Lose Yourself

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Brooke stood waiting by Nathan's locker. Peyton had told her about the pregnancy and the termination and she couldn't help but feel a little guilty about not being there for her two best friends. Although as she thought back to her week with Lucas she realized that she had her own life that went further than the drama of the on-off relationship of Nathan Scott and Peyton Sawyer.

"Nate" Brooke smiled as she saw Nathan walk towards her.

"Glad to see you have finally made your return" Nathan said plainly as he opened his locker and placed his books inside.

"Peyton told me what happened" Brooke said deciding to ignore his previous comment. "I'm wish I could have done something to help"

"Yeah well you didn't so..." Nathan trailed as he continued to rummage through his locker.

"Nathan can you just forget about me? Please...Peyton needs you right now. I know that the two of you aren't together anymore but you're the only person that understands what she is going through right now" Brooke told him "Don't shut her out Nate"

"Don't tell me what to do Brooke" Nathan grunted as he slammed his locker shut.

"I'm not I was just-" Brooke started before getting cut off.

"Well don't" Nathan cut in "So please can we not talk about this. Especially here of all places"

"Fine" Brooke sighed as she the two began to walk through the halls.

"So...how was your week?" Nathan asked curiously and Brooke was glad that he was coming back to the Nathan she called her best friend.

"It was...nice" Brooke smiled as she linked her arm through his "I had fun"

"Good" Nathan nodded "Now that I think about it, you probably needed the break"

"Thanks Nate" Brooke smiled as she looked up at him.

"Yeah...whatever" he mumbled in response.

Brooke laughed slightly as she shook her head as they walked outside. He is never going to change.


"Hey man. What's up?" Lucas asked casually as he sat outside next to Jake who was sitting on a bench smoking a cigarette.

Jake frowned as he turned his head to look at his friend "What's up?" he spat sarcastically "I don't hear from you in a week and all you have to say is what's up?" Jake asked in disbelief as he shook his head "You are unbelievable"

"Oh come on man. I've been busy" Lucas argued "Since when did my life revolve around you anyway?"

"It doesn't! But we have had some important shit to sell but I had to do it alone since you decided to make a disappearing act!" Jake sneered "So I'm keeping the money for myself"

"What?" Lucas asked shocked "You can't do that!" he shouted angrily "I have dealt loads of times without you and split the money!"

"Yeah well I did the dirty work so I don't see how it's fair for me to lose half of my money for your lazy ass!" Jake spat.

"Since when did you get so selfish?" Lucas asked angrily as he stood up "I'm through with you Jake! You're a mess!" he growled coldly. And it was true. Ever since Jake started to take the drugs as well as selling them the guy became more and more desperate for money as well as his daily doses.

"You have to look after number one man" Jake shrugged as he stood up "It's not my problem about your business. Next deal though…you help me out and the money is yours"

"Fuck you Jake. I'm done with your shit" Lucas said angrily as he felt his fists tighten by his sides. And this is the part where he just couldn't help himself. He raised his fist up and slammed it into Jake's jaw. Jake fell to the floor and Lucas stepped over him and looked at him with a disgusted look on his face "Have a nice life asshole" he smirked before stepping away from him and walking away. A lot of people were watching in shock. Jake and Lucas were supposed to be friends so they were surprised to see Lucas just punch him like that.

As Lucas walked away through the crowds of people he caught Brooke's eye. She gave him a confused look but he just shrugged. He didn't want her involved in Jake's mess.


Lucas sat in the gym during their P.E lesson, because both classes were small the boys shared the gym with the girls and he couldn't help but watch Brooke as she stretched at the other side of the gym. He knew she knew that he was watching her, that's why she always seemed to stretch her butt out into his direction when she bent down. Or when she stretched her legs out she seemed to do it in a slow motion which would always make him lick his lips. This would happen pretty much every lesson and they could get away with it since both classes didn't have Nathan or Peyton or any of the popular in crowd in it so nobody noticed the secret glances or the seductive smirks.

Brooke slowly walked towards where he was sitting and took a bottle of water from her bag where Lucas 'coincidently' sat next to. "Were you trying to torture me over there?" he asked as he kept his eyes fixed straight ahead of him.

