Sorry its been so long since I wrote, mainly because of exams but also because I got review that actually made me read my story and I realised how cheesy and bad it was. Then I got lovely review from someone else and it made me feel like my story had meaning and that I should carry on, so thank you werebeare whoever you are. However, my favourite review is from dpdp who simply wrote "nice". Also I just wanted to point out this is not a Sam gets pregnant story…not that there's anything wrong with those but a reviewer brought this to my attention. So yeah…your reviews have great impact so make sure you review! Enjoy
Chapter 7: Memories (Jack POV)
I shut the door as she shut her eyes to sleep. Grabbing a blanket I lie down on the couch and think the day through. What had I done? It was obviously breaking her heart being with me after I broke up with her, but she doesn't understand, I never wanted to leave her, but I knew it was for the best, well at least for her anyway, even if she doesn't realise it, because that is all that matters to me. I've got nothing else, no one else to care for except her, and no matter what it takes, no matter how hard I will always do anything for her. My mind turned to the days we had shared together. They seemed such a long time ago and so much had changed since then. How happy we were, and how everything I gave up was worth it because she was so perfect, even giving up General which was so important to me. It was hard to adjust at first, I'm the sort of person who needs to be doing something like kicking Gaoul'd ass instead of just sitting around, I guess I'm just too fidgety. The years I had waited to be with her were worth it and I wanted to spend every second for the rest of forever with her, no matter what.
But every second I spent with her was also harder and I kept looking back to see myself getting further and further away. Everyday our relationship grew even more than I thought it possibly could considering how long I'd known her and I learnt so much from her- and I'm not just talking about science, being single for so long made me forget how you learn so much from the people you fall in love with, what you learn about them and what you learn about yourself. Sam brought out a side in me nobody else could, not even Sara, and everyday held a new surprise as I fell in love with her a little more.
I would die for her, that's just how much I love her. I know that she loves me too and that is why I distanced myself from her and finally accepted the Washington job. She had wanted me to take it. She knew how I grew restless of doing nothing, especially when she was at work and I was left alone by myself, but I didn't care. She felt bad because I was so alone and she blamed herself, and I guess that's why she let me go when I told her that I didn't love her anymore, even though she must have realised it wasn't the truth- at least I hope she knows, she wouldn't surely believe the one time I told her I didn't love her in comparison to all the times I had told her I had? Of course I wanted to be with her, and of course I still loved her, because when you do fall in love with someone, a small part of them stays in your heart forever, and that part of you will always love them. Sam was a big part of my life, and a big part of my heart, and so I thought of her everyday, what she was doing, who she was with, whether she was hurt and whether she was thinking of me. Sometimes I did a quick computer search just to make sure she was still alive and okay. I wanted to be with her, more than I've wanted anything, but the point is like I said, I would give up anything for Carter, even her.
I know what your thinking, Jack would not have commitment issues with Sam but be patient!- all will be revealed soon... (thumbs up for being melodramatic)
