Note: Chapter 7 of You love me right?! I don't own Fairy Tail or the cover image. Sorry for spelling/grammar mistakes.
The tragedy of life is not death but what we let die inside of us while we live.
-Norman Cousins
I question who am I all the time. Am I just the weird, funny, and happy girl or am I the depressed and lonely girl? Depression took me and wrapped its hands around my neck. Squeezing every day until eventually it'll drown me.
I walk along the road, and I look up to the sky. This is the beginning of something, right? Something beautiful yet deadly. I walk to the school's pool and go to the girl's locker room. I am in the swim club, and I can't express how water makes me feel.
But, I feel free like I can do anything in there, so basically its like a drug for stablizing my depression. I do cut, but I always cover them up with long shirts and other necessary materials like make-up.
I change into my one-piece swimsuit and sauntered to the pool. I dip my legs in before I jump into the water. I move my arms in a circular motion and kick my legs to support my weight.
The water calms me down until I am at ease. Its like my escape from the real world.
I close my mouth and open my eyes with my goggles on. I swim the butterfly stroke, and I digged to be one with the water. The water doesn't have any burden that life forces it upon it. I swim deeper down the pool, and I could feel my lungs burning from the lack of oxygen.
Even so, I still kept swimming down, and I could feel conciousness slip away from me. The last thing I could see was a hand.
I walk into the school, early thirty minutes before it starts when I heard a noise in the school's swimming pool. I scan the area before heading towards the back of the building.
I arrive to see a body under the water but it wasn't coming up, so I stripped out of my shirt and pants before jumping down into the depths of the water. I swim and swim until I reach the body.
I grab the female's arm and pull us up into the surface. I drag her out with me, and I scan her face to realize she was Juvia! The girl with aqua eyes and a beautiful smile.
I shake her but realize she's not waking up. I check her pulse, and hear a tiny heart bumping. I press my hands against her chest, and press down until she spits out water. I later pressed my lips against hers and breathed in air.
I kept doing it until I hear a groan, and I let go of her. Her eyes fluttered open in confusement, before turning to me.
"G-Gray?" she squeaked out.
"Yes?"
"What are you doing here?" she asked.
"I heard a noise in the back of the school, and I decided to investigate. Lucky me, I was here when you almost died."
Her eyes darkened at the last words of mine, before turning back to me.
"Died? Thats okay if I did." she said in a dark tone.
"Thanks for saving me," Juvia added in a lighter tone before getting up to get her uniform back on.
Why did she have that expression when I mentioned the word die? What happened to her? How could her expression twist into something so dark, and there was a loneliness in her eyes. What did she go through before she met me? Why did she say those words?
Did she really want to die? What makes her think like this?
"Gray?" I heard her call out.
"Yeah?"
"Let's get to class before we are tardy." Juvia strode towards me calmly, and she acted like she never drowned.
"Okay," I dismissed all my questions before scrambling with her to the school's doors.
Her dark expression drilled itself into my mind, and it haunted me for the rest of the way to the first class. Juvia and I parted ways in the entrance of the building before heading to class.
I sigh in relief after I departed from Gray. Good thing he didn't ask about what I said earlier. After all, he barely knows who I am and my dark past. I don't want to tell him my dark past yet because for one, I'm not ready and two, I don't know what kind of reaction he's going to have.
One minute he seems like he's going to burst out laughing, and then, the next, he seems like he has no emotions whatsoever.
I sigh in relief after I departed from Gray. Good thing he didn't ask about what I said earlier. After all, he barely knows who I am and my dark past. I don't want to tell him my dark past yet because for one, I'm not ready and two, I don't know what kind of reaction he's going to have.
One minute he seems like he's going to burst out laughing, and then, the next, he seems like he has no emotions whatsoever.
I turned around with a twitching smile to double check if Gray was still there and kept glancing back like he would appear out of nowhere. I let out the breath that I didn't realize I was holding.
After what I said this morning, I wouldn't be surprised if he looks at me like I was a hobo. Mission of the day: Be normal. Breathe. I breathed heavily, earning stares. Smile. I twitched a giant creepy smile on my face. No hiding in the corner. No magical guardian fairies.
"You look constipated," Lucy snorted as she appeared out of nowhere.
I leaped ten feet up into the air and landed on my butt.
"Ow."
"THE FUCK DID YOU APPEAR OUT OF NOWHERE?! YOU SCARED THE GRAPES OUT OF ME!" I exclaimed as I rubbed my butt.
"Poor butt, I'm sorry you got a boo boo." I cooed to my butt.
"What are you doing?" Lucy cocked a eyebrow in my direction.
