Next update.. didn't upload last night as I an overally happy mood, which kinda left me in a daydream.. weird, but it's good!

The guy I like wants to meet up with me when he's back from hols! Yay!!

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"Carlisle?" Alice turned to him, and he nodded.

He opened his mouth and the most painful sentence I have ever heard left his pink lips. "Jacob Black is not your father."

My heart sank, even though instincts had been telling me that for a while now; I looked nothing like him and I was becoming suspicious about the small blonde highlight in my hair, which was hidden under my brunette curls.

"I.. I kinda figured." I said, a little disappointed. Jacob had always loved me like my own, but now there was a possibility I could find my real father; where would this leave him?

"Do you have any idea who your real father is?" Alice asked, hopefully.

I shook my head. "I'm guessing that he's a vampire, though."

Alice nodded, and then looked at Carlisle, hoping he would continue the story. "I can't tell her this."

"Like you, Edward had the ability to read minds, but not your mother's mind.. we always think this is how he first noticed her.. and well your mother and Edward became very close.. We all thought they would get married.. Edward had planned it; he had his mother's ring.. not Esme, I mean his real mother from the beginning of the 19th century." Carlisle smiled as he said Edward's name; he was clearly very proud of his son. "He had spoken about proposing to her when she returned from seeing her mother in Phoenix."

"So, I guess he didn't."

"No." He shook his head. "He never had his chance... you see, by being in love with a vampire, your mother was always at risk. A few days before her eighteenth birthday, we took her to play baseball in a thunderstorm, when our powers and greatest.. then we came across the others.. Victoria and her kind."

"But isn't she a vampire too?" I was confused.

"Yes, but her kind are different.. you see, you don't need to fear us, as we would never hurt a human.. we only drink animal blood, but Victoria's kind drink human blood."

"Oh." I shuddered at the thought; so she had tried to kill me?

"When they found us playing baseball, they wanted to join, but we knew it was because they could smell your mother. Victoria's mate, James, seemed to be the most attracted to her, so we called the game off and returned here, to protect Bella from him... then, a few weeks later, after graduation, we sent her off to Phoenix for safety."

"Did.. did he have a power too?"

"James was a tracker, so of course, he knew where your mother was. We just didn't know how fast he could travel. Alice saw a vision of him entering Phoenix, so we jumped on a plane and flew down there."

"But aren't vampires meant to be fast?"

"Yes, of course, but even a plane to Phoenix is faster than walking, especially when James had a headstart."

"What.. what happened?" I had no idea how this was relevant to my father, but I was still intrigued to find out what had happened to James.

"Alice had a vision on the plane of James hurting Bella.. and when we got there, she was bruised and battered and her clothes were ripped."

"He.. he raped her." I choked out.

"Yes, but being a vampire, it was so much more dangerous... he could have killed her."

I froze. Surely I wasn't his.

Carlisle continued. "We told him not to, but Edward went after James... he burnt James alive, killing him slowly and painfully... but of course, Victoria wanted revenge.. Edward was planning his proposal to your mother, in the cottage we had built them, when Victoria set it alight... a mate for a mate.. and then we found out your mother was pregnant."

"Please say Edward is my father." My lip trembled. I didn't want a rapist for my father.

"I'm sorry, Taylor." Alice reached out to touch my hand, but I pulled it back.

"My father was a rapist and a murderer!"

"He just got on the wrong side of our kind." Blake whispered to me.

My heart raced and my face flushed. I looked up to see Jasper shaking, looking as if he were in pain. Elizabeth and Marcus covered their mouths and immediately left the room.

Jasper stood up. "I'm sorry."

He also left the room.

I could feel my blood racing and at that moment, I just wished someone would pounce on me and kill me. Surely it was better than being the daughter of a villain?

But, I needed to know more... if my mother being raped had been extra-painful, surely giving birth was no easier. "What about my birth?"

Carlisle looked down. "I don't think I should say anymore."

"This concerns me.. please."

"Well your mother gave birth to you after one month.. you grew very quickly.. and you were hurting her.. we had to give her a sazerean but using our teeth as you'd made yourself a shield."

"Then how come she's not a vampire!?"

"We didn't inject any venom into her, and once you were out, we had to sew her up very quickly.. it was risky, but both our Bella and Taylor are alive today." He smiled at the end, but I felt sick.

"I could've killed her."

"But you didn't." Blake whispered.

Tears filled my eyes, blurring my vision.

"I think it's time you went to bed." Alice suggested, grabbing my hand before I could pull it away. "I'll take you to your room."

She led me up the stairs and into a room with large windows and a white metal bed in the middle of it.

"It's my fault you lost your brother.. I'm sorry." I apologised as I spotted a picture of my mum and who I assumed was Edward.

"Taylor, don't be silly." She said, sitting me down on the bed. She sat down next to me and lifted my chin with her cool finger. "Edward was stupid for going after him in the first place and he had always been a troublesome boy."

"You vampires don't age, do you?"

She shook her head. "No."

"So I'm guessing you don't leave this house; Forks would remember you."

"Yes, that's why we don't all live here. Carlisle, Esme, Rosalie and Emmett are just visiting us.. and Jasper and I either stay indoors or go elsewhere."

"So, am I immortal?"

Alice looked down. "No.. now go to bed, you've asked too many questions today.. you're as bad as your mother."

She handed me some pink pyjamas and walked over to the door.

"Alice, why are you being so nice to me? I'd hate me."

"Well you shouldn't hate yourself.. Taylor, none of this is your fault, and when you were young, I did help your mother look after you.. you're like a niece to me, and Edward would have loved you like a daughter."

I half-smiled. "Does Charlie know?"

"He thinks you were Edward's child, but he doesn't know about this vampire thing.. it's probably best you don't tell him, as he'll probably have a heart-attack."

I laughed. "I can imagine."

Alice smiled. "Night, Taylor."

"Goodnight."

She turned off the light and closed the door. I put on my pyjamas and collapsed back on the bed. I was hardly going to be able to sleep.

I fiddled with my blonde highlight. It was clearly James' hair.

I looked at my reflection in the window. Until now, I had never hated myself, but things had changed.

I wasn't Taylor Black.

I was Taylor. I didn't have a surname.

I could read minds. I was fast and graceful.

I was half-vampire.

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