28th May 2012.
dear cam,
sorry i haven't written in so long, i missed writing to you- honestly i did. I just finished my fourth session with the shrink, he asked me questions, lots of questions.
he asked me if I've ever cut myself, i felt proud to say no because i know the thought of it is morbid,
did you ever cut yourself cam? if you did i never noticed.
but then again, i never really notice anything.
if i noticed something cam, you would still be here, right cam?
i've been going to school, but i don't feel any better about things, i have been faking feeling better, i know, cliche.
maya talked to me, trust me, i was as surprised as you probably are, i was walking home and she ran up behind me, at first she was just saying casual stuff cam, but then she said she missed him to. all i did was nod, but i knew the lump in my throat was growing.
cam, she told me that things got better, she said no matter how much i missed you you weren't coming back and life wasn't going to stop for me, so just keep living.
cam, i don't want to keep living.
