Recap: We all moved toward the door. "Lets have some fun with them," Jasper said closely to ear. I noticed Mike was watching us from the corner of his eye. I would do anything to make him leave me alone.
"Okay." I agreed. Jasper kissed my neck. My heart jumped...It must have been from surprise. Yeah, that was it.
We ended up sitting exactly how I didn't want. Tyler was at the end, Lauren, Jasper, me, Mike, and then Jessica at the other end. This was going to suck. The lights were already turned out and the movie was starting. Jasper put his arm around my shoulder. From the get go there was brutal killing. Lauren jumped and moved over to lean on Jasper. He didn't notice and moved closer to me. My heart jumped when I felt his lips on my neck. No it must have been the movie. It was undeniably gory. It was all normal for about 20 minutes then more killing. Jasper was raising his hand to wipe his bangs out of his face. Lauren grabbed his hand and pulled it to her chest. She pretty much just let him grab her boob. That pissed me off to know end for some reason. Jasper was still for a few moments then pulled back. He was about to hug me with it only infuriated me.
"Touch me with that hand and you'll be one dead vampire." I hissed so low I hardly heard. I knew he did because his hand slowly dropped. He leaned toward me. Though I wanted to I couldn't lean away because Mike was there.
Jasper put his lips by my ear. "Bella I didn't do it. She caught me of guard." Oh wow. Those were such...Guy excuses. Oh my freaking god! Why did I even care?! He wasn't mine. He could do whatever he wanted.
"Whatever." I mumbled. He put his lips on my neck and started to kiss me. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Mike give us a glare. His fists were in tight balls on the armrest. I saw Lauren jump and accidentally rub her leg against Jasper's. I was having a bit of difficulty concentrating on that. Jasper started to suck on it. I knew I had agreed that we would play with them but this was going way too far. I was...I was starting to enjoy it. I felt like I was suffocating. I liked it far too much when he touched me. I never really thought of Jasper being anything more than my brother but...This just made things complicated. Obviously we didn't think of each other in that way anymore because this would be gross and…and...
Jasper seemed to be enjoying himself just as much as I was which was what worried me even more. I was still in love with Edward and he was still in love with Alice...Right? Why didn't it hurt as much when I thought of his name? What was wrong with me?
Thankfully Lauren was being stupid tonight. She attached herself to Jasper's whole left side, so he had to pull away from me to get her off. Mike put his hand on my knee and started moving it upward. I knocked it off.
"Don't touch me Mike!" Jasper turned back to me. He had his arm around my shoulder and he rubbed the knee Mike had just touched.
"Are you really watching this?" he whispered into my ear. I could feel his lips move, he was so close.
"No." I whispered back.
"You haven't taken your eyes off the screen for more than a minute." That was true. I was staring at it without really seeing it, hoping to block out everything around me. I knew coming here was a horrible idea.
I chose not to respond.
"What are you so confused about?" UH! I hated that he could feel my emotions. He probably understood them more than I did.
"You know I wont tell you so why do you bother asking?" I snapped. "Back off. I'm tired of them staring at us."
He sighed then pulled away from me. He sat with his hands in his lap and his shoulders slouched. Lauren continued to mess with him but I ignored them. I was so grateful when the movie had finally come to an end.
"We should like do this again some time." Lauren said once we were in the parking lot. There goes that L word again. Like had to me the most word she has ever spoken.
I noticed she was staring determinedly at Jasper. He didn't notice because he was staring at me.
"Yeah that would be cool." Jessica agreed with Lauren like she always did. She should really try thinking for herself for once.
We all said our goodbyes and headed back to our own drove in silence for awhile before Jasper said anything. "Bella...Why are you mad at me?" I looked over to see him pouting.
"I'm not." I was mad but not at him. How could anyone ever be mad at him?
He sighed but said nothing further. He parked next to Charlie's cruiser. I opened the door and got out. "Can I come over tonight?" he asked before I closed the door.
"If you want." I jogged inside.
"Bella I need to talk to you." Charlie called from his chair. I plopped down on the couch. He did something I never saw him do before while a game was on. He didn't just put it on mute. No, he cut it off completely. What had I done?
I noticed there were a bunch of papers on the table. Charlie handed me a picture of a cute little boy. He had very light tanned skin. His hair was black and messy. He had dark hazel eyes and chubby cheeks. He looked like he had been crying.
"Who is he?" I asked Charlie.
"Well...He's your cousin. My sister Carly passed away while giving birth to him 6 months ago. He had been in foster care because the father ran out on him. They were searching for us because we're the only family he's got left. I plan on adopting him. I can't just let a totally different family raise him. It wouldn't be right." he said rubbing his chin.
I never knew Charlie had a sister. By the look on his face I was sure they weren't very close. The little boy was really adorable. Who would be able to deny him?
"Alright but how will this work? You work all day and I have school." I told him.
"I can take a few hours off my regular schedule. I can get him a sitter when I am at work. Are you okay with it though? I might need you to help out every now and again." he said warily. I think he was wondering if I were fully out of my zombie mode.
I shrugged. "I like babies. What's his name? When do we get him?" Charlie seemed surprise by my reaction. I guess I was way different from what I had been.
