Hi dear readers, I need to apologize to you again. It has been way to long since my last update. But with two children and a new job I just did not find the time to write anymore.

You can thank my mother, because she got me my own brand new laptop. So I don't have to wait until my hubby is don working before I can get to a computer. LOVE U MOM.

So here we go again. I really don't like writing the changing to vampire bit so it's a short chapter. I promis longer chapters after this. And I hope I will be able to write/update more.

Thanks for sticking with me and my story. Don't forget to check out my first FF "Where could she go?"

Chapter six: No land in sight (AlicePOV)

Once I had putt Bella to bed Jasper and Peter had started the engine and we left the port. The trip would take a couple of days, but we were in no hurry. We were safe now.

For Bella's sack I had not expressed my feelings in regards to my former family. I was furious about what they had done, off course I was. I was also heartbroken. I had missed the feeling of belonging to a big family like that. Jasper and I had lived with them for so long, and we had been cased aside like it was nothing. I kind of understood why they had reacted the way they did, if their assumptions had been true. We did not betray them, Bella never betrayed Edward. And they didn't even listen to what she had to say. Edward never even believed a word she said to him that day.

Jasper entered the room I had claimed as our and looked at me with a frown.

"Why are you so sad, my love?" He asked

"I've been thinking about the Cullens, I'm extremely mad, but I also miss them. We had some very good years with them." I told him.

"Yes, love, we did." He answered

"I 'm still trying to figure out why they reacted so strongly. I know that Esme would not tolerate anyone hurting a member of the family, but I always thought she saw Bella as one of us. Why wouldn't she even consider the possibility?" I wanted him to tell me what he thought.

"Well, I don't know exactly, because we never where there, so I could not read anyone's feeling at that time. I can only guess that she thought that if there was a way for vampires to have a child Carlisle would have found one. You know she lost a baby when she was still human. You know she craves for a child of her own ever since. I think that if she didn't dared herself to believe it could be true. It was an act of pure jealousy that drove her to do what she did." His insight always amazed me.

"But if she would have considered it for a moment and then found out the truth before kicking us out, she would be a grandmother soon. Instead she lost a part of her family." I still did not understand he hasty decision.

"Nobody's perfect, my love. And jealousy is a very strong emotion that is very hard to control once it has taken you over. I know what it feels like I have felt it millions of times and even if it are not my own feelings they are hard to control." He told me.

"Even if jealousy is hard to control, I will never forgive Edward that he slapped Bella in the face. Did he even love her if he is capable of doing that? I hope she never forgives him for that either." I said.

"I don't think I can forgive them lightly either." He answered.

Our discussion was abruptly interrupted by a horrifying scream.

"BELLA!" I yelled.

Another scream echoed through the hallway. Jasper and I ran to her room, and we saw Charlotte and Peter coming from the other side of the corridor. We all got into Bella's room as soon as we could.

Bella was lying on her bed, screaming and crying. A pool of blood was forming between her legs.

"Bella, can you hear me?" I asked in between her screams.

She did not answer me. She just kept screaming in agony. I sat down on the bed next to her, took her hand in mine and squeezed it gently.

"Bella, I think the baby is ready to be born, I think you are in labor. I'm so sorry I didn't see it coming; I have been so focused on the Cullens search that I missed it." I told her. And I was right; she was giving birth to her vampire baby right there on the boat.

The screaming continued for most of the night, Jasper already had given her some painkillers he had packed back home, but they didn't help. She passed out several times, those were the only times the screaming stopped for a little while. The amount of blood she had lost was extremely high. I was trying to look into our future to see if she would make it, but everything was a blur.

Then it finally happened. - Charlotte had removed the boys from the room. I knew Bella was not aware of anything that was going on, but I knew she would be embarrassed if they would see her privet parts. - A tiny little boy was born. He didn't cry, so I picked him up to give him to Bella, quickly checking him, to see if he was healthy. I was amazed by what I saw. A perfect little boy, looking at me with wise little green eyes.

I lay him down in Bella's arms; she looked at him and managed to whisper 'Caelan', my young warrior. Then she closed her eyes and I heard her breading stop. Giving birth to the vampire baby had just been too much for her human body. The new born baby started to cry, he lost his mother before she could do anything more than give him his name.

Charlotte had already called Jasper and Peter back inside.

"She stopped breading!" I cried. "We have to do something. We have to change her. She needs to become one of us."

"I don't know if I have the strength to do it." Jasper said.

"I know I won't be able to stop once I start." Peter agreed.

"Don't look at me Alice; you know I can't do it." Charlotte said to me.

"Okay, I will do it." I said while turning back towards the bed Bella was lying on. I tried to pick up the baby to do what needed to be done. But he wouldn't let go off her. He turned his little head my way and that's when I saw a small drop off blood running down his chin. He had bitten her, before any of us could.

I heard her heartbeat starting up again; she started breading again shortly after. Together with her breading the screaming recommenced. I tried to take Caelan from her again, but the little boy was not letting go of her. I didn't want to use too much strength because I was afraid to hurt Bella or the baby. So that's how she changed; screaming louder and louder each passing hour with Caelan holding on to her.

We kept watch in pairs, the first day it was Jasper and me. The second day Peter and Charlotte stayed with Bella. On the third day, while Jasper and I were sitting in her room, her heartbeat started going a little faster.

Caelan who had been sleeping, lifted his little head and looked at me, in his little green eyes I saw understanding. He knew what was happening. This little baby boy, not yet three days old; already knew what was going to happen. He closed his eyes again and went back to sleep.

Over the next several hours, Bella's heart rate and breading increased. She had stopped screaming some time ago; but as the venom that was flowing through her veins, took her last breath and made her heart pump one more time, she let out a cry of agony.

Then all was quiet, no sound of a rapid heartbeat or labored breath could be heard. Even Japer and I were holding our breath. It was like in that second the world stop turning and time stood still.

After what had felt like forever but really had been only a few seconds, Bella's eyelids fluttered and then she opened her eyes, and the world started turning again. I could hear Jasper's sharp intake of breath. I could hear Charlotte and Peter approaching the room. The sound of the ocean against the boat registered again.

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