Hey so so so so so so soooo sorry I haven't updated in a while! I've been super busy and I'll explain in the after note. I made this one a little longer ( I hope) so. . . Enjoy!

Disclaimer : I do NOT own Death Note or its characters. Misa is a bit to annoying for my taste. XD

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Chapter 7 : What I needed

"He raped me," It escaped my lips before I could stop it. I put my head on my knees which were curled into my chest. They were bony and skinny along with the rest of my body. They had countless scratches and bruises, mostly from falling when I escaped.

I didn't want to look at L. See his face twist in disgust. I didn't want to see that. He sat across from me on the vanity chair while I occupied the huge bed. Why did I tell him?! I screamed inwardly. I trust way to easily with him. I don't even know him, for gods sake!

I could feel the tears begging for escape. I felt them gathering at the brims of my eyes. I could feel them. Pushing until I finally gave in. I let them flow. They were uncontrollable streaking down my face with no sign of letting up. A couple salty tears fell into my mouth whenever I opened it to let another sob escape. I could feel myself start to shake. I have to get over this. How many times have I cried and shook while I was here? Too many!

This will be the last time. Trust me. A voice came from inside me. I knew it was me but believing someone was there for me felt so much better than talking to myself. It's alright. Just go to sleep and everything will be ok. I gave into the voice and slowly closed my eyes. Drifting off to another world. One of peace and serenity.

Before I left the world of mixed emotions I heard the voice once more, though barely audible. You need to trust. Trust them.

Whose them? But I got no answer for I had fallen asleep.


L's POV

She seemed so at peace. Finally happy. She's beautiful. Wait! I don't actually think that do I.

There was a sudden fluttery feeling in my stomach as I looked down upon Krystal. I don't feel anything for her. I have no emotion.

Bur even I knew that was a lie. I could feel. What happened in the past hour proves it. I felt sorry for her. Scared for her. Protective of her. I knew those feelings. I've felt them before. Although, right now, this fluttering in my stomach, this is new.

What is this?


Krystal's POV

I once again awoke to the presence along with the eruption of sunlight in my room. I kept my eyes closed until the soft footsteps faded down the hall. I fluttered open my eyes, squinting in the sunlight, and let my eyes adjust.

I slowly stood with wobbly knees and made my way to the vanity. I looked at myself. Why did they help me? I thought waiting for an answer to pop out of no where. I looked down at my clothes and decided I should change. I woke up in several cold sweats so the clothes were basically soaked.

I walked to the closet and fumbled with the handle. Once I got the handle to twist I pushed open the door. I walked in and picked out the same grey sweat shirt and baggy jeans. I brought them and set them on the bed. I pulled off my shirt and pants and threw them in a corner with little strength. I stopped and once again looked in the mirror. I had no bra but I did have underwear although it doesn't do any good. My breast were small, maybe an A cup. My ribs stuck out of my sunken stomach along with my small hips. My cheeks were also sunken and my hair hung dully past my shoulders.

"Ugly," I whispered to no one in particular. "Ugly!" I screamed smashing my fist into the mirror with more force than I thought I had. Something dripped down my wrist as I pulled my hand away. I looked at it wide eyed. Blood. Everywhere. Dripping. I heard footfall after footfall quickly coming from the hall.

Why were they coming? Did they hear me?

"Miss Krystal! Are you alright?" Watari rushed in catching me as I fell to the ground. The door was still wide open when L came and stood at the entrance. He stared down at me when I saw something flicker in his eyes. Worry?

"Miss Krystal?" Watari asked worriedly snapping me back out of my trance. "Uh-hun," I muttered nodding my head. I felt the tears but I held them back. I will not cry any more.

"Please let us help you," He pleaded as started to grab my arms to hold me up. I gave in and let him carry me to my bed. He slipped the shirt on over my head and motioned for L to come in. L walked to my bedside and went into his croach looking at me.

"You may take your leave Watari. Please return to your previous chore." L ordered and of course the suited man agreed taking his leave and marching down the hall. L turned back to me with that stare. That concentrated look that he gave me every time we saw each other.

"Why do you do that?" I asked aloud making him rip his eyes from my wrists and look deep into my eyes.

"Hm," He placed thumb to his lips making my heart skip a beat. "Analyzing," he said simply. "I guess that's what I do to make sure you're alright. Also I use it to try to figure out a person. Body language shows a lot about a person."

I nod, not knowing half of what he said. His eyes were so captivating. I don't think I've met someone with pure black eyes. But somehow there seemed to be more to those black orbs. To most they most likely come across as hard and emotionless but to me. . . I saw something more. A sort of. . . softness. You could lose yourself in those eyes.

"Krystal?" L asked, his eyebrows furrowing.

"Hm," See what I mean. Lose yourself.

"You should clean your hand. If you would like we could take the glass out and put rubbing alcohol on it." He explained as I looked down at my wrist.

I didn't even notice that some glass got stuck in my hand. I agreed and he helped me walk to the door. As we get there I shrug his hand off my shoulder. It's not that I didn't want his hand there I just didn't need help.

"I'm fine by myself but thank you." I look at him to see if he understands.

"Of course," he says nodding in understanding. He leads me to the elevator and helps me out when we reach our designated floor.

I run my unhurt hand through my hair as he pulls the glass out causing almost no pain. I really need to wash my hair. I need a bath.

Then, almost like he read my mind, L offers "When I am done you may also take a bath if you want." I quickly nod and wince as a searing pain shot through my arm.

"Ow," I whimper as he quickly apologizes and grabs the rubbing alcohol. He dumps some on a cloth and brings it to my hand.

"This will hurt," He informs looking up at me through his hair. He then lowers the cloth and dabs around each cut. I start to retract my hand automatically but quickly put it back in his palm.

He finishes up and then wraps a bandage around it. "See? Not to bad?" He gestured to my hand and then looked at me. He grabbed my hand and rubbed the side with his thumb. It felt good. Soothing. I don't think he knew what he did because when he realized he quickly retrieved his hand and apologized.

"It's alright," I said a little unsure. "I think I can trust you."

"Oh!" He pipes up and I swear I saw a little smile. "Well I'll get that bath for ya," he said and slugged out of the room only to have Watari come to escort me to the bath explaining L had gone back to his work that needed to be done.

I reply that I understand and follow him to the bath. It was big and steamy. After Watari finally finished explaining where the shampoo, conditioner and other necessities were he took his leave letting me strip my clothes and sink into the steaming water.

This is what I needed.


Ok so once again I am soooo sorry. I've been super busy and I realize that is no excuse but I did not forget about the story. Here's why I've been so busy.

Well I had a basketball tourney on Friday and Saturday ( which we placed second in! XD) and that took up most of the day. Then and Sunday we celebrated my dads birthday with cake and we went out for breakfast ( at like 2pm lol) plus if any of you play basketball or any sport really, you would understand how tired and sore you feel the day after.

And then I have school which I'm pretty sure you all understand how much time that takes up. And yea that's why I am soo late. Again I'm so sorry but I hope this chapter is to your guys' liking. Plz review. OOC-ness, like it, don't like it. Tell me! How can I make it better?

Well, thank ya's XP

~ Manda