Oh, here we go again. My trashy story. No need to read this blabbering of mine BUT before you start to read, I have little to say. Somehow-I have no idea how- when I sumbit new chapter that document manager keeps deleting words from it. I mean, like words. And If I try to correct it, another word just dissapears -_-'...so, if you really want to read it COMPLETE, go to dA please. I'm really sorry, I don't know why that FU*KING Doc Manager hates me!
Grimmjow just looked at Ulquiorra. There was no need to hesitate ,not that he could. He pressed his lips against Ulquiorra's. Ulquiorra closed eyes as he began to return the kiss. Grimmjow pulled him closer and wrapped his hands around Ulquiorra's waist. Pale teen slightly opened his mouth as he allowed the other one to explore his mouth with his tongue. Ulquiorra shivered when he felt Grimmjow's warm hands on his butt. He left a quiet moan escape and that motivated Grimmjow to fully break the kiss.
Grimmjow kissed Ulquiorra's jaw and continued to his ear and down to neck and throat, kissing that porcelain skin. He felt how pale teen wrapped his hands around his neck. The heat was growing. What's going on with me..thought Grimmjow as he came back to tasting Ulquiorra's somehow sweet lips. Another moan escaped pale teen's mouth. Grimmjow pushed Ulquiorra onto wardrobe and kissed him so passionately that he could feel his fast heart beat in synchronization with his own. It was like nothing else in the world existed in that moment. Grimmjow unbuttoned Ulquiorra's shirt breaking the kiss as he slid his hand on pale teen's chest . His hot skin touching Ulquiorra's colder one made him moan again. ''G..Grimmjow…'' mumbled Ulquiorra as Jeagerjacques grabbed his wrists and hold them on the wardrobe so he couldn't move. Not that he cared. Grimmjow finally kissed him again, making them both shiver.
Ulquiorra could feel Grimmjow's tongue all over his mouth. His brain was yelling Stop! Stop! Enough!, but his body needs were stronger. He couldn't stop. He didn't want to. It was like flame in flame. He set free one hand only to grab Grimmjow's t-shirt and pull him closer. Stop…! Ulquiorra kissed him never so intensely. Stop…! Grimmjow's grip became even stronger, but Ulquiorra didn't notice. All that mattered that time was Grimmjow. Nothing else. Stop! His brain resisted, but his body already gave up to other felt him. That's why he needed him. Stop…! That's enough!...another moan…Grimmjow grabbed his waist again..Stop….!
''Enough….!'' said Ulquiorra weakly and pushed Grimmjow away from himself, letting his hand on teal haired teen's chest. Grimmjow was warm, sweaty, and trembling. Both of them were gasping for the air. Ulquiorra looked into that blue eyes. Flame in flame..that's my eyes in yours…''That's enough…'' Grimmjow nodded. He was scared. One kiss..I couldn't control myself at all. He took a deep breath to regain control of himself again.''I'm …so sorry,Ulquiorra… I don't know what was happening with me…'' Ulquiorra looked at him. He seemed to be really ashamed .''That's not your fault. I…couldn't stop either…'' blushed pale teen. They just stood there staring at each other. How awkward. Suddenly Grimmjow cleared his throat. ''Eh…I'm going to bathroom.'' He quickly grabbed his 'pajamas' and practically escaped from room.
Ulquiorra was glad Grimmjow left him switched off the light and sighed as he took his ipod and chose some pathetic trashy song. He lay into bed, muffled into blanket and closed eyes. Just what happened right now? How..how it will be from now on? We can't pretend nothing happened. It wasn't any ordinary kiss at all. Ulquiorra felt blush spreading all over his face. Thanks god it was dark. Ulquiorra muffled into blanket again and tried to sleep. That music was disturbing him. He switched it off and put Ipod under his pillow.
Grimmjow was taking a shower. He stood under that calming stream of water himself consumed in deep thoughts. What the hell did I do? Why? Why am I so attracted to Ulquiorra? He's a guy! Grimmjow sighed. I kissed a guy…oh god.He sighed again. And It wasn't any innocent kiss. It was regular French kiss. He blushed.No..it was much more than that. Grimmjow almost fell down when he realized what they actually did. Thanks god he stopped me. I don't wanna even think about what It would be if he didn't…How far would I go? He swallowed. He never thought he could lose his control with a guy. How am I supposed to face Ulquiorra now? He didn't know. He tried to think about what was he going to tell him when he'll return to their room. Grimmjow even seriously thought that he would go to sleep to Nnoitra and Ikkaku, but it would just cause stupid questions. He sighed. It was so complicated just because of one kiss… He could still feel Ulquiorra's sweet lips on his owns. He could still feel that flame he set on fire in him. It wasn't his first kiss, but it was by far the best one. Grimmjow sighed as he switched off the water. It's late now…Ulquiorra may be asleep now.
