A/N: This chapter is for all you Puck/Rachel shippers who miss seeing the two of them happy together. It's pretty much fluff for the most part but don't think it's all over just because of the way this chapter ends. I'm still looking for a beta if anyones interested in helping me out too and if you guys have any opinions about baby puckermans name please suggest away! I'm kind of leaning towards Adien David Puckerman but let me know what you guys want to see!
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Puck rubbed the sleep out of his eyes as he watched his mother helplessly lay in the hospital bed. His whole life, Pucks mom had been the very definition of strength to him. His dad would beat her around but she'd take it, when the asshole finally left she had to work two different jobs to take care of him and Sarah and would still find time to raise them for the most part, whenever he'd do something shitty like knock up Quinn Fabray she was his rock. Puck might not show it all that much but his Ma' was the most important person on the planet to him. She's the one who helped him get to where he is now in life and if he lost her he didn't know what he would ever do.
Luckily she was going to be alright.
The doctor had walked up to them three hours earlier and told him that she'd faced a heart attack caused by stress and that she was lucky enough to live through it. He went on to explaining a bunch of medical shit that Puck didn't understand really but he got the general idea of it all; as long as she toned down the crazy she was going to be alright. He felt as though the world had finally lifted from off of his shoulders and he could breathe again and when Rachel took his hand into hers upon hearing the good news he even felt as though he was himself. It'd been about five long torturous weeks since he'd felt that small, soft and warm hand touch him in any way and he gripped it tightly as if he didn't ever want to let go. Thankfully she hadn't let go of his hand until they announced another hour later that he could finally go see her. They didn't say anything to each other but Rachel remained in the waiting room and he assumed that she just wanted to give him and Sarah some time with their mother before anyone else got to go in there. What Rachel didn't know was that Puck wanted her there, he needed her with him at this point in time. Sure they'd said that Rose was going to be alright as long as she changed her lifestyle up but that didn't make him any less worried for his mother. The idea of loosing her after he'd treated her like such shit for his whole life was terrifying and when he finally just wanted to be with his mommy (not that he'd tell anybody that that was what he wanted to do.) she was sick. And fuck, he could cry everytime he saw Sarah's face. She looked as though she could break or something any second. His little sister had always held a special place in Pucks heart. He thought she was a pain in the ass, she was a little too much like him sometimes, but that was his little midget. She was the only person on the planet before Rachel and Amelia came around that he actually felt as though he really needed to protect and seeing her like this, not being able to help her was just making him feel worse. He'd never needed Rachel as much as he needed her now.
Puck hadn't realized that he'd fallen asleep sometime between all of that thinking but he woke up suddenly when he felt the other side of the small couch he was sitting in sink a little bit. He groaned a little louder than he'd intended to and opened his eyes to find Rachel sitting down with a hand rubbing her stomach gently and her head held up by her other hand against the arm of the couch.
"How long have I been asleep?"
Rachel jumped slightly when she heard his voice. She'd been so focused on the sounds of the machines beeping and the peaceful look on Roses face that she hadn't even noticed him wake up.
"About half an hour. I'm sorry if I woke you, I just couldn't stand anymore." Damn her sore feet. Had she not been a huge cow she'd be able to stand for longer than two seconds without feeling like her knees were going to give out without her even being able to control it.
"Nah, s'no big deal."
They sat there in silence for a second and Puck couldn't help but think back to the time that Amelia was in the hospital after Jesse St. Douche Lord kidnapped her. The two of them sat on a couch similar to this one except Rachel was much closer to him. It took every ounce of strength in his body to not pull her towards him and let her lay down. He looked her up and down and realized how exhausted she actually looked. Bags were beginning to form under her eyes and her skin looked pale, he missed the tint of pink that she always had going on around her cheeks.
"So how you been?" He asked as he tried to make small talk with her. It'd been a while since they'd actually last spoken. He talked to Amelia almost everyday but never Rachel.
"Fine." She lied. "Baby has just been kicking a lot lately and that makes it a little hard for me to sleep." Again with blaming it on baby. Sure he kicked quite often, Rachel had theories that he was going to make an awesome dancer or soccer player (hopefully dancer) someday, but he wasn't the only reason that she wasn't able to get any rest recently. It was hard to sleep alone when you've been sleeping in the same bed with someone for the past five years. She missed Pucks embrace, especially lately since she'd found out the sex of baby. She wanted someone to share him with but no one was there.
