To all my lovely readers,

I am so sorry for leaving all of you guys hanging for such a long time and I feel like I owe you some sort of explanation. About 5 months ago, I suffered a huge mental breakdown. I have always struggled with self-confidence and related issues, but it developed (over a period of time leading up to the breakdown) into full-on social anxiety (if you follow me on tumblr, url same as my pen name, you might already know some of this). I went from not sleeping much to barely sleeping at all and what little sleep I got was plagued with nightmares, I couldn't talk to anyone, I wouldn't eat or, when I did, I would throw the food up. I eventually turned to self-harm, cutting myself to distract from the pain of my thoughts and such. It wasn't pretty, but there wasn't much I could see that I could do. My parents were (and still are) completely blind to what was happening to me and what I did. If they did anything, they made things worse. I'm not proud of the things that I've done and still do occasionally. I'm not completely over the breakdown (I don't know if I ever will be), but I'm much better than I was four, five months ago. I still don't eat much, I still cut sometimes, but not all the time like I used to, I sleep a little more, despite the nightmares (I doubt those will ever go away) and I talk to my friends again. Needless to say, I haven't had much inspiration or desire to write for any of my stories for the past several months. It wasn't until a week or so ago that I finally started working on a new chapter. My writing muse comes and goes and still seems to go much more than it comes, so I can't guarantee any sort of schedule or regularity for updating, but I am more or less back to writing for my stories. The first one to be updated will be Unstoppable and then the others after that, although I'm not yet sure of the order. Again, I'm sorry for temporarily abandoning all of you and thank you to those who are still on board with me and my stories :)

I love you all, thanks for waiting for me to come back!

Meredith (itfeltlikethis; prev. clarawithfitzsimmonsin221b)