Author's Note: I've been awake since four AM! about to fall asleep as i type...

Disclamer: I dont own Degrassi or it's characters...and Collapsed is a song by Aly and AJ

Chapter 7: Collapsed—Drew's POV:

"This is bad Drew. Very, very bad." Adam says as he paces in my room. It's Saturday morning.

"You think I don't know that Adam. I fucked up."

"No Drew, you didn't just fuck up. You fucked up big. She won't come here anymore. She's been at Alli's for the past four days! Five including today."

"I know Adam. Please, just stop reminding me." I flop onto my bed and cover my face with my pillow.

"You broke her. More than Eli did. More than KC. You broke her Drew."

"I know…wait, KC?"

"Her first boyfriend."

"Oh," KC. As in jock KC. Baby daddy KC? My friend KC? I didn't know that.

"Drew, why did you do that? Why, I thought you liked Clare." Adam sits down on my bed next to me.

"Honestly, I don't know."

"Drew! Think big! You do know."

"I guess…that it's because I never know how good I have it until I screw up. I guess that I'm afraid of commitment."

Adam's pale blue eyes widen, "Drew…what's gotten into you?"

"Well, when Clare would sleep over, after we became friends, we made a pact to wake up in the middle of the night to talk. And one night, after only two weeks of us talking late at night…

"Hey Drew." Clare smiles to me and sits down on the couch curling her lugs under her and turning to face me.

"Hi." I say, my thoughts not totally focused.

"What's wrong?" she asks.

I turn to her, "Nothing."

She scoffs, "Torres, I know you. So, just tell me already."

"Fine. I've been thinking about Alli."

"What about?"

"How the relationship ended."

She sighs, "You cheating on her with Bianca the super slut?"

I laugh, "Super Slut. What an exciting power. Bet everyone loves it."

"I'm sure some guys do. So, what exactly have you been thinking about."

"I know why I cheated, but I don't. Does that make sense?"

She smiles lightly, "Actually, I have a theory."

I turn to sit criss-cross and face her, "Do tell Miss Edwards. Do tell."

"Well, I think that you cheated because it just…it's what you do…" she pauses, "Not to say that..ugh…this theory sounds better in my head."

"Continue."

"Well, I think that maybe you cheated because you're afraid."

"Afraid? of what exactly?"

"Commitment. Finding out that what you have is a lie. Being so close to someone, but you just psych yourself out and believe that you…that you…what's the word?"

"Ass? Jerk? Stupid?"

"No…maybe you believe that what you have isn't what they deserve, like they're better than you and deserve better people. So you ruined the relationship with Alli."

"Or maybe I'm just a big ass who screws up."

She laughs, "Maybe.""

"Cute." Adam says.

"Shut up." I hit him with a pillow. He laughs.

"Drew, do you like her?"

"Yeah."

"Like her like her? Or in an I-like-her-for-now kind-of way?"

I'm silent. Adam's eyes lock with mine.

"Is it something else?"

I nod my head.

"What?"

"I think I love her." I shyly say.

"Then you've got to get your shit in order." Adam smiles.

"Adam! She hates me. What am I going to do?"

"Anything and everything."

A knock comes from my door and when I look up Alli's standing there. "Can we talk?"

Author's Note: hey there! i hope you enjoyed this...this is what i like to call a mix of procrastination and sleep deprivation...oh yeah...and a loooong car ride.

Sneak Peak: Clare's Saturday morning consists of talking with Alli and...getting interrogated by Sav, Peter, and Spinner?

xoxoxo Cat