"D-do you know if it's a boy or girl yet?" Puck had been in a really shitty place in his life recently but things really got bad everytime that Amelia would tell him she went to one of Rachels doctors appointments and got to see the baby. Those werenun the nights he'd usually drink himself to sleep or pull out the secret weed stash that he had in his car. He couldn't believe that this was happening to him again. How fucked up do you have to be to have both girls you got pregnant not want you to be a part of their lives?
"Yeah." Rachel said as she looked down at her stomach. She was comfortable enough with her baby bump to wear maternity jeans and shirts that clung to her body rather than covered it. The white top that she'd been wearing today was a little loose at the top so it fell off the shoulder slightly revealing the straps of her black bra and tightened around the waist so it showed off her bump perfectly. Just because she was a mom didn't mean she had to dress like a nun or anything. She was Rachel fucking Berry and pregnant or not she knew that she looked good. Fat, but definitely not terrible.
"Are you going to tell me what it is?" Puck asked, not meaning to sound as rude as he had but it came off that way anyways. He just wasn't used to Rachel saying so little to him and it was irritating.
Rachel stayed quiet for another second. It wasn't that she didn't want Puck to be a part of his sons life, she knew he'd make an excellent father, but she wasn't sure if she could do this. With Jesse it was easier because he didn't try to care about Amelia but Puck wanted this child along with Amelia and Rachel. He wanted all the right things but he was making all of the wrong moves and although Rachel knew that she had every right to keep him from her own life, she wasn't sure if she should keep him away from his children. "It's a boy." She practically whispered to him. If the room hadn't been so silent he probably wouldn't have even heard it.
A boy? Pucks chest swelled up with pride as he let his eyes roam down to her belly. She was carrying his son inside of her, a son that he'd be able to play catch with and teach how to properly get a girl. He was going to have a son that he hoped would have Rachels adorable smile and his nose (please let the kid have his nose). In a few short months he'd be able to say that he, Noah Elijah Puckerman, had a baby boy of his very own. He'd never really thought about the babys gender much. He actually kind of wanted a girl even, he wanted someone he could spoil and protect and it wouldn't hurt if she was the exact duplicate of Rachel and Amelia. Just as long as he didn't have someone who was going to end up like him, Puck was happy. But shit, he'd never thought about what it'd feel like to actually know that his son was in there. He thought he wanted a girl but all of a sudden that baby boy was all that he could think about. He was going to make sure that his son never fucked up with a girl like he'd fucked up with Rachel. Pucks son was going to be the most polite badass on the face of this planet and he and Rachel were going to sit back and be proud of their kids together. But first he needed to get Rachel and Amelia back into his life again.
"Wow." Puck said with a small grin appearing on his face. Rachel couldn't help but smile herself because she knew how he felt. There was no real explanation for the feeling you got when you knew what was growing inside of you, what you should be expecting in a few months. She loved her son so much already and based off of the look that she saw on Pucks face, he had to love him too.
Things grew quiet again but it wasn't quite as awkward anymore. Pucks grin faded a little bit but it was still obvious that something had really made him happy not too long ago and Rachel was comfortably leaning back into her seat, letting her hand trace random shapes on her bump.
"Where are you staying?" Rachel asked suddenly without even looking back at him.
Puck shrugged anyways and rubbed a hand over his face. "My Ma's place I guess. I mean where else am I gonna stay?" He looked at Rachel and arched an eyebrow, a part of him hoping she'd want him to go home with her.
"Oh." She said as she looked down at her hand on top of her stomach. She could practically feel Puck growing more frustrated with her than he had been over the phone when she would refuse to tell him what was going on. "I-I mean, if you want to you can come stay with me and dad…You and I do need to talk."
Was she actually suggesting this? Puck smiled for a second. This was going to work out, he was going to get his family back soon enough. He sighed though and shook his head reluctantly. "I don't wanna leave Sarah alone." He said and Rachel nodded her head, understanding that it'd be selfish to ask him to leave his younger sister alone at a time like this. "But what if you came to my place? I can sleep on the couch and you and Amelia can take my bed."
