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Edward POV.

Bella fits perfectly into our family, Esme was right she was the missing piece in all our lives. Esme, like the rest of my family, had really taken to Bella, when she first saw her she thought she was one of the most beautiful people she had ever seen, I of course whole heartedly agreed. It was challenge for me to get anything done, I wanted to stare at her all day, she mesmerized me. Esme is planning on asking me to ask Bella to move in with us permanently, I would love her to, but I'm not sure how she would feel about moving out of her fathers house as she has only just moved back into it.

I know when we were human she regretted not spending more time with him, she wrote to him often, but Charlie was a man of few words so it wasn't the same as being with him in person. I think she feels like living in his house some how makes up for it. I wont let her go back there at the moment anyway, its far too dangerous with James lurking around. She might say she can handle herself but I would never take that risk, I'm going to do everything in my power to protect her, I haven't been there to protect her for the past 90 years but I plan on making up for it.

James is going to have to wait for now, I have a much more awkward situation on my hands. The Denali's are arriving today and I have yet to speak to Tanya, I don't think I'm going to get a chance to talk to her on her own either. Bella has been tense ever since It was mentioned, I tried to reassure her but she just brushes it off telling me she's fine and putting on a brave face. I've asked Alice to look ahead for me, but she can't really see much as I haven't decide how to tell Tanya yet.

This shouldn't be difficult, Tanya knows the score, I've always told her that I will only ever love one person, and can never care for her more than a friend. I know she thinks I might change my mind one day, but I wouldn't and I told her so too.

Its Saturday afternoon and were sat around the living room waiting for the Denali's to arrive. Alice and Rosalie are flicking through the latest Vogue, Jasper and Emmett are playing video games, Carlisle and Esme are both reading books cuddled up on the sofa together and Bella is sat reading Sense and Sensibility, again. I sat watching her for a while, her face is so animated, but then I got fidgety and realized I hadn't actually played my piano in a while, I had been too distracted by Bella to play.

I walked over to my piano and sat down to play Bella's lullaby. It took on a whole new feel and meaning. It used to sound sad and mournful but now it sounded happy, hopeful even. I poured my heart and soul into it, not noticing when all my family had stopped what they were doing to watch and listen to me play, I was too absorbed. Absorbed in my love for Bella, the relief of being back with her, the dark part of my life was over and Bella, my light, had lit a bright blazing fire inside of me.

I finished the song and turned to face the room. Startled by my audience and bombarded by my families loving thoughts, even Emmett and Jasper were stunned. Bella was right by my side and I hadn't even noticed.

That was so beautiful and it has been so long since I last heard it Edward, thank you for not forgetting it. I love you so much.

"I could never forget it Bella, I love you too my love."

Our moment was interrupted by tire tracks working their way up the mile long driveway to our house. Our guests' thoughts were complimenting the area and their excitement to see us all. I took in a deep breath and took hold of Bella's hand. My family gave me a big smile and reassured me that it would be ok. Alice was looking a little unsure and humming Bella's lullaby in her mind to preoccupy herself.

We walked out onto the porch to greet our friends, Bella and I kept to the back, not wanting to shock them all too much. They didn't know much about Bella, just her name, that she was dead, that I love her and she was the reason I couldn't love Tanya.

A big 4x4 Land Rover, pulled up in front of our house and Eleazar, Carmen, Kate, Irina and Tanya got out from the car and walk up to the porch.

Carlisle and Esme greeted them first.

"Welcome friends, it has been too long, much has changed here in the last few days, we have a new addition to the family." Bella smiled slightly when Carlisle said that. Tanya was looking over our family's head's trying to see me, not really listening to what Carlisle was saying, more occupied with finding me.

"Really Carlisle, That's excellent news. Do we have a new born on our hands or like Alice and Jasper did they find you?" Eleazar asked excitedly.

"They found us; Edward would you like to do the honors?"

"Perhaps we should go inside first, were people can be more comfortable." I walked Bella inside and we sat down on the sofa, she seemed really nervous and kept her distance from me. I didn't like that but I wanted to respect her feelings. I wish she would open her connection so I could know what she was thinking.

My family followed us in first and took seats in various areas of the room, then the Denali family came into the room and focused there eye's on Bella. Who held her head up high and smiled at them politely, despite the death glare she was receiving from Tanya.

Who the hell is she?! She better not try anything with Edward, I swear to god I would rip her apart, after all these years of hard work. I coughed and she remembered I could hear her thoughts. I'm sorry Edward but she's not getting her skanky claws into you. I glared at her and then turned to the others.

"I would like you all to meet Bella." They looked confused and stunned, wondering if this was the same Bella, or just a different girl with the same name. "…My Bella." I finished, taking hold of Bella's hand and moving closer to her. Thankfully she didn't pull away; she squeezed my hand tight and moved closer also.

At first they didn't respond. Tanya's thoughts were sad, I felt bad that I was the cause of it. However the sad thoughts didn't last long and they soon turned murderous.