Brooke took a large gulp from her water before answering "I was stretching" she stated innocently but Lucas knew she knew what he was talking about. She always did.

"How about we just sneak out of here and do our own stretching" Lucas smirked as he struggled not to look at her.

"Sorry honey but that would just look to suss" Brooke replied although she was tempted.

"Oh come on" Lucas continued "Nobody would even notice. I'm on the bench anyway" he shrugged as he pointed towards the rest of his class who were throwing basketballs to each other.

"What's up with that anyway? I thought you liked basketball…I mean I have seen you play and you are good" Brooke commented as she rummaged through her bag as a cover.

Lucas shrugged "I faked being ill. I'm not really in the mood to play"

"Why? Because of Jake?" she asked as she looked towards her boyfriend's former friend who looked rather grumpy with his swollen jaw "I saw what happened this morning. Why did you hit him?" she asked curiously.

"I will tell you if we get out of here" Lucas smirked

Brooke groaned annoyed before giving in "Fine" she said with a dramatic sigh "I will see you at your car in five minutes"

"Five minutes" Lucas smirked before standing up and sneaking out of the gym.

Brooke waited a minute or two before grabbing her bag and following him, not seeing the suspicious look on Jake's face as he saw both exits.


"Peyton…can we talk?" Nathan asked as he hesitantly approached Peyton who was sitting in the library.

"I'm busy Nathan" Peyton said plainly without even looking at him.

"Look" Nathan sighed as he sat next to her "I know that you are mad at me and I understand why but you did the right thing"

"The right thing? Nathan…it was a living thing! You made me kill it" Peyton spat.

Nathan ran a hand through his hair as he looked around the almost empty library. "That's not fair Peyton…you know that you probably would have gotten rid of it anyway. You weren't ready to be a mom just as much as I wasn't ready to be a dad"

"But you could have let me do it in my own time Nate! You're so damn selfish that everything always has to be on your terms!" Peyton hissed coldly.

"Peyton I had to. If I didn't then it would have been Dan" Nathan told her.

"Dan?" Peyton asked in disbelief "You told him?"

"He is my father Peyton! He had a right to know!" Nathan defended.

Peyton scoffed "No Nathan…the only reason you told him was because you were scared to make your own decision! You're always so damn scared! Can't you do just one thing without asking Daddy first?"

Nathan looked down at the floor guiltily.

"Can I ask you something Nathan?"

"Sure" Nathan mumbled tiredly.

"Even if you wanted that baby…would you have still told me to get rid of it?" Peyton asked hoping for an honest answer.

Nathan leaned forward and put his head in his hands for a moment before sitting back up "I don't know" he admitted.

"No…the truth is you still would have! Because you would have ran to Daddy like always and he would have told you too! That's the truth Nathan! That baby was yours not Dan's!"

Nathan didn't say anything. Know that she was right.

"You're pathetic Nathan! Stop being such a coward and stand up to him!" Peyton told him seriously.

"It's not as easy as that Peyton" Nathan defended "You don't know what he is like"

"I do Nathan…because he is exactly what you're turning into! The apple really doesn't fall that far from the tree huh?"

"Shut up" Nathan spat hating it when people compared him to his father.

Peyton chuckled "I'm through with you Nathan Scott" she said standing up "Have a nice life" she finished before walking away from him.

Nathan watched her leave angrily. Since when did she choose to end things? He was Nathan Scott, nobody talked to him like that.


Lucas and Brooke sat in the bar where they first met as Lucas told Brooke about his bust up with Jake.

"I just don't get it" Brooke admitted "I thought you two were like best friends"

Lucas let out a small chuckle "A lot of people think that. I guess in a way we kind of were, but honestly…it was mostly business with us. We used to understand each other but I guess things changed…I guess I changed"

"How?" Brooke asked "What could have possibly changed so much between the two of you that would lead to him ripping you off and you punching him?"

Lucas smiled as he gently rubbed his thumb on Brooke's cheek softly "You happened"

Brooke looked at him confused "But Jake doesn't even know about us?"