Rachel looked up at him once he suggested them staying in his house. "Or, I can just sleep with Amelia in your moms room. I'm not going to make you sleep on the couch and I'm positive that Rose isn't going to mind." The two of them looked over at Rose and their moods went down a little when they realized she wasn't well enough to respond.
Puck chuckled "If she weren't so drugged up right now she'd be having another fucking heart attack."
"I don't doubt it." Rachel said with a soft laugh.
This felt kind of good. She'd forgotten how comforting it was to speak to Puck after a long and stressful day. He was capable of taking the worst situations and making them almost seem like they didn't matter at all. Puck took neurotic, sassy and loud mouthed Rachel and made her kind of mellow. She glanced up at him again and resisted a smile. They still had a lot to talk about and work out. She had no idea why she was getting so excited about having him here. He still cheated on her with Santana and said all of those terrible things and just because something terrible happened and forced them together didn't mean she was just going to accept him back into her life. She had to be stronger than this for the relationship that she wished to have with Puck eventually and herself and most of all for her children. Her children definitely came first in any situation.
"And this is daddy's old room."
Amelia yawned but refused to keep her eyes shut as she rested her head on Pucks shoulder. She'd been fighting sleep off ever since she realized that he was actually there with them. Occasionally she'd giggle gently or say something but none of it was really conscious and both parents knew that the little girl was going to loose the battle she'd been having with sleep the minute that her back hit the mattress.
"Can I sleep in here?" She asked in the sweetest voice that Puck had ever heard in his life. "Please?"
Puck held her tighter to him instinctively as she begged in a tired voice. He'd never, ever been one to deny his kid of anything before and he wasn't sure that he was ready to start yet. Rachel was in the bathroom getting ready for bed and told Puck that he could give Amelia the grand tour while she did so. He sighed because the bed would definitely be uncomfortable for the both of them to sleep on. When Puck moved out, Sarah took his much larger bed and her twin sized mattress was moved into this room. It'd be perfect for a tiny Amelia, she was a midget just like Rachel, but not for Puck. Well he guessed he could just take the couch then. He nodded his head and pressed a kiss to Amelias cheek before gently setting her down on the bed and tucking her in tight like he knew she loved. "I love you so much pretty girl." He said as Amelia yawned and closed her eyes finally.
"I love you too daddy." Puck grinned and kissed her forehead once again before walking out of the room.
"Puck?"
He winced at how the nickname sounded coming from Rachels lips but he stopped anyways and walked into the bedroom. His breath caught slightly when he saw what she was wearing to sleep. She had on a pair of his boxers that she'd stolen from him while they were dating and although they were entirely too big on her back before she was pregnant again she always claimed that they were comfortable and now that she had a belly they fit her just fine but that wasn't really what caught his attention. She was wearing a black tank top that stretched just enough so he could see a little bit of the skin on her stomach. Her breasts also looked ten times bigger now that she was pregnant and Puck had to bite his lip to keep himself from commenting on her appearance. He'd always loved a more natural looking Rachel. She was at her hottest when her hair was just down and curled all naturally like it was now and when she wasn't wearing all that makeup shit so he could run his fingers along her cheeks and feel nothing but soft skin and he could watch her blush. God, Rachel was gorgeous. What kind of a fucking idiot ever risked screwing up a relationship with her? He should've kicked Santana out of the apartment the minute he found out Rachel was pregnant. Had he not been so focused on helping out a friend who only had bad intentions, he would have realized that at that exact moment his family needed to come first over everything.
"Sup? You need anything?" He asked even though he knew that if Rachel actually needed something she'd get it herself without even asking. This was practically her own home at some point in time.
"Where's Milly?" She asked while pulling her hair back and putting it into a loose ponytail that came over her shoulder.
"She fell asleep in my room and I didn't have the heart to move her so I'll just sleep on the couch. S'no big deal." Puck shrugged and turned to walk towards the direction of the living room before he felt Rachel grab his wrist.
"Wait." It was just an impulsive thing really. He was about to leave her alone and after the day that she'd just had she wanted nothing but comfort from someone else. Puck might have hurt her but he was also the only person who could make her feel a specific kind of good. Just having him around made her feel safer and she had agreed to sleep over his house for a reason. "Don't be stupid, Puck. We've slept in the same bed together for the past five years, what's one night going to do?"
