Peter's POV
It's always difficult talking about the future since Carla was still recovering. We wanted to get a place of our own but I couldn't do it on the salary I was on and Carla was only managing a few shifts in the bistro and I didn't want to put pressure on her to ensure that she had the right to attempt a full recovery. It was time we thought about settling down and getting on with our lives so that we can have the best start to our rekindling love. I wanted to make Carla feel special like she was the only woman I loved in the world. I didn't want to make past mistakes which may ruin our relationship like the affair I had with Tina which caused Carla to miscarry our baby. Our baby girl.
There were so many strains on our last relationship such as the aftermath of Frank's attack on Carla, courtroom and custody battles and her little brother who hated the guts out of me and wanted to battle me in protecting Carla from harm. This should hopefully be easier to revive our relationship as we didn't have the many strains of our past attempt of being together. Maybe we could get married again, have a family like we almost achieved last time until I messed up. We even had Simon's approval this time as he would be up for me and Carla to remarry and live our lives together because he thinks we are great together. It was finally a breakthrough to get Simons approval as it took years for him to forgive me for splitting with Leanne and accept Carla. He has turned into such a mature young man nothing like the cheeky little boy who tries to outsmart everyone at every turn. I was proud to call him my son.
After the years apart, I knew we would come back together again as we just have this invisible force which pulls us close together where if we fight it we end up coming together to fall in love again but harder and stronger than before. Tragedy usually brings me and Carla together, but I wouldn't have it any other way because I love her with all my heart and nothing will ever change that. So here's to the future I guess. Our future.
Carla's POV
The future is somewhat a confusing thing to discuss. First of all, I am still recovering getting better each day. I want to become strong and independent again, so I can regain the confidence I once had before psychosis took over my mind. I want to feel peace in my mind which is why I decided to give Underworld away as it would be a constant reminder of all the horrible things I experienced in that factory, so I could start a new life, new memories with the man I love. Peter. I love him with all my heart I can't believe I even denied starting our relationship back up when he became single instead I let emotions fester to a point where it ached inside of me because I didn't have Peter in my life. It was Kate who suggested I go and speak to him about my feelings just as he was about to leave as well. How cliché is that? I had to get my man back I needed him in my life. I couldn't live without him. Yet again we were reunited due to a tragic event. First Frank, now a collapsing roof where it killed my sister's fiancé. I have no idea how every single time me and Peter get together it's through tragic events. Maybe that's just the way our love works. Maybe one of us has to feel so sad so dark about our lives to be able to make the first move so we can reignite the sparks that once flew around the room rapidly through the support that we give one another.
Peter's support was much needed during my psychosis. I trusted him like it was our first night together after Frank did the indescribable. He was gentle and caring he gave recommendations to make me feel happier they usually did back in the day but now they didn't seem to work, and I guess at that point he knew that there was something wrong because he was usually able to put a smile on my face, even in the darkest of times. He knew that I was taking this to heart, but I guess he hoped that I wouldn't go back to overdosing on sleeping pills while they mixed with alcohol in my bloodstream. I knew Peter could save me. Make me feel like me again.
As I progressed into my deep depression it was hard for Peter to look after me and when I managed to escape that's when he needed to start thinking about professional help for me and without that help I probably wouldn't be here today as I would've thrown myself off the fire escape and therefore ended my life. Peter saved me yet again and I couldn't be more thankful as we can now look to our uncertain future together.
We never really talk about the future together. It can be a bit of a touchy subject due to all the mistakes Peter had made and me to a certain extent. I didn't want to be the pushy fiancé who turned into bridezilla because if we were to remarry I want it to be perfect something that represents us as a couple instead of the big fancy wedding that was so cliché. I just want a partner who loves me more than the world and would never hurt me again. I want a partner who will battle my demons and support me when I'm about to fall. I just want Peter to be Peter and not live up to something more than he should. I want him for him. I just hope he wants me for me.