"Uh, comforting my butt hurt?" I questioned with a big smile on my face.
"Why did you look like a creepy rapist back there?" Lucy questioned.
"I was acting normal!"
"You looked so normal that a child would ran away if they saw your face." Lucy deadpanned.
"Oh, thank you!" I happily said.
"That wasn't a compliment, idiot." she let out a sigh.
"B-But..." I sniffled out.
Lucy proceeded to face-palm, and I tilted my head.
"Okay, okay, child. Get to class now," she made a shoo motion with her hands.
I stuck my tongue out at her childishly, and I ran through the halls like an ninja on my tippy-toes. I dashed to my first period class before the teacher came in, and I slid into my seat. I breathed heavily and thought 'I shouldn't have ran through those halls'.
I felt a tap on my shoulder, and I whipped around, shouting "Magical guardian fairy?!"
'Fuck, I just said it again'.
What I saw caused me to gape. Yes, if you said Gray fucking Fullbuster in all his glory then, your right. He had a triumph look on his face which made me close my mouth and opened it back up. Dam you, Gray Fullbuster and your attractiveness.
"A dick is going to go in there if you don't close it," he stated, clearly amused.
"WHAT?!" I exclaimed, shocked at what he had said.
"Why are you in this class? What is the formula for gravity? What is the meaning of life? Are you a stalker? Are you a wizard? Do you like bananas?" I babbled out.
"This is my first class. I think its time divided by distance but I'm not sure. The meaning of life is kawaii potatoes. No. Maybe. Yes." He answered.
"Wow," I awed at his answer.
"Do you like turtles?" I smiled childishly as I asked this.
"Yes."
I suddenly envisioned me married to Gray and we had a turtle with two kids. One had Gray's hair and my eyes. The other had my hair with Gray's eyes and smile.
The boy had my personality and the girl was like Gray. I suddenly got snapped out of my future. Yes, I'm going to marry Gray 'cause its so wonderful he loves turtles too. Duh, who wouldn't to marry someone who loves turtles and is so handsome?
I heard my name, and turned around with a big smile on my face. Gray looked really confused and repeated his question.
"Are you okay?"
Oh, no! Those are the magical words to trigger me to sing that magical song.
"I'm not okayyyyy," I sang as I stretched out the y.
A burst of laughter coursed through Gray.
"Your full of surprises, Juvia." he grins at me as if I was something amusing.
I gaped at him again and opened my mouth to reply.A loud door slamming shut interrupted me. A familiar silver haired male rushed towards me.
He grasps my hand and declares, "Juvia-chan, you don't know how excited I am to see you!"
...What the fuck?!
Why is Lyon here? I thought he went to another , he gasps dramatically and points to Gray.
"What is this wretched beast doing behind you?! Don't worry Juvia-chan! I will protect you."
I face palmed at his statement and started, "Gra-"
But I was cut off by yours truly, Gray Fullbuster.
"Bastard! Who you calling wretched beast?! I'm way more beautiful than you'll ever be."
I started to crack up at his statement and Lyon screwed up his face in a offended motion.
"Excuse you but you'll never get a girlfriend with a face like that."
With that comment, it set them off to bicker like children fighting over candy. I could feel my eyebrow twitch in annoyance and a tick mark over my forehead.
"Stupid guys fighting over stupid things. I rather eat some skittles. No, chocolate. No, ice cream." I mutter, trying to decide what to eat.
All of a sudden, Lyon tumbled into me, snapping me out of my food fantasy. He got back up to argue with Gray, completely ignorant of me with a demonic aura leaking out behind them. But as of cue, they shivered with fear and slowly turned their heads towards me who was just getting up.
"Grayyyy. LYONNN." I whispered out creepily.
They gulped in fear while simultaneously jumping together.I grabbed the back of their heads before knocking them together. They groaned as they fell into a heap on the ground.
"What was that for?" They muttered in unison.
"For you two who kept bickering like Lucy and Natsu."
"Hey!" Lucy shouted out with a blush on her face.
"What is that suppose to mean?!" she huffed out.
"Means that you two are a old married couple who argue like children." I precisely replied.
"Hey! I'm not married to him!" The duo cried out indignantly.
"Sure you aren't." I sarcastically stated.
"Of course I'm not." they replied in sync.
"Why the fuck are you copying me?!" they glared at each other.
"No! You are!" they childishly argued.
"Bloody hell. Why the fuck do they argue so much...its bad for my precious toes and body." I muttered.
"Okay. Okay. Children. Calm your man boobs." I wrenched them apart before the teacher advanced in and gave us all detention.
They both scowled in resentment towards the other. I sighed in exhaustion.
What have I gotten into?
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