"Well she didn't name him and the people who cared for him didn't either. Didn't want to confuse him. He's actually coming tomorrow. You can skip school if you want. You know, to meet him. I have to go buy...Stuff."
Stuff? Wow, yeah. I don't think so. "I'll take care of the stuff."
He smiled in appreciation then his face went angry. "Why is there a pit dog outside? I had to use the gun on the mutt to get in the house." he said.
I gasped. "You shot my dog!" I yelled at him.
He flinched. "No, no. Calm down. I shot at the ground. Where did you get that mutt from anyway?" I didn't believe him. I ran out the back. Tattoo was tied up on the railing. I undid it and brought her in. Charlie stiffened when we sat on the couch. "He was a gift. Tattoo probably thought you were trying to break in. He knows better now." I patted his head. I wonder where Spike and Bambi were.
"A gift from who?" he asked suspiciously. I wanted to lie but a town this small he had to know.
"Jasper Hale. He came back a day or two ago." Don't make it a big deal please!
"Bella I don't want you hanging o..." I cut him off.
"Dad he's not like Edward. He's really cool and I like hanging out with him. I'm tired now." I got up, with Tattoo on my heels, and headed toward the stairs.
"Where were you tonight Bells?" He sighed. I could tell he was giving up. He didn't seem to have the strength for anymore tonight. The TV came back on.
"I was with Jasper, Jessica, Mike, Lauren, and Tyler. G'Night." I ran upstairs.
I changed into an over-sized black Buckcherry shirt. I crawled into my bed and laid next to Tattoo. I turned my radio on then got comfortable. One of my favorite songs by Avril Lavigne was playing.
I cannot find a way to describe it. It's there inside; all I do is hide.
I wish that it would just go away. What would you do, you do, if you knew?
What would you do? All the pain I thought I knew.
All the thoughts lead back to you. Back to what was never said.
Back and forth inside my head. I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away
That was how I felt. I couldn't describe it and I was just so confused. All I wanted to do was hide. I did that a lot. It never helped. I wish someone would take me away from everything.
I feel like I am all alone. All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you, I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understands. All the pain I thought I knew.
All the thoughts lead back to you. Back to what was never said.
Back and forth inside my head. I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away
I felt like I should move on but I felt like I was betraying Edward. Yes he did that to me first but...I don't know. All the pain I captured when I came to Forks was all because of him. He did cause many good things...Until he took them away. He left me because he fell out of love with me. All of it just tor at my insides. I felt like everything in the world was against me. I thought it would stay that way forever until Jasper showed up.
I'm going nowhere (on and on and)
I'm getting nowhere (on and on and on)
Take me away.I'm going nowhere (on and off and off and on)
(and off and on) All the pain I thought I knew.
All the thoughts lead back to you. Back to what was never said.
Back and forth inside my head. I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away
Take me away! Break me away! Take me away!
I jumped when a cold hand touched my arm. I looked behind me to see Jasper sitting on the edge of the bed. Vampires were far too silent for my taste.
"Where are Bambi and Spike?" I whispered softly so Charlie wouldn't hear.
"They are at my house. I didn't want to leave Spike alone so I let Bambi stay. I knew you'd be home soon so Tattoo would be fine." He was so considerate. I was sure most vampires would see them more as blood than pets, even the non-vegetarians.
"Will you lay with us Jasper?" He answered by lying down and wrapping his arms around my waist. His cold body fit perfectly against mine. Everything made since when we were together. All of my problems seem to fade away.
I sighed in contentment.
"If I can make you so relaxed, why are you always mad at me?" he asked in a tiny hurt voice.
"I'm not always mad at you. I'm never mad at you."
"It sure seems that way." I could hear the pout in his voice.
"Jazz I'm not. I'm just...confused." No point in lying to an empath.
"Really? Does this confusion have anything to do with a certain vampire you were on a date with tonight?" I stiffened.
"I wouldn't really call it a date." I said slowly.
"I know exactly how you feel and I feel the same." He hesitantly started sucking on my neck. His tongue swiped out across it. Wow! It felt so...Wow. My mind went completely blank and the house silent. All I could focus on was Jasper.
He turned my jaw then slowly pressed his lips to mine. I wasn't sure what to do. I didn't want to push him. I reacted the way Edward had always wanted me to; I laid perfectly still and let him kiss me. I wasn't too sure he liked that. He forced my lips to part and slid his tongue in. I couldn't just not respond to him. It felt too amazing.
I turned my back to the dog. He used his hand to push me against his body. After awhile I broke apart, much to Jasper's dislike, to breath. I was so perplexed.
Jasper suddenly went stiff.
"What's wrong?" Oh no! I bet I was bad. I never kissed a guy like that. He probably thought I was horrible.
"Werewolves. Three." Whoa! They really did exist. Well I guess if vampires could… What else in the world was I unaware of?
"Where are they?" I asked as I stood.
"Two minutes away. I'm guessing you're coming with me?" He watched me pull on a pair of jeans.
"Duh."
"Just stay on my back. Unless they attack. Then run." He kissed me sweetly before pulling me onto his back. He jumped gracefully from the window.
Avril Lavigne - Take Me Away. Like always review tons.