Puck felt himself get a little hopeful as he nodded and walked further into the room, closing the door behind him. When he pulled his shirt off of his body, Puck smiled as Rachels breath hitched a little bit. "So it's true what they say happens to pregnant chicks? You really do get horny all the time don't you?" He flexed his muscles a little bit, giving Rachel a good look at him.
She'd be lying if she said that she didn't miss the sex. The sex between the two of them was always, always hot. He'd touch her and kiss her in all the right places and when he'd nibble on her ear in that way that he knew she was obsessed with, ugh. And ever since she reached four months it'd kind of been all she's been able to think about. She tried controlling it and not thinking about sex at all but there were some nights where she felt like she'd die if she wasn't touched so she'd have to do the job herself. When Puck mentioned it she just shrugged, she wasn't afraid of speaking about her hormones with anyone and even less him. "I'm not horny but I'd be lying if I said that it wasn't triggered more easily now that I'm past my first trimester."
"How's your morning sickness by the way? It's supposed to get better after the third month but I read that it's different for some people."
"You read?" Rachel arched an eyebrow and sat down on top of the bed against the headboard so her back was propped up on a pillow. "You've been reading pregnancy books?"
Puck shrugged "Yeah I mean, I realized that with uhm," He still couldn't find himself able to just casually mention his own little girl even after all of these years. "With Quinn I never really thought of learning anything about babies but I'm really trying to be a good dad this time so I thought I'd brush up on a few things." He actually sounded kind of shy about it. Puck loved doing things for Rachel but this was a little cheesy and he didn't know if she'd make fun of him or not for it.
Oh god, here it came. Rachel felt her eyes water as he spoke about reading the books. Of all the years that they'd spent together she didn't think that he's ever done anything as sweet as this. "N-Noah," Her voice betrayed her and cracked as she said his name but she didn't have enough time to care because sobs took over and before she knew it she was crying into his arms. "I-I I'm so-"
"Shhh, don't you dare." Puck whispered to her as he rubbed her back. He was hesitant towards hugging her at first, fearing that it might be an invasion of her personal space or something but when she started sobbing he couldn't take it. Rachel should never have to cry tears of sadness over him, even if it was just because of hormones. "It's alright, okay? I'm kind of used to your crazy." He chuckled.
"I'm not crazy!" She pulled back just enough to smack him hard against the shoulder but then pulling him back into a hug. "God, this is all so fucked up. I'm supposed to hate you! You're an idiot and you insulted me and I shouldn't be here right now giving you a second chance." She said before burring her face in the warmth of his neck and letting the tears fall freely now. "But you make it so hard, Noah. You read baby books and you call Amelia all the time and actually talk to her and respect my privacy instead of being a dick and forcing me to talk to you." She sobbed against him once again and felt his arms tighten around her waist, rubbing her back gently.
Puck was confused. One minute she said she hated him and the next she was telling him all of the things he was doing right? "I don't understand, Rach. Do you want me to be a dick? Is that what you're asking for? Cause I'd do anything to get you back even if it is kind of weird…"
"No! No, no, no. Ugh." She finally pulled away from the embrace they were in but she took both of his hands in hers anyways. "Its' just that I want to hate you, I really want to hate you, but I can't. How can you be so sweet and perfect after fucking up so badly?" It didn't make sense to her. Any other woman would just walk away and forget about it. She had a daughter and son to think about and she didn't need someone holding her back but it didn't feel right to just shut Puck out.
"Because I am perfect for you, baby." He said while gripping her fingers slightly. "Can't you understand that? Yeah, I fucked up but I was trying to get Santana off of me when you walked in Rach, she kissed me and I was too drunk to react as quickly as I should have. As for the insulting thing, you know who I am. I'm a fucking jerk sometimes and I don't try to hide it. None of those things I said were true and I just said them to get on your nerves and make you fight back."
Rachel looked down and pulled a hand away from his to wipe a tear off of her cheek. "Why would you want that?" She asked without looking up at him.
"Because it's what we do, Rach! We fight and you call me names and I tell you shit I don't mean and then we make up and have mindblowing sex. You weren't supposed to run away from me, baby." He reached out and tilted her chin up gently so she'd have no choice but to look up at him.
Rachel frowned but didn't pull away. "What if I'm tired of fighting, Noah? I'm just so tired of it. Can't we just be normal and happy? We're having a baby for crying out loud. If I was able to give up my role on a Broadway play for this family then you could give up being a dick for us, can't you?"
