can."

She glances back up at the slideshow just in time to see her face pop up on the screen. A couple pictures flash across the screen before her voice finally comes through the speakers. "Hanna Marin, homecoming queen…even though my picture was taken down…and I helped out in yearbook, once. That counts right?" she watches as more pictures flash across the screen, one being her homecoming queen picture.

"After high school Caleb and I are going to New York and I plan to pursue a career in fashion." Hanna sits up awkwardly in her chair at the mention of his name, as he glances back at her and smiles. More pictures come up, one of all the girls together at a lunch table, and one of her from the fashion show.

"In 10 years I see myself, hopefully still in fashion, maybe even personal stylist to someone like…I don't know, Katy Perry…possibly still in New York, but who knows?" the audio stops as pictures from the newspaper article announcing the launch of her line come across the screen "And I see myself at least married by then, to Caleb of course with possibility some little Rivers' babies running around." the video ends with her laughter as a pictures of them together flutter across the screen, ending on one of them dancing at the Ice Ball.

She can feel all her hair standing on end as she glances up at him nervously and then back at Spencer who claps and motions for her to stand up. She looks back at him as he sits watching her closely before she finally stands up on shaky knees while everybody claps. She can feel her cheeks start to turn as red as her outfit, as she looks back down at Caleb who looks straight ahead.

She sits back down and looks over at the rest of the girls one by one, who all look at her wide eyed then back to Caleb. When she can no longer take the heat of his stare on her back, she looks over her shoulder at him and he sits with his eyes on her. She watches as he opens his mouth to speak, then closes it before opening it again "Hanna...I.." he whispers then stops as if to gather his thoughts.

Tears fill her eyes as embarrassment overtakes her body she whispers "I'm so sorry. Excuse me." as she hops up from her seat and quietly makes her way out of the room, careful not to make a scene.

Everybody sits in silence and looks at each other and then back at Caleb who sits with his eyes focused on the table in front of him. When he finally looks up, he notices all the eyes are on him.

"Go talk to her." Aria leans in and whispers in his direction

"Yeah, she needs to talk to you now...not any of us." Ali chimes in.

He looks back over his shoulder at Kamie who shakes her head. He stands from his chair and starts to walk out when Emily stops him "Hey Caleb." she calls out and he turns back to face her "You love her...we all know you do, so just tell her..."

Hanna, I love you.. I never stopped loving you...see it's not that hard..

He thinks as he heads out of the auditorium in search of her. He stops by the bathroom and hangs outside the door for a moment before finally pushing his way in "Hanna? Are you in here?" He calls out receiving silence back "Hanna, please can we talk?" He calls out again. When he doesn't receive an answer he turns to walk out of the restroom, heading for the hallways of the school hoping to see her roaming one.


Okay guys, big talk in the next chapter coming up next! Stay tuned! :)