"No…but you changed me Brooke, for the better…and I know that I still do shit that I'm not supposed to but that's nothing compared to what I used to get up to before I met you" Lucas admitted "Jake…all he does is take drugs, drink alcohol and sleep with girls. I'm not like that anymore" he said as Brooke listened on curiously "And I know that I still sell drugs and even smoke some pot every now and then but I'm not addicted like he is…he is a mess Brooke, and I guess I have just stopped caring"

Brooke nodded in understanding. She didn't fully understand but she understood him and that was enough for her .she leant forward and kissed him softly "I love you for you, you know that right?"

Lucas nodded "Yeah I know"

"Good…because I don't want you to think that you have to change for me. I didn't fall in love with Saint Lucas, I know what you're like and I know about your past and even some of the shit you pull now. But I love you for that…I don't care about that stuff" Brooke told him softly.

Lucas smiled "Your amazing" he said with a small laugh on the end "I honestly don't know what I would do if I would ever lose you"

"Well you're lucky" Brooke smiled in a slight whisper "Because you will never have to find out. I'm not going anywhere Luke"

"That's good to know" Lucas smirked as he kissed her quickly "Because neither am I"


"I see that Lucas really did hit you hard" Rachel commented as she sat down next to Jake at the River Court that night. "That jaw of yours looks nasty"

"Not as nasty as he's gonna look when I get him back for this" Jake muttered angrily.

Rachel frowned "What? What are you planning on doing?"

"I don't know yet" Jake replied "But he can't just get away with publically humiliating me like that"

"Oh come on Jake…so he punched you. You don't need to act all weird and gangster like about it" Rachel smiled attempting at a joke but Jake didn't seem to find it funny.

"He was the one over-reacting. So I sold some shit without him, big deal…now he has just fucked everything up"

"Yeah well I can understand that he was angry. I mean, from what I hear…you ripped him off" Rachel said with a small shrug.

"Why are you defending him?" Jake muttered annoyed.

"Hey I'm not!" Rachel argued "I was just saying…"

"Well don't" Jake snapped as he pulled out a cigar wrap before rolling up some weed and placing it in between his lips as he pulled out his lighter and lit up. "I saw something weird today" he said as the smoke came from his mouth as he spoke. He passed the wrap to Rachel who gratefully exhaled from it.

"Oh yeah…and what was that?" Rachel asked curiously as she breathed out.

"Well" Jake started before taking another puff from his wrap "We were in gym class…and I look over…and there is Lucas sneaking out of the gym"

"Yeah…so?" Rachel asked not seeing what the big was. So Lucas skipped gym class? So what?

"No…no…that wasn't the strange part" Jake said waving his hand around in the air "Brooke Davis was the strange part"

Rachel looked at him shocked. Did he know? "Wh-what about Brooke?"

"Well…not even minutes after Lucas left the gym…Brooke did too" Jake said in a suspicious tone.

Rachel let out a dry laugh "So they both skipped class, that doesn't mean anything"

"I know. I know" Jake mumbled with a nod "But Luke has a secret girl. I'm not that stupid"

"And what? You think its Brooke?" Rachel asked in pretending to be shocked.

Jake shrugged "I don't even know…maybe she's doing it to play games with Nathan or something"

Rachel let out a nervous laugh "I don't think this is the best conversation to have while we are getting high"

"Nah" Jake muttered shaking his head "I'm going to get to the bottom of it, whether the girl is Brooke or some other bimbo or even if it's something completely different, Lucas is hiding something and I'm going to find out what it is and I am going to rumble his little secret"

"Oh boy" Rachel muttered under her breath as she took the blunt from Jake.


Lucas and Brooke were in a deep make out session in a booth at the back of the bar when Lucas felt someone tap his shoulder. He pulled away from Brooke in frustration and turned around and grunted in annoyance.

"What do you want Kevin?" Lucas asked in annoyance.

"Luke man…sorry to interrupt…but uh…I was wondering…if I could score some coke from you tonight?" Kevin asked as he fidgeted with his hands.

Lucas glanced back at Brooke who raised an eyebrow. He turned back to Kevin "Not now man…can't you see I'm busy?"

"Please man…I'm desperate" Kevin pleaded "I will even pay you extra man"

"Dude I told you…I'm busy"

"Please Lucas…I really need some…I'm desperate here" Kevin begged and Lucas could see that he really was. He looked tired, he had bags under his eyes, he kept on fidgeting and his hands were shaking. He looked a mess.

Lucas sighed as he looked back at Brooke who shrugged "Go ahead" she told him.

Lucas grunted as he stood up "I have some in my car…come on" he ordered before turning back to Brooke and leant down and kissed her hard on the lips "I won't be long" he said after he pulled away before following Kevin out of the bar.


Lucas and Kevin walked through the dark car park towards his car.

Kevin nervously played with his fingers as Lucas pulled his keys from his pocket "Make this quick okay man?" Lucas said as he pulled the stash from under his seat.

"Don't worry…this will be quick" Kevin muttered as he looked behind him.

Lucas came out of the car and turned around to see two other guys standing behind Kevin. He looked at them confused and frowned "Ok…what the hell is this?"

"I'm sorry man but I really need that coke" Kevin said nervously.

"Yeah and I told you I would sell you it" Lucas said still confused but still having a little feeling about what was about to happen.

"Yeah…about that…I kind of don't have the money"

Lucas let out a dry laugh "Ah…I see…so these guys are going to beat me up while you steal my stash?" he asked with a raised eyebrow pointing to the two silent guys standing opposite him.

"Yeah pretty much" Kevin replied with a small shrug.

"Right…you do know that by doing this I'm never going to sell to you again?" Lucas said with a warning tone in his voice "I don't think you realize who you are messing with Kevin"

Kevin nervously looked to the two other guys before turning back to Lucas "Just hand me the coke and we will walk away"

Lucas laughed harshly "You're pathetic. Like I would do that"

"Fine…let's play it your way then" Kevin hissed harshly "Boys"

Lucas smiled as the two guys slowly walked towards him. He prepared himself as they got closer and just as the first guy raised his hand to hit him, Lucas pulled his arm back and slammed him into the car so the guy fell down in pain. The other guy was to quick however as Lucas felt an impulse of pain fly into his face, he quickly recovered and hit the guy back but by then the other moron was up and was in his face too. Being out numbered quickly became a problem as the other guy held him back while the other thug kneed him in the stomach. Lucas groaned in pain before he felt him hold him back with the other guy. Kevin walked towards Lucas and punched him again square in the eye.

"I told you Scott…you should have just given me the shit" Kevin hissed angrily.

"Fuck you Kevin" Lucas spat angrily and Kevin punched him in the gut. "Ah" Lucas moaned in pain as he struggled to keep up his breathing.

Kevin picked up the small bag of coke from Lucas's pocket before hitting him again in the face and then walked away. The two bigger guys pushed him onto the floor before following Kevin back into the bar.

Lucas lay on the graveled floor in pain as he clutched his stomach. They weren't going to get away with that. Lucas knew bigger people then some college dropout morons. Kevin Potter was going to get what was coming to him.


"You're looking rather lonely sitting all the way back here all by yourself" the bartender commented as he collected glasses from the table next to where Brooke was sitting at.

Brooke shrugged "My boyfriend should be back in a minute"

"Boyfriend…right…that's what they all say" The guy said with a small shrug and a smirk.

Brooke raised an eyebrow "What? Are you calling me a liar?"

"The name is Owen" The bartender grinned as he outreached his hand for Brooke to shake.

Brooke looked down at the hand then back up at Owen before frowning "I didn't ask for your name…I was asking you if you were calling me a liar"

"Yeah well you were looking rather lonely…I thought I would come and keep you company" Owen said with a confident smug look on his face.

"And like I said…I am waiting for my boyfriend" Brooke said coldly. This guy was annoying her.

"Well it seems to me like you have been stood up"

"Hm…it would seem like that huh?" Brooke said in a fake polite voice "But he was just here 15 minutes ago. He was only went back to his car to get something"

"Sounds to me like an excuse to leave" Owen smirked as he wiped their table "So…what's your name?"

"Like I am going to tell you" Brooke spat "You're boring me now so will you just leave me alone?"

"I'm only working baby" Owen smirked as he continued to wipe down the table "This is my job" he said with a wink as he wiped the rest of the table down.

"My boyfriend really wouldn't appreciate you calling me baby" Brooke said coldly "So do not call me that again"

"Whatever you say baby" Owen smirked.

"Don't fucking talk to her"

Owen turned around to see an angry looking Lucas glaring at him.

Brooke gasped at the sight of her boyfriend. His lip and nose was bleeding and his eye looked like it would be black and blue in the morning. "Luke…what the hell happened?" she asked worriedly as she stood up and examined her boyfriend.

Lucas however ignored her as he kept his eyes fixated on Owen "What the hell do you think you were just doing?" he asked sternly.

Owen held his hands up in defense "Nothing man…we were just talking"

"Yeah well don't talk to her. Don't even look at her? Ok?" Lucas said threateningly. "I mean it"

Owen nodded slightly "Yeah man…sorry" he mumbled "But it looks like you need to be cleaned up man…let me go and get you something"

"I'm fine" Lucas snapped, his eyes dark and cold.

"Baby…you're not fine…what the hell happened?" Brooke asked as she rubbed his cheek softly.

Lucas finally tore his eyes away from Owen and looked down at Brooke. "I will tell you later" he mumbled "Was this ass harassing you?" he asked turning back to Owen.

"No…its fine" Brooke said reassuringly "But he's right…you should really get cleaned up"

"I told you I'm fine" Lucas said frustratingly as he walked towards Owen and stood right in his face "If you go near my girl again I swear to god I will not be responsible for my actions" Lucas said in a cold and threatening tone that even gave Brooke the shivers.

Owen nodded with a gulp. He could tell that this guy was not a man to be messed with. The guy obviously would do anything for his girlfriend and he knew that his safest choice would be to just walk away. "Sure man…you got it" Owen replied as he took a step back.

"Good" Lucas hissed sternly before turning back to Brooke "Let's get out of here" he ordered as he grabbed her hand and led her out of the bar.


Rachel and Jake walked out of the liquor store with a bottle of beer in their hands each. They were already stoned so the alcohol was already adding to their mental state. It was surprising that they even got served with the drink.

"Woops!" Rachel giggled as she almost tripped up. Jake laughed loudly as Rachel held herself up onto his arm.

"We nearly lost you" Jake chuckled as the two stumbled through the dark streets.

Rachel sighed loudly as she leant her head against Jake's shoulder "You know…you were right"

"Right about what?" Jake asked confused as he took a swig of his beer.

"About Lucas…he does have a mystery girl" Rachel admitted before taking a drink from her own bottle.

"I knew it!" Jake grunted loudly "Damn…do you know who she is?"

"Someone who definatly shouldn't be with him" Rachel commented as she raised her eyebrow "You know…if anyone found out about them…it would be drama" she giggled in a dramatic voice. "Major major drama" she slurred.

"Oh come on" Jake urged "Tell me who it is"

"I can't" Rachel said with a shrug "I promised"

"Oh come on Rach…like Lucas would ever do the same back for you" Jake pointed out. And it was the truth, Lucas probably wouldn't.

Rachel frowned at the realization "You know Jagelski…that is a pretty good point"

"I'm good with that stuff" Jake said before laughing.

"What are you laughing at?"

"I don't even know!"

Rachel shook her head "You're crazy"

Jake scoffed "No more crazy than you!"

Rachel chuckled "Ok…good point"

"Ok…Ok…so back to our conversation…who is Lucas's mystery girl?" Jake asked.

"I don't know Jake…the girl is kind of a friend of mine" Rachel told him shaking her head "I don't think I can tell you"

"Oh come on Rach…you can trust me" Jake smiled as he urged her to tell him "Just tell me"

Rachel groaned "Fine" she muttered and Jake grinned with satisfaction.

"So? Who is it?" he asked impatiently.

Rachel sighed before letting out a sneaky smile "It's Brooke"

"Brooke?" Jake asked with a raised eyebrow.

"Davis…the girl is Brooke Davis"

Jake's eyes widened "Brooke Davis? Are you kidding me?" he asked in shock.

Rachel shook her head "Nope" she smirked "I told you it would cause drama" she chuckled before taking a swig of her beer.

Jake pretty much instantly sobered up. Lucas and Brooke? Oh this was good…even for him.


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