A/N: Once again please enjoy the story, sorry if this one is shorter for I am at the moment is lost to what to do next. Again please cheers for my wonderful Beta for doing a fantastic job in editing this; the one and only InkStainedFire
Wish and Falling
The rest of the week passed in a blur. Edward went to work the next day as usual, while I started my daily routine under Alice's schedule. Have breakfast with Edward, Alice and Jasper, have training with personal trainer, and then continue by chatting and spending time with Alice.
I kept thinking about this whole thing and for some reason I had now accepted the reality that I did actually enjoy living here. It was different compared to what I was used to, but it was nonetheless good. For the very first time I actually felt loved. Like totally loved, for in here people took care of me, instead of me taking care of people.
All this life, with my mother, it was me who was the adult, and then when I moved to Forks again, although Charlie was an adult, it was me who still had to take care of him, preparing food and cleaning the house. And when I start dating Mike, no matter how he tried to take care of me, it was still me who actually took care of him. I not only had do the house chores, but also had to take care of Mike's schedule and emotions. Combine that with my work place where I had to take care of all my students, and this new routine was my personal savior; for once, it was me who was being taken care of.
I spoke to Edward every night, finding him to be a very intelligent and stern person. He viewed a woman as a person to be loved and taken care of, yet having to be somewhat submissive under him. He set rules and regulations for the women to follow, but none of the rules were overly mean or bad. The fact that the rules were actually good for me was somewhat comical to be honest, because still, following Edward's rule sometimes made me feel angry, like my freedom was being ripped off.
It was Friday night and I had just finished taking my shower and preparing myself for dinner when Edward came in to the bedroom, just coming home from work. He saw me only in my bra and panties, took three long strides, and stopped right in front of me.
"How was your day Bella?" he asked.
"It was fun; Alice took me to the shopping centre again. But, the Yoga was good today, it relieves all tension on my shoulder and neck," I told him.
"Ahh…Alice, never one to not going shopping," he chuckled.
"Yes," I sighed.
"Why did you just sigh Bella? Is there something bothering you?" he asked.
I looked into his green eyes, and once again being absorbed into the depth and beauty of them, "Can I ask you another question Edward? Errm… Can we sit?"
Edward looked into my eyes, trying to find out what it was that I wanted to ask. When he could not find one, he nodded and guided me onto the bed and together we sat there on the edge of the bed.
"Tell me what it is you want Bella."
"Could you please not get angry at me for asking you this Edward?" I asked him.
"I will try, but I cannot promise. I am very tired today Bella, but ask away," he replied, sounding very guarded.
"I'm errmm… I'm really starting to like it here Edward. It's a nice change for me, having people taking care of me instead of me taking care of people. Yet, it feels not very personal. It is just, the house is just too big, Edward; I feel like I live in a five star hotel instead of a warm house," I told him hesitantly.
"I don't think I understand what you are trying to say Bella," Edward asked me, confused.
"I…" sigh… "I don't know myself," I whispered, "it's just, yes; I enjoy waking up in the morning to have breakfast, lunch and dinner ready, then having a personal trainer to keep my body healthy and toned. But, at the same time, I also miss having to take care of something, or someone. I miss thinking of what to do with a room, what to clean, what to cook, and I also actually miss doing it."
Edward looked at me like I was somewhat crazy and said, "But you are my fiancé Bella. You are not to work like that, people were hired to clean and cook, you do not have to worry about that now."
"I know that, Edward, but I miss cooking and cleaning. I miss thinking and using my brain, I miss having that little control. I guess here I keep feeling that I'm only a guest. That one day I will wake up and then it'll be time for me to go home, to the real world. I want to have my own kitchen, where it is me who rules what is going on there. A place where I do not have to ask permission on whether I can come and cook. I want to have fewer rooms so that my feet won't be too tired just to go from one room to another. I'm sorry Edward, just forget I said this. It's stupid, I am just bored I guess," I told him.
"You are not stupid, Bella, never say that. To make this clear, you feel this house is too big. You do know though that you are free to go into the kitchen and do whatever you want, right?" Edward said.
"I know, but the kitchen is like a freaking five star restaurant, it's not real. I feel like I'm intruding on those chefs there. I just want to feel like a woman in her own place. I'm used to planning what to eat and cook; I miss those simple things Edward."
"Do you want us to move into smaller place? Is that what you want, Bella?" he asked me again.
"Would that be too much of a problem for you, Edward? I don't care if it is still big, just less spacious. Is it possible? I just want to feel like being in a home, not in a hotel. Is it okay with you, Edward?" I asked him, feeling very hopeful.
"I think we can, and I think I kind of understand you and where you're come from. Fine Isabella, I will find a homier house as you request, but we will still have maids and a cook there. I do not want you to spend all your time cooking; you are mine Isabella, so your time belongs to me as well when I am home. But to build a home with you sounds too good as well," he said.
I snapped my eyes up at him; I couldn't believe that he actually listened and granted my wish. "For real Edward? You would really let us move into a smaller house? A house that is a house? Not a hotel like this? A house with just a big enough backyard, and a kitchen that does not look like a five star hotel? Really?" I half shouted, half squealed.
"Hahaha… Oh…my Bella, only you would be so happy to have less than what you already have," Edward chuckled.
"Ohhh…thank you, Edward, thank you…thank you…" I squealed again, pampering him with kisses all over his face.
"All right… I love you Bella; of course I will give you everything. Besides, it thrills me to know that you want a house of your own with me. A house where you will be the one who leads and takes care of it, and to think that, it make me feels like you are already my wife. I love that idea more than anything."
"Thank you, Edward. I think- give me more time, will you? I think one day for sure, I will love you as much or even more than you love me," I told him, blushing.
"Thank you, Bella, you just made my day. Now let's eat at our five star restaurant for the last time," he told me, chuckling.
I could not believe this; Edward actually granted my wish of moving into a normal house, granted it would still be extravagant and big, but nonetheless it would be my house. I would be the one who planned what to do with it, being the hostess and everything. I was so happy then, nothing, and I mean nothing, could've made me sad that day. I was ecstatic.
After dinner, the four of us went into the cinema room to have a movie night. We watched the new movie Watchmen, which Jasper chose, and I fell asleep right in the middle of the story. I was awakened when Edward put me slowly in the bed, opening my eyes a little bit only to be kissed deep by Edward.
"Shhh… Sleep Bella, we are going to have a busy day tomorrow, having to go to Phoenix to meet your mother then come back to Forks to meet your Father," Edward whispered.
"Mmm…kay… Love you ward…" I told him, asleep.