"Aren't you supposed to be dead?" She sneered. Kate hit her sister on the arm and stepped forward to shake Bella's hand; Bella stood and shook her hand, introducing herself properly. Irina and Carmen both came up and said hello and introduced themselves to Bella. She smiled and told them how pleased she was to meet them, but I could tell she felt awkward. Eleazar had yet to say anything and he was keeping his thoughts hidden. Tanya was having murderous thoughts not only about Bella but about her sisters as well for being so kind to her.

Then Eleazar suddenly looked to me. "Does Aro know?" He said in a fearful voice.

"What's the matter Eleazar?" Carmen asked.

"Does Aro know Edward?"

"Know what?" I was puzzled as to what he could mean, know about me living with the Cullen's? How could he?

"That you and Isabella are together again?"

"You knew?!!" I charged for him, I was so angry that he, a person I classed as a true friend had kept Bella from me. Bella wrapped her arms around me and held me back.

No Edward! I know how you feel, but he isn't the one to blame. Fighting isn't going to help any. She pulled me round to face her and cupped my face in her little hands. I blocked out all other thoughts around me and focused on her. It calmed me enough not to want to kill Eleazar, but he wasn't going to get off lightly. I put my hands on top of hers and wrapped them around me. Then I turned back to face Eleazar.

"Explain." I demanded.

"I found you, both of you. It was my last year working for the Volturi. I was sent to America to find potential guard members. I stumbled upon you two whilst out hunting in Chicago. You were laying in each others arms in a small meadow. The first thing I noticed was how delicious you both smelt. The combination of both your scents was divine, but then I picked up your abilities. Edward yours was faint but had potential to be powerful, and I could tell it would be similar to Aro's ability, it had that similar taste to it. However, you, Miss Isabella, had powers even before you were a vampire. It was the strongest shield I had ever sensed. I believed you would both be most valuable to Aro, as you have been.

I didn't know what I had done until it was too late. I thought it was just young love, naive and short lived. I was no longer part of the guard once Isabella had been recruited so I had no control over the situation. Aro thought it best to separate the two of you and Caius agreed. Marcus tested your bond and it was stronger than any bond he had ever sensed, he warned them that it would be impossible to keep you apart. So they let you each believe the other was dead. Aro told me keep it a secret as part of him letting me leave so easily. It was selfish and I'm sorry I hid it from you for so long Edward."

I wanted to hate Eleazar, but this was Aro's doing, I knew what he could be like, you have to be selfish when it comes to the Volturi, they kill you otherwise. Eleazar had a family to look after, I would keep that kind of secret if it meant me and Bella would be safe.

"Eleazar, this is most upsetting. You saw how much pain Edward was in, how could you let him go through it?"

"I'm sorry Esme I really am, but once he knows that your back together, and even worse than your part of the Cullen family now, he will try and destroy you. Marcus warned them this would happen."

"It's ok, I understand, there is a bigger villain than you in this." I told him, trying not to worry about when Aro would find out. Bella looked up at me and smiled. I had forgotten all about Tanya in this revelation, she was still shooting daggers at Bella and trying to think of ways to win me back. I thought she would understand.

"Tanya, stop it please." I asked her annoyed.

The room turned to face her, and she scowled at me and Bella.

"I'm not doing anything Edward, don't start with me. It's you that has done this." She stepped forward as if to attack me, she was furiously mad, but with me this time.

Bella stepped in front of me and Alice and Kate stepped in front of her.

"Tanya, you've always known the score with Edward, you chose this. No one could have known that Bella would come back, not even me." Alice told her sternly.

"She's right sis, you know she is." Kate said sadly, feeling bad that her sister was in pain, but happy that I could be happy, and that Tanya could now get over me and find someone to love her the right way.

Tanya didn't want to admit that they were right, and felt betrayed by them, she was embarrassed to be shown up in front of Bella, so she raced out of the house. I was feeling so guilty now, I never wanted to cause her any pain, she had been a great comfort to me, when I was feeling my lowest.

"Bella, I know you won't understand this but I have to go see if she's ok."

"What?! She was going to attack you Edward."

"She wouldn't have hurt me, I know she wouldn't. Look I'll be back as soon as I can ok?"

"Fine." she turned her head away from me so I couldn't kiss her, but I wasn't having that. I pulled her by her chin to face me and kissed her, hard. She resisted at first but then kissed me back passionately. Reminding me why I love her so much. I pulled away from her and then ran for the door chasing after Tanya's scent.

I caught up with her easily and forced her to stop.

"What do you want Edward? You have everything you wanted now, why are you here?"

"I never meant to hurt you Tanya, you know that. I told you about Bella, right when we first met, you said you understood."

"Yeah well I don't anymore."

"I told you I could never love you the way you deserve to be loved. That belongs to Bella, my heart belongs to Bella."

"What's so special about her anyway? She's not even that pretty, she's no where near good enough for you. She's just going to hurt you by returning to Italy."

"Tanya don't start. She's my soul mate, she's perfect for me."

"I'm perfect for you Edward! We were going to be together. I planned a life for us together."

"Why would you want that?! I don't love you. I can't love you." I was getting angry now, she just wasn't listening.

