Emma and Ash were nervously sitting in a meeting room with their adoption lawer they were meeting a woman today that wanted to give her baby up for adoption she was having a girl and she was seven months pregnant it had been two and a half months sence they decided to adopt. The door opened and a blounde women who looked around their age walked in she looked nervouse and very heavily pregnant just a bit bigger than Rikki.

"Hi I'm Ella" she said

"I'm Emma and this is my husband Ash' said emma

"Its nice to meet you" said Ash

She sat down across from them putting a hand on the swell of her belly looking them both up and down

"You two are very young may I ask why you are adopting" asled Ella

"Well we have been trying to get pregnant sence we got married but have had no luck we thought we were a little while ago but it turned out to be a false alarm. We just want to be parents" said Emma

"What would you do if you got pregnant shortly after adopting" asked Ella

"We would be happy if that happened having two babies instead of one" said Emma

"Would you still love the adopted child as if it were your own" asked Ella

"Absolutely" said Emma

Ash nodded his head in agreement he wanted a baby more than anything he didn't care if it didn't come from him or Emma and if they did get pregnant after adopting. The adopted child wouls still be their's he or she would still be their first baby.

"May I ask why you are looking into adoption" asked Ash

"Oh well I am just not ready to have a baby. I can't take care of a baby by myself and I just don't think I am cut out to be a mother" replied Ella sadly

"So the father isn't in the picture" said Emma nervously she had heard of something like this happening before where the father turned up last minute and claimed the baby because he never agreed to anything

"No but don't worry I already had him sign the papers" said Ella understanding where her mind was going

"Are you sure this is what you want I mean one hundred percent no changing your mind when the baby is born or with us sure" asked Emma

she didn't want to be one of those couple that got their hopes up just to have them crash down. She heard all the stories about how the birth mother changed her mind after seeing the baby and even a few where she changed her mind two or three weeks later sence they have 30 days to change their minds after the baby is born.

"I am sure I can't take care of a baby right now and I don't want to do it alone I just want to make sure she gets a good home and gets everything I never had growing up a nice home never wanting for anything a mum and dad that love her" saod Ella emotionly

"I understand and we would love to be the parents" said Ash

"I don't know you are the first couple I have met" said Ella unsure

"Well what else would you like to know" asked Emma trying to reasure her

"What do you two do for a living" asked Ella

"we are both still in school but i work at a doctors office as a recepcionist for expierance because i am going to be a nurse and Ash is going to school to be a doctor. He runs a cafe right now" said Emma

"Do you live in a house or apartment" asked Ella

"apartment its a nice neiborhood we are saving for a downpayment for a house" said Emma

"are there any illnessess in your families or drug/alcohol abuse" asked Ella

"no" said Emma

Ella looked satisfied by this she had a few more quistens about their friends and family

"ok it was nice meeting youv two but i think i need to meet a few other couples before deciding" said Ella apologeticly

"we understand" said Ash taking Emma's hand reasuringly they walked out together less nervous wondering if they would have their baby soon

Rikki was standing in front of a mirror in her and Zane's bedroom. She pulled her shirt over her belly looking at herself from all angles. She frowned slightly she had gotten alot bigger she couldn't even see her feet anymore her back and feet were always killing her. She felt like a whale she looked to the mirror again putting her hand over the swell of her belly and frowned again she looked like a whale. She sighed deeply and felt the baby kick she smiled softly at that and cradled her belly in her hands smiling down at it loveingly she heard a soft laugh and looked up to see Zane standing in the doorway smiling at her.

