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Okay this chapter has Angst, in huge amounts.
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Song for this chapter: Hummingbird Heartbeat - Katy Perry (gotta love her)!
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Hummingbird Heartbeat
Bpov
Tommorrow. Everything revolved around tommorrow. I was shaking, literally.
9 days had passed way too fast for my liking.
'Bella, you all packed, Jacob taking us to the airport and from then on it's just us.' Brandon smiled into my hair and I cuddled him closer, I wanted to hide.
'Everything that's meant to be in New York is.' I answered him.
'This is perfect.' he kissed my head and I wanted to feel as happy as him, I really did but I couldn't. I had started putting it down to nerves and how I was just
scared.
'Well we've got to be at the Cullen's for seven so get up.' I climbed off his knee and hit him playfully as I walked into the bathroom to get changed from my
comfty sweats and jumper into a little Black jumpsuit but the kind with shorts and not all the leg. I put on a light layer of foundation, water proof mascra and
eyeliner, slipped into my little black ballet shoes, curled the ends of my hair slightly so that instead of big busy messy curls they were neat and bouncy.
I grabbed my leather jacket and walked out clicking the light off.
'Wow. I'm so glad your my girlfriend.' Brandon came up to me, his brown eyes shining with desire, we still hadn't and I couldn't picture it happening any time soon.
'I'm going to pull the car round.' He grinned at me and walked out of the apartment.
As I looked at all the apartment it was near enough empty, we were leaving the sofa, fridge ect.. but it was odd and cold. I didn't like it and I wish I had kept
my own bed here because sleeping on the sofa every night was taking it's toll on me.
I sighed and locked the door behind me, smiling sadly at my apartment.
When we arrived at the Cullen's everyone was already there, including my Dad, Edward and Tanya.
Brandon pulled me into the lounge by the waist. 'This is it Bella, final goodbye.' I told myself breathing in and out and again and again. It didn't help just made
me feel a little light headed.
'Hey guys.' I greeted everyone individually, giving Edward and Tanya a nod of acknowledgment and a small smile.
All the while telling myself now was not the time to cry, not yet anyway.
'So my little baby sister is all grown up.' Emmett ruffled my hair and gave me a big teddy bear hug, 'I was going to miss this.' I sighed to myself.
'Yeah, pretty much.' I smiled and tears came up in my eyes, but I blinked hard to clear them. I was trying hard to look excited and happy but inside I was a
bundle of nerves.
'Aww my baby girl.' my dad sighed and gave me a hug also as I drunk in his scent greedily.
'I'll miss you.' I muttered in his ear and pulled away from him before I let all of my emotions out.
'But no goodbyes yet.' Alice announced and Esme followed behind her with the dinner.
'Your really didn't have to do all this.' I sighed and looked at the table all set out, place names and everything.
'We wanted to.' Esme smiled and gave me a peck on the cheek.
'Thankyou.' I smiled back, she's always been like a mother to after mine died when I was only 3.
I swallowed the sob trying to escape me as I sat opposite Brandon, he reached over and brought my hand in his, rubbing soothing circles with his thumb.
We ate and made casual conversation about anything and everything and I wanted to stay like this now, everyone I loved around me in this one moment,
no worrying, no hurt, just pure bliss and joy - well it would have been but...
'Stop it Bella.' I scolded myself.
'Bella?' Brandon looked concerned.
'Yes?' I answered, I ovbiously had missed something for near enough everyone at the table to be looking at me.
'Erm Carlisle asked if you've got everything in New York you want to have there.' Brandon repeated.
'Hmm yeah, long time but I choose a few things like my bed and such.' Brandon inspected me and mouthed a 'you okay?' I just nodded and smiled a little but he
still looked worriedly at me.
I heard Esme asking Alice to wash up but I interrupted.
'I'll wash up, it's the least I can do for all you've done for me.' She knew that I meant over the years and I started to clear the pots into their massive kitchen.
'I can help you.' Brandon stated and began to clear up also.
'It's okay Brandon, I've got it covered thanks.' He still brought the plates in but went back to his seat and Alice, Rose, Edward, Esme, Carlisle, Charlie and
Brandon all tilted their heads at me slightly giving me worried glances every now and again.
I began washing up and I looked out to the back garden. The swings and the Gazebo then the river lay far behind them, then behind that the forest. I sighed
I remember cutting my knee trying to cross the river after Edward built a bridge.
'Come on Bella.' A eight year old Edward called, standing proudly at the other end of the bridge he had spent over an hour making.
'No, I can't I'll fall. I can jump over.' I answered and got ready to jump the little distance to the other side.
'No! You'll fall. Come on, I did it. I'll help you.' He edged closer so he could hold my hand and gently pul me across.
I had gotten half way when my footing slipped and I bashed my knee on the way down.
'I'm so sorry Bella.' Edward kept repeating and for a week after that he brought me cakes and chocolate to make up for my knee even though I kept telling him
it was my fault I slipped, not his but he wouldn't take it.
My eyes focused on the gazebo.
'Alice, truth or dare?' Edward asked, pointing at Alice.
'ERRRRM Dare.' She answered confidently and Edward's green eyes lit up.
'I dare you to eat mud!' he clapped his hands together and I screwed my face up in disgust.
'Ewwwwww.' Alice cried.
'A dare's a dare.' a seven year old Emmett laughed and stomped his big feet then started a chant of 'Eat it, Eat it's.
Alice's hand were shaking as she swiped her finger across the grass and licked it from her finger.
'EWWWWWWWWW.' She screamed and I giggled as did Emmett and Edward.
'Haha that's like eating a worm.' I giggled.
'No, it's not.' She stomped.
'Yes it is.' Edward Agreed and moved away from Alice a little.
'Anyway MY turn.' Alice's eyes went to mine and narrowed.
'BELLA! Truth or dare.' I thought for a moment, no one had chosen truth before.
'Dare.' I answered, slightly scared for the outcome.
Her eyes lit up and she was shaking with excitment.
' I dare you to kiss Edward!' She cried and began to giggle as did Emmett. It wasn't as bad as I thought so I leaned over and pecked his cheek, we did it to each
other all the time.
'No you did it wrong. On the lips.' Alice giggled again and mine and Edward's eyes went wide as we looked at each other, Emmett was laughing so much he was
rolling around on the floor.
'Okay.' I took in a deep breath and Edward pucked his lips up a little, I closed my eyes and cleared the distance and touched my lips with his, drawing back fast.
From when I was only 6 years old I was hooked.
I laughed at the memories and replayed others over and over again when I heard footsteps come into the kitchen.
'Been in here for a long time.' He stated and walked to stand next to me, but not so close.
I just smiled and began washing another plate.
'Just thinking.' I mused and turned to face him, a geniune smile on my lips not fome fake forced one.
'About?' He urged.
'Memories.' I turned back to the window and he followed my gaze to the tree I fell out of when I was 15 and sprained my ankle.
'Ahh well I told you not to climb it.' He chuckled softly.
'I wanted to prove to you I wasn't scared of heights.' I answered honestly.
'Is that what your trying to do now?' I froze and turned to look at him.
'What?' I was shocked. He could see through me, then everyone could.
'Are you trying to prove to me you can climb the tree again?' I knew he was talking hypothetically and I started to bite my lip and shook my head.
'No I want to climb the tree.' I stated but even I could tell I wasn't so sure what I was doing.
'Are you sure, because it looks like your crapping yourself.' I blushed and looked down as he stepped a little bit closer. 'You don't have to prove anything to me.'
I cleared my throat and hoped to hell that it looked like I was confident when I looked into hie eyes, wow he was a lot closer than I had expected he was.
'It has nothing to do with you.' I saw him back off a little.
'I don't believe that.' he muttered but I heard him.
'Why? Is it so hard to believe maybe I want to go.' I challenged him and stepped forward a bit, drying my hands on a towel, so I was face to face with my hand
on my hip.
'Because, I know you Bella. You want an escape and you believe that this oportunity is it that if you don't take it, there's no other way out but Bella trust me
when I say there is always another way.' His words were true, so true and it shocked me, he could still read me like an open book. I had tried to put up a
guard to protect myself, protect him from what he could see inside of me but it was no use.
'Edward.' I warned.
'No Bella, I know you. You wouldn't want this.' He continued, his green eyes glowing brighter.
'Edward, you knew the old me. Months we've been apart. I've changed.' I atleast hoped what I said was true.'
'Ahh, Bella, Bella, Bella.' I liked the sound of my name as it rolled off his lips and the way his lips touched each other as he pronounced it, I loved the way his
lips could make me - 'No Bella.' I shouted mentally and I diverted my eyes away but not before he noticed.
He smirked a bit and looked down at me, raising his eyebrows. Stupid asshole.
'I would believe you but I guess your a big girl now, can make your own decisions and choices...' he trailed off.
'Where is this going -' I started but was cut off when his arm snaked around my waist and pulled my close so I was pressed against his body.
'Edward.' I tried to sound like I wanted him off of me but it came out more like a moan.
He gazed down at my lips and licked his.
I fluttered my eyes closed as I felt his hot breath on my face.
'Bella, tell me when to stop.' he murmered, twisting his fingers in my hair and pulling me even closer. I should have said it right then and there but I couldn't.
I let my arms wrap around his neck and fist in his hair.
'Tell me to stop Bella.' He muttered, bringing his lips to mine. But even though he asked me to I was selfish and I couldn't.
I was pushing my lips against his as he sucked on my bottom one and I took his top one, my hands pulling his head closer, I parted my lips as he slipped his
tounge in and we deepened the kiss. I had to frigging moan. I didn't want to but I couldn't help it when it escaped my mouth.
'Edward we need to stop.' I breathed against my lips as I was licking them and catching my breath, foreheads together.
He nodded and went to pull away but my arms had him locked near me.
'I kept my promise.' He said, looking into my eyes and letting his hands trail down to my hips.
I looked up at him and tilted my head to the side abit in a silent question.
'Is this making you still want to go and climb the tree?' He asked and I leaned back, away from him.
'What? You did all this to - I can't believe you.' I almost growled. He had got me again and I pushed him away from me.
'No Bella, I did it because I wanted to. I just -' He sighed and rubbed his hands over his face, he was frustrated.
'Just say it Edward.' I soothed, I looked at the door we must of been in here for ages but they probably were giving us time to talk about things.
'I don't know how to. I guess I don't want you to leave.' He murmered.
'Edward, I'm leaving tommorow. You can't - You won't change that.' I replied softly and wiped down my clothes and ran my fingers through my curls.
'So that - this is it.' I could see the hurt in his eyes as his word's got more angry.
I nodded.
'Well I've tried Bella. I can't say I haven't.' He said bitterly and stormed out of the door. I stood there shocked a little while then I turned back to the window.
If only things were as simple as when we were younger.
I walked back in the room and noticed Edward's absence and winced.
Brandon's head shot up and looked at me with sympathy. I didn't deserve that for gods sake I kissed Edward, I was still in love with him of course I was but hell
I don't want to be alone and Brandon wanted me, why couldn't I want him back.
'What just happened?' Alice whispered as she came to hug me, I must of looked rough then.
'I don't know.' I whimpered, I tried not to cry so much. It was our last day together and here I was wasting it by crying every chance I get.
'It's Okay to cry.' Alice soothed and the flood gates opened and I clung to Alice for all the life in me, everthing else faded away, everything but one.
'I can't leave it like this.' I sobbed and she hugged me back.
'Don't worry about it, we'll all be at the airport tommorow.' I nodded my head and hoped.
Sorry I Couldn't post this when I said I would, I've been having uploading problems but here it is and I can't wait to write the next few chapters! P.S - I NEED A BETA ! CLICK ON JEFF :D
