AN: Okay, so its been two weeks.

Two weeks.

And not a single chapter done.

I AM SOOOO SORRY.

I've been on a (much deserved) holiday, and didn't even open a word document. But don't worry; with school starting up again, I'll need all of the distractions I can get, and will hopefully be updating often.

And on another exciting (for me) note, I submitted an updated version (which I uploaded to my fanfic account) of my other story, Alice's Visions, to Pelirroja's Twilight fanfic site, and I was accepted as a new author.

Should I post this story?? Thoughts appreciated.

Oh, and I didn't write Twilight. Duh.

Standing in the cool, breezy waiting room of the school's doctor's office, I still couldn't clearly recall what had happened. How I managed to hold on to some shred of humanity, I had no idea. I pulled back; quickly impossibly, mad with thirst, I pulled back. It had all happened in a fraction of a second. There were some stares, but mostly everyone was gathered around Mike. I was half-waiting for them to shout, "Vampire, vampire!" and run for their lives. I held my breath, snatched up Mike, then somehow ended up here. Even my perfect memory couldn't make sense of it all.

Still, it could never happen again. Fortunate as I was, I couldn't erase my snarl from the thoughts of those who had seen. They would dismiss any notions eventually; humans are good at repressing such things. I, however, would not forget. I would have to remember and shudder at how close I had come to killing so many innocents, for after Mike, there would be no stopping. Edward, Edward!!

I turned suddenly, and moments later a streak of black and white flew through the door and grabbed my shoulders. "I tried to get away as soon as I saw it but then they wouldn't let me so I said I was going to have a seizure and they made me lay down and I had to crawl under a desk and-"

She looked up at my impassive face, and her mouth formed a little 'o' of horror. "No, please tell me I'm not too late! Edward!"

I pushed her away. "Damn it, Alice. I nearly killed all of them, all of them. I can't ever- I was so-" I fell silent, staring at the mint green walls, hating myself.

"But you didn't, Edward. Stop-"

"Don't you get it, Alice?" My voice was growing louder, "Do you understand how I nearly became a monster?"

She pulled me back to face her. "Edward, it's only the first day-"

"Only the first day?" I echoed, "It's only the first day and look-"

She cut me off, "Edward, it will be fine. This will never happen again. And you were able to restrain yourself. Come sit down in the cafeteria and stop torturing yourself." She skipped neatly from the room.

I scowled at her retreating figure. I couldn't agree with what she was saying, but I could at least relax and think of how to leave Forks without my family. They would think I was going too far, but they didn't know how I had felt. I grimaced, shoving that to a corner of my mind to think about later, and began to pace around the small room, wondering how Mike was. From what I'd seen before the instincts kicked in, he had a broken nose. He should be coming out soon, all bandaged up. Pale face, purplish bruises, an angry glare. He'll look like us for a week.