"Oh you can sleep with me but you can't love me. Does she know what we did? How you worshipped my body and screamed my name?"

"Yes she knows! I would never have slept with you if I had Bella. I can't take back what I did, but this is not Bella's fault and I won't have you blaming her."

"Whatever Edward, I know you'll come back to me when she has to go back to Italy. Or when you realize that your too good for her."

"She won't be going back to Italy. I don't even know why I'm bothering, you never listen anyway." I ran a hand through my hair and tried to think of a way to convince her that this was what I wanted and that she was better off without me.

I was caught off guard, she was getting better at hiding her thoughts, one second she was standing a few feet away from me, the next she was pouncing in my arms lips pressed firmly on my mouth. I tried to push her away, but she was using all her vampire strength to hold me.

Don't fight it Edward I know you want me.

I kept trying to push her away but she wouldn't budge and I didn't really wanna hurt her.

With in a flash Bella was standing behind Tanya. She tapped her on the shoulder and Tanya turned around to see who it was. Bella punched Tanya in the face sending her flying sideways into a tree beside us. She crumpled into a heap at the bottom the tree, startled by what just happened.

"What do you think you are doing? He told you specifically that he does not love you and does not want you and still you try and force yourself on him. Do you have a death wish?"

"Bella did you follow me?" I was slightly insulted but also kinda liking the jealous Bella.

"Yes I did and it was a good job I did too. This hussy was trying to stick her tongue down your throat."

"You can't just walk back into his life and take him you know. He had a new life and he was happy with me." Tanya said getting up from the floor and brushing herself off.

"I wasn't happy Tanya, this is what I keep trying to tell you, I can't be happy without Bella. Everyday without her I wished I was dead."

The others joined us now, summoned by a vision Alice had of Bella attacking Tanya.

I wrapped my arms around Bella as a precaution.

"So how much did you hear Bella? Did you hear the part about Edward moaning my name?" Tanya was causing a scene on purpose now, almost taunting Bella. It was cruel.

"Tanya, I really don't want to hurt you." Bella said through clenched teeth.

Tanya cackled at Bella, Kate pounced in front of Bella instinctively protecting her family. I tightened my grip, but I had a feeling it would be no good against Bella. I was right she slipped out of my arms and was charging into Kate to knock her out of the way. Kate managed to get her hands on her only to be shaken off. Bella now stood face to face with Tanya, both women looking like they were ready to kill. Emmett was loving it. Girl on girl fighting. Alice and Rose rarely fought but he loved it when they did.

"Last warning, Tanya. Stay away from my fiancée."

"Fiancée? Ha! Who do you think been keeping his bed warm for the past 30 odd years."

Bella pushed Tanya hard in the chest, sending her flying 100 meters through the trees. Bella crouched down ready for the counter attack. I was slightly too stunned to react. The teenage boy in me was also quite aroused, along with Emmett and Jasper's inner teenage boys. Tanya pounced back like a panther, they started rolling around on the floor, Bella had the upper hand and started pounding into Tanya.

Edward don't you think you should do something? Carlisle asked me mentally.

That brought me to my senses. "Jasper, Emmett, get your minds out of the gutter and come and give me a hand would you. Emmett you take Tanya, me and Jasper will get Bella."

We managed to pries the pair apart, but they were still growling insults and snapping their teeth at each other. Bella wasn't fighting with us too much, but she was still difficult to control.

Edward I think I need to go cool off... Let me go, i'll be back in an hour or so. I love you, but this bitch is getting on my nerves. Sort her out by the time I get back, or I'll do it myself.

I let her go, and gestured for Jasper to do the same, he seemed unsure as he could feel the anger charging from her. "Jasper, please, I'll be fine honesty, I'm just going to go cool off." She said to him sweetly. He released her and she turned to Rosalie.

"Rose, watch her for me would you? Don't let that bitch out of your sights." She said gesturing to Tanya. Rosalie nodded and winked at Bella with a small smile across her lips. Tanya isn't going to be allowed within two feet of you Edward. Rosalie told me mentally. Tanya glared at Bella, struggling pointlessly against Emmett strong arms that were locked around her.

With that Bella took off into the woods, not looking back.


Bella POV

I had to get away from there, my fighting instincts were kicking in. I ran through the trees faster than I thought possible. I probably shouldn't have followed Edward and Tanya in the first place, but I didn't trust her and didn't want Edward left alone with her.

How dare she try and kiss him. She was right about some things, he is too good for me, and after all the horrible things I've done for the Volturi over the years I don't deserve someone like Edward.

Great impression I had made on the family too, after Carlisle actually introduced me as part of their family I go and make a show of myself. I'm such a fool.

There it is again. That strong musky scent that hurts my nose, wolf apparently. Carlisle said something about wolves the other day as well, something about letting the wolves know the Denali's were arriving, I didn't understand what they were talking about, but figured that if it was important, they would tell me.

I decided to follow it and see what it led me to. I wasn't running long when I came face to face with the largest wolf I had ever seen, close to the size of a horse, it had the most beautiful red russet fur. The wolf was growling at me and baring its teeth, its heckles were standing on end, positioned to attack. I suppose I should have been afraid but I was just in awe of such a beautiful animal.