Ulquiorra lay in bed, eyes closed. He couldn't sleep at all. What the hell was I thinking? Am I retarded? 'Then do so..' ? How could I be so pathetic? He was angry at himself.Why did I told him to kiss me anyway? Did I… Ulquiorra opened eyes and found himself staring into ceiling.Did I want to kiss him? No matter how much he thought about it, the answer was swallowed. I wanted to kiss Grimmjow Jeagerjacques. He swallowed anew. Not only that. I kissed him. Ulquiorra turned on his side, staring into wardrobe. His heart almost stopped as he imagined what was he doing there. The conclusion was undeniable. I just made out with guy and I liked it. A lot. He smiled. That's pretty stupid. I wonder what Grim…he stopped smiling. Grimmjow. He left immediately after that. After I pushed him away. Ulquiorra felt bad although he knew there was no other option .I didn't want to stop it,but..he swallowed , terrified. How far would I let it to go? He didn't want to ,he heard some sounds from outside. Was Grimmjow back? Ulquiorra felt how his heart began to beat faster. Why am I so nervous? Ulquiorra knew. He didn't wanted to face Grimmjow so he decided to pretend he was asleep.
Grimmjow stopped in front of the door. I'm eavesdropping on my own room. How pathetic. Still, he placed his ear on the door and listened. He couldn't hear anything. It was quiet. '''s asleep!'' whispered Grimmjow and grabbed the doorknob ready to open the door. ''What are you doing?'' Grimmjow got scared and jumped away from the door.''Geez,Nnoitra! You almost got me a heart attack!'' Nnoitra grinned , suspiciously watching his friend. ''So,what happened? Between you and Ulquiorra?'' Grimmjow blushed and nervously scratched his head. ''Err…''
Ulquiorra heard voices. Nnoitra. And asked him what happened. ''Err…nothing! Why should something happen?'' spluttered out Jeagerjacques, but that wasn't thing Ulquiorra was interested in. He was sure Grimmjow wouldn't tell anybody. But Nnoitra…Did he know something? There's no way…but…no,there's no way he could know. Emo thought about it. Actually, there was a way Nnoitra could at least suspect them. He was the one who made that bet. If Grimmjow told him something…That's stupid thought Ulquiorra. Grimmjow would never tell anybody.So..how Nnoitra knew? Ulquiorra decided not to think about it. It's just coincidence. Yeah, a coincidence.
Grimmjow opened the door. Finally he got rid of Nnoitra. That idiot never stop to ask…does he know something? Nah, he can't. There was a bigger problem. He looked around the room. Dark and quiet as he expected. Grimmjow closed the door and headed to bed. Two steps..the floor crunched under his foots. Grimmjow's heart was beating really fast. I can't wake him up. Another step…it crunched again. Oh shit! He panic-stricken looked at Ulquiorra. He didn't even move.Lucky…finally Grimmjow arrived into bed. He sat down and the bed made loud screeching noise…He checked Ulquiorra. Still not moving. Teal haired teen sighed in relief ,lay down and took blanket.
Silence. After half hour of awkward silence Grimmjow sighed. He didn't know why it felt so awkward and tense. Jesus Christ ,he' asleep and still I feel so stupid…for being quiet. If I feel like this now, what will I do when he's awake? Grimmjow felt strange feeling in his stomach. Nervosity? Nah,it's something else. He sighed again. The time ran never so slowly.
Ulquiorra heard how Grimmjow sighed. He wondered what is he thinking about. About me? Emo blushed. He thinks I am asleep.Pale teen muffled in blanket deeper making it looks like he was sleeping. Actually, he was cold again. He won't do anything tonight.Ulquiorra shuddered with cold. He felt the bed move. Grimmjow obviously couldn't sleep. Just like me. Ulquiorra's mind was too much busy to allow him to sleep. He had two choices : Thinking about Grimmjow or about how cold he was. Suddenly,he coughed.
Grimmjow heard Ulquiorra coughed. He looked at pale teen's back. Even in the dark he could see how was he trembling. He's cold again. Geez, Ulqui,you're such a pussy. What should I do? Grimmjow thought about it. He just couldn't ignore it. But…then he decided. Fuck my reputation, fuck my doubts. And Grimmjow wrapped one arm around Ulquiorra's waist, pulling him closer to himself.
Ulquiorra widened his eyes. Did he just hug me? Are you kidding me? Yeah, he actually hugged me. Emo could clearly feel Grimmjow's calm heart beat. He wasn't cold anymore. Grimmjow's embrace felt so warm, so good, so comfortable, so safe. Ulquiorra allowed himself to enjoy that contact. He wanted him to stay like that, by his side, his brain was arguing that it was wrong, his body told him it wasn't. He believed his body once. This feeling of Grimmjow's arms wrapped around him was so calming. Ulquiorra closed the eyes and he was already almost asleep when he heard Grimmjow. ''Ulquiorra..I..'' he whispered in Ulquiorra's ear.''I know you don't hear me…that's why I need to…tell you something…'' he paused for a moment. Tell me what, Grimmjow? What do you need? ''I …think I really like you.''