Puck sighed and let go of her hands, throwing himself down on top of the bed and covering his face with his hands as he tried to think of something to say. "We aren't normal, Rach. I love you and if you'll take me back I promise that I'll never let anyone hurt you or our children but we're going to fight because it's who we are. If I could I'd change that just to make you happy but I can't. I can't change who we are and I can't change what I feel for you so you're going to have to choose. A life with me and all of my love and all of our stupid meaningless arguments, or a life without me at all."
There it was. The options that Rachel had been avoiding all summer long. She could live with arguing with Puck from time to time because she knew that even when they were fighting they were going to be happy together but she was afraid. She was afraid that one day he was going to take it too far again or maybe one day she would take it too far and this would happen all over. Puck was the only person on the planet who she thought could actually break her heart and that scared the living shit out of her. But living without him scared her too. She knew that if she had to then she could but she'd never find a love like Puck. She was never going to feel for anyone what she felt for him and yeah she was young but she knew for a fact that if she didn't have Puck then she didn't want anybody. She'd rather be single for the rest of her life. She looked down at him for a second before laying on her back beside him and curling into his side, her bump getting in the way a little but not stopping her from trying to be close to him anyways. "You know that I love you, Noah." She said before pressing a few kisses along his neck.
He sighed as he felt her lips against his skin, god it'd been so long since he'd been touched this way. He groaned gently as her fingers traced his chest gently but when her hand reached the waist of his pants he had no choice but to stop her. "What does that make us?" He asked.
Rachel just looked at him for a second before sighing "It means that we can take things slow and try." She made no promises that they'd go back to normal but she wanted him so badly and she knew that she couldn't give him up. Plus it'd be a little selfish to not even consider giving this a second chance, they had their children to think about. Rachel didn't want to end up being one of those women who were married just because they felt they needed to be for their children. She was independent and didn't need some guy to take care of her, she didn't need anyone when it came to security but she didn't want to be alone either. "I've missed sleeping with you. I haven't slept very well ever since I left New York."
Puck grinned. Trying to try was better than not trying at all right? And when she told him that she'd missed sleeping with him he pulled her close against him until she was wrapped up in his arms and couldn't get out. He pressed a kiss onto her forehead and rubbed her back gently with one hand while the other played with her hair "I haven't slept all that well myself." He glanced down at her stomach for a second and the hand that was playing with her hair stopped suddenly. "Rach, do you- uh, shit. Would you care if I… I mean there are some pregnant chicks who are really touchy and hate it but I was wondering if I could…"
Rachel let out a soft chuckle and grabbed his hand, placing it right where she knew the babys foot was resting. "I don't mind. Who am I to keep you from something that is yours?" She smiled when she saw Pucks grin and let her hand rest on top of his before closing her eyes softly.
"I'm going to make everything better Rachel. I promise, we're going to have our family back together." He said before kissing her forehead once again and closing his own eyes.
The next few days didn't go as swiftly as Puck had hoped that they would. Rachel would be fine with him one second, letting him feel whenever baby kicked, kissing him on the cheek randomly and holding onto his hand whenever she had the chance but there were moments and sometimes even full days where she was just a complete bitch and Puck wanted to light her on fire. She'd give him the cold shoulder, insult him in front of Amelia and Sarah and oh god he hated it the most whenever she would just give him one worded answers. Like the time he practically gave her a speech about how much he loved her and how strong he thought she was for carrying his kid for nine months after he held her hair back and watched her vomit every meal she'd had in the past two days and all she was able to tell him was 'mhm.' He knew that this was more than just the hormones thing. She was confused so she was trying to confuse him too. It was Rachels way of trying to cope with things and he was going to sit through it cause it wasn't like he didn't deserve being treated like an asshole.
He'd finally reached a point where he didn't know what to do the day of Tina and Arties engagement party/barbeque.
They started out normal enough, Rachel spent most of the time with Tina and Shelby talking about wedding details and baby things while Puck followed Artie, Mike and Matt inside of the newly purchased home where they sat around the basement and played a few games of pool and caught up with each other. He couldn't believe he'd lost touch with these guys, he'd gotten so caught up in his shit in New York that he'd forgotten how cool they were. Sure the guys in New York were ten times crazier but these guys were still the shit. He made a mental note to keep in touch with them once he and Rachel and Amelia went back to the city. And when Mr. Shue, or Will as he insisted to be called now, walked in and started having a few beers with them Puck couldn't believe his own eyes.