Very suddenly it lowered its heckles and hid its teeth, as if for some reason it no longer saw me as a threat. It held up a paw as a sign for me to wait, it was such a strange human gesture, I began to wonder if this animal really was a wolf. The wolf jogged back into the bushes and emerged as a very tall, very good looking Native American. I gasped in amazement. He was wearing nothing but a pair of shorts, showing off most of his skin, which was a beautiful shade of colour.

He stood in front of me, arms folded across his chest and giving me a very strange look.

"Hello." I said timidly.

"Hi. Are you the new one then?"

"Excuse me?"

"The new one? The mind readers mate? Edward, or whatever his name is."

"Yes I suppose I am the new one." I sighed. Maybe I wouldn't be so accepted after today.

"Sorry about the growling and stuff, I didn't notice your eyes at first. I thought you were one of the people blood suckers." He said kicking the dirt around at his feet in a very child like gesture.

"That's alright, but erm.. Who are you?"

"I'm Jacob Black, second in command in the pack."

"Nice to meet you Jacob, I'm Bella. Erm.. The pack? Am I supposed to know what that is?"

"You mean the Cullen's didn't tell you?" I looked at him puzzled and he let out a groan and ran his hand through his short black spiky hair.

"Stupid leaches, they said they were going to take care of it. Can't trust them to do anything. I guess if you want a job done you have to do it yourself. Sit down." He said gruffly.

He sat on the ground with his legs crossed and gestured for me to join him. This was all very bewildering, but I followed anyway and copied his sitting position.

Jacob proceeded to tell me all about the Quileute Tribe and legends off that tribe. They were apparently decedents of wolves and were actually shape shifters, but called themselves werewolves because it sounded cooler. They could transform into wolves whenever they liked, there change was not determined by the full moon. The wolves only enemy is the Vampire, or as it is known by them, cold one or blood drinker, they were created for the sole purpose of protecting their people from the vampires. I laughed at this, because how this boy sitting in front of me could be the enemy was absurd. Although apparently my laughter insulted him slightly.

"What you think I couldn't kill you?"

"No that's not it, although I am puzzled by that, but I was laughing at the idea that I could class you as an enemy. I know far worse people than you."

"Ha, nobody is scarier than me!" He guffaw and I laughed along with him. It was so easy to be around him, I barely even noticed the smell anymore.

"So tell me more, why is it you don't attack me?"

"Your eyes, they're gold. We have an agreement, treaty actually, with your leader, the doctor. If you don't come on our land and you don't kill a human, we will keep out your way and wont tell everyone what you really are. Which technically you have broken, but I'll let you off since your new."

"Oh sorry I didn't realize, where are the boarders to your land?"

"It's a semi circle that runs around the reservation; your blood sucker will show it to you hopefully."

"Ok should I leave now?" I asked not wanting to impose on his land any longer.

"Nah your alright, you seem different to them and you don't smell as bad either, which is odd." He said taking a closer sniff.

"Thank you I guess..."

"That's alright, and I think we have you to thank, for scaring off those bad blood suckers last week, am I right?"

"Er yeah I guess... although I seemed to have picked one of them up as a stalker."

"Should you be out here on your own then? Shouldn't Edward be looking after you?"

"I can handle myself, anyway Edwards busy." I said frowning.

"Ooo, trouble in Vampire paradise?."

"His ex girlfriend has dropped by for a visit." I sneered

"Woah don't want to get on the wrong side of you. Although I have to say you don't look like you could do much damage. You're pretty tiny."

"I could say the same about you, apart from the tiny bit, you're probably double my height and don't forget your still human you know."

"Yeah but killing you is what I'm built for baby, so I'm all good. Plus we heal like seriously fast." He said laughing. I rolled my eyes at him. "You got any special powers that I should know about Bella?"

"Nothing you need to worry about, I have a shield. I can use it to protect people from mental attacks. So like Edward can't read my mind, but I still get seen in Alice's visions."

"Alice is the one that can see the future?" I nodded

"So you're like us then Bella, protectors of the people."

"Indeed I am. How old are you Jacob? You look like your about 25 but I have a feeling your still quite young."

"Yeah I'm 17 in a few weeks."

"Wow and you take on all of this by yourself?"

"I'm not on my own, I have my pack and my dad's pretty supportive, he's one of the tribe leaders."

"But Jacob you could get hurt, you have your whole life ahead of you."

"I told you don't worry about me, I'm designed for this. How about you, you don't look like you would be much older than me, but you sound old."

"I'm a 108, I was changed into a vampire when I was 18 years old."

Jacob let out a low whistle. "Now that is old. We wolves stay young as well, as long as we keep phasing into our wolf selves we can stay the age we are, but when we stop phasing we grow old." I smiled at him and he smiled back. I felt lifted just being around him. He was so different from vampires, with whom I had spent the majority of my existence with, its been so long since I talked to some who isn't a vampire without having to hide anything.

"Thank you for talking to me Jacob, I really needed to take my mind off things."

