Today it got colder then it had been for the past few weeks that I had been in purgatory. I needed shoes, it was becoming very necessary I mean between the rocks roots twigs and thorns I was already screwed but now the cold, I was not going to loose a toe to freaking frost bite.
We were sitting around a low fire and I was trying to get my feet as close to the fire with out burning them and without attracting to much notice. Though I had gotten used to the guys, I still wanted to be back out on my own. They were talking about the famous exit out of purgatory, and from what I gathered it was the answer to all our problems. Well their problems not mine, I died, I am positive of this. I was blown up into smithereens and this was were I belonged I had to have been a monster and that's how I got here. I don't know how Cas and Dean got here but I figured they were just delusional.
"I am not delusional Leah" Cas said suddenly out loud. Pulling me from my thoughts.,
I looked up confused and faking disgust.
"Get out of my head" I said firmly then looked back down.
"Why does she think your delusional?" Benny piped in.
"Because we plan to get out of purgatory, she believes we are all really dead on earth. She also does not believe Dean to be human nore herself because they both ended up here."
Dean just chuckled. "Sorry to disappoint but I am just regular human guy" he said .
I looked at them all confused, "but I am dead and I ended up here so I must not be human." I stated frustrated.
"No you are human" Cas said.
" Yeah if you really did take out a levi it just dragged you here with it" dean said almost dare I say kindly, "its what happened with Cas and I we were standing to close to exploding Dick."
"So in theory I could also get home by going through the same opening as yall" is stated nervously letting my southern accent slip in my excitement. I hade never before this considered leaving with them. Hell I didn't trust them and plus I thought I was dead and they were crazy. I know that I changed heart way to easily but I was tired of living for nothing . They still scared the crap out of me but maybe I could leave and look for the exit on my own.
No you should stay with us
Please get out Cas
No they won't hurt you, I won't hurt you stay with us
Do I have a choice if I try to leave Dean will just chop my head off
No he won't
You don't know that for sure
I don't think he would he just has to get used to you
I decided it was time for bed or atleast to pretend to sleep and hope Cas would stop eves dropping in on my thoughts
I did not mean to eves drop
Cas please I am tired and cold let me rest
I layed back used my arm as a pillow and pulled my knees to my chest consolidating my heat and making myself as small as humanly possible. As I drifted off to actual sleep I heard some one say "she looks cold, girl doesn't even have a jacket or shoes"
Deans POV
He had new respect for the girl, women, person… she had killed a Levi and was surviving purgatory with out the benefit of the training that he had received. It was understand able that she believed herself dead, and he even felt alittle bad that she also had believed herself to be a monster. But two things got to him this evening. The fact that the girl was southern and she was cold.
Helll of course she was cold she was in a ripped blouse and pants barefooted and didn't have any layers like everyone else in their motley crew. He walked over to her and put his jacket over her.
"Cas did you put her to sleep again?" dean questioned
"no, she was just tired, I think you wore her out today." He said calmly
Waking up in the morning was nice. Because waking up meant, a. I was alive, b. I usually got some alone time in the mornings, and d. I got to make food. This morning though I woke up unusually warm. After my eyes had opened and adjusted I found that was covered with a jacket. Dean's jacket I carefully got up trying to figure out what was my best option, fold it up, continue wearing it, or cover Dean up with his own jacket? I mean Shit I am not mentally prepared for this kind of thing in the mornings I mean the guy first tries to throttle me then apologizes then pays me no mind or pays way to much attention to me I mean shit. What's a girl supposed to do.
The morning was cold and I decided to wear it just till the fog lifted, and so then got started finding food. We camped by the stream again so I headed back towards it. I knew a few things about fishing and fro some reason streams in purgatory had fish in them. I soon with some rocks was able to make a small lagoon that fish swam into. I blocked the exit and then began the frustrating job of trying to kill the trapped fish. In my splashing and subsequent swearing I failed to hear dean sneak up on me. I had long since removed his jacket leaving it safe from the water up on the rocky shore.
"shooting fish in a barrel I see" he said loudly
I almost jumped out of my skin. I did fall into the little pool I had created.
"Ohh calm down you are the jumpiest person I have ever met" he said laughinmg as he strode over. He took of his shoes and walked into the pool extending his hand to me. I stared then took it letting him pull me up.
"sorry didn't hear you coming just scared me"
"no worries, catch any?"
"no" I said sulkily I was frustrated this was sooo not how I expected this to go.
he then laughed even harder for the first time I noticed that he was beautiful when he laughed, actually all the time. I blushed looking back down at the pool. Then remembered his jacket and looking back up at him said "thank you for the ." before I could even he interrupted "don't mention it, wasn't a problem. We should probably find you some clothes though." He said this all easily looking me in the eyes. His eyes were a wonderful green it reminded me of warm grassy field in the summer.
"ok now about this fish situation, hmmm lets see how I do" I stepped out of the pool to see if dean could make and better progress then myself. After many throws and a sudden fall. A soaked dean returned fishless to the shore to join myself. I was in hysterics giggling at his antics and he was though pretending to be pissed also in a good mood. As we were about to abandon our fishing attempt a a dead fish floated to the surface of the lagoon. Dean was most defiantly the proudest fisherman in all of purgatory.
After the fishing master had finished his victory dance/ song, and I had caught my breath. Their was silence for the first time in quite a few minutes.
"so what did you do before this?" he asked he looked honestly curious
" because I know you were not a fisher" he said teasingly.
"I taught, um 2nd grade"
"no way your not old enough" he said
" I am 24 I graduated 2 yrs ago also I have almost finished my masters program buddy " I said a little to defensively.
"ok ok relax I believe you " he said laughing.
"so what a big mouth came into your…" he asked leaving and opening for me to explain how I got to be in purgatory.
"My classroom. He came in and well I mean it just happened" I said.
" so you attacked it to save the kids?"
"yeah I mean what else was I supposed to do? Rule one protect the kids. I did and hopefully they are all fine. I don't regret what I did or what happened." This seemed to make dean think and look at me differently.
"well you got balls" he said matter of fact like.
And with that we both walked to camp with your one fish.
