Unconditionally.
*Present Day*
Standing in this green room holding this man who says he loves me but still treats me like shit is more than confusing. On one hand this love i have for him is everlasting, but on the other hand I dont like the way he treats me. The constant accusations are driving me away from him. "Edward, there is a reason why my mom wrote this show. We need help, yes i am not a fan of hashing this out on television but he can help." I say to him. "I know Bella. I guess we need to finish this." He agrees, but hesitantly.
One of the producers came back stage to tell us that we are ready. Edward grabs my hand, and we walk towards the stage. We are in this together.
*Rewind to the beginning.*
I feel like i stood on my front porch watching his car fade into the distance. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why am i so mesmerized by this guy? I dont even know his last name for god sakes. After i couldnt see his car anymore I dig out my keys, and unlock my front door. It's nice to know that Mrs. Clearwater (my babysitter) keeps the door locked even though she's home. Entering the house made me feel complete; like my heart is now full. My daughter was my life, the only reason why i get up the morning to go to school, and face people.
Walking into the living room, my eyes instantly see Bailey. My beautiful, gorgeous child who is my life. I saunter walking up behind her, and place my hands over her eyes. "Guess who?" i say to her. "Mommy!" Bailey shreaks. My mouth goes into a wide smile. "Yes! Ive missed you today boo bear!" I say as i pick her up. I turn to Mrs. Clearwater; "Thank you Mr. Clearwater for watching her. Hope she was good." I explain to her. "Oh honey, please call me Sue, and Miss Bailey here was the perfect angel." Sue says. Of course my baby was good, she was me wrapped up in a cuter package.
I put Bailey down on the ground, and grab my wallet. "So how much do i owe you?" I ask. "I think your dad & i agreed on 30$ a day." Sue says. She's a very cheap babysitter. Well so i've been told, anyways i grab some cash out of wallet and pay her. "Thank you Sue. I'll see you tomorrow morning." I say, which i can hear sadness in my voice. "It's ok Bella. I know that it's hard to be away from her, but you are almost done school." She explained.
I knew she was right, but it still sucked. "You are so right Sue. Just 8 weeks left then i will be totally high school, and can focus on my future." I said. I knew that my future wasn't going include dorm rooms, and keg parties. But my future was going to include a career for me, and Bailey.