"No problem Bella, I don't mind talking to you, you're far less creepy than the others." I laughed and then he stood up, holding out a hand to help me up.

"You don't have to touch me, I'll be much too cold for you."

"And i'll be much too hot for you, but were friends now right?" I took hold of his blazing hot hand and he pulled me up to stand. His hand didn't feel too hot, it felt normal, almost as if my cold hand and his hot hand cancelled each other out, making it feel just the right temperature. I shook his hand and smiled broadly at him.

"Well that was odd." he said letting go of my hand.

"Yeah it was." I agreed. "See you soon Jacob. It was really nice meeting you."

"You too Bella. Um yeah... see you around.. I guess."

He walked over to the bushed unbuttoning his shorts as he went. I turned and ran back in the direction of the house. Feeling happy and ready to handle Tanya. I'm not going to let her ruin my new found happiness with Edward and the Cullen's.

When I reached the house, all seemed quite quiet. I could hear Emmett and Jasper were back playing video games and Esme was telling Carmen and Irina about the recent changes she had made to the house. Carlisle and Edward were in his study talking about me, great. I didn't even want to know what they thought of me now. Tanya, Rosalie and Alice were in Alice's room also talking about me. I didn't want to listen to that either. I blocked it out and focused on the noise of Emmett and Jasper's video games.

"Isabella?" Eleazar's voice rang through my ears, over the gun shots and radio talk from the video game, although I couldn't see him yet. He appeared from round the side of the house and walked over towards me. I wasn't mad at him, I couldn't when I knew what Aro could be like, manipulative and blackmailing, especially with Caius whispering in his ear like the devil on his shoulder.

"Eleazar, can I please apologize for my behavior before. I feel awfully embarrassed."

"No, don't be silly, sad to say the shame is on my family. Tanya should never have behaved in such a way, you have just been caught in the middle of an awkward situation. And I also wish to apologize again to you about my decision regarding your separation from Edward."

"I don't blame you, I couldn't blame you. I know what Aro can be like."

"Thank you, for your generous forgiveness. However I must express my fear, Aro sees you as a prize possession. You have been unbelievably valuable to him and he has no way of controlling you other than your own loyalty towards him and your grief over loosing Edward."

"What do you think he will do when he finds out about me and Edward?"

"You know him better than I do my dear."

"He'll kill me. I heard him tell Caius that if I joined the Cullen's then he would destroy me." I said almost sobbing.

"Now, I believe that has more to do with his fear of Carlisle than his want of killing you. I still correspond with Aro from time to time and he always speaks of you highly, I know you are more than just another of his guard members. What are you going to do?"

"Nothing, for now. I'm too scared of being without Edward to do anything. Aro thinks I'm in Chicago and as long as he believes that I can be here with Edward."

"Very well. If there's anything I can ever do to make up my mistakes to you and Edward please tell me. I've felt so guilty about this for so long now."

I placed a hand on his arm and smiled at him. I felt very sad and afraid now after talking to Eleazar.

I walked into the house and sat on the sofa next to Emmett and Jasper.

"Woah Bella you stink! Have you been hanging around with wolves?" Emmett said wafting the air away from him.

"Yeah thanks for the heads up about them by the way." I said sarcastically.

"They didn't try to attack you did they?" Jasper asked concerned.

"No of course not, Jacob filled me in on everything, you know the treaty and stuff."

"Oh right ok, who's Jacob?"

"The second in command. I guess he's like the Beta." I told them.

"Oh that's the red-ish one then. We only know them by colour and that the leaders called Sam."

"Edward's not going to like that you've been talking to wolves Bella."

"No he's not." Edward said descending the stairs into the lounge.

"Bella you stink love."

"Why does everyone keep saying that? I don't smell that bad."

"Yes you do and it's not a good idea to go near those things anyway."

"Things?!" I shouted annoyed that he was insulting my new friend.

"Yes the wolves are reckless and immature, they are constantly disrespectful towards Carlisle and I don't like them." He said folding his arms as if that should be the end of the discussion.

"Do you all feel this way about them? Because as far as I can see they are doing a good job, there no need to insult them for it."

"The amount of times we've had to step in and help them over the last year you would think they would show some respect." Jasper said putting down his controller.

"There only young Jasper, you can't expect them to behave like you."

"Exactly, they are immature and reckless. they are not safe to be around, they can't control there tempers and could lash out on you if you said the wrong thing." He said also crossing his arms at me.

"I think your being quite hypocritical. Apart from Carlisle, we only have to smell human blood and we turn into monsters, intent on taking a life, the wolves are child play compared to that." The three boys crossed there arms and looked down at the floor, knowing full well that I had a very valid point.

"It's not the same." Emmett mumbled.

"No, its worse." I said crossing my own arms now and glaring at the three of them.

"Alright Bella, enough with the guilt, we just don't want you to get hurt." Jasper said concerned.

"I don't want you around them ok? I worry about you too much, we all do." Edward said making me feel guilty now. I sighed, perhaps I could change his mind another today, today I would give in.

"Fine if that's what makes you feel better."

"It does, we all feel much better don't we guys?" He pulled me into a hug and kissed the top of my head.

