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Chapter 6: By The Moonlight
Starfire had been released an hour after Raven's visit. After the alien girl was able to convince the Boy Wonder in actually resting his body and mind, Cyborg too decided it was time for bed. Trying to follow suit, Beast Boy too went to his room while Raven went to hers as well. She meditated for a long while not thinking about anything. Just leaving her mind as a white slate with not a care or emotion in the world. How she wished she could stay in such a state forever. Free from worry. Finally, she opened her eyes and looked at her digital clock. "1:32 am," it read. She then realized how long the day had been for the team and herself, causing the white slate of her mind to become a charcoal gray, remembering the events of the day. Getting angry at Beast Boy. Walking into the warehouse. Slade threatening her. Taking her feelings out on herself. Seeing Starfire in sick bay. Such an unwanted rush pushed sleep away-and she knew it wasn't coming any time soon.
"Might as well do something relaxing," she thought, still not wanting to face the reality in front of her for a little bit longer. With that, she passed through the walls as a raven in an upward manner, not making a sound as she did so, and quickly made contact with the roof to find that she was not alone.
"Oh, sorry," she mumbled monotonically to the green changeling.
"Huh?" he said, coming out of a trance and turned around to see Raven with the hood of her cloak up. "Oh, it's okay." Raven turned to leave. "You don't have to go," Beast Boy said a little too quickly. Raven turned back around as Beast Boy motioned for her to sit beside him and watch the moonlight dance on the water. She levitated next to him with her legs crossed.
"You can take your hood down, dude" Beast Boy told her, "I-we don't like it when you hide."
"We?" Raven asked.
"You know, the team. You were given a face for a reason," he chuckled. Raven was slightly confused, but questioned it no further. Eventually, she did show her face. The two sat in silence beside each other. Raven looked at the moon, trying to imagine her mind as pure as the round object in front of her, so large it seemed like it was possible to reach out and touch it.
"It's okay, ya know," Beast Boy said abruptly, breaking the silence, his eyes fixed on the moon.
"What's okay?" Raven asked him, now turning to him in confusion.
"Fear," he told her, now turning his face towards hers. For half a moment, they looked at one another, but Raven quickly turned eyes back to the moon and put the hood of her cloak back over her face, for she felt uncomfortable with his emotions. She could feel his sincerity, something that she tried to keep away from. Sincerity was something she lacked. She couldn't be sincere about the way in which she felt; she could neither be sincere to her friends when she knew of her father's arrival nor could she be sincere when it came to her emotions.
"I'm not afraid," Raven said, lying.
"Because you really aren't? Or because you aren't letting yourself?" Beast Boy asked her. Raven kept her composure and her same tone.
"Why should it matter? Either way I am not fearful."
"You shouldn't not be afraid for the wrong reasons. You shouldn't feel any emotions for the wrong reasons." Beast Boy kept his eyes fixed on the moon, but brought his legs up to his chest and wrapped his arms around them. Raven continued to levitate.
"What could you possibly know about fear." This was a statement directed toward the green teenager, not a question. They both kept silent for a couple of minutes after Raven's statement, Beast Boy's mind going a mile a minute to many times in which he encountered fear.
"I know more than you think, Rae," he almost whispered to her, now standing up and made his way into the tower. Raven stayed outside for a few more minutes alone, then she too passed to her room to get as much sleep as she could, which, by the clock, wouldn't be much.
Hoped you guys liked chapters 5 and 6. My writer's block decreased some, but I have a lot of school work at the moment since it is the end of the year, so don't freak out if I don't have chapters up and soon as you want them. I also went back and looked at what I had written previously. I am sorry that some chapters were laid out differently than others, but I think I fixed them. Write a review? It really does encourage me to write further. Thanks for reading!
