So here's another chapter :) Hope you like it. And yes, I am having fun with the cliffhangers :)

A big hug to all of you who keep commenting this story. It means a lot to me and you're all so nice :)

And I know I'm kinda late with this, his bday was 2 weeks ago, but I'm gonna catch up this weekend, I promise.

Anyway, enjoy!


Tommy's POV

Shit. What have I gotten myself into? Yeah, I wanted to tell him, but that was before, and things were going great until I said that. And now he's onto something. I can't ruin his birthday. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself. It's his day and I'm not allowed to mess with it. "What do you mean? I have nothing to tell you. Why would I have something to tell you?" Yeah Tommy. Great job convincing him.

"He let out a sigh. "Tommy... " Surprise, he wasn't satisfied with my answer. "We are best friends. Aren't we suppose to tell each other everything?" Good point. But I'm still afraid that what I have to say will ruin our friendship. And I don't want that. Things have been going great until I developed a crush on him. And now... I think I love him.

"It's nothing. " Maybe he'll let it go after a while. Yes I know, I should just say it already, but for the past couple of days I've been changing my mind about that every couple of seconds. But I'm still not quite sure how to do it. I mean, I don't think that 'Hey Adam, I know I'm suppose to be straight but I love you' will work.

He took a step forward and he was now standing a couple of inches away from me. "Glitters... Why wont you talk to me?" He brushed his fingers down my cheek. "Adam... It's complicated." He frowned. "Don't you trust me?" I think it would break his heart if he knew the answer. I don't completely trust him. I know that eventually he will break my heart and that it would be better if I just keep my mouth shut, that would be the reasonable thing to do. But when was the last time you saw me doing something reasonable?

"Adam... I... I love you. " He smiled. "I love you too Tommy, you know that. Now will you tell me what's wrong?"

"No, Adam, you don't understand. I really love you. " His fingers left my cheeks and his expression was blank. That was the thing I was so afraid of. Rejection. Man I knew this is gonna happen. I shouldn't of said anything...

"Tommy...I... " He took a step backwards. "I don't know what to say."

"I'm sorry. Forget what I said. Can we just pretend that nothing happened?" I was kind of hoping that we will soon forget this, that things will be as they were before. But I knew better. After I said what I said things are gonna change. But it depends on Adam will they be better or not.

He let out another sigh. "Maybe we should." The expression on his face softened. "You're my best friend. I don't ever wanna lose you. " Well at least he's not telling me that he hates me because of what I said. But for some reason that wasn't good enough for me. Suddenly I felt like going all drama queen on him. "So you don't like me? Not one bit? Than what's up with all those kisses? Just when there's no one around so you had to settle with me? Is that what you're trying to say? You're a dick Adam. I can't believe this!" I really have no right telling him something like that. But I can't help it..

"Oh c'mon, Tommy, what is wrong with you? I don't wanna ruin what we have here. Is that so hard to understand? I like you, I do. And sometimes it's hard not to just fuck your brains out because you are adorable. But I can't risk it. I can't. Understand that. Now excuse me while I go celebrate my fucking birthday. You know where to find me once you get back to your senses." And than he left.

Wow. I did not expect that. I expected a lot of things, but I did not expect that. How can he say something like that to me? I thought... I don't know. But that was cruel. And cold. But he said he likes me... Does he really? And if he does, why won't he give me a chance? I don't want to ruin our friendship either but he doesn't know would we work out as a couple. And besides, I haven't even said anything like that. I just said that I love him, not that I wanna date him.

And he just left. What I said wasn't exactly right thing for me to say, but what he said to me totally caught me of guard. When he left, I started to sob uncontrollably. I sat on the floor and cried. I couldn't stop myself. I just told the man that I love how I feel about him, and he said no to me. That I can't love him because he doesn't want to take any risks. Adam fucking Lambert is all of the sudden afraid to take a risk. I know that my little freak out session didn't help, but what he said was still... I don't know. I can't even think right now. But why is he so afraid? He said he likes me. And I don't think that he would lie to me. Than why is he so afraid?

I'm gonna find out the answer. I'm gonna stand up, stop feeling sorry for myself, stop with the hardcore mood swings and I'm gonna make Adam beg me for forgiveness. I'm gonna drive him crazy and make him say that he's sorry for what he said. I don't really know how am I going to do it, but I am. No more mister nice guy. (Yeah, I just said that. Get over it. ) He's gonna regret saying those things to me...

I smiled to myself. I'm obviously going crazy over here, but I don't really care at the moment. I'm gonna bitchslap every boy who lays a finger on Adam. I'm gonna make him mine whether he wants it or not. And he will want it.

Wow I'm really going crazy... But as I said. Who cares? Al I want is Adam. And I'm going to get him.