"Yep defiantly." Emmett said picking his controller up again.

I nuzzled into Edwards shirt, soaking up his scent. Squeezing him tightly and not wanting to let go.

Is it taken care of Edward? I asked him mentally.

He looked down at my face and nodded.

Can we go be alone somewhere please? I needed to be close to him, just to re connect with him. I had been keeping my distance until I was sure it was over between him and Tanya. I really didn't want to be caught up in any love triangle.

We walked out the back door and walked down by the river that ran along near there house. We lay down beside it and wrapped each other up in each others arms. Eleazar was right; Aro was never going to willingly let us be together. I can't loose Edward now, not now that I have him back.

"Edward can we get married soon?"

"Whenever you like my love, but what's the hurry, we have forever you know?"

"We always said we would grow old with each other when we were young, but we were wrong and it was taken away from us before I even got the chance to be your wife. I'm sorry if I sound pessimistic, but I don't want this to all go away again, without becoming your wife first."

"I know love, I understand. It all seems too good to be true for me too. Shall we see how quickly Alice can organize a wedding for us?"

"Are you sure she wouldn't mind, I wouldn't want to put her out or anything." Edward laughed and kissed my head.

"Alice will be upset if we don't ask her. You should have seen Emmett and Rosalie's second wedding. It was like a wedding bomb went off. She had me and Jasper doing flower arrangements." I smiled. Thinking about what my dream wedding would look like. I opened my connection so Edward could see it too.

"That looks perfect Bella. I'm sure Alice can do all of that for us easily."

We lay on the grass for the rest of the evening staring up into the stars and listening to the river next to us. I'd never felt so content and at least for now, no one could take it away from us.

***

On the Sunday, Tanya apologized to me, and I apologized back. We weren't really on speaking terms, but we could hold our tongues and our fists around each other and that was enough. The rest of her family were lovely, I had be come very close with Kate who was fascinated that her power of electrocution didn't work on me and kept on trying to creep on me to catch me off guard. She didn't believe it possible for my shield to be strong enough to always be up, that it had to have a weak spot in it somewhere. It caused a lot of amusement for Emmett to watch Kate get thwarted by me every time. He seemed very proud of his new sister and wanted to try out new tricks with her. Provoking Kate and then getting me to protect him by stretching my shield around him. It was even funnier when he took things a little bit too far and I let my shield drop without him knowing as he deserved a little bit of a shock. This also caused amusement for many other members of our family.

Kate was telling me how she used to only be able to shock people in her hands but now trained it up to be across the whole of her body. She asked me for tips in training up her powers, but I wouldn't tell her, I could never encourage people to train there powers up the way I had.

Jasper and myself had become quite close, often Alice and Edward would have one of there silent conversation, leaving me and Jasper out. He would tell me about his time in the south with Maria and how he made the change to vegetarianism, meeting Alice and then joining the Cullen's. I was fascinated and pleased that I wasn't the only one with a dirty past. Jasper occasionally asked me questions about Volterra and what their procedure with criminal trials was, but I didn't want to talk about it. Thankfully, with him always reading my emotions, any discomfort and he changed the subject.

Edward had tried to talk to me about Volterra as well, he asked about my training, but I didn't want to tell him I was too ashamed. He would think I was weak and cruel.

I started having sessions with Carlisle, they were all clearly worried that I couldn't open up about Volterra, and so this was a type of therapy. Although they called them "Chats", I did my best to distract Carlisle by asking him questions about his own life history. It appeared the only person I had come close to opening up to was Jasper. I guess I thought maybe he wouldn't judge me as much as the others, what with his past life being as blood filled as mine.

My breath of fresh air was found in Rosalie. Every time I talked to Alice it was about Wedding plans, the same with Esme. When it got too much, myself and Rose would head out to the garage and work on my car. She put in a new more powerful engine for me and put in a new stereo, so that I could just plug in my ipod rather than using cd's. She was like wonder woman for cars and she was teaching me so much. Never asking about my past or any questions that might be classed as too personal, it wasn't as if she was just being polite either, she genuinely couldn't care less. She was just pleased she had a new friend who liked cars as much as she did.

It was coming to the end of a rather busy week and the Denali family were going home today. I was sad to see them go, well most of them anyway, but they said they would come down again for the wedding. Which was going to be in two weeks time. I can't believe that Alice can organized a whole wedding within three weeks. I am constantly pleasantly surprised by this family.

I had tried to convince Edward to let me go and visit Jacob again, but he wouldn't let me. Even when I said he could come with me, just so that he could see that everything was ok. I didn't want to go behind his back but if he didn't let me go with his approval then I would go without it.

Although now I think of it I wasn't sure how to find Jacob again. Do I just run along the boarder in hope of bumping into him? I guess that's what I'll have to do.

I was planning on taking a drive with Rosalie today we were going to test out the new engine properly. So far we had only taken it for a few spins around Forks, but now we really wanted to open her up.

I let Rosalie dive first as she did most of the hard work.

"This thing is a beast Rose; you did a really good job." I said as we practically flew down the highway.

