After the doctor's stitched up a few gashes of Maura's and documented the injuries for her, Jane waited nervously. She chewed her hair as she waited for Maura to be discharged. Part of her wanted to hunt down Liam and kill him with her bare hands. But, the logical side told her to let the law do justice at least it did until Maura announced she was rather stupidly not pressing charges.
This infuriated Jane as she drove through the Boston streets, silent and jaw clenched as she eyed Maura up and down. She understood that Maura loved Liam, but she did not understand how she could let a man or anyone walk all over her or endanger her children.
"Jane," Maura started but Jane ignored her.
"Jane. Look I know you are mad, but hear me out. I am doing this for the children. He is already going away, and I can't put those kids through another trial," she offered.
Jane did understand exactly what Maura was doing. She was trying to protect her children something Jane was guilty of doing herself. For example she was guilty of hiding the truth about Maura and the truth about her break up from Antonio from her son.
"But what if when he is on bail, which you know he'll make, he comes after you or them?" Jane responded back as they walked up the flights of stairs to her apartment.
"He won't," Maura replied in a tone that warned Jane not to challenge her.
Jane sat beside Maura on her couch as the honey blonde cried in her arms. Jane gently rocked her promising Maura everything would be okay. But Jane knew the world for her friend, her lover, her soulmate was far from okay. She knew Maura had healing she needed to go through both physically and mentally before they could out their love to the world, before they could truly be together and be happy.
When it seemed Maura was all cried out Jane let her body go lax, as she still hung on to Maura.
"Are you okay Maur?" she asked as Maura wiped tears from her eyes.
"I will be," she replied confidently as she got up.
"I just don't know how I am going to tell them," Maura clicked as she headed toward Angelo's room where her children were sleeping.
"It will be okay. Tell them Liam was bad and went away, Shannon at least can handle the truth," Jane offered.
"I know she is a strong girl. But, what do I tell them about us. God it will mortify them that I am with someone else," she admitted.
"Tell them the truth like I will have to do with Angelo. And, just pray that they accept it and support our happiness. When they get older they will understand better. But, for now just tell them the dumbed down version of the truth and hope for the best," Jane responded with a shrug.
Maura nodded knowingly. She was going to come clean with them and the fact that she was now with Jane. But, for the moment she was going to enjoy the secruity in her privacy. She also knew that Angelo knew about them, or at least she was certain he did. Maura knew Angelo would take it well, his father had been prepping him for years. But, Shannon it would blindside her.
Liam had told Shannon the truth many times, but the girl refused to believe it. Shannon would most likely take it rough. And, as for Aidan he was too young to know the difference, he would only be sad and miss his father. For the unbron child she felt guilty it would never know its knew she had to break it off Liam in case he was let free. but in these times of guilt she reminded hersekf that if she were to remain with him, then her unborn child might never be born.
Maura plopped onto a bed she made on the floor and pulled a comforter around her. Shannon lay on Angelo's be sleeping peacefully and Aidan lay beside Maura on the floor. Part of her wanted to go to bed with Jane and celebrate their new found togetherness, but the logical part of her told her it was far too soon. It also reminded her that her children were there and that they might be able to put together the truth about mommy and "aunt" Jane.
That night Maura did not succumb to sleep easily and around three in the morning she made a concious decision- she was going to man up and file charges against Liam. Everything she had done with that man was for her children, and now she needed to protect herself and those children. The idea scared her a bit, and she feare the concequences, but she knew Jane would keep her- them- safe.
While Maura struggled with her demons, Jane lay awak her mind on Maura. It was not the usual sexy thoughts she associated with Maura but one of more morose tune. She feared for her friend- her lover's- safety. She feared for those children who had becom part of her family.
She knew Liam was a violent man and that if Maura did not put aside her love for that man that he would be the death of her and of them. She knew Liam would have murdered her if he could have. She could not blame the man for hating her...hell she would be pissed if the roles were reversed. She felt responsible for some of Maura's beatings. Maybe if she- they- did not fool around her friend would be all right. Maybe if they were never an item Maura would be better off. Just maybe... This thinking led Jane to feel extremely guilty about the situation, and by the end of the night she was half convinced Maura would leave her. While on the other hand Maura was half convinced to march into that bedroom and prove to Jane how much she loved her and how grateful she was...is.
