Nico
This was the worst week. Everything just kept repeating itself, every day was the same with bits of horror sprinkled on it. He missed a total of three school days, meaning 15 classes, not to mention he was constantly late for them. He always tried desperately not to be late for the class he shared with Percy, if Percy grew any more suspicious then he would tell Hazel what was up and Nico couldn't afford that.
Life was so hellish, he didn't understand how he was still making it. Jason had raped him every day, multiple times a day, it wore Nico out more than anything. The saving 'grace' was that it helped him sleep sometimes but he could only sleep for an hour each time and would wake up in burning pain.
There was always food around but he was never hungry, he either threw it up after Jason made him eat with him or didn't touch it at all. He sometimes tried to use Jason's gym but didn't want to accept any charity or privileges from him so avoided it altogether, besides Jason raped him in there too. Any area of the house was sour because Jason wanted to make memories everywhere. Jason's parents were still away on their trip and he kept forcing Nico to come over.
He couldn't stop as Jason screwed him into his parents' bed, he couldn't protest when Jason took him on the kitchen table. He remembered being taken on there when he had asked "...I need to pay my rent...I need to go back home..." hoping that Jason would listen for once. But Jason kept going at it.
"You can do it later. I'll give you the money," Jason sighed. But Nico would never take the money, he refused it absolutely. "Fuck you drive me crazy." Nico stopped asking him for anything.
Nico also stopped trying to scrub himself of the filth, he just let himself feel dirty. He no longer had an ounce of privacy in his life anymore, because Jason liked to shower together and that led to other things too. Nico started to feel like a personal doll, like he wasn't alive anymore, he just let Jason do whatever he wanted and dazed off during it. He would think about Hazel or school like he always does. And when Jason was happy he would let Nico go to class early and that was all Nico wanted these days, he couldn't concentrate at school but at least he could get some physical space.
The bad part about being at school was that it broke Nico's heart that he had to reject Chiron's attempts to get closer to him and helping him out or eating lunch with him. He stopped going completely and he could tell Chiron was sad but looked hopeful that Nico was doing better. He hated that Chiron had become like everyone else, and just assumed he was fine. People either assumed he was a punk kid that didn't care, or assumed that he was doing fine on his own. It was true that he didn't want people's help or for them to reach out, but at the same time he hated when they just assumed.
When Nico stopped by the office one last time, he watched Chiron going through his trolley and it made him sad. It was the only highlight of his school life to spend time with the teacher and he had to give it up. He also had to give Hazel up. Jason had taken his phone and texted her I need some space Hazel. And Nico knew that would break her heart, it would make her feel like a naggy mother, so she stopped texting him. And he kept avoiding her, it wasn't like he had a phone anymore, it was Jason's now.
He walked away from Chiron's office, it reminded him of the two things he had to give up and it hurt.
As he began walking his way to his locker to get ready for class, he turned the corner and bumped into a body. He reached out to help stabilize the smaller form by their arms. "Oh, thank you.. sorry I wasn't paying attention," said Piper.
"Oh sorry.. me too," Nico said funnily. Piper looked…well… like him. That was the only explanation for it. It was scary how frail and tired she looked, like looking at a mirror. He released her and made to leave, walking around.
She looked around the empty hall before tuning quickly to quietly say "I know about you and Jason." she smiled sadly.
Nico's eyes widened and he turned back to her but she said "don't worry, I won't tell. I never should have pressured him to date me, he was such a gentleman about it but… I know you'll make him happy Nico, you both deserve every happiness life can give," she said.
Nico's mouth fell, he wanted to tell Piper the truth. He wanted so desperately to tell her everything, he wanted to collapse in her arms and put an end to how tired and grieved he felt. But he didn't, he just stared at her in a trance.
Piper teared up, "the first time we..we…you know.." she spoke with such deep shame as she wiped her nose. Looking down at her shoes she said "he called out your name," and a few tears spilled out.
Nico opened and then closed his mouth, he hated seeing her cry like this.
"You're the one who deserves every happiness Piper, you deserve so much better. I would never intentionally hurt you. What he did was wrong.. please don't blame yourself.. you.. you'll find the most amazing person and you'll live happily ever after."
Piper smiled, "I thought he was my happily ever after. But I guess he was yours. Take care of each other, kay?" she said sadly.
Nico swallowed, he wanted to scream so badly as she thanked him before walking away. She looked like a dazed ghost trying to find her way through a maze of the living world and Nico desperately wished he could help her. Jason had said they had broken up and that was over two months ago.
People barely saw Piper... he wondered how much she suffered if she was still grieving this long. He watched as he saw her rubbing her stomach and wondered if it was possible that she had an abortion or miscarriage. It might have been a very far fetched idea but she looked like a person who had lost more than just a boyfriend. Nico was good at reading people.
And he felt horrible. As cruel as Jason was… he had hurt both Jason and Piper irreparably. The same way his love for Percy took over him, Piper's love for Jason consumed her and Jason's dark and strange love for Nico took over him, each in their own way. Life was a bitch. If cupid existed, he had shit aim with arrows and he was a bitch too. If anything, Annabeth and Percy must have been standing close by when the arrow luckily struck through them both at the same time Nico pondered in slight jealousy.
When the day finally ended and Nico got to his apartment, he wanted to laugh at how unbelievable things felt. The great part was that Jason was obligated to go with his team on a tournament trip at another school and would be back in a few days. The bad part was that he made up for the lost time he'd have with Nico by raping him every chance he had before leaving.
And today was a result of everything. What ever happened to TGIFs. Recounting the day, he realized how brief it felt. Nothing but rejection all day as he closed his eyes and his mind slowly started to playback and trash the memories into the meaningless cabinet file section.
"Please, please I promise it won't happen again." He had been begging a lot these days.
"Nico you missed three shifts. THREE. With no call, no email, nothing. Son look, I know you have it rough but that is just unacceptable, we can't keep picking up the slack for you."
Nico bowed his head, "look I- I can work overtime, even during school if you need. Please, I really need this job."
"You don't act like it."
"But."
"I'm sorry Nico. You're fired."
"Nico what happened? You used to be an A+ student. I have to say I'm really disappointed in you. I hope you haven't joined the wrong crowd or become apathetic about school. This is your future, Nico. Don't waste it. Pick up those grades and you'll get to med school like you wanted"
What med school.. he was barely able to pay for his bills with the money he had for food. How could he be expected to help others if he was incapable of helping himself.
"Di Angelo! You're behind on rent again! If you don't pay up by Friday I'm gonna haul your ass!" his landlady had hollered when he walked up to his apartment.
She was the least of his problems. Lucky for him he knew she wasn't as hard ass as she came off, she threatened a lot but in Nico's experience she had always given an extension because he always paid up, in a sad way she might have been the only person who understood him. He just hoped she didn't have a change of heart this time.
He had nodded in response and when he got to the door it took him a good 5 minutes to shakily open it. He couldn't control the tremors in his hands from lack of sleep these days. When he got in he just sat on the floor in the dark. He couldn't remember when he stopped feeling tired and hungry, he just felt like a zombie.
Nico looked up, head resting against the door. Well. At least you aren't suffering in a third world country or hospital, you can't be the most miserable person in the world after all he thought. That's something. He chuckled. But soon after he felt bad for those poor souls, here he was whining to himself knowing he had more power to change things than people living in oppressive governments or imprisoned by deteriorating health. There were people around he could turn too, yet felt he couldn't for a million reasons. His head hurt to think about all the moral implications and world problems so he just dragged himself up and to bed. He'd find a way to make it better somehow.
Nico laid for hours in bed looking at the ceiling. Maybe one night would help, just one. All he wanted was a single night's rest so it wouldn't feel like he was living in the same day for an eternity. Swallowing he decided to finally just let himself go by the only method he knew how to, it might help him pass out if he tried and it might shut his brain off. He let his hand slowly drag down to the hem of his pants.
Just having it there made his heart hammer, it was natural and normal for his age, why was he so nervous. He slipped it in and shuddered a bit. He let himself think about Percy, pushed back the guilt, and pretended it was his first time. He squeezed his eyes tightly shut as he wrapped his hand around his shaft as his other hand gripped the bed sheet tightly. He wished he was better than this, but needed to distract himself from all the pain he felt. "Percy" he breathed out, he imagined himself in Percy's arms, making out on his bed.
Percy's lips felt so perfect, he licked his own lips imagining Percy's tongue slowly sliding into his own and caressing inside lovingly. Nico began blushing hard at the image. Percy's hand would softly caress his cheek and neck while the other held Nico's hand comfortingly and holding it to his broad chest. Percy would slip his tongue out now and then to whisper sweet "you okays?" and "I love yous" against his lips.
Then he pictured Percy holding him down more roughly, and kissing him more passionately and possessively like Nico was the most special thing he was desperate not to lose. Percy began to trail kisses on his body and slowly started to go down on him. Then Percy opened Nico's pants with his teeth and his gentle fingers caressed Nico's hips. Once Percy got his cock out, he licked a gentle stripe up it while looking at Nico with a playful smile. Percy started to suck the head lightly and closed his green eyes, strands of hair fell in front of his face and Nico brushed it aside, gently gripping Percy's hair. Nico shuddered uncontrollably as Percy swallowed Nico's length into his mouth and massaged it with a determined and skillful tongue.
Nico panted hard and gripped harder as he saw Percy's head bobbing up and down. He began to jack himself off harder and faster, twisting around the head and pulling hard at his shaft, getting so close to his climax. But then Percy's hair started to bleed into a golden hue and when the head looked up Jason's face peered up at him with an evil smirk. Nico gasped and ripped his hand out of his pants like he had touched fire. That image had broken his euphoria, he was no longer in the mood to continue. He brought his palms up to his face and pressed the heels of his palms into his eyes as his erection died down and he began to cry in frustration.
Why was he crying so much these days. Every time he thought he had run out, a new fresh amount of tears would build. He thought he had cried everything out, how did he still have so much left to pour. He didn't want to live in a cycle anymore, victims lived in a cycle. Victims always cried. Victims didn't lead their own lives. He didn't want to be a victim anymore. He just wish he knew how to stop.
A.N Thanks to StackofStories for the organization tips, you were right, I skimmed some books and realized it was helpful to separate the dialogue. I have a bad habit of typing fanfics straight out without ever rereading or organizing them. I'll try to keep that in mind as I update the rest.