"I know it feels awesome." She said pushing her foot down harder on the accelerator.

Rihanna was blasting out of the speakers from my new stereo. Rose turned the music down and slowed the car down as well.

"Something wrong?" I couldn't hear any cop cars, so I didn't think it was them.

"Bella I think you need to talk to someone." This was strange. She was my breath of fresh air. Why did she have to start on me too?

"Rose are we really going to do this? I thought you didn't care?"

"I don't care what you did, but I do care about you and about my family. They are driving me up the wall trying to find ways to get you to open up. They think you have unresolved issues."

"So? Can't they stay unresolved?"

"Apparently not, they elected Emmett to talk to me, about talking to you."

"So this is an intervention."

"Sorry."

"No, I'm sorry, I didn't mean for it to upset everyone so much."

"Just talk to Edward then or Carlisle even."

"I can't talk to either of them. They would judge me and not understand. Carlisle saves lives, he doesn't kill them."

"Is that what it's about then? Killing people? We've all slipped, well except Carlisle; even Esme killed a human once. Although I'm proud to say I've never drank human blood I have killed 6 humans. I took revenge, and I feel so glad that I did it. Carlisle forgave me for that, he can forgive you for whatever you did."

"I still don't think I could look him in the eye and tell him. He would be horrified. The same with Edward, I don't think I could look him in the eye again after telling him."

"What about Jasper? You seem to have a lot in common."

"If I agree to talk to Jasper, do you think everyone will get off my case?"

"For now. But then Alice will be able to spend all her time talking to you about wedding plans we have your dress fitting to do yet you know." I giggled excitedly and thought how good the wedding would be. Alice had agreed to every one of my requests and with her only request being that it could be a little bit bigger. I don't know how she could make it bigger as I didn't actually have many friends and since none of my friends from Volterra were invited, that left a couple of people from school and the Denali's, who were more Edward's guests than mine.

"Alright deal, but no more crap out of you, unless it's about cars, shoes or the time you caught Emmett trying on your underwear, I don't want to hear it!" She laughed, and I laughed too easing the tension between us.

***

Time for my afternoon "Chat" with Carlisle. Jasper, Edward and Myself all walked into his office and sat on the couch, not really understanding what was going on as Rosalie had been hiding her thoughts and once Alice saw what was going on she also was hiding it, although gave me an encouraging smile to show that it would work.

I walked back into the house and instantly searched for Edward, I didn't have to look far as I could hear his piano music playing and I headed for there.

I tiptoed up behind him to try and catch him off guard and surprise him. I should have known better.

"Hello sweet heart. Have you had a nice day with Rosalie?" he said without taking his fingers off the keys.

"How did you know it was me?" I asked rather put out, I thought i had the advantage.

"Your scent. You know I can't get enough of it."

"Ah I'm going to start having to hang around with wolves more to hide it." I said sitting down on the piano bench next to him and kissing his cheek.

He groaned and turned his face to kiss me properly; he'd given up trying to convince me that the wolves were a bad idea and had just taken to pretending I hadn't said anything.

"I miss you today." He said between kisses.

"I missed you too" I told him running my hands through his hair and lightly stroking the back of his neck with my finger tips.

"How about you don't leave me again? Just stay right here on this bench and never ever stop kissing me?" He brought his hands up to my own hair and pushed the back of my head into his, his tongue dancing around my mouth, distracting me from what I wanted to ask him.

I fought my desires and pulled back, "I would love to Edward, but I have Carlisle's "chat" later and I would like you and Jasper to join me."

He looked puzzled and then concentrated looking away from me and into the rest of the house, after about a minuet he turned back to face me.

"What is Alice and Rosalie trying to hide from me? Why do you want Jasper there? Bella is everything ok?" trust him to over react.

"Calm down Edward, everything's fine, I would just like to talk to the three of you. You don't have to wait long to find out." I smiled at him and he frowned at me, still worried. I rolled my eyes and went back to kissing him for the time being.

In the "Chats" usually I just sat there whilst Carlisle asked questions and then I reflected them back to him and I ended up listening to him and learning about his life, so when I walked in with Jasper and Edward, I was unsure how to start.

"Right." I said standing up in the middle room, whilst Carlisle sat behind his desk and Jasper and Edward sat on the large brown leather sofa looking at me. "Ok, look I appreciate what your all trying to do, but frankly its been unnecessary and most unsubtle, despite your efforts." They frowned and averted there gaze.

"However, I probably do need to get some stuff off my chest, but as you know find it very difficult, I've done some not very nice stuff which I'm not proud of and understandable have fears that I will be judged by my past actions. Volturi life is a lot different from the ones you've had and the one that's come closest to is Jasper's. I'm so sorry Jasper this is going to sound so bad, but you're the only one I feel comfortable even thinking about talking about this stuff too, because you've had a kind of murky past as well..."

"It's ok Bella I understand. It's one of the reasons I found it so easy to talk to you as well. It's obvious you haven't had a clean past, with all the guilt I feel coming off you when we talk about Volterra." I smiled at him gratefully.

