Warning: I did some research on Sesshomaru's mom for this chapter, because I never read the manga and I have yet to watch the final act, but I've decided I'm going to change his relationship, and his mom for this fanfic. Forgive me pelase.
InuYasha: Everlasting lost loveChapter 7
I wanted to lie. I wanted to run. I wanted to cry. I wanted to tell him everything. I wanted to hurt him. I wanted to be able to scream. I wanted to hurt everybody else. But I couldn't. I couldn't do any of those things. I couldn't do any of those things, because I wasn't strong. I was weak. I was a normal human. I couldn't do anything without failing. It's the human condition.
But what can I tell him? He'll hate me if I tell him something that displeases him enough. Either that or he'll attempt to baby me. I don't want to be treated the same way he treats Rin. I'm no lounger a kid. I can take care of myself….I think.
"Explain." He demanded quietly and I wasn't sure if I was able to. I mean seriously, what do I tell him? "I was raped and beaten all my life and I was just having a flashback, no problem"? That would not go over well. Why do I care so much what he thinks of me? I don't understand!
"I wish I could, but you wouldn't understand." I told him with the same amount of emotion he spoke to me in, which is virtually none.
"Woman, you need to explain to me what happen," He said and I took a deep breath. He wasn't going to let me forget about this, was he? I sighed and decided I might as well tell him what I can, and by that, I mean just tell him about the flashback. That wasn't everything, but it was something, though it seemed more like nothing.
"I was a slave. Satsujin Senbō was my owner. Horrible things happened when I lived with him, and I let my memory attempt to wipe the worst ones away, but I couldn't completely wipe them from my memory, so when people trigger my memory I get flashbacks." That's all I had to tell him for him to go back to sitting down calmly. That satisfied him and it was barely anything.
I looked at Sesshomaru and saw that his attention was directed elsewhere, which made me wonder if he was worried about me. I thought about it for a moment and I had to wonder what kind of life he had. If his was bad, he wouldn't think mine was that bad, but if his was good, then he must be wondering how I haven't died yet.
"Now can I ask you something?" I asked him and it brought him back to whatever world he was in. "hn," was all that came from his mouth, so I took that as a yes. "Why are you so cold and emotionless?" I asked him and he just looked me straight in the eyes, his golden eyes burning into me.
His eyes dropped, and silence fallowed and I was sure I wasn't going to get a real answer from him. Why would he force the answer out of me but when I ask him something, I get no answer! What a stubborn, idiotic- "Did you know your mother and father?" he asked me which so rudely disrupted my train of thought. "I knew both of them. My mother was my hero, and my father sold me when she died." I told him and he took a deep breath, "Did you ever want to not know them, woman?" he asked and I nodded, I didn't think that answer needed any explanation. "Father met Isayoi, fought with my mother and killed her. I hated her, but I hate father for giving birth to Inuyasha." He told me and I nodded. It made more sense, not a lot more, but it was helpful.
The silence settled in and I looked at Sesshomaru to find that he was looking at me. "What?" I asked him as I started to worry about what might be going through Sesshomaru's mind. I mean, he acted completely out of character telling me all those things, maybe he was wishing he didn't say it.
"hn," All worries about Sesshomaru being different and him regretting telling me where wiped away.
Inuyasha walked in Yelling, "yeah, yeah, Kagome, We can do that later!" Before looking at us and asking Sesshomaru, "Where's Kaede?" Sesshomaru just glared back at him. "hn." I rolled my eyes and glared at Inuyasha, "We don't know." I told him and he just glared back at me bore pointing his massive sword in my face.
"Yeah right, wench." He said with a sneer on his face that looked suspiciously like a crooked grin. I just pushed the sword to the side a little and glared at him, "I don't know. Now leave." I told him as I looked at the door. He put the sword back into place. "WOMAN! What did you do to her? Kill her?" he yelled and I just glared at him.
"Maybe I did, maybe I didn't," I told him deciding to toy with his patients before he stuck the sword at my neck. He didn't have enough patients to play this game.
A pale hand grabbed Inuyasha's wrist and made it so he pointed the sword to the ground before letting it go. "Leave, little brother" Sesshomaru said as he let go oh Inuyasha's wrist and nodded his head towards the door. Inuyasha glared at him for a few moments before whispering a few cuss words and leaving.
I looked up at Sesshomaru, and smiled weakly. "thank you," I told him and he didn't react with nothing more and nothing less then a, "hn."
Even though it wasn't a word, it seemed to say more then any other word could have.
Authors Note: told you it was going to be a little shorter. Please don't get angry at me. Anyways, Please review! I will try my best to update sooner!
Peace in!Mel Swirls!
