Day 35-

Holy shit Komaeeda is gone oh my gd oh my god

I'm still freakingout a little but I ttink i've calmed dwn enough too say what hapened

Alrrug

Alrihht

Alright

Alright.

We were just walking alone quietly enougth aand I didn't see it he didn't see it it just happened in a split second I should have seen it why did I not seeitwhydidInot

okay I recovered a bit more

Don't know why I got so upset, but let me explain rationally

so we were just walking, he was a bit behind me, when I heard a loud splash and screaming

There was just a hole in the ground. A big one. Full of water.

He took a step and fell in. That's it. He was gone. That easy. What kind of a disappearance is that? How ridiculous is that? A hole? Out of nowhere, a fucking *hole*?

I don't know how deep it is. I can swim pretty well so I dove in and kept trying to go deeper but I never found a bottom, and I never found him.

He was gone. That easily.

No drama, no screaming or life-changing, do-or-die moment. No trying to save a friend and failing moment like in the movies.

Just… just gone.

Way back before I suddenly found him for no reason. And just as suddenly, now he was gone.

Give me something I can anchor my last few grains of hope to, then rip it away from me, with that hope along with it. I don't know what to do anymore.

Should I keep going? Should I stay here at this pit of water?

I don't… I don't like being near it.

I think we should keep going still, Hinata-kun. I trust your judgement to walk on. Remember what you said to me, don't think, just walk, right?

That's what he said to me yesterday, by the way. I… I think I'll take his advice.

Day 36-

Real lonely waking up without anyone around. He would always wake up before me.

I started crying in my sleep again. Weird.

I feel bad because it was only yesterday, but I'm starting to get used to being alone again. It's not like I don't miss him. I don't feel as if he died though, in fact, I never considered if that happened. I think he's just… gone. Whether I will end up seeing him again or not is not within my knowledge, of course.

But... I dunno. Again, though, I feel as if I'm used to being on my lonesome already. To be fair he was only there for… lemme count now… day 16 to day 35? Uhhh… 19 days? Damn, that's actually a lot. It didn't seem like much since he was also so quiet too.

Day 37-

I'm starting to think that maybe I should have stayed at the pit of water. I don't know why, especially when I remember that I felt uncomfortable nearby it…

not that it matters, it's way too far back. I'd never be able to find it now. Besides, I would just lose track of my current path and go in circles.

Well, for all I know, I may have been going in circles the entire time, hell knows. The grass getting shorter and shorter as I walk on, even sometimes lacking in patches altogether, does nothing to stop me from thinking that.

But I know better than that. After 37 days of this shit, more than a solid month, I'm starting to realized one thing is more true that anything else. One rule. Don't think.

Just walk.

Day 38-

I think I've been lying a bit about my walking distances recently. I've barely traveled an hour's worth each day. The blisters on my feet are getting a little too out of hand for this. Yep, they're back. I don't really feel so inclined to pop them this time though. The blood was just too much for me.

Day 39-

Popped them anyways. Lotta blood, maybe even more than last time. Is this abnormal? I felt lightheaded afterwards so I've been writing, but I think I'm gonna call it quits already. Going to bed.

Day 40-

It may be a new day or it may not be. I don't even know anymore. Days depend on my schedule now, not the sun's. Man, I would do anything to see the sun again…

Er, anyways. I decided every time I fall asleep and wake up it's a new day. Maybe I've already said that. Who knows, nowadays.

Still bleeding, so I must've not been asleep for long. I'm planning on walking a bit tomorrow.