Then I turned to Edward, I knew this would probably hurt him, to find that I couldn't talk to him about some stuff. "Edward, please try and understand, I love you so much and am doing this for you, but I can't sit and tell you about some of the horrible things I've done and watch you try and mask your horror."

"Bella, I'm trying to understand, I'm disappointed that you think anything could change the way I feel about you or how I think of you. We aren't supposed to have secrets either Bella, even when we were human we agreed to never have secrets."

"I know, but that's the second part of my plan. I'll talk to Jasper and you and Carlisle can listen. I just don't want to see your face when I tell you, please if its ok with Jasper I'd like to do it this way." I looked around at the three of them as they contemplated my plan. Carlisle had yet to say anything.

"If it's what you feel comfortable with Bella then that's fine with me. All I want is to help you move past this, whatever it is." Carlisle said with a reassuring smile. I smiled back relived and turned to Edward.

"If it's what you want, but no offence to Jasper, and I know your wondering it yourself Jazz, but do you think you know Jasper well enough to tell him?" This was a silly question to me. I had made an instant connection to Jasper. It was like we were two parts of the same thing, different but the same. He was the bigger brother an only child like me could only dream of.

"Without a doubt I would trust Jasper with my life." I said to Edward and then turned to Jasper. "I may have only known you for just over a week, but I feel like I've known you almost my whole life. I already feel like I know you well enough to call you my brother. That is if you feel the same about me...?" I said feeling like I may have been a bit presumptuous.

"Of course, Bella, I feel exactly the same. You're my sister and I will do anything you ask of me to help you, if you think it will make a difference." I grinned, I was excited, Jasper sent me a wave of brotherly/sisterly love that he was obviously feeling and I couldn't help but jump up and down, despite feeling scared about having to reveal my secrets. Edward and the others laughed at me and then he got up from the sofa and wrapped his arms around me.

Thank you Edward for being so understanding, I honestly don't deserve you. I will do anything to make it up to you.

A wicked grin came across his face. "Hmm well you really shouldn't have said that." I giggled and Edward nibbled on my ear slightly his hand moving down my side and cupped my ass.

Jasper cleared his throat and raised an eyebrow, smirking.

"So when do you want to do this Bella?" He asked standing up.

"Tomorrow? After school, would that be ok?" I bit my lip, still unsure if I was maybe asking too much.

"That's fine and stop feeling guilty, I want to do this." He replied walking over to the door to leave. "Edward and Carlisle can sit in here and we'll go into my study next door. If that's alright with you?"

"Perfect, Edward? Carlisle? Alright with you?" Carlisle nodded in agreement clearly glad that I had decided to open up at last.

"Excellent, thank you my love." Edward's hand was still cupped around my ass cheek and he squeezed it lightly, prompting me to make our excuses and leave to go up to Edwards room.

I had become quite settled into Edward's room and he had been very accommodating, clearing a space on his bookshelf for the books I had brought with me and getting rid of some old clothes (Alice approved items only.) in the closet to make room for my own. Plus he had the nicest en suite bathroom; I was rather addicted to showers and was even nicer when Edward took them with me. The bathroom ceiling mostly consisted of a large skylight, so that you could stand in the shower and look up at the stars at night, It was one of my favorite things in the whole house.

"Shower with me?" I asked him once we were in his room. He nodded and followed me into the bathroom. We didn't need to turn on the light, even if we couldn't see in the dark; the moon light coming through the skylight lit the room enough anyway.

I turned on the shower and let the room fill with steam, Edward and I undressed each other slowly, not saying a word and only giving each other small tender kisses. We stepped inside the shower and let the boiling hot water run over our cool bodies. Edward hissed as the water cascaded over him, causing him to tense his muscles. I washed his body from head to toe, worshiping his body and then he did the same to me. We never spoke a word to one another, we didn't need to. We knew how each other felt and we wanted to show each there just how much we meant to them. I felt like crying the whole time we were in the shower. I had a lump in my throat because of all the joy I was feeling. Although I never thought it possible I had an even better Edward and a new caring, loving family. I thought I had a family in Volterra, but they were enemies compared to how the Cullen's have treated me.

Edward finished washing me, then picked me up and made love to me slowly and leisurely in the shower, still not saying a word. We gripped each other tightly as if frightened that if we didn't the other would disappear. When I finally came it was long, hard and silent, Edward followed soon after, coming inside of me, "Bella" he moaned quietly as he came. I gave him one long loving kiss before he put me down in the now cold shower.

I turned off the shower whilst he fetched two large white fluffy towels. He wrapped one around his waist and the other he held open for me to step into. He wrapped me up in it tight and then carried me over to his four poster bed, laying me down on my side and then snuggling close up from behind, holding me to him as close as I would go. The silence didn't last.

"BELLA! We need to go over flower arrangements. Get your naked butt down here!" Alice's singsong voice carried up the two flights of stairs to the attic bedroom that was Edwards. I groaned and Edward chuckled lightly. I turned around giving him one more loving kiss before getting up, putting on Edward's dressing gown and going downstairs to talk flowers with Alice and Esme.

I couldn't wait to become Mrs. Edward Cullen.


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