Chapter 6

After what seemed like forever Bella finally got off work…in the bar that is. She gave a quick goodbye to the Cullen's avoiding having to be alone with Jasper again.

I can fall in love but…should I? I am the devil; it just seems off…fuck I don't know… Jasper deserves more than the fucking devil…sentimental, shit! Bella's mind was reeling.

She had only been in hell for about 16 minutes when she felt a pull on her head which meant one of her messengers were calling on her but…none of them had a job to do today.

Bella teleported into a field where she felt herself being called. When ever she teleports flames are around her as she appears and disappears so she waited until the flames were gone and then sighed. Jasper was standing there looking at her with and unreadable expression.

"Jasper why have you called me here?" Bella asked.

Jasper continued to look at her and then appeared in front of her at vampire speed. Of course Bella didn't get a fright as she can do that too now. He stared at her for a very long time…just looked at her and Bella was confused.

She opened her mouth to talk again but was silenced by Jasper's mouth.

Do not respond! Don't do it! She screamed at herself but her body (or heart?) wouldn't agree with her mind.

She responded to his kiss with equal favour as Jasper. His hands went to her waist and pulled her to him so there were no gaps as his tongue pushed past her lips demanding to taste her and she didn't resist. Their tongues tangled desperately in a passionate kiss. They couldn't get close enough fast enough…it was like they needed this like humans needed air, without it you can't survive.

Against her better judgement Bella fisted his hair and pulled him closer to her if that was possible. One of her hands ran down his chest and then fisted his shirt. Jaspers hands started moving up and down her sides, grazing her breasts as he passed.

Before he couldn't make himself stop he pulled back and rested his head against hers.

"I called you here because…earlier when you ran your hand threw my hair, it felt good and comforting and familiar, and I know you felt it too because your emotions were rolling off of you in waves. They were gone as quickly as they arrived and were replaced with defeat, uncertainty, self-hatred and disgust and I need to know why because it has something to do with me and how you feel about me, I know it does." Jasper said looking into her eyes where there were slight tears pooling in her eyes.

"Jasper…" she breathed and tried to pull away but he held her close refusing to let her go.

"Bella, tell me" he demanded.

She looked at him and then started to rant "I'm the fucking devil Jasper! I'm not supposed to have feelings about anything really. I'm meant to trick men and women into deals…some under false pretences others not. Some people sell there god damn souls for a stupid car and I let them. I don't get to feel happiness, sadness, regret, guilt…love" she whispered the last bit "I am only meant to feel anger, lust, hatred…" she trailed off.

Jasper looked at her "You're not meant to Bella…but do you?" Jasper asked her. They both knew he was referring to the whispered emotion.

"Why are you asking me this Jasper?" Bella asked quietly trying to avoid the question.

Jasper gripped her chin gently and forced her to look at him. Their heads were resting against each other as he took a deep breath.

"I'm asking you because…I love you" he said. Bella's eyes went wide and then she closed them.

"Jasper…you can't…I can't…I'm…" Bella struggled for words. Jasper got a giant dose of love sent his way from Bella but she didn't realise she had let her shield down.

"Jasper, I'm the devil, I am that thing that all humans think are the most evil thing ever to have existed…I'm…" again she trailed off trying to explain.

"That's not an answer to my question Bella" he said gently even though he knew the answer "You're not meant to…but do you? And don't lie because you let your shield down and I felt the answer" he added.

Again Bella's eyes went wide and she open and closed her mouth a few times fuck! He felt it? How can I lie now? Fuck, fuck, fuck!

She opened her mouth and was about to lie to him when he sent her everything he was feeling for her and her mouth snapped shut. Absolute love and adoration was rolling off of him. She felt his acceptance at what she did and he wasn't disgusted with her. She had deliberately not reached out to feel his emotions herself but she couldn't help it when they were pushed on her.

"Shit" Bella whimpered resting her head against Jaspers again and stopped struggling.

"We've only just came back into each others lives Jasper…this is irrational" Bella said in a feeble last attempt.

Jasper shook his head at her "I don't care how long it's been, what you've done in the past or what you do now. I love you Bella" he said with finality.

Bella sighed in defeat and gripped his collar "Fuck Jasper…why are you doing this to me?" she asked frustrated. Jasper just smiled at her. "Fuck it…I love you Jasper ok? There I said I fucking love you what ar…" she was interrupted once again by Jasper's mouth.

She could feel him smiling into the kiss and couldn't help but smile back. Jasper hadn't been this happy in…well ever. He lifted her from the ground and she wrapped her legs around him naturally as their tongues tangled and explored each other fully.

They were just getting into it when they heard some people shouting and laughing.

"Fucking humans" Jasper muttered into Bella's neck. She chuckled a little.

"Looks like you're gonna have to wait a little longer Major" she nipped on his ear.

He smiled at her but didn't let her down "I'll wait don't you worry…it'll be worth it" and he kissed her again as he ran them out of the field.