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April's POV

As if things couldn't be worse, Raph had his Sai pointed at me. I just tried to climb in the window when I felt his presence. Damn he was fast. I had seen his shadow from the buildings before it darkened past the point of no return. Those tips that Leo had being giving me worked. I guess I am becoming a ninja in my right after all.

He finally left after we fought. I know he feels bad but it's too soon and to easy to forgive him now. If I cave now what about the next time. Right now my pride is gone and I feel amazingly crushed emotionally. I grabbed my clothes out of the closet and go take a bath. I need a long hot bath and forget about today. I want to sleep and maybe disappear.

Leonardo's POV

Something had been up with Raph. Ever since we stopped Shredder and Sacks he hasn't been right. Then last night I heard him. He had screamed out April's name in his sleep. Raph doesn't do stuff like that. I pretended to still be asleep when he poked his head into my room. He seems to think that no one notices how much he cares for April O Neal. He wouldn't admit it to any one if he was asked. Knowing Raph it's because of the differences in our species and his brooding attitude that makes him that way. One he is the strongest physically out of our brothers. Two April is human and she saved us when we should had died. Three Michelangelo has a thing for her too. He would never do anything to harm Michelangelo, me on the other hand he would.

I know it was wrong but as the leader I needed to know what is up with Raph. I followed him and here we were again. At April's apartment building. He was on the roof right across from hers. Me? I was on the one behind him watching. Yes it sounds like a sick stalker move. However he is my brother and we have each others' shell. I notice the time and see how he is twitching. He must not see April yet. I watch the street and see April get out of a car. Ok, she just got home extremely late. Then I see Raph relax a moment. I turn to go home and leave him. April is home now so he will be back in the lair after a bit. It seems he has done this a lot. I'll let sensei know and let father deal with Raph. If I mention it he will yell and storm off. When it comes to father he is calm and respectful. We both know it's because father picked me over him for leader. That is why he hates me.

I awaken to go meditate and say my morning prayers. Walking by Raph's room I peek in. There is no one there. Grimacing I walk in and find Master Splinter already meditating. Not saying a word I go to my mat and try to meditate. After a while I hear Master speak up. There is no one in the dojo but us.

"What is troubling you my son?"

"Its Raphael, Master."

Exhaling sadly he speaks up. "He was gone again last night. Tell me my son, did he go back to April's again?"

"Yes sensei."

"I see. Speak none of this to your brothers. Do not show you know to Raphael. When he returns then I will speak to him myself. Something is troubling him. If you were to face him it will cause him to be silent. "

"Sensei?"

"Yes my son?"

"Do you think his nightmares are because of guilt?"

"I am not sure my son. All you can do is stand back and wait."

It was extremely late when he finally graced us with his presence. Knowing it would irk him I placed the end of my Katana at his throat. Of course Raph was Raph. He was in a very soured mood and smelled heavily of April's perfume. The one she wore when he and her broke us out of the containment units. I am not sure what is going on but like Master Splinter said. Raphael will just shell up, tell me to go to hell and walk off. I swear at times he has a human female's PMS.