Chapter 6: Long day ahead of me.

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After a very awkward ride home with Stephanie, I literally ran up the stairs and threw myself onto the comfort of my bed. Everything that happened throughout the day was finally coming into focus and i finally realized what I'd done. The fight in the cafeteria, yelling at him in the parking lot, and the amazing kiss we shared.

That was one detail that I couldn't seem to get out of my head. Throughout the entire ride home I couldn't get the image of his smoldering eyes out of my mind. Everything about that kiss makes me want to find him and kiss him again. His hands on my back, his lips against mine, the growl that seemed to come from the bottom of his chest... just the thought made me shiver.

What Are You Doing?

My conscience was screaming at me to remember just how horrible Paul has always been to me. But the look in his eyes just before he kissed me made me want to dive into them and forget about all the bad stuff.

Don't even think about it!!!

The dim thought of me and Paul being together needed to be buried before i seriously got hurt. For all I know this could all turn out to be a joke. What's to say he won't make fun of me for it tomorrow? That would be very much like Paul. He was a jerk, and I couldn't forget that fact after just one kiss.

Even though I promised myself that I couldn't get my hopes up when it came to Paul, I couldn't seem to stop my mind from wondering towards his image as I slowly drifted off to sleep.

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I woke up the next morning with a shiver. My body was practically buzzing from the dream I'd just had. I could almost still feel Paul's lips on mine before I realized that it was just a dream.

Shaking off the ridiculous feelings that we're shimmering through me, I went to get ready for what was probably going to be a very embarrassing day. As I got ready I couldn't help but wonder what would happen. Would he confront me about the kiss? What if he does? What should I say? Should I ignore him? What if he ignores me?

For some reason, the thought of ignoring the entire altercation made me some what sad. Pushing aside those feelings I finished getting ready and waited for Stephanie to pick me up, I sort of dreaded this particular car ride because I knew I was going to get questions about my actions yesterday.

And of course my best friend didn't disappoint. I knew she always meant well when she asked what was wrong. That was just Steph, she couldn't help wanting to help fix my problems. She'd always been that way and it's one of my favorite things about her. But today I really didn't feel like talking about it. Especially since I haven't quite figured out what went down yesterday.

"So…?" she said as we pulled away form my house.

"So…. What?" I asked.

"Come on Hailey you know what I'm talking about. What happened with you and Paul yesterday?"

"It was nothing. Really, he just kind of caught up with me in the parking lot and tried to start a fight. Nothing serious."

"Yeah right Hailey! I know you better then that. And from the look on his face and the look on your face, something BIG happened that you not telling me." she pushed.

"Look Steph I just really don't wanna talk about it okay. I promise I'll tell you, but I still kind of have to figure out what happened."

"Okay fine. But I swear if you don't tell me soon I'll go up to Paul and ask him myself." she teased.

My eyes widened a little bit at the half serious threat. Unfortunately this action didn't go by unnoticed by Steph.

"Can you at least tell me what you were doing just before I pulled into the parking lot. I promise not to say anything more about it for the rest of the day."

I took a moment to think about the offer before I reneged and decided to tell her. She is my best friend after all.

"Okay but you can't tell anyone! And I don't wanna hear another word about it for the rest of the day. Promise?" I said reluctantly while holding out my pinky.

"I promise!" she said excitedly as she wrapped her pinky around mine.

"He kissed me."

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The shocked silence that filled that car was almost deafening. The look on her face was that of a mental patient trying really hard to keep whatever was in there head from getting out. And in all seriousness I have to give her props for holding back the scream that I was sure was taking place inside her head.

"Steph?" No indication of recognition came from her side of the car. Her eyes were fixed on the rode, for that I was glad. But this silence was killing me.

"Steph? Please say something." I begged.

"I promised I wouldn't." she said. It actually came out more like a squeak.

"I know but I'm giving you permission to give me you initial thoughts. Maybe if I hear what you think I might be able to make sense of this whole thing."

"Well, I wasn't going to say it…"

"But?"

"I TOTALLY KNEW IT!!!!"

"What?" I said half laughing.

"I knew he had a thing for you! It was so obvious, but I still can't believe I was right."

"Oh shut up! He doesn't have a thing for me."

"Obviously he does. How was it? Was he a good kisser?" she asked eagerly.

"I don't know. I don't really have anything to compare him to."

"So? You'd still be able to tell if he was a good kisser."

"I guess he was."

"Was your head all dizzy afterward?"

"Yeah, kinda."

"Oh my god! I'm so jealous of you right now!"

"Why in the world you be jealous? Paul is a low life scumbag."

"Oh come on Hailey. You know I have a sweet spot for my fantasy bad boy. And Paul fits that description perfectly."

"Well then you can have him."

"No no, this one's yours. I can tell you enjoyed that kiss. There's a blush on your cheeks from just thinking about it."

"Whatever. I'm not going to get my hopes up."

"Why not?"

"Because Steph, what if I walk into school today and he make some crack about how bad of a kisser I am and the it was all a big joke. Or even worse, what if I go in there and he completely ignores me?"

"I guess I can understand that."

As we pulled into our usually parking spot I turned to Steph before she had the chance to get out of the car.

"Steph please please please don't say anything today! I'm just going to go in like nothing happened and hope for the best okay?"

"Okay Hails. I promise. But if anything does happen today, promise me you'll call me later and tell me okay?"

"Are you driving me home today?"

"I can't today. Sorry, I have to pick up my little sister from day camp. My mom's not getting home till late tonight."

"Okay, looks like I'll be walking home today."

"Look on the bright side. At least it's a nice day."

We both laughed as we were on our way inside, with each step I took I felt as if my heart was going to beat itself right out of my chest.

"Well, here goes nothing." I whispered to myself.


Note: Thanks again to all of the people that are reviewing. I appreciate it and i have to say keep em coming. I'm trying to make my chapters longer for you guys but it might take a little bit more time so bare with me :) Next chapter should be up later on tonight depending on when i get home from work lol.