"how long have you been standing there" asked Rikki her cheeks turning slightly pink

"long enough" said Zane coming to stand behind her stopping her from pulling her shirt back down he put his hands where hers had just been

"i thought you were at work" said Rikki leaning into him

"i finished early" replied Zane moving the hair from her neck and placing a kiss there

"are you trying to seduce me Zane" asked Rikki teasingly moving her head to one said to give him more access

"maybe" said Zane placing more kisses along her neck

Rikki's mood seemed to change rapidly from happy and playful to a little sad as she looked down at her belly

"i don't know why you would want to i'm as big as a house. Who wants to be with the fat pregnant girl when they can have some skinny bitch" said Rikki bitterly

"hey you are not fat" said Zane grabbing her hand to stop her from walking away. He wasn't very suprised or put off by her comment he was used to it by now

"don't lie Zane i am not stupid if i can't even see the bottom half of my body and it takes me 20 minutes to stand up after sitting down. Not to mention you know your fat when you drop something on the floor and stand looking down at it thinking do i realy need that" said Rikki rubbing her belly Zane lifted her chin so she was looking into his eyes.

"Rikki you are not fat your pregnant and yes you are alot bigger than you were before but i like it i think its sexy" said Zane leaning forward and kissing her pasionatly

"you think its sexy thats just bull" said Rikki pushing him off and glaring at him

"no its not i'm serious" said Zane trying to kiss her again she stopped him

"how is this sexy" asked Rikki putting her hands on her hips and glaring at him. Did he realy think she was that stupid.

"well i think its sexy because everytime i look at you i am reminded that that's out baby doing that to you. Our baby lays beneath your heart and then i remember how that baby got there. I just think its amazing your amazing and i love you so if i want to think your sexy pregnant than i will and your just going to have to deal with that" said Zane pulling her in for a kiss he ran his tongue across her lips asking for entrance which she quijly granted sinking into the passioante loving kiss from her husband who could make her feel better with nothing but a few words and a look filled with desire. She let him lay her down on the bed shedding clothes as they went sh broke the kiss and ran her hand down his face adoringly looking into his chocolate brown eyes

"i love you" said Rikki

"i love you two" said Zane crashing his lips onto hers again and they went into the night.

Cleo was sitting on her couch with Lewis watching movies

"So do you think Emma and Ash will adopt soon" asked Cleo

"I think everything will work out for them" said Lewis

"I hope so Lewis I don't think Emma could handle another dissapointment" said Cleo heavily

"It will all work out Emma and Ash will be fine even if adoption doesn't work for them they will get their baby Cleo they only tried for 8 months it takes time their are couples who tried for years with nothing untill one day BAM it happened they just have to be patient" said Lewis

"Yea your right I just hope it happenes soon" said Cleo

"Everything happens for a reason" said Lewis

"What do you think the reason was that we lost one of our babies" asked Cleo sadly

"Cleo I thought you were ok now" said Lewis concerned

"I am ok Lewis but I will never be ok that I lost him or her are you telling me you are" asked Cleo sadly

"No of course not I just can't begin to know how you feel" said Lewis

"It was your baby to" said Cleo tears in her eyes now

"I know exactly how the emotional side feels but what you went through was physical to I could never understand that pain you went through or how it feels to lose something that was inside you" said Lewis pulling her closer

"Its just as we get closer to the due date I remember that there is one who will never be able to be born and I can't help but feel responsible what if I had warned you about the truck sooner what if I had decided to cancel dinner because how tir..."

"Cleo stop it this isn't your fault I know it sucks but you can't blame yourself we still have two babies coming and I know you are going to love them more than anything in this world but if you keep blaming yourself its going to get worse when they are born they need you Cleo they need you to forgive yourself" said Lewis gently

Cleo looked at him tears streaming down her face thinking about what he said there was no way she would ever forget the baby she lost but she could let go she needed to let go so she could be a good mother

"Its just not fair Lewis I mean I know my what ifs are stupid and that there was nothing I could have done its just not fair that the baby didn't get a chance to live" said Cleo

"I know" said Lewis taking her into his arms and holding her as she let everything out

A/N: new chapter tell me what you think I realized I never realy had Cleo and lewis deal with their loss so there it is tell me wat u think any ideas for this story would be appriacted