Ps : This Bella is NOT the same from the twilight , her personality I mean , almost none of them are , so try to imagine them like they are different just with the same names ;)
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Chapter 7
I was looking out side the window at night as usual , Felling lonely and cold as I missed my Jacob , he doesn't come any more because he doesn't want me to see him as wolf , He think am not ready yet.
The thought is controlling his every action , the thought that I will be afraid at some point and hate him forever.
But I had missed him so damn much , I knew I liked him a lot , that I wouldn't just let go of him because of this , we became very close in almost no time , and when he told me he loved me ..
Every time I remember that I smile and touch my necklace that feels a bit heavy around my neck .. but in a pleasant way.
So I wanted him to be here with me .. I didn't him to draw a line between us because of the wolf thing so I called him , hoping he would listen to me and come.
And thanks to the imprinting bond , he cant say no to me.
It was weird , the feeling I had toward him , and I knew he was waiting for those magical words to come out of my lips , but I wanted to be ready and mean them.
I saw his figure and opened my window wide enough , he climbed into my room in no time.
"Jacob , Jacob , Jaaaaiicob" I sang as I hugged him , I missed his warmth ,and his hug and his eyes and every part of him.
Okay fine , It had only been a day but still.
"Hello there" he hugged me "You alright ?"
"Yeah , I just wanted to see you" I sat on the bed and he sat next to me his body temperature warming the whole place.
He yawned.
"Have you been getting enough sleep ? you look so tired"
"I am , I had been running patrols these days"
"Something wrong ?" my heart raced to the thought of him being in the smallest danger.
"Nope , why is your heart flying like that ?" he asked with a laugh.
"Just because you can hear it doesn't mean you can eavesdrop" I crossed my arms.
"I cant help it if your heart is so loud" he leaned to kiss me.
"Do you care if I got hurt?" he asked , what a stupid question !
"Of course !" I almost yelled , his eyes sparkled and he kissed me one more time pushing me to the bed , I found my self lying with him on top of me and his lips moving with mine.
I knew he heard my heart that reacted to his touch "I'll um .. Leave now" as he was about to leave I grabbed his arm, he turned around to face me.
"what's wrong ?" he stroke my cheek.
"N-nothing" I chocked at how embarrassed I was about this "don't go .. Jake" I whispered.
I was looking down so I didn't know what reaction his face had.
"am so sorry sweetie , but I am so tired and .." I cut him off "You can stay here ..I can sleep on the floor or something " I was shocked at my own words, but I cant take them back now and I had no problem with that.
"Would you like me to ?" he asked and I nodded , he crushed me to his chest and kissed my forehead.
"But I'll sleep on the floor" he told me as I locked the door , just in case.
"Alright" I got up in my bed and covered my self, it was too cold when I was away from him , he saw the way I was shivering and smiled "Are you cold?" he asked in such a sweet voice I almost dropped dead.
"A bit" I admitted.
"Please Tell me you don't let all guys in your room like this" he moved his self closer to me so the air around me felt warm.
"No you're the first one" I smiled
"Good , not all guys can be trusted you know"
I gave him a look and he chuckled before his face changed and he became serious "Am different , I would never hurt you or make you unhappy"
"So I can sleep peacefully tonight?" I joked.
"Of course ! I would leave but you wanted me to stay.." he gave me that angelic smile
"Great" he was lying on the floor as I bent down from my bed to kiss him , it wasn't the quick peck I was going for , his lips held mine perfectly for few seconds as the warmth covered my body and his scent made me woozy.
He pulled away and I looked into his chocolate eyes and smiled at how gorgeous he was.
"I Trust you so .." I warned him playfully.
"I Love you .. Don't worry" his words made my heart react , I wanted to replay to him but couldn't.
The blanket was off of me and so I shivered "Cold?" he asked.
"Yeah , a bit"
He was suddenly on the bed next to me with his arm around me , his warmth was so pleasant and his scent was too sweet I had to smile.
"Close your eyes and sleep my dear , I promise I will get out and into the floor once am sure your warm , I'll stay as long as you want me too" his embrace was so warm and sweet , so .. SAFE and natural.
I pressed my fingers on his chest and put my head on his shoulder , I was too cold and he was really warm.
Few minutes later I was almost sweating , he realized that and tried to pull away.
I dug my nails in his shirt to make him stay where he was.
"I thought you slept"
"I didn't , not yet" I whispered.
I knew my heart was so tired of racing like this but I couldn't help it , I enjoyed it.
I was sweating just seconds later , he tried to pull away again.
"Jacob?" I whispered and tightened my hold on him.
"Yes?"
"Can you please .." I closed my eyes so that maybe I wouldn't feel as embarrassed "Don't go" I whispered and my face felt like it was on fire "Unless you are uncomfortable.." I whispered.
I opened my eyes to see his smiling face "you realize that you used to be shy right?"
"People can change .. just around you by the way" I hid my face in his chest and inhaled , his scent made me smile.
"I am very comfortable , and so if you want me to stay , I will" he flashed me one of those smiles that usually make me breathless.
"I do" it felt too warm and sweet , I didn't want to let go , I hugged my self closer as he tightened his hold on me , I felt his lips on my head as he kissed it.
"Goodnight Jacob" I whispered as my eyes closed , I was too sleepy and felt too damn pleasant , warm and safe.
"Goodnight my Bella , I love you" those last words made me feel happier for some reason.
I wasn't trying to drag him to sleep with me , I was just cold and he felt .. perfect, and when he took me in his arms I just couldn't let go.
I woke up to some one kissing my face , I rubbed my eyes with my hands and opened them.
I gasped when I saw his perfect face looking at me with a smile.
I forgot he slept with me last night , I had to ask my self something how can you trust a guy to sleep on the same bed with you with a locked door ?
I had no answer , but I felt safe and I didn't want to fight it.
"Good morning" he smiled.
"G-good morning" I knew he saw the look on his face, he brushed my cheek softly "Tell me" he pleaded.
I can tell him anything , I always do.
"I just .. don't know how I .. trust you so much like this"
"oh …Don't be anxious , please .. I only staid cause you asked me to , I don't want you to feel bad and I swear I wasn't going to hurt you"
"I know , Thank you for that, and for staying but .." he cut me off "I would NEVER ever hurt you , in any way , I promise , please trust me" his eyes were pleading.
"I do trust you , or else how would I let you stay ?" I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed his cheek "Time for the wolf to get out so I can change"
"Alright fine" he kissed my forehead then moved his lips to my cheek , then the other one.
"Jacob Black .. Out !" I ordered and pointed to the window.
"Yes ma'am , I'll see you later right?"
I pretended to think "I'll check my schedule"
He laughed as he walked to the window "One more thing.."
"What ?" I wondered.
"You talk in your sleep" I gasped , what did he hear ?
"What did you hear?"
He acted to think just like I did few seconds ago "JACOB !" I bunched him.
"Fine , Fine ! You said my name few times ..and ..something about being ready" I bit my lip.
"am just glad you saw me in your dreams or something" he flashed me a smile.
I rolled my eyes "out !" I ordered again and he was gone.
It felt cold at once.
"Bella , Sam wants you to see them as wolves he wants to be sure you aren't scared , would you like too?" Emily asked.
"Yeah" I wanted to face my fears , I had to right ?
Sam came closer "Jacob will be right here and might bite my head off but .. Anyways don't be scared when I phase , remember that its still me" I nodded.
He walked a bit far from us and into the forest and my heart reacted to what I was going to see in few seconds.
I had to prepare my self mentally ,This was Sam my friend , he was never going to hurt me and this is a part am going to have to live with ..
2 minutes later a black wolf was infront of us , Emily patted my back and Sam wolf sat on the ground , Emily took my hand and we walked forward.
I was scared , he was HUGE.
But he was Sam , why would he hurt me ?
A wolf howled in the forest.
Emily whispered in my ear "maybe Jacob heard Sam's thoughts"
I was close enough to stretch my arm and brush his fur , he liked that as I moved my shaking fingers in the fur few times.
"Show Jacob this .." I patted him more and smiled at him , Jacob should know am fine with this.
Seconds later something moved in the forest and Jacob walked out wearing shorts only.
He was tense I knew it , I saw his face pale and his muscles tight.
