A/N: Hiya!!! Sorry I've been busy with school and stuff =) It's here now though!!! So please do me a favor, and enjoy!! - Sam
Payback
With a plan for revenge in my mind, I answered the door for my guests like nothing was wrong. Brian was the first one in, and I gave him a quick kiss like I would if I hadn't found out that he was a cheating bastard. What took the real self control was not attacking Rayven, instead I just smiled at her.
"You guys can get comfortable as I go get snacks and drinks. Noah, can you help me?" I asked, nicely.
Noah nodded his head and went to the kitchen, and Brian stood up. "I'll help you instead." he offered. Ah so you're jealous that Noah's a good friend? Interesting...
"I need you to keep an eye on Ella for me. You've been with me more times than anyone else when I watch her." I told him. He sighed in defeat and sat back down. Wow you put up a hell of a fight! Guess you don't really care.
I went in the kitchen, and Noah was just waiting there. "You couldn't have started without me?" I asked.
"You're up to something. Why haven't you bitched him out? Or cried? Or showed some sort of emotion?" Noah questioned. Sorry, I'm getting revenge.
I sighed as I got out snacks. "Just go along with what I'm doing, okay?"
"What exactly are you doing?" He asked.
I looked at him. "Act like you would if he hadn't been cheating on me. For now." I ordered, getting out the potato chips and putting it in a bowl. "Get the soda out of the fridge. One for everyone, except Ella." I added.
He looked confused. "But-" he started.
"You're just going to have to trust me." I told him, looking into his eyes. We stood there staring for the longest time....until I broke it off.
"I trust you." Noah said, as he got the soda out like I asked. He trusts me?!?! YAY!!!!
We both smiled and went out to our friends. "Snacks and drinks for my good friends!" I exclaimed. "And my amazing, loyal boyfriend." I added, smiling like he's my world. Which he's not. Not anymore.
Noah and I put the stuff down and I stood up in front of everyone. "I called you all here to thank you." I said, solemnly. This is called a guilt trip. Let's see if these people have a consious, or if they just don't care.
"For what?" Melanie asked, oblivious to what's about to go down.
I smiled at them all. "For being my friend. I'm not the best person to get along with sometimes, but all of you still stick around." I said, sweetly. "Ben, you're always a good laugh at lunch. Melanie, you're not only my neighbor but I can also count on you for harsh criticism when it comes to my outfit for the day." I listed, making everyone laugh. "Nicki, I've known you forever and we'll always be close. Noah, you're quiet most of the time but I know I can count on you." I continued. Save the worst for last!
"Rayven, you're the sweet one who laughs at all my jokes, and I know you would never betray me." I said to her, smiling. She squirmed. The guilt starting to eat at you, bitch?
"And lastly, my spectacular boyfriend. The one who is still loyal and loving, even though we live miles apart." I finished. And the bastard couldn't even look me in the eye. He just drank his soda.
"Awww! You're so sweet! I love you, Kay!" Melanie exclaimed, hugging me.
"Yeah, we'll always have your back." Ben said, smiling.
"Right Rayven?" Noah asked her, with a murderous look. I asked him to act normal....wait that is his normal.
She glanced at Brian and I almost slapped her. She looked back at me and smiled weakly. "Yeah." she said, non convincingly.
"Kaywa! Kaywa!" Ella exclaimed. "I'm thiwsty!" she whined. Ahh I knew I could rely on you, little sister.
"Here, have mine." I offered, handing my soda to her. "Baby, can you get me a soda? It's in the fridge, right next to the milk." I said, sweetly. Brian said nothing, and just left. Everyone started eating, chatting and watching t.v. Even Nicki, who looked at me curiously. I sat next to Noah, nervous at the crazy thing I was about to do next. Maybe I shouldn't.... Then I glanced at Rayven, who was staring at the kitchen door longingly. Stupid whore!
No turning back. The minute I heard the kitchen door open, I kissed Noah.
Not just a peck. Nope, our lips moved together perfectly and he put his hand on my lower back to pull me closer. This is getting more heated than I expected....but I like it.
And I don't think it's because Brian's watching.
"Kayla, what the fuck are you doing?!" Brian shouted at me. He has no right!
I stood up. "What? It's okay for you to cheat on me, but not the other way around?" I yelled. All the color drained out of his face and the room was silent. Even Ella.
"You found out." he said, quietly.
I laughed without humor. "You made out with Rayven, a friend of mine, at a party that I was at in my own damn town! Did you really think you were going to get away with it?" I asked, bitterly.
Everyone turned at Rayven, who look more guilty than ever. "Well...don't blame Rayven. She didn't know." Ben said, trying to be a good guy.
I shook my head and closed me eyes. "Not at first. But after Nicki told Brian off, she didn't care enough to stop. She continued making out with my boyfriend, and Noah saw it." I explained.
Melanie glared at Rayven and Ben shook his head in disappointment. "You're a bitch." he muttered to her. This is why I wanted my friends around. That way I don't have to explain to all of them what happened. And it will show who my real friends are.
Rayven looked like she was going to cry. "It was-" she started.
"I don't want to hear it, okay? I thought you were my friend, and you just stabbed me in the back!" I told her, my anger rising. "And you!" I exclaimed, turning to Brian. "I loved you. I trusted you. I thought you were loyal, but apparently I was wrong. Humor me, how many girls have you cheated on me with since I've been gone?" I asked.
"Only with her. It wasn't suppose to happen, I swear. I have no idea what came over me." he said, in a rush. Oh come on! Like I'll believe that shit! He grabbed my hand and said, "I love you and only you."
I pulled my hand away and slapped him. "Then you shouldn't have cheated on me, you bastard." I said, my eyes starting to water. Oh god, I'm falling apart. I should get out of here. It was dead silent, and nobody moved.
"I'm sorry, but I'm going to ask you all to leave." I said, quietly. Melanie dragged Rayven out by her hair and Ben gave me a hug before following. Noah held Ella and glared at Brian as I turned to Nicki.
She was crying. And I couldn't help but feel bad for her. I was her best friend and Brian was her brother. She was in the middle, and loved us both. I gave her a hug and my tears started to fall. "We'll always be friends, right?" I asked her.
She nodded her head and then told Brian they weren't wanted here. I had them out the door but Brian felt the need to turn and ask, "Do you love me?"
The question caught me off guard. Do I love him? After he cheated on me? He was my first love....
"I'll always love you. You were my first love, that's just how it works." I said, softly.
"Then give me another chance." he pleaded. If only Rayven could see him now. Begging for me, not her.
Tears poured down my face, and I said, "No." Then I slammed the door in his face. The numb feeling came over me again, and I welcomed it. I'd rather feel nothing at all then the pain that Brian has made me feel.
"Exposing him in front of his sister and all your friends. Never knew you had it in you." Noah admired. Thanks?
I sighed. "I didn't either." I said, softly.
Noah put Ella down and hugged me. "Things will get better." he told me.
And I know just how to make things better for me.
I pulled away. "Watch Ella. I'll be right back." I told him. I ran upstairs and took out one suitcase. I put a couple pairs of clothes in, my toothbrush and hairbrush. I took my wad of cash that I've been saving up over the birthday's and christmas's and threw it in. I went into Ella's room and packed up two bags for her. One with clothes and blankets. The other I filled with a couple of little toys, diapers (just in case she has an accident) and then I went in the kitchen to get her sippy cups and some food.
"What the hell are you doing?" Noah asked, bewildered.
"I have to go." I said, picking her up. Luckily for me, Steve had gotten a ride with a friend to work. So the car was there for my use.
"Where are you going?" Noah asked, stepping in front of me.
"Away. Just for a little while. I need space and I need to be alone." I told him.
"And you're taking Ella with you? What about her father? He'll call the cops and you'll go to juvy." he reasoned. Please.
"Actually, he won't. I take care of everything for him, so he won't call the cops and get me in trouble. He'll look for me himself. Between his working hours, that is." I explained. I tried to move around him, but he moved with me so he was always in front of me. "Noah, please move. Please." I begged and I was sure he could see the pain my eyes betrayed.
He grimaced, but moved out of the way. Thank god.
I went out of the house silently. I buckled Ella in her baby seat, and Noah watched. I was about to get in the car, when he moved. All of a sudden, he was right next to me, his arms wrapped around my waist. "Don't leave." he said, softly. I...ah...eh...
"I have to." I said, just as soft.
"I don't want you to. We haven't known each other long, but I care about you. A lot." he admitted. Noah cares about me? My god, I've had enough drama for one day. He has to be kidding me.
"I'll come back, I promise." I said, pushing him back. I don't think I could have pushed him back on my own, but he moved back anyways. "Bye." I said, getting in the car.
I drove the car out of the driveway and hit the road. My plan to just drive until I get tired, find the closest motel and spend the night there. I talked to Ella for the first part of the ride, but she fell asleep. The silence started to bother me, so I turned on the radio.
But I wish I hadn't, because a song I could relate to came on. And I didn't want to hear it.
"Say you're sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause
I honestly believed in you
Holdin' on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should've known, I should've known."
Taylor Swift sang through my radio. I heard this song before, but I never thought that girl would be me. The stupid girl who believed in the dickhead guy.
"That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around."
Sad part is, when I was around Brian, I really believed he was going to be the one to save me from my problems. Especially when I moved. I thought he'd come to me, take me away and we'd live a happy life. Crazy to think how stupid I was.
"Maybe I was naïve,
Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
My mistake I didnt know to be in love
you had to fight to have the upper hand.
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings;
Now I know
I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around."
I started crying again as the song continued to play. I wanted to turn it of, but I couldn't bring myself to do anything about it.
"And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness,
Begging for me
Just like I always wanted,
But I'm so sorry..."
No matter how sorry Brian is, no matter what promises he makes...I'll never trust him again. I started crying harder and I was started to swerv.
"Cause Im not your princess
This aint a fairytale
Im gonna find someone, Some day
Who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world,
That was a small town
There in my rearview mirror,
Disappearing now.
And it's too late for you and your White Horse,
Now its too late for you and your White Horse
To catch me now."
I tried to step on the gas, but my foot slipped and hit the gas pedal. I was crying so hard and lost control of the car until I hit something that made a sickening sound, but the car had stopped.
"Oh whoa whoa whoa-oh
Try and catch me now
Whoa-Oh
It's too late
To catch me now."
That was the last thing I heard, before I blacked out.
A/N: Ahh!! Car crash!!! How does that make you feel? How does this whole chapter...make you feel? Or do you not feel anything at all? Tell me in a review!!! Also, if you didn't know, I'm writing two new stories with a good friend of mine. One is already out (Forbidden: Violet's Side) and then another will be out soon (Behind Closed Doors: Taylor's Side). As you can see, they are one side of a story. I explain it more in the story itself =) Check them out if you can!!! Thanks for reading!!! - Sam
