"Paddy?" James said to Sirius later that night. Lily had been acting normal with him since they had come down from the roof.
"What?" said Sirius with an edge to his voice. He still wasn't happy with James for upsetting Lily.
"I'm worried about Lily. She isn't mad or anything with me," said James, making sure nobody else was close by.
"Maybe she doesn't care anymore," Sirius shrugged.
"What?"
"I mean a lot of people would say that what happened this morning is closure. Maybe it was just what Lily needed to finally get over any lingering feelings she had for you," said Sirius. He knew this was the last thing James wanted to hear, but he didn't have long to get him and Lily together.
"Really?" Sirius couldn't help but feel bad about what he had just said. James looked devastated.
"Yeah."
"Right… well… right," said James furiously.
Sirius watched as he all but ran up the stairs, he couldn't help but smile when he heard him bursting into Lily's room. It was a good thing he had the forethought to keep Amelia busy in the kitchen. The downside to his genius plan was that he might actually have to eat something Amelia cooked.
"Indigestion, here I come," Sirius muttered to himself.
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JAMES' POV
"Lily, I am not wearing a cup!" I shout as I barge into her room.
What if Sirius is right? What if Lily really doesn't care anymore? I need to know, one way or another, what she feels.
"What?" Oh dear she looks confused. Well, it made sense in my head.
"I'm not wearing a cup," I repeat. I'm now so close to her our toes are touching. I reach out and gently tuck her hair behind her ear. "So…if you kick me it will hurt."
"James…"
I cut her off, by leaning down and kissing her. She is completely shocked, I can tell. Hell part of me is too, I wasn't sure I could do it. But it feels right, it feels like this is what has been missing from my life the past year. Then she starts to kiss me back. Yeah I was definitely right all along, the lust is there. I place my hands on her hips and pull her even closer. Her hand slid up my body and end up round my neck. I need to touch her, so I lift one of my hands from her hips and touch her cheek. Her skin is so soft, and her hands are entangled perfectly in my hair. I know her and I know she was leaning towards her bed. So I beat her to it, I move forward bring her with me to her bed.
"Jamie… are you up there?"
That brought both us back to reality with a thud.
"Uh…um…" stuttered Lily, looking dazed.
"I have always loved you," I whisper quickly, before the moment is gone.
That just seems to have panicked her more. We can both hear Amelia getting close. Lily suddenly pushes me away, quite violently. Just as I manage to get back up, Amelia bursts in.
"Jamie, come and try the soup."
"Not now." I snap. Can't she see I'm having a moment with Lily?
"Please now!" she whines.
"Go," said Lily calmly. Oh dear that can't be good. Her face is completely blank, her eyes void of any emotion.
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LILY'S POV
That did not just happen. James did not just come in here and announce he was not wearing a cup and kiss me. It didn't happen.
Okay, maybe it did happen, and now I'm standing in my room, with the guy I just kissed and his girlfriend. Perfect. They need to leave now. I need to be alone and wallow.
"I need to talk to Lily for a second," I can hear James say. But I'm not really listening, I'm feel like I'm not really here, like I'm floating above my head and watching.
"Go, James, Amelia obviously wants to show you something," I say. "We can chat later."
"Okay, but we will talk later?"
"Yes."
Okay, I have a plan now. Clearly there is still something between James and me and I think I know what it is. Pent up lust. Yes that is what it is. Because we ended it so quickly and unexpected, we didn't get any closure. So yes, I think one last time would be just what we need. That's it: I need to sleep with James to get rid of all feelings for him. Fabulous plan.
One problem, though. His girlfriend. She lives with us. He has a girlfriend. That is more than one problem, really.
Obstacles. I like it. I can overcome them. I have to, I have to get James bloody Potter out of my system.
