After coming back from the doctor with Shelby, I just found out what I was having. A boy. My little Jack.

Tori and Cat came over.

" A boy?" shrieked Tori. " Really?"

" Yes!" I said. " It's a boy!"

" Yay!" screamed Cat. " Little Jack's coming! Does Beck know yet?"

" I tried to call him awhile ago but he hasn't called back," I said.

" Oh, Jade," said Tori. " Andre told me that Beck was on a date again."

" Oh, really," I asked.

" Yeah. Jade... will you be able to get used to that?"

" What do you mean?"

" Jade," said Cat. " Tori is saying that... will you take of Little Jack by yourself?"

" I won't take care of him by myself, guys. I have Beck with me."

" We know that, Jade. But what if... he meets someone else? Like he has a girlfriend."

That thought was unthinkable. I know Beck and I aren't together, but he promised me that we would take care of our son together.

" You know, guys?" I said. " You're right. He might meet someone else. He's not my Beck anymore. I-I... I didn't realize that until now."

" Oh, Jade," said Cat.

" No, you two are right. It only took seven months to figure that out."

An hour later, they both left.

I've been thinking about what Tori and Cat told me. Beck and I aren't together. How can take care of our only son if the both of us can't be there for him at the same time? I mean how can divorced parents even do this with their own kids.

For some reason, I went into my car and drove to Beck's house.

I drove up to his driveway. Then, walked up to his RV and knocked on his door.

The door opened and Beck appeared. He said, " Jade?"

" Hey, Beck," I said.

" What are you doing here?"

" I needed to talk to you."

" Okay."

" I got good news and bad news. First... it's a boy."

" A boy?"

" Yes."

" That's great! W-What's the bad news?"

" Beck, I've been thinking about this. You know we're together anymore, right?"

" Of course."

" Yep. I know you won't always... be there for him."

" Be there for him? What do you mean?"

" Beck, you can grow up, go to college, meet someone else, and raise another family of your own. Me... a-and him... were not your family. I mean he is, but I'm not."

" Jade, what are you saying? You think I'm gonna leave my son just like that?"

" No, I meant... you might have other plans in the future. You'll only stay for him, not for me. I won't let my son go with you and..."

" Beck, what's taking so long?" said some girl who came out of his RV.

Suddenly, my heart dropped into my stomach. The girl said, "What's this?"

" What's that?" I rudely asked.

" Oh, um..." said Beck. " Jade, this is... Mckayla. Mckayla, this is Jade... my baby's mother."

" Baby's mother?" she asked. " You're a dad?"

" Yep," he said. " It's alright, Mckayla. She and I are friends. Just give me a minute."

" Okay." Then, Mckayla went back inside.

Beck looks back at me and says, " Jade... that wasn't what it looks like."

" No need," I said. " I understand. It's just gonna take me a while to get used to it."

Then, I walked away.

I got into my car and drove off.

By the time I got home, I was tired and confused. I walked upstairs to take a shower.

A bunch of shit ran through my mind. Will I be alone with my son? Will Beck ever be there for Jack? How can Jack even grow up knowing that his dad won't always be there for his baseball games, to pick him up from school, or to see him when he wakes up?

I turned the water off, then I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my body. My body and hair was dripping wet. I took a step out of the shower.

My still body was freezing cold. I looked at myself in the half fogging mirror.

I turned on the music on my phone. The song Calls Me Home by Shannon LaBrie plays.

It's funny how the walk of life can take you down without a fight

My wet black hair with blue and green highlights hung over my shoulders. The white towel I had over my body barely covered me because of my enormous stomach.

So many years can leave behind regretfully until it's time to realize the moment. When you turn around, I'm coming home
To breathe again,
To start again

I removed the towel off my body. I looked at my body.

I'm coming home from all the places I have been

My body had gained 30 pounds since I've been pregnant. I was so big that I barely recognize myself. My stomach was big. All because of Beck.

With nothing but a voice within that calls me…Calls me home!

" Don't worry, Jack," I said to my unborn son. " We're gonna be alright. Just you and me. We're gonna be one big happy family. I love you."

I gently kissed my fingers and laid them on my stomach.