"Jacob .. Calm down , Sam just wanted to see how scared I am and look .." I dug my fingers in the black wolf and smiled, proud "see"
He stood there , his eyes wide with shock.
"He showed me that ... You weren't scared but I didn't believe it"
I kissed Sam's furry cheek and smiled at Jacob who was dying with happiness right now , he ran and swept me off my feat , he spun us around few times.
"Thank you , Thank you , Thank you" he murmured.
I smiled at his happiness , it made me happy just to see him like this.
"Thank you Sam" he smiled at Sam before kissing me.
Sam poked jacob with his big nose.
"I don't know .."
"Do you understand him ?" I asked.
"No but I heard his thoughts few minutes ago I know what he wants"
"What ?" Me and Em asked.
"Me to phase , to see if you'll be .. Scared or you'd be fine with it"
"Do it" I yelled "please ? Jacob .. its not going to make run for the hills don't worry, please" He doesn't say no to me , he can't.
He ran to the forest then a russet brown wolf came , the color was almost caramel like , it was so gorgeous.
He was huge , but the eyes felt almost familiar , Chocolate brown.
He sat on the floor in defeat like Sam did , maybe showing me that it was safe and fine that I don't have to be scared at all
I patted his fur , which felt warm under my touch , I kissed his cheek.
"Thank you" I grinned "am not scared " I brushed his fur again and he licked me.
"Um .. Should I say thank you ?" I teased and he disappeared in the forest.
I was ready , I felt it now.
He trusts me , and cares about me , and .. Loves me , what else could I ask for ? Could he be really mine ?
And now I knew every beautiful part of him.
And knew exactly how I felt
He walked slowly toward me as my heart screamed at me when I caught his face 'I am ready , I belong to him'
"How do you feel ?" He asked.
I crushed my self to him "Perfectly happy" I whispered against his chest.
I heard a low howl that night , I smiled at my self as I glanced out the window to see the reddish brown wolf's head sticking out of the forest.
"Hi Jake" I leaned over the window "You feel better don't you ? Now that I .. am not scared anymore" I whispered at him and he nod he big head.
"Come" I whispered to him , he looked at me for a while before he was gone deep in the forest.
I frowned , why did he leave ?
He left to phase , Because few minutes later he was standing perfectly out side my window.
We smiled at each other and I took few steps back to let him climb in.
Once he was there he took me in his arms like he always does
"your friends will kill me"
"Why would they ?" he wondered "And no one can dream of touching you"
"I keep making you phase at night , shouldn't you be running with them"
"They are big boys they can take care of them selves" I smiled at him as he made us sit down.
"Who is the Alpha of your pack ? like the leader" I wondered.
He thought for a minute "I am supposed to be , their Alpha but .. I wasn't ready for it so I gave it up to Sam.. and he is great at it , its his thing , not mine"
"What exactly IS your thing?" I joked.
"Making you happy" he kissed me and I felt my frozen lips melt in his.
I asked him to sleep with me that night too, he fell a sleep before I did , he whispered "I love you Bella , goodnight" Before he closed my eyes and his soft snoring began.
I looked at his perfect face and listened to my heart , it was saying something very important as his arms felt warm and safe around me and our hearts were beating together.
What does this guy mean to you Bella ? Why do you trust him this much ?
"I love you Jake" my cheeks turned bright red as I heard the truth in my own words , I hide my face quickly in his chest.
This felt exactly right.
Few days later , we went to Emily's place as usual , When he took me back home it was dark , I asked if we can talk by the forest a bit , away from the street where people can see and he said okay.
"I liked it .. Its so much fun hanging out with the,!"
"Yeah , and am just glad that …you don't mind the fact that your friends are wolves" he smiled.
It began to rain slowly "Yep , I .. its nice"
I nodded as the rain picked up , if I wasn't standing too close to him I bet it would have felt freezing cold.
I put my cold fingers up his head , trying to shield him from the rain , he looked so gorgeous when he was wet ! The way his hair was and .. I don't know he just looked so sexy when he was wet but I made my hand like it was going to do any good to save him from the rain.
"What a lovely umbrella" he looked into my eyes , his chocolate brown eyes melted with mine as our smiles got wider , I never felt happier in my life , just standing here looking at Jacob in the eyes , feeling warm as it rained , with my hand trying to save him from the rain (but he looked so gorgeous wet) made me feel like this was a miracle.
"Its leaking ! Stupid umbrella !" I said removing my hands back at my sides.
"But I liked it .. So very cute of you"
I raised them again pretending to shield him from the rain but made them slide his neck and stay there as I kissed him.
"Are you cold ?" He asked concerned.
"Nope , warm and sweet , I love rain"
"Well .. We are getting wet you know, do you like to see your shirtless boy friend wet ?"
"Am trying my best here !" I pulled my hands up his head again "and I do like that" I bit my lip , where did THAT come from ?
He chuckled , my hands leaked over his head and made it wet.
"Okay this is officially not working"
"You think ?" He teased "Let's try my hands" he pulled them up my head.
"SEE ! Just because your hands are bigger than mine it doesn't mean it will work !" We started laughing for some reason "And plus its warm enough , your doing your job"
He brushed the hair from my eyes and I begged my heart to stop racing so I can do this , I felt so nervous I almost cried.
"What's wrong ?" He wondered , my heart was so out of control he must have heard it.
Stupid heart ! I want to do this RIGHT !.
I shock my head and smiled as the rain picked up.
"Jacob .." I whispered , the rain making me feel a bit cold , just a bit but I got closer to Jacob anyway.
"Yes love" he smiled at his own words and I did too.
I tried to force my lips to move , his eyes were so deep to look at.
"Please tell me before your heart jumps out , what is bothering you ?"
"Nothing is bothering me.. Am beyond happy" I smiled and the rain drops covered even my eyes , he removed them with both hands and smile.
"You look gorgeous when your happy" he whispered , he thought I looked gorgeous when I looked like a mess !
"I know you can hear it but .." I took one of his hands and placed it on my heart , it bumped harder under his touch and my face burned.
"Jacob .." I took a deep breath and smiled "I Love you" as soon as those words were out they felt perfect , a smile crossed my face ..
His hand fell off of my chest , he looked at me for a second , Shocked.
"Did you just say .." I nodded "I love you Jacob Black" I whispered again and the next thing I knew I was in his arms as he spun us around and around and the rain picked up.
"This is the best day of my life !" He yelled "I love you too baby, I swear I do"
I giggled "Good , Cause you are mine ,mister" I joked and wrapped my arms around his neck.
"We can go now , We are wet enough" I said.
"I love you to no end"
"Lier"
He smiled and kissed me passionately , it was so , so sweet and warm I melted.
"May I be struck by lightning if am lying" he sounded proud of his words."Come on love , Let's get you inside"
I knew it , I trusted that he was telling me the truth , he did love me too much and he was sure of it.
As the darkness covered my room , and the rain covered the streets , I felt warm and blessed in Jacob's arms.
"Alright , I have to go now" he whispered and I tightened my hold on him "Why ? where will you go ?"
"Emily's , Then I'll go run with Sam , the pack will SO hate my thoughts tonight" he grinned.
"why ?"
"They'll get annoyed if my thoughts are all about you" I blushed and smiled at him ,, I was smug and for the first time ..
"You didn't hide your face when you blushed !" he noticed.
"Yeah well .. your not a stranger anymore" I smiled wider and he did too.
"You should sit with your parents abit , they will wonder why you come to sleep early" he suggested.
He comes to my room at night , he stays as much as I want , we would talk all night , he rarely staid over.
"Fine!" I crossed my arms across my chest and pretended that I was upset.
He kissed my forehead and kept his lips there for few seconds "Will you get cold if I leave?" he asked against my skin.
"I have blankets" I snapped.
He moved his lips to kiss my ear before he whispered in it "Really?" Then he put his nose to mine, his breath blew sweet on my face , his heated lips few inches away from mine.
"No , Not really" I whispered breathless and he pressed his lips to mine before he looked into my eyes and stood up.
"I Love you Bella" he said as the cold air filled the room from the window, I missed his warmth already.
"Love you too Jacob" He smiled like a little baby at my words , my words that made my heart sing with happiness.
