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New York

"I lied," Rachel said as she emptied her breakfast into the toilet while Puck held her hair back, "I don't like it here, I want to go back."

"I think it is morning sickness," Puck said stating the obvious.

"No, it is all the time sickness," Rachel said or groaned, "I threw up once last night too remember?"

"Well yeah you threw up on me first," Puck said and Rachel blushed.

"Just missed you," Rachel corrected.

"Still had to change the sheets Babe," Puck said, "Least you made it to the toilet this time."

"Funny," Rachel said wiping her mouth with a towel, "So what are you going to do about you?"

"Uh, last time I checked I was a dude and can't get pregnant," Puck replied, "You are the one carrying baby Puckerman."

"I might be," Rachel said, "I need to take a test, but what I meant was you are supposed to go to work tomorrow, what are we going to about that?"

"Don't know," Puck said and then an idea came to Rachel.

"How are your acting skills Puckerman?" Rachel asked.

"Descent," Puck replied, "Why?"

"Well we need to get you a fake cast," Rachel said, "I am sorry Detective Puckerman but you have a broken wrist, looks like you will be on desk duty for a couple weeks."

"You're kind of awesome," Puck said, "Did you know that?"

"Of course," Rachel said with a smirk, "It is about time you realized it too. Now I have to go find out if I really am pregnant."

P&R

"If it makes you uncomfortable I won't go with you," Sam said to Quinn. It was time for a check-up to make sure everything was going smoothly with the birth. After the miscarriage they went to the doctor every month just in case.

"Do you usually go?" Quinn asked.

"Every one," Sam answered.

"Then you should come to this too," Quinn said and Sam nodded.

"It is okay to need me Quinn." Sam said taking her hand. "Don't ever be afraid to need me. I won't judge you, ever."

"Even though I cheated on my boyfriend with his best friend and lied about it?" Quinn said not believing someone could not judge her for that.

"You're just a kid Quinn, a scared kid," Sam said, "You have made mistakes, yes, but you try and fix them. Yeah you can be a bitch, but you have a good heart." A tear fell down Quinn's cheek and Sam hugged her and Quinn held onto him tightly. Okay, she would let herself need him because she had never felt safer then at this moment.

Lima

"Come on," Rachel said, "It has to be done."

"No," Puck said, "I am not shaving off the hawk."

"But..." Rachel started to say.

"Do you want me to start dating Mercedes?" Puck asked and Rachel rolled her eyes.

"You never even kiss her," She replied.

"How do you know that?" Puck said.

"Eye twitch remember?" Rachel said, "I know everything."

"Do I have to get thrown into the dumpster?" Puck asked.

"It is up to you." Rachel said with a shrug, "Besides you made Mercedes feel special when you sang to her, no one had before. Even if it isn't in a romantic sense."

So after, again, losing a tiff with Rachel, Puck walked into school with a shaved head. Everyone stared at him but Rachel was grinning. She was never a fan of the hawk, but she sure as hell like grabbing onto it when they were making out. Because that was all they did now.

"I hate this," Rachel said.

"I don't like it either, having to see you moon over Finn and then that douche Jesse," Puck said, "I loved being 26. Now I am stuck in a 16 year old body. I can't even touch you because you still have your v-card and I don't take it for another freaking year."

"That's right we will just have to restrain ourselves," Rachel said.

"Um...Baby the last time you said that to me Evan popped out nine months later." Puck said and Rachel glared at him.

"I just love our life," Rachel said, "I don't want anything to screw it up. What if we change things and we don't have Evan? I need my little boy Noah. I can't take any chances."

"I know." Puck said hugging her, "I want him too."

"Even if I am pretending with them now, it has always been you for me," Rachel told him, "You mean everything to me, don't ever forget that." Puck said nothing just kissed the top of her head. When Rachel said things like that to him Puck could live without the no sex.

P&R

"Here is a list of people not pulling their weight." Rachel said sliding the list over to Mr. Schue. It only had three names on it because Rachel made sure that Puck and Quinn sang this time. Rachel could feel the tickle in her throat, "I think I am losing my voice Mr. Schue, and until I get it back these people will be the ones singing. Santana has an amazing voice, she should be showing it off." Mr. Schue just looked at her. Rachel actually complemented Santana.

"I'll talk to everyone." Mr. Schue said.

"It appears that some of you have stopped singing," Mr. Schue said to the club later, "Rachel here thinks she is losing her voice and until she gets better it is up to you to carry on. Santana, Rachel told me your voice is awesome, don't stop singing."

"You said that?" Santana said looking at Rachel in shock.

"It's true." Rachel said with a shrug.

"Well I am here for more then just looking hot," Santana said and crossed her arms.

"And when did you stop singing Finn?" Mr. Schue asked.

"That was really cool of you to say that Rachel," Puck whispered while Mr. Schue talked.

"She might not know it yet, but that girl will become one of my best friends," Rachel said back, "We stand up for each other."

