I hurried and threw away my food and quickly took a shower. God it was good. I had accidently picked up Sollux's honey shampoo though. Now I smelt of honey and well my Old Spice. It smelt blissful. It smelled awful together. I shake my wet head and look out the small window. The sky was dark and looked unforgiving. I hated when it stormed. It hasn't even stormed in a while. Sollux has never seen me when it stormed. I hope he's asleep.
I hurried and slipped on my boxers, which I only slept in. When I opened the door steam rolled out like a large cloud. The smell of honey and Old Spice left the bathroom. I let out a sigh and head to our room. Sollux was already sleeping so I crept in the room as the rain started. I was almost to my bed /almost/ before the thunder sounded. I shouldn't have yelled. Shit, it wasn't even that loud. Just loud enough for Sollux to hear and bolt up from the bed. I shut my eyes and collapsed to the floor. I didn't want this to happen.
Sollux jumped from his bed to my side, his arms wrapped around me. "KK?! Kk, c'mon let'th get you to your bed. Get up." I didn't want him to be awake. I didn't want this but it had to happen I guess. Thunder again. I jump in his arms. God this was embarrassing. He would probably make fun of me in the morning. He pulls me to my feet and makes me lay down then he sits on the bed, awkwardly patting my head.
"KK? Are you alright?" His hand leaves my head and fall to his lap. I let out a sigh and nod. This is stupid. Why did he even have to get up? I could have taken care of myself in this situation. I always have. I turn over, back facing Sollux. "Yeah… Just go back to sleep."
He chuckles, "Okay." He lies down behind me and I sit up.
"What the hell are you doing?"
"I'm lying down." He chuckles and turns facing toward me. "Ith that a problem?"
I sigh and lay back down beside him, muttering. "Guess not" He closes his eyes and yawns a bit. I want him to go back to his bed. Him being this close was wrong. He really liked Feferi and I don't want to make it seem like I like him because that would make him confused or whatever and cause fucking drama or some shit. God why was this so fucked up? My whole thought process of things, I mean. Everything I thought of had to do with him or something we could do or how I could tell him without everything being stupid. Wait? Tell him what, Karkat? Tell him you're falling head over heels for him? Can't do that, oh no. That would be too easy for you. What if he denied you? Thanks brain that's fantastic you would watch out for me like that. FUCK IM DOING IT AGAIN!
I just need to sleep. I try and close my eyes but I can't stop looking at Sollux. I move a bit closer to him just to feel his warmth. I never knew I was so cold. He opens his eyes and sighs. "Tho why haven't you told me that you're thcared of thunder?" A small smile reaches his lips. I can only scowl and shake my head.
"I just didn't want to tell you…shut up." He chuckles. Why did he do that? Was this funny to him? It probably was. I wouldn't doubt it if he treated me differently for all of this. It was stupid, this whole situation. Me scared of rain storms, him in my bed. Fuck, why does this have to happen? I look up to him and his smile grows.
"KK..?"
"What..?"
His smile slowly turns into a shit eating grin. "Did you use my thhampoo? Ehehe"
My eyes widen. Fuck I forgot all about that. God damn it! What could I say? Haha yeah I did. NO. He's defiantly not going to let me live this down. I'm never going to hear the end of it. Fuck my life.
I finally get the nerve to say something. "Fuck off it was an accident" I pull the blankets closer around me, still cold inside. He rolls his eyes and lets out a breath. "I'm sorry…"
"For what?"
"For being such an asshole. I shouldn't have flipped out on you like that…It was stupid" I mindlessly move closer to him. Why was he so warm? I could feel the heat radiating off his body. God why was I enjoying this silence? It was just Sollux Captor, the loser in most of my classes. Sollux Captor, the dumbest shit stain that has ever walked into my life. Sollux Captor, the best friend I could never tell my real feelings to. Why was this so hard? Just being around him was just torture. He was amazing and I was just a screamy little bitch most of the time, how could he put up with me? It's something I'll never know, I guess.
Sollux's breaths where calming to me, His heartbeat steady. He was so fucking warm too. This douchmuffin had it all. I can't think straight. Its either the rain or him getting to me and I wanted nothing to do with either one of them at this moment. He was too close but not close enough. Fuck, why is my mind divided when it comes to him? Here the questions go again. All aboard the fuck all of everything. I just wanted to sleep now. I moved closer but needed to stop. I also peeked open my eyes to look up at him, making sure he wasn't disturbed by my moving. I wish I knew what he was thinking. Sollux doesn't move nor speak. He was still and so was I. I was comfortable being this close to him, but only wished I could be even closer. It's a stupid thought, me and him. I should just stop all this dreaming. It's weighting me down.
I take in a breath and decide to close my eyes. The thunder stopped, I couldn't tell if Sollux was still awake or not but he was still here, just lying with me. It was nice, to say the least. Soon I let out a soft yawn and move down further into our blankets.
