On my last chapter I'll give credit to everyone who gave me a song... I always forget to, so I'll just wait till the end =)
Sorry for the late update... I lost a little of inspiration and I got distracted watching 'I am number four' xD good movie!
So now on with our cheating Rose.
DPOV *Again*
She left a week ago, said she wanted to take her mind off of things. She's staying over at Lissa's and as stupid it is, I trust her; since Adrian has left court now and it was Lissa that I trusted really, I knew she wouldn't Rose do anything.
I took a chance, I took a shot
And you might think I'm bulletproof but I'm not
You took a swing, I took it hard
And down here from the ground, I see who you are
Even though I was trusting her right now, I don't think we can ever be together again.
I trusted her, I let her in after everything that happened with Ivan and she'd let me down.
She had really lived up to her reputation.
According to her I was the strong one in the relationship; the unbreakable, bulletproof, but with her I was weak.
I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you love me then you cut me down
She had been acting indifferently ever since she finished it off with him, but the day she left she had whispered, "I love you."
I really didn't understand her anymore, I didn't know who she was; and I knew a lot people felt like that too towards her.
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around
And I still loved her with everything inside of me, I need her like I need the air, water, sun, everything. And whenever we cross paths I do everything I can to avoid her, afraid of what she'll do or say that might hurt me.
I still can't look at her without wanting to punch her and make love to her at the same time. Talk about mood swings.
And here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?
But last night was inevitable; she was there at the party Lissa and Christian were holding.
When everyone had left, we were alone and I remember what she said when I told her, "Tell me why?"
She'd answered with: "Honestly? I wanted to try something new... To see how much I actually loved you... And to see what I was missing out on..." Her words were like knives to my heart, they had hurt more than anything else, making me cry, "And to see what I was missing on," kept replaying over and over in my head.
We fought last night when I ignited the fire that was her temper.
You could write a book on how
To ruin someone's perfect day
Well, I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what I'm trying to say, oh
I think her life and what she'd done to me would make a good book, and maybe some girls who wanted to hurt someone badly would learn something from her.
With what she said last night, I was more confuse than ever.
Did she mean she loved me or him?
I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I got no one to believe in
You tell me that you want me, then push me around
I really didn't want to hear anything that came from her mouth right now, afraid that it was all lies.
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around
I didn't know what to do.
Forgive her and go back with her? Or forgive her and leave her? Or just not forgive her?
But I guess I would know what to do once she makes up her mind about me.
Here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?
Who knew this would be so complicated?
Why do you have to make me feel small
So you can feel whole inside?
Why do you have to put down my dreams
So you're the only thing on my mind?
To her I was or used to be a god, and she made me feel like one too; yet now she made me feel... small, something less than her. Unworthy of her, which maybe I was.
I didn't know if she made me feel smaller so she felt bigger, but that didn't sound like her. Just like cheating on someone didn't sound like Rose either, but that was exactly what she'd done.
I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you want me then cut me down
I wanted her to make up her mind so I could make my mind up to.
What was she waiting for?
I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I've got no one to believe in
You ask me for my love then you push me around
Last night after her answer and the fight we had kissed and at least to me it had been magical; she had kissed me back and then pushed me away. Eddie tried comforting me telling me to giver her time, but I didn't know how longer I could wait.
Here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why? Why? Tell me, why?
Her words had broken my heart but I had atleast gotten my answer.
An answer that I knew she didn't know up until last night.
She had cried while saying this knowing her every word was like a knife to my heart.
I take a step back, let you go
I told you I'm not bulletproof
Now you know
I told her that I had feelings, that I hurt, that I was not unbreakable like she thought or bulletproof and I had given her until midnight to make up her mind.
Because maybe, it was time to let her go.
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Adrian or Dimitri? Pick quick xD
And I didn't know how many more chapters till the end...3?