P&R

"I forgot about this." Rachel whispered to Quinn, "Oh god..." Finn began to sing Jesse's Girl. She had gone to the doctor's with Quinn accompanying her this time. So Rachel thought that Finn might not sing it, she was wrong. Finn began to dance around her and Rachel just sat their stiff knowing all eyes were on her. Finally the song was over and Rachel clapped because it was a good performance, it just wasn't getting the results he wanted.

"Wow desperate much?" Puck said getting up, "Let me show you how it is done." Puck went and opened the door letting the jazz band it, "Watch and learn Finn, this is how you impress a girl." Puck then began to sing Lady is a Tramp and danced around the room. Rachel had to stop from fanning herself. Nothing got her hotter then when Puck sang, and even more when he danced.

"Close your mouth." Quinn whispered and Rachel looked at her guilty. It also made her feel guilty that after his performance Rachel dragged Puck into the janitors closet and skipped fourth period because they were making out.

"Puck is my friend," Quinn told Mercedes later when she got up with her to talk about Puck, "We were always just meant to be friends, so just go for it. But a word of warning in Santana's mind Puck will always be hers, so you might want to watch your back." Well hers until Santana realizes she is in love with Brittney.

"I am not afraid of her," Mercedes said.

"Just keep one eye open at all times," Quinn warned.

"This is crap," Rachel said to Quinn as they watched Santana and Mercedes perform The Boy is Mine. "That boy is mine."

"You are being a bit hypercritical," Quinn said holding back a smile at jealously radiating off her friend, "He has to watch you with Finn and Jesse."

"Oh she is not touching him." Rachel said and started to get up but Quinn held her down. Jealous Rachel was amusing, but now was not the time for Rachel to threaten to go "Crazy Berry" on them.

R&P

Rachel grinned when she saw Sean. It had been years. After visiting him this first time Rachel had come back a couple times to talk about Glee and he actually helped her write some songs. Sean said he had a lot of time to think and had a better grasp of the world then anyone Rachel knew.

"Hi Sean." Rachel said brightly, "Aren't you handsome? If I didn't have a boyfriend already you might have had to watch out."

"I like her," Sean said to Finn. Before she left Rachel kissed him on the cheek and he looked at her with wide eyes. She knew he felt that.

"I'll come back and see you," Rachel promised.

"You were great," Finn said as they walked to the car.

"Thanks," Rachel said, "There are people who have to deal with worse things then I do. You're a good friend Finn." And he was, a horrible boyfriend, but a good friend.

There performance of One was one of Rachel's favorites. It was such a touching and good song. We're one but we are not the same. Carry each other.

New York

"There it is," Rachel said looking down at the fourth test she had taken, "I'm pregnant."

"Don't hold in your joy Berry," Puck said seeing Rachel's face, "Let it out."

"I don't know what to think." Rachel said honestly, "I am sure the 26 year old me would be overjoyed. She would be so happy to be having another baby."

"And you?" Puck asked.

"I am happy for them." Rachel replied, "I am happy that this will happen one day, but I have been thinking that if we are here maybe the 26 year old versions of us are back in Lima."

"Maybe," Puck said considering it.

"I feel like I am stealing this moment from them," Rachel told him.

"Things will work out Berry," Puck said nudging her softly, "They always do."

"Thank you Noah," Rachel said smiling softly at him.

"Mom!" Evan's voice called out.

Lima

"Take out a piece of paper," Bryan Ryan told the class, "And on that paper I want you to write down your biggest dream. A dream that means so much to you're afraid to admit it even to yourself."

Instead of No stretch marks Quinn wrote down For my baby to be healthy.

Instead of Big Star Rachel wrote down For Evan to get everything he ever wants in life.

Instead of 3 some (which might have already come true though Puck swore he would never tell) wrote down For my kids to be happy.

Just like before Bryan Ryan took Artie's dream threw it in the trash and told them that none of their dreams were ever going to come true, and they were going to spend their whole lives in Ohio. Well three people in the room knew that wasn't true. A large portion of the class would be in New York in five years. Really the only person who stayed was Finn. He now owned Burt's shop and was married with kids of his own. Finn was happy here, but this wasn't the life for everyone.

P&R

"When you lie awake at night what is missing?" Jesse asked her. My son, my husband sleeping next to me, taking on the phone with Sam till 2 am because he is her best friend, having girls nights with Santana, Brittney, and Quinn. Rachel said none of that, she lied and said,

"My Mom."

"Your Mom?" Jesse said, "Like you would want to meet her?"

"I would just like to know who she is," Rachel said which was true. She might not be close to Shelby and really only sees her when they come back for Beth's birthday parties, but she still wanted to meet her. They didn't have a close bond but they e-mailed and occasionally talked. "Maybe meet her."

"Why don't you ask your Dad's about them?" Jesse asked.

"I didn't want to hurt their feelings," Rachel replied, "But it would be nice to know her name. There's Quinn I have to go, bye Jesse." Rachel left and walked over to her friend.

"Was Jesse asking about your Mom?" Quinn said and Rachel nodded.

"I was hoping we might be back before I had to deal with this again," Rachel said leaning against the locker, "Shelby wanted a baby, not me. My Dads are enough, but that rejection will always be there."

"Do you want me to give the baby to someone else?" Quinn asked and Rachel just looked at her, "If you want me to I will." Rachel smiled softly at her and her heart warmed at Quinn's loyalty.

"No," Rachel said, "Shelby loves Beth, but thank you."

Rachel didn't listen to the tape Jesse left behind. She didn't want to.

"I have a song I would like to sing for all of you," Rachel said standing in front of the class after Mr. Schue said they weren't cutting the program. "And I just wanted to say don't let go of your dreams. Santana, ready?" The Latina nodded and got up. The two of them began to sing I Dreamed a Dream. Santana got to show off how powerful her voice was and Rachel got to sing with her friend.

New York

Puck hated desk work already, but with the fake cast made out of paper mache by Evan and Rachel he was on desk duty filling out paperwork. Which was pretty idiot proof so he got the handle of it pretty quickly. Apparently his older self had been avoiding it for a while because there was a huge pile. But it was really cool to read the files about the cases he had done. Turns out Puck was a pretty decent cop. He also liked the picture of Evan and Rachel he kept on his desk.

"Hey Puckerman that wife of yours is here with your lunch...again," One of his fellow officers told him, "Lucky bastard, my wife never does anything like that." Puck grinned and Rachel bouncing into the station.

"Hello Noah," Rachel said coming over to his desk, "I thought we could have lunch together. Quinn called and told me Evan and Sophie are being more behaved."

"That's a relief, thanks Baby I am starving," Puck said taking a sandwich out of the bag, "And this is the real stuff right? None of that fake food you inhale?" Rachel rolled her eyes.

"It's real," Rachel promised, "Now eat up I only get a half hour."

Lima

"Thanks for helping me make my costume this time," Rachel said to Quinn as they made their Gaga outfits. Rachel trying to recreate the one Shelby made and not the stapled on stuffed animals. Luckily she had an amateur fashion designer to help her. Quinn had made Rachel's wedding dress and a couple of her premiere outfits.

"No problem," Quinn said, "It was almost painful to see your outfit before. So are you going to talk to Shelby at all?"

"Yes," Rachel said, "I just don't know when, or how."

"Do you want me to go with you?" Quinn asked.

"No, I can do this," Rachel replied, "I have before."

P&R

"I heard the tape," Rachel said coming up to Shelby who was sitting at her directors desk and then posed, "What do you think of my Gaga outfit?"

"Couldn't have made it better myself." Shelby said, "So you know?"

"That you are my mother?" Rachel said, "Yes, and the resemblance is hard to miss."

"I don't know what to do now," Shelby said getting scatterbrained just like before.

"Maybe nothing," Rachel said, "Not now. We both know, lets just start there."

"Okay," Shelby agreed. "I'll call you."

"Okay," Rachel said, "I have to go, we are performing Bad Romance."

"You do have an amazing voice Rachel," Shelby said, "I heard you at Sectionals, you blew me away."

"Like mother, like daughter," Rachel said smiling, "I'll see you around."

P&R

When Puck began to sing Beth Rachel came up behind Quinn and put her arms around her. Quinn put her arm over Rachel's half hugging her back. Quinn was letting a couple tears drop instead of trying so hard to keep them in like she did before. Rachel felt her own eyes watering but she tightened her grip on her friend and Quinn was holding onto her for dear life. She was glad she wasn't as alone this time. Quinn leaned back so their heads were right next to each other. When the beautiful song was over Puck walked over hands in his pockets just before.

"Beth," He said, "We should name her Beth, and I want to be there when she is born." Quinn smiled and sniffed.

"Okay," Quinn said, "But I might bruise your hand with my super pregnancy strength." She might, Quinn had to Sam. Rachel had heard the bones crunch together when she was in the delivery room as Sophie was being born. Sam couldn't throw a ball for a week.

P&R

When Shelby walked away after singing Poker Face the tears Rachel thought she would be able to hold in this time still fell. However not like before, someone had been waiting in the wings. Puck came into sight and Rachel ran to him throwing her arms around his waist and burying her head in his chest.

"I got you Baby," Puck said rubbing her back, "You're okay, I got you."

….

What did you think?

I didn't really know what to do with Shelby, but I was always going to have her keep Beth. I did want Quinn to offer to give the baby to someone else to show how loyal she is to Rachel.

So after watching the first season over again to write this I realized how much I liked Finn, this season. Then he comes a douche in the second season and I will never like his character again. But I didn't want him to have a bad life, and he did love Rachel.

Review! And sorry for my ramble.

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