"Shit, I still can't fucking believe we're doing this. I always knew you were a chill guy but damn, I never thought I'd see the day we'd get to sit down and drink a couple of beers with Will Shuester." He couldn't believe Finn wasn't here to see this. The big lug practically thought of Will as a father and he would have loved this.
Will just laughed and shook his head "Yeah, stop mentioning it. You guys make me feel so old." Will wasn't old at all though but Puck chose not to comment. "So I ran into a very pregnant looking Rachel outside, please tell me it's your kid."
Out of everyone who supported them, Will was the firmest believer in their relationship. He'd seen high school romances before but the two of them had something special. Something that he could tell was way beyond their years back then and he always said that he couldn't wait to watch them get married someday.
"Yup it's a boy, can you believe it?" Puck said proudly. If he could he would have totally pulled out the sonogram pictures that Rachel had given him the day after that first night they spent together but he hadn't brought it with him because he wasn't a chick and that was totally Rachels job. Somehow though, he'd wound up being the proud parent who talks to the baby bump when no one else was around and liked to talk obsessively about it. Rachel was way too chill about this for his liking and he couldn't understand how she wasn't bouncing off of the walls like he was on the inside.
"And how are the two of you doing? Are wedding bells going to be ringing for the two of you anytime soon?"
Puck chuckled and shook his head as he took another sip of his beer "I wish." He said with a shrug "I fucked up a while back and we're taking the relationship slow which is better than nothing but she kind of hates me. I dunno, it's just hard sometimes."
Will furrowed his eyebrows "I'm sure it'll be fine. You guys have always been crazy about each other."
"I hope so." Puck shrugged before patting Will on the shoulder then turning to watch Matt and Mike play a game of pool.
"Hey Rach," Will walked up to Rachel and smiled "Do you mind if I take this seat?"
Rachel shook her head and took another bite of her corndog. "Go ahead, I feel like I haven't seen you in forever. How are you?" She asked.
"I'm great! I wish Emma could be here but she's visiting her parents for the weekend."
Rachel smiled "I heard the two of you got married a few years ago, I never got the chance to say congratulations."
Will shrugged and grinned at her "Yeah, I kind of realized I couldn't live without her so why not just make it official?" Plus he'd always loved being a husband. Even when he was with psycho Terri, he enjoyed having the title and being able to call someone his wife. "And congratulations on the baby." He smiled as Rachel rubbed her stomach gently. "Amelia and Puck must be excited."
"Oh you don't know the half of it. Amelia's basically got the babys life planned out for the next eighteen years, with the rate that she's going at I don't think I'll ever have to lift a finger. It's cute how excited she is for her little brother actually."
"Yeah, Amelia always has been a good kid." Will said with a smirk as he remembered the little girl. Even when she had just learned to walk and was only able to say a few words, Amelias antics gave her a reputation as nothing less than a princess. Everyone loved her though and giving her attention wasn't hard because she was always so sweet. "What about Puck?" He asked curiously noticing that Rachel hadn't even acknowledged him yet.
Rachel looked down for a short second before giving Will a fake smile and shrugging "Noah is excited too, he's going to make an amazing father again." It wasn't weird for Rachel to call Puck Amelias dad because he was. Everyone had gotten so used to considering Rachel, Puck and Amelia a little family that Jesse was nearly forgotten. As far as Amelia knew, Puck was her birth father.
Will frowned a little and put a hand on Rachels shoulder comfortingly. "Is everything alright, Rachel? I mean he isn't like hurting you or-"
"What the fuck?" Rachel stopped him mid sentence and shook her head "How could you even think that Noah could ever hurt me? He's sweet and tells me he loves me every chance he gets and treats my daughter like she was his own even though he really doesn't have to." Rachel pauses to take a breath and Will takes it as an opportunity to speak.
"Rachel I wasn't trying to offend you or anything I just wanted to make sure that-"
"He's perfect. He's absolutely fucking perfect and I'm pushing him away by acting like a complete bitch. I'm such a bitch, oh god!" Rachel felt her eyes fill with tears and covered them with her hands instantly.
"Oh, oh god uhm, no! You're definitely not a bitch Rachel, I don't even know where all of this came from…" Well this was the last time he ever tried to help an old student out with his relationship issues. Seriously, he was getting too old for this. "Rachel, you're obviously crazy about him inspite of whatever happened between the two of you. Don't you think you could find it in your heart to just let things go?"
Rachel kept her eyes shut tight as the emotional roller coaster she was on came to an end and she was able to focus on Wills words. "I don't know." She said gently after she felt comfortable enough that her voice wouldn't crack. "What if it happens again? Noah doesn't know the affect he has on me. I don't think I could live through him breaking my heart." She sounded so small and fragile and Will was almost taken aback at the unfamiliar tone. He was used to listening to a loud and proud Rachel speak her mind, not an insecure Rachel seek for guidance.
He sighed and shook his head "That's the thing about commitment, Rach. You'll never know if it's a mistake or not until something bad actually happens. Trust me, if anyone knows about this second chance thing it's me and I'm telling you, go with what your heart says because even if it's wrong at least you'll be happy for a while and you'll know you tried."
They sat there in silence for a good three minutes, Will watching Rachel as she thought deeply about this new found advice. She just didn't want to get hurt, she didn't want to end up alone with two children and feeling like she needed to depend on someone because by then she'd be reliant on Puck. She didn't want to loose the love of her life. But wouldn't pushing him away technically be loosing him too? She looked at Will with a smile on her face and stood up suddenly. "Thank you so much. You know, you're always going to be Mr. Shue to me." She winked playfully at him before walking away.
It didn't take long for Rachel to find Puck hanging out with a bunch of the other guys by the grill. He was standing there having what looked like a pretty light conversation with Matt before she walked right up to him without even caring about who was around or what they would think and pulling him into the most passionate and loving kiss they'd shared since they were just teenagers trying to figure out their feelings for each other.
Puck groaned and kept his eyes wide open for a second as Rachel kissed him. God, if this was one of those pregnancy hormone things again he was pretty sure that it was the best punishment anyone had ever bestowed upon him. He closed his eyes and wrapped his arms around her, ignoring the whistles and calls that the other guys were throwing at them as they practically made out in front of all of his friends. "Rach," He breathed against her lips before pulling away just enough to rest his forehead against hers "What is this about, babe?"
She just grinned and kissed his lips gently again before responding "Just appreciating you. This is my way of apologizing for acting like such a bitch lately. I know you love me and you're just trying to help."
"Okay, I don't know what's up with you but I'm just gonna sit back and accept it." Well he got as close as he could to sitting by pressing himself against the house which he'd been leaning a foot on and wrapping his arms around her waist as much as he could with her stomach in the way and kissing her again with all of the passion and feeling that he'd been holding in just for her these past few weeks. Now this was what he called serious progress.
Rachel smiled against his lips after a while before grabbing one of his hands and pulling away "Now come on, your son is demanding you get me a burger." She rubbed her stomach with her free hand for affect and led Puck towards the food.
He just chuckled and followed behind her because fuck, if you'd just hand Rachel Berrys tongue down your throat you'd be just as willing to do whatever she wanted too. Especially if she had your baby inside of her belly. He still stood by the theory that this girl would be the death of him someday.
They spent the rest of the night holding hands and curling up to each other whenever they got the chance, Puck would steal kisses from her whenever she wasn't speaking or eating and Rachel would put her hand on his thigh dangerously close to his crotch area causing him to want to just pick her up and take her in his car. There was no time to drive all the way back to his mom's house, when he needed her he really really fucking needed her and it wasn't past him that they'd spent over two months without sex. Any contact with her made him want to blow his load right then and there.
Apparently she was a fucking mind reader or something because the minute they got into his old truck in front of Tina and Arties house, Rachel cupped him through his pants and leaned over to kiss that spot under his ear that she knew drove him insane. "Lets get home, Noah." She whispered seductively into his ear and he closed his eyes for a second and just enjoyed feeling her touching him again before turning the car on and backing out, driving as quickly as he could back to the house.
His girl was the fucking best and he spent the entire night proving it to her over and over again.
NEXT CHAPTER: Baby names and relationship statuses are discussed, Rose comes home from the hospital, and Puck spends some bonding time with Amelia.
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