Hazel
"I had a feeling something was wrong with me. I guess I was a mystery even to myself."
I have decided that while I love the Di Angelos I can't spend all of my time with them, I really need to stop being in their house as a constant burden. So today at lunch I do something I never imagined myself doing.
"You free tonight?" I ask Piper interrupting the gap of silence that occurs between topics.
"I can be, why?"
"Oh, I just… I kind of wanted to hang out."
"Sure, wanna go get ice cream after rehearsal?"
"Oh right your show."
"Don't worry about it, stage manager isn't too big of a deal until show. I'm sure Mr. A will let me loose if you're waiting for me."
"I will never understand why he loves you." I shake my head taking a bite of my apple.
"Because I'm me."
"And you're the only one who doesn't actually act."
"That too." She chuckles.
"We can totally meet up at another time if you don't want to." I blurt out before I can stop myself.
"Wow, Hazel. Do you or don't you want to hang out with me? I'm getting offended that you're trying to get out of this." She teases me.
"What are you? My girlfriend?"
"Yes I am! God, I'm offended, Hazel. I thought we had something special going here. But I guess I was wrong. You're just like all the others." She pretends to cry.
"Yup, whatcha gonna do about it?" I ask.
"What do you want me to do about it?" She raises her eyebrows at me, a sultry drawl fills her voice. I will never know how the fuck she can just do that. How can she suddenly just become the embodiment of sexuality?
I give her a smirk of my own even though it's nowhere near half as powerful as hers is. "Well, you know."
"And what if I don't?" She purrs.
"I could always show you." I tease.
"That's the only way to do it." Piper reaches up to touch my face and bust out laughing.
"Stop!" I cackle.
"I knew you'd give." She chuckles leaning back against the wall.
"I hate you."
"No you don't."
"Yes I do." She shoves me playfully as we continue to eat. Our next period is biology in which we have a test over the parts of a cell. The class is mostly full of Freshman but Piper and I are in the class together, because we both moved here and have different science credits. Who would have thought that biology would be required?
The test is really hard for me, I don't really understand cells and stuff like that. If I can't see it I don't understand it, that's just the way my brain works. Lucky for me, Piper is really good at cheating and she gives me some of the answers. I feel alright about it, maybe I got a C, that would be amazing.
Piper and I walk to study hall together, her ranting about how much bullshit this school can put in the curriculum, and how at her old school in California they actually attempted to teach them things that matter.
"How was school in Anchorage?" She asks.
"Worse than it is here." I tell her. "The teachers there, they were kind of… well… They were just bad."
"That's terrible, teachers that suck make everyone's life hard."
"Yeah, it wasn't the teachers that made my life hard. Let's be real here." I snicker as we take our seats in the library. Leo is teasing Frank as Percy plays with Annabeth's hair.
"What are we late?" Piper asks.
"No, Jason's the late one." Leo says, "I'm so going to give him shit for this."
"Is he even here today?" I ask, "He wasn't in government."
"He went home first period because he puked." Piper says.
"Gross!" Percy fakes disgust, at least, I think he's faking.
"I hope he's okay." I say.
"He'll be fine, I'm sure." Piper tells me. "On that note, who wants to hang out tonight? Hazel and I are going to get ice cream later and she's embarrassed that I'm her girlfriend."
"Piper Elizabeth." I tease her but also not, because I'm not gay and that's not cool.
"You swing both ways too? Damn, Piper there's a whole new world of people to bang." Leo tells her.
"So she can sleep with you now." Percy teases him.
"Shut up dude." Leo snickers. "I wish I could accompany you fine ladies but alas I cannot. I have work."
"Boo you whore." Piper swats her hand at him.
"Suck my dick, I really have work tonight."
"Fine suit yourself. We'll have fun without you." She smiles at him.
"Good."
"You want to go wise girl?" Percy asks Annabeth.
"I can't, college apps." She says looking at him sideways.
"Ugh, come on Annabeth, have fun with us."
"I'll have fun next month, Percy." She sighs shaking her head.
"Is that a promise?" He asks moving his face close to hers.
"You're disgusting." She says as he kisses her cheek.
"I'll go." Frank says softly. He looks up at Piper and shifts his eyes to me, I feel a coldness in my blood, like his gaze sends a winter wind through me. I don't know much about Frank, I've heard rumors that he's the school bully, and he can kick anyone's ass. I've heard he nearly killed a guy Sophomore year, something to do with smothering and lasagna. But then Piper talks about him as if he's this kind sweetheart of a guy who could do no wrong. Jason seems to like him too, and Percy's always trying to make him feel included. But I haven't decided how I feel yet.
I've started to realize that Piper sees the good in everyone, she claims she only sees potential, but really, she sees the world with rose tinted glasses. She thinks everyone has good in them and I admire that about her, but it's probably gotten her hurt. It has gotten me hurt, it's gotten a lot of people hurt. And as that thought passes through me, I don't know how someone so nice and heartfelt can have sex so casually. But then again I can't judge, I've had casual sex before.
Then there's Jason, he's so perfect he makes other people want to be perfect. Piper told me that she thinks she likes him. I want them to date, two incredibly kind people would make the perfect couple. Jason's always kind and he knows when to talk. He can tell when I want to be left alone, and no one can ever figure that out, so I give him props.
Percy is the kind of nice you'd never expect, he's gentle and kind, when you'd expect him to be nothing but rough. I've seen his attendance record during my office courtesy, and let me just say, it isn't good. He's the kind of delinquent that goes against the rules, but never against you. I never thought I'd meet one in real life.
And of course, Percy's dating Annabeth now. Their relationship is odd to me, she acts so cold to him, but it must be endearing. She's a good person, don't get me wrong, but she's the kind of good person that the world wants to create. The status quo bred into her like a third eye. She seems unapproachable, and then you talk to her. While she remains stoic and impassive, she has a good heart and good intentions.
Then I look at Leo, he reminds me a lot of one of my old boyfriends. Sammy was his name, I consider him to be my first love. He lived in Alaska and we dated for almost a year, he and Leo could be twins honestly. They're both wild, loud, and almost free. Leo would never let a teacher keep him contained and neither would Sammy. Before the thought pops up, no I'm not attracted to Leo because he reminds me of Sammy. It's odd, I almost feel like it hurts to look at him, like there's a phantom of loss every time I see him smile.
I no longer love Sammy, and I don't think I'll ever love Leo. Not the way I loved Sammy at least.
I start to work on my government assignment, the sixth amendment analysis. Deciding to be generous I answer the questions and then pull out my phone to text Jason the assignment.
"Texting during school, I'm disappointed in you." Percy says shaking his head disapprovingly at me.
"Texting is not the worst thing I've done in school." I chuckle.
"I don't believe you."
"Why not?"
"You're just so squishy."
"What does that mean?"
"Yeah what does that mean?" Annabeth chuckles at her boyfriend.
"It means she's the most goddamn innocent little thing I've ever met in my whole life." Innocence, how fucking adorable. I haven't been innocent in years.
"True." Leo snorts.
"You leave my precious child alone." Piper shoves him playfully.
"I'm your precious child." Frank says softly.
"You too."
"How many times have you had babies?" Percy asks.
"Define babies."
"That is not a good thing for me to have to define."
I listen to the rest of the conversation while keeping to myself, I watch Leo basically beach himself on the table, and Percy follows shortly after. I wonder how the fuck we haven't gotten kicked out of this library. Seriously, we cause such a nuisance that I'm in shock we haven't gotten thoroughly chewed out by the librarian.
When class is over I go my own way to class before spending last period with Annabeth. The whole time she seems to be withdrawn, like her thoughts are traveling faster than her brain can manage. I try to talk to her a little bit, but she mostly ignores me and continues to work on our assignment.
When the final bell rings I attempt to find my way to the fine arts building, or the theatre, but I assume they're in the same place. It takes me twenty minutes walking around the whole school before I find the fine arts building, which is fucking huge. How have I just missed this since I've been here?
I walk into the theatre and see this scrawny blonde kid standing next to some pouty looking asian chick. They're looking at the theatre director as he says, "You aren't projecting properly. Would your character really mumble?"
I hear a sharp, "Pst." And turn to see Percy sitting with Frank in the back row of the theatre. I take a seat beside Percy. "What's going on little bit?"
"Nothing." I sigh, "School is the worst."
"We knew that." He chuckles. "But you look down."
"Not more than usual, I hope. I don't feel any different."
"Just making sure."
"Obviously." I snip.
"Hey now, is that shade being thrown?" He asks incredulously.
"What do you think, smart ass?"
"You can curse?"
"Duh. I'm eighteen years old."
"But you're so cute and innocent."
"That's what you think." I snort leaning back in the chair before realizing I really need to text Mrs. Di Angelo that I won't be home until later.
I pull out my phone as the actors begin their scene again. I hear a low whistle next to me and a "Damn if I wasn't taken."
I look up and see Piper stood on the stage in short shorts and a cutoff shirt, she's leaned over picking up some kind of drill.
"You're a fucking pig." I roll my eyes at him.
"What? She's-"
"A person you dumbass."
"Now you're just cursing to make fun of me." He laughs.
"Sure." I shrug sending my text.
Frank sits there looking at Percy and I, I assume we're far more interesting to him than Piper's ass hanging out.
"Where are you from again?" Percy asks.
"Alaska. Why?"
"You've got a bite that I just couldn't pinpoint." He laughs, "Is everyone in Alaska like that?"
"Sure, we're as harsh as the weather."
"Good one."
"Thanks." I smirk slightly, watching the performers struggle through their lines, get told where to go on the stage, and whatnot. It's time consuming, boring, I'd feel bad for them if that one scrawny dude wasn't giving the girl such a hard time.
Piper jumps off the stage at one point, her backpack slung over one shoulder, she stops to say goodbye to the teacher before walking to the back of the theatre to meet us.
"Hey, you guys ready to go?"
"Yeah, for sure." I stand up and start walking out with her.
"Shotgun." Frank says before we even get out of the theatre.
"Sure."
"You have a car?" I ask.
"Yup."
"Because you're daddy's little princess." Frank teases her.
"Oh shut up." She rolls her eyes.
"It's true. And you know it."
"Of course, you're a daddy's girl. I'm not even going to pretend to be surprised." Percy snorts.
"I love my dad, sue me." She laughs pulling out her keys.
"And where is daddy dearest huh?"
"MIA usually." She chuckles, but her breath settles heavily in her chest. I think she's lying, or maybe it's the truth, but the truth is harder than it seems.
"I feel that on a spiritual level." Percy laughs, "But I'm not complaining, I get money and shit from him. Don't need much else."
"I feel too." Frank says.
"Wow, daddy issues galore, what are we? Degrassi? I don't think so." I chuckle changing the topic. "Who wants to strangle me first? I'm doing college apps this weekend."
"Ugh don't even get me started on college." Frank groans.
"I completely agree, Frank."
"Have you started any yet?" Piper asks.
"It's cute how much faith you have in people." I sigh walking around the other side of her car and opening the door. Her car is surprisingly clean, minus the mountain of textbooks acting as a barrier between the two seats.
"So close yet so far, Hazel." Percy laughs. Frank starts flipping through the radio stations as Piper tosses her bag in his lap.
"I'm not your storage unit."
"Yeah, but you love me so deal with it hoe." She says backing out of her parking space.
"So when's the wedding?" Percy asks. Piper flips him off from the front seat as she gets us out of the parking lot.
"She's not my type." Frank says.
"Yeah he likes submissive pussy, not the kind that takes what it wants." I bust out laughing at her words and so does Frank.
"Oh my god Piper, you're such a fucking slut it's amazing." He says.
"Thanks babydoll." She says. "So Hazel I'm corrupting you."
"Please don't, I like my life without the constant fear of STIs." Percy starts cackling beside me.
"Wow I'm just a punching bag today."
"Let's be real Piper, you should start purchasing lube and condoms in bulk, you'd really benefit from all the money you'd save." Percy puts his hands on her shoulders.
"Jesus, I can't enjoy sex?"
"Please, are high school boys even that good?" I ask, "Because in my experience, no, they aren't."
"Back up, since when are you not a virgin?" Percy asks.
"Uh… I was… either fifteen or fourteen." I say trying to think back.
"Same." Piper chuckles from the front seat. "But I also got a vibrator before I got a boyfriend, so, you know."
"I wish! I didn't know what an orgasm was until I was sixteen and it was not because of a penis."
"Piper, you've already corrupted Hazel, she just said penis." Percy says.
"Good." Piper says almost sternly. "Come on Jackson when did you lose your V-card?"
"Well… sixteen I think. You're sixteen sophomore year right?"
"Yeah… Wow sixteen sounds like baby age now." Frank says.
"I know." I nod, "It's like when you first turn ten and you think, wow I'm old enough to have two digits in my age, I'm so cool, but then you turn twelve or thirteen and you're like. Damn I was a child."
"Let's be real here, I regret everything I did at ages eleven through fourteen." Piper says. "What about you Frank, had any hot and steamy affairs in your short life?"
"Nah, I've never really had any desire to."
"Waiting till marriage?" Percy asks.
"Waiting till I want to have sex."
"Good it's not worth it if you don't want it." Piper says parking.
"Are you honestly trying to tell me you want some drunk jock/stoner/whatever sticking it in you every week?" Percy asks.
She unbuckles her seatbelt and turns around to face us. "Yes, and if they're just, 'sticking it in me' then I'm leaving. I like having sex, but I'll never settle for boring, just fuck me, nonsense. No, fuck that. My sex is exciting and magical, I am an absolute gift in bed, I expect no less from anyone I'm banging."
"That was real deep." Frank says tossing her wallet onto her seat.
"It's true, have you heard what the people I sleep with say about me? I might as well be some kind of goddess."
"Then please do the world a favor and tell boys that girls do not want a big dick, we want ambiance." I tell her as we pile out of the car and into the ice cream parlor.
"Believe me I do."
"I want to hear about Hazel's first time." Percy says, "She sparked my interest."
"Oh did I?" I wink at him.
"Please don't ever do that again, it's like a kitten is trying to flirt with me. It's weird and I'm taken."
"Yeah, you're taken alright, but is she?" Piper asks as we take a seat in one of the booths.
"What does that mean?" He asks.
"It means she's got your leash in one hand and a whip in the other. I'm just saying there are no pants in your relationship, from the outside of course. I could be wrong." Piper says.
"You are, you don't get to see it, but she's very soft. Around other people it's different."
"I'll believe you." Piper says. "So Hazel your first time, go."
"Uhg…" I chuckle, "So, I had this boyfriend right?"
"Oh so you're not a lesbian?" Percy teases me, I promptly kick him from under the table. "Very funny asshole."
A waiter comes around and takes our orders before I can get back to my story.
"So this guy, well, he was special. He was my first love-"
"At fourteen?" Percy chuckles.
I snort, "Fourteen would not be the last time we bang… Anyway, we were at his house because it was cold as balls outside, and we had just come back from the mall. And I laid out on his bed because I was tired. He told me he'd never seen anyone as beautiful as me in his whole life. I told him he was alright, and he climbed on top of me. We made out for twenty minutes before he ran to his parents bedroom and grabbed a condom.
"Now at this point we both realized that neither of us knew how to put on a condom. He told me he'd just pull out, but I said no fucking way. So we pull up a wikihow on how to put on a condom, and after ten minutes of trying to figure out which way it rolled on, his hard on had gone soft. So I um… Well, I had to fix that, get the condom on, and then we finally had sex."
"That's cute, honestly." Piper says wrapping an arm around my shoulders trying not to laugh.
"Go ahead and laugh." I start laughing, "It's ridiculous."
"This is why you don't have sex at fourteen." Percy teases me.
"You want to hear the funniest part?"
"Yes." Piper says resting her head in her hand.
"When he finished, and like, rolled off of me, he looks at me and goes, 'that was amazing, wasn't it?' and as he's kissing my cheek I go, 'I don't know.'"
They all start laughing really hard at that.
"Ooo, that had to hurt." Frank covers his face, as if he's trying really hard not to laugh.
"Because I'd never had sex at that point, how was I supposed to know if it was amazing or not? It was alright, but later on when I'd learn how sex was supposed to feel… Let's just say he learned to make me scream."
"Oh my fucking god, Hazel." Percy puts his head in his hand. "I remember the first time I had sex, was at a rave, but neither my girlfriend or I were high, we were just really in the mood. And I asked for a condom from one of the guys next to me. And he goes, yeah sure man, a broken one or nah?"
Piper pinches the bridge of her nose as Frank and I shake with laughter. "You have got to be kidding me."
"I'm not." Percy assures her, "I got an unbroken one and then awkwardly pinned my girlfriend against a bathroom wall and tried to have sex with her… The first time I missed her vag and just ended up sliding my condomed dick in between us. The second time I almost jammed it into her thigh. Third time I got it in and it was… An experience."
"Sure if that's what you want to call it." Frank nodded, clapping Percy's shoulder. Our sundaes and shakes arrive just in time so our waiter will not hear about our sex lives.
"Piper, spill. How'd you lose your virginity." Percy folds his arms over his chest.
She shakes her head. "You don't know me well enough for me to give you that story."
"Why not?" Frank asks genuinely.
"I don't kiss and tell."
"Fuck and tell?" Percy snorts.
"You're a piece of shit." She sighs but with a humored smile.
"So I told you how I lost my virginity because…?" I chuckle slightly but awkwardly
"Because you chose to do so without me telling you to?"
"Tell us one of your firsts then."
"Fine." She folds her arms. "The first time a gave a guy a blowjob, I demanded that he eat me out, because I'm not going to just give someone head without due payment, you know?" Percy and I laugh but not exactly at her, just at the thought. "Hazel please tell me you know the joy of being eaten out."
"Not exactly no…" I chuckle.
"You have not lived my friend." She says, "Anyway I tell him to eat me out, so I gave him his blowjob and after a like ten minute wait period He starts going down on me right? First of all he pulled me to the edge of the bed and dangled my legs off the bed. Do you know how hard it is to be pleasured like that? I was scared to like, moan or anything because what if I fall off the fucking bed and land on his face?"
"Shit man!" Percy snort.
"Yeah, so he's eating me out and he's actually not that bad at it. Let me tell you I've had some oral sex so bad I started texting in the middle of it. But he was really good, especially since it was both of our first times giving and recieving oral. So I'm like trying real hard not to fall off of the bed right?"
"This is not going good places." Frank says nervously.
"No because The was the exact moment I learned that female ejaculation is a thing."
"Mother fucker." Percy starts snorting.
"So I'm totally like, shit I just peed all other this guy's face, and I mean like, it was a lot of stuff, coming out. You know?"
"No." All three of us say between fits of laughter.
"Well, lots of stuff came out of me. And I was ready to cry when he looks up at me and says, 'damn you taste good.' And I'm like, dude what the fuck? So I go home, crying, and google whether or not that was normal. Find out yes, it is normal. And ever since I make sure that he's not the only one cuming."
"Um…. Okay." Frank said awkwardly. "So, any tips?"
Percy smacks Frank's chest. "Dude!"
"What?!" Frank starts laughing. Piper and I start giving tips on how to best get a girl hot, the guys laugh at us. Piper drives us home at the end of the night, Mrs. Di Angelo has waited for me.
"I'm sorry." I say quickly, "Am I home late?"
"No, honey, you're not. I just wanted to make sure you were okay."
"Yes, I am… Thank you."
"Of course." She smiles at me, "Did you have fun?"
"Yeah, I had a lot of fun." I tell her.
"I'm glad. Who'd you go with?"
I try not to stutter, "Oh, Piper, and Frank… And Percy."
"Boys huh?" She smirks, I feel my face start to burn with heat. "I'm kidding, it sounds like it was fun."
"It was. It was a lot of fun." I nod.
"Go on up to bed, I'm done drilling you for tonight." She says leaving as soon as the words are out of her mouth.
I find myself smiling as I head upstairs